Yu Wu

His voice was not loud, but it was full of the pressure of the cloud.

"Lu Zhanxing..." Gu Mang murmured, "Zhanxing..."

This overly intimate name suddenly ignited the fire in Mo Xi's heart. He raised his brows angrily, gritted his teeth and said in a low voice, "Gu Mang, as expected, in your heart, he is much more important than me."

Gu Mang groped for his poor memory, and said, "He's mine, brother."

Mo Xi was stung suddenly: "Yes. He is your brother."

When he said this, his voice was very low, as if he was enduring nausea, trying to admit a truth that made him sick.He breathed in a low voice, raised his hand to support his forehead, rubbed it, and said in a low voice: "You're right, Lu Zhanxing, that idiot. your brother."

Gu Mang felt uncomfortable deep in his consciousness, and frowned, "You can't scold him. He is not a stupid pig, nor is he a waste."

Mo Xi didn't say a word, and stopped rubbing his browbones, but his hands were still resting on his forehead, making it hard to see the emotion on his face.

After a long while, he said: "My brain is broken, why don't you forget to protect him?"

For some reason, he obviously didn't speak loudly, and obviously didn't have any distorted and angry expression, but Gu Mang felt shudder when he heard his voice.

"Gu Shuai, you are really serious about love and righteousness, and your robes are full of love."

Mo Xi let go of his hand and raised his eyes.His eyes were dark and deep, with spots of light shining. He stared at Gu Mang silently for a long time, with an unpredictable and uncertain look on his face.

He suddenly said: "Tell me about it. About your good brother, what do you remember about him?"

Mo Xi's eyes were too heavy, Gu Mang lowered his head under his gaze, looked at his knees, thought for a while, and said, "I saw a lot of people first, and they all blamed me."

"..."

"Blame me for not doing what I promised, saying that I forgot their names." Gu Mang said in a daze, "Then, I saw Zhan Xing."

Mo Xi's heart tightened, but his face remained motionless: "What did he do to you?"

"He...he was smiling at me, he turned his head and smiled at me, and then...then he turned around and left. I wanted to chase him, but I couldn't. He disappeared among those figures." Gu Mang said, "Just remember, I used to have one like that, bro."

Mo Xi didn't make a sound.

Gu Mang raised his head and asked hesitantly, "I used to have an army like you, too?"

"……Yes."

"Then Zhan Xing is also in the army..."

Mo Xi said expressionlessly, "Yes. He is your deputy commander."

Gu Mang's eyes flashed with longing: "What about others? Is he also Chonghua?"

Mo Xi turned his face to look at the Xuan window, there were magpies and birds chirping outside the window, and the skylight was scattered through the twirling window lattice, shattering the ground.He said, "You'll never see him again. Don't even think about him."

Gu Mang was taken aback for a moment: "Why?"

Mo Xi's expression was cold and mean, and he said three words lightly: "He's dead."

After a few moments of silence, Gu Mang asked blankly, "What?"

"Dead. The head was dismembered, executed in Dongshi, and the body was hung for three days."

I don't know what kind of hatred makes the man who has always been upright so vicious, gurgling poisonous juice overflows from the bottom of his heart, quenching between his lips and teeth.

Mo Xi didn't look at Gu Mang's face, he was still looking at the window and the scattered light spots under the window.He said: "I'm sorry, there is no such person in the world. It's useless to think about it. It's a waste of your own feelings and brains."

Gu Mang opened his eyes wide.

He has learned a lot of words and sentences now, so he understands all Mo Xi's words.

But at this moment, he suddenly wished that he was still the person in Luomei Bieyuan who could only understand the simplest sentences, and he didn't want to understand what Mo Xi meant at all.

Gu Mang's lips moved, wanting to speak, but his heart felt a splitting pain.

He wasn't too shocked, as if he subconsciously knew that Lu Zhanxing was dead, as if he had experienced such parting and pain many, many years ago.

But he didn't expect that Mo Xi would dig out this old scar that was tangled with flesh and blood, and then mercilessly tore and pierced it—he suddenly lowered his head, his eyes blurred.

Mo Xi turned around quickly, gritted his teeth and said, "Why are you crying?"

"I have no idea……"

"It's been so long and you still feel sorry for him?" Mo Xi's chest was filled with blood, he was still suppressing himself, but his eyes were bloodshot, "Gu Mang, are you fucking crazy? .”

Gu Mang only held his head, and murmured: "You don't understand. You don't understand..."

"I don't know what?!" Gu Mang's instinctive protection made Mo Xi suffocate, and suddenly became angry. He swept over the bowls on the bed table, and the broken porcelain smashed all over the floor.

Mo Xi stood up abruptly, held Gu Mang's hair in a bun, and forced him to look up at him without turning his head.

"Do you know what Lu Zhanxing is?" He almost gritted his teeth, "Do you know what kind of trash he is?!"

"..."

"Yes, he's your brother." Mo Xi's gaze almost went down like this, he took out Gu Mang's heart, liver, intestines and lungs, and crushed them in his own palm, so as not to make him feel sorry for others.

He was so hated, so thirsty, so at a loss.

So much so that his hands were trembling a little, Mo Xi said angrily: "But it is your good brother who was impulsively beheaded on the battlefield back then, and he caused a catastrophe that ignited the other neutral two. The resentment of the country is that he diverted the disaster to the east, so that Chonghua suffered from the enemy back then, so many innocent people died!!"

"You can't remember these things, right? Good! Let me remind you! I'll tell you!!"

"Your! Mine!! Our Paoze is under siege because of his arrogance! Millions of Chonghua's subjects are ruined and displaced because of his anger!! Your brother!! You are used to it! You protect!!!"

The anger that Mo Xi had accumulated for so many years was ignited overnight, and the flames of anger almost burned through Gu Mang.

"What brother... for a moment of pleasure, he disregarded your order and killed the negotiating envoy. This is a brother?!! Put you back into the fire pit and make you trapped internally and externally. This is a brother?!! Your lifelong wish is to want slaves You have worked so hard for so long, you have been going through the wind and rain, life and death are wandering, and he ruined all your efforts with one impulse, what kind of brother is this?!!"

As Mo Xi spoke, the veins in his hands were bulging, his face was flushed with blood, and the blood vessels in his neck were throbbing.

He pressed Gu Mang's eyes, he stared at him firmly, and poured out all the hatred and unwillingness to pour on him——Mo Xi shouted angrily: "Gu Mang, you remember clearly, what would you have done without him as a bastard?" Nothing fucking will happen! The gentry will not take advantage of it to stir up their tongues, and the emperor will not have the opportunity to cut your power! So many innocent monks... the common people... will not fucking die!! You will also No...you won't..."

He gasped for breath and couldn't continue speaking.

He slowly let go of Gu Mang's hand, his eyes were full of hatred and endless Wangze.He turned his face away and quickly wiped the moisture from his eyes.

The pain in the throat blocked the rest of the sentence.

These years, I endured too much, endured too much...it was really too bitter.

If there is no Lu Zhanxing.

Neither will you, cornered.

He will not defect to the enemy Liao Kingdom and dedicate himself to the way of the devil.

And we're not... not going to be where we are today.

"That's it...you still can't forget him. You still treat him as a brother." The thin layer of sarcasm on Mo Xi's face suppressed all the sadness.He murmured: "You still don't let me scold him."

"Okay, I get it." Mo Xi lowered his eyelids and sneered softly, "In the past, now, in the future, no matter when, no matter what he did wrong or right, whether he lived or died, I will... All……"

I can't compare to him.

Her lips trembled, and she suddenly pursed her lips, losing her voice.He was so proud, he had given everything he had, but he was still dumped.Still, he became an abandoned child in Gu Mang's life.How can he regain his courage and tell Gu Mang his whole heart.

Mo Xi tried his best to suppress his trembling emotions, for fear that if he continued to speak, he would lose control even more.His Adam's apple rolled, and after a while, he uttered a sentence in a low and hoarse voice, almost sighing: "Gu Mang. He is your brother, what about me..."

what about me?

What am I in your heart?

You once left me for your brother.

Abandon me for your ideals.

You pushed me to the depths of hell for your robes.

seven years.

I've been wandering in this life-and-death hell for seven years—did you think of me when you were desperate for them?

Do you want me to fight swords with the person I once loved the most, or do you want me to go far away with you and leave behind the Chonghua that the Mo family has guarded for generations?

When you left because of their anger, did you ever worry about what I should do? !

Just because I care about you, I cherish you, so you don't hesitate to hurt me again and again, and put me at the bottom of your consideration time and time again.

is it?

Gu Mang looked at the man's face, which was trying his best to support it, but his expression was almost broken, and he couldn't express his feelings in his heart.

I just feel so sad.

He was very sad to hear that Lu Zhanxing had died.He was very sad to hear those soldiers calling him Gu Shuai in the dream.But looking at Mo Xi's current state, he felt a completely different kind of pain in his heart.

This kind of pain made him raise his hand uncontrollably, hesitated, and finally held Mo Xi's face tremblingly: "No. You are mine..."

my what?

The answer seemed to be on his lips, but he couldn't pour it out.

It seems that their intimate memories of yesterday are in their hearts, but they can't be tapped.

Mo Xi turned his face sideways, as if he was waiting for Gu Mang to finish the sentence, but after a long time of eye contact, Gu Mang's throat was still blocked, and he didn't say anything.

In such silence and waiting, Mo Xi's eyes slowly turned red.

He pushed away Gu Mang's hand and said, "You don't need to think hard anymore. I'll speak for you."

"I'm nothing to you. We used to have nothing. It's just that you play tricks on the occasion. I'm a foolish young man." He spit out every single word, staring at Gu Mang's face with red eyes, his tone and expression were completely different. It was so ruthless, but every sentence pierced my own heart.

"Lu Zhanxing is your brother, I am not."

"It's your dream to be successful, but I'm not."

"Thousands of robes are your painstaking effort, your obsession, and the past that you can never let go of, and I am not."

Gu Mang shook his head slightly. Looking at this extremely powerful but extremely lonely man, the pain in his heart became deeper and more vivid.

"You said, no...it's not like this..."

Mo Xi held his wrist abruptly, staring at his face with trembling eyes: "What else could it be?" He brought Gu Mang's hand over with terrifying strength.

He forcibly pressed Gu Mang's hand on the left side of his chest, close to the place where the heart beat.

"You know. I have a scar here. You left it for me."

Gu Mang opened his eyes slightly.

Mo Xi chuckled almost self-abusefully: "Gu Mang, I've always wanted to ask you, if it wasn't me but Lu Zhanxing who blocked you back then, would you still be able to stab this knife?"

"I... hurt you?"

Mo Xi turned his face close to his ear, and said softly, "You almost killed me."

It's because I was so in love with you without fear of life or death.

Gu Mang wanted to pull his hand back as if he had been burned, but Mo Xi pressed it so hard that he couldn't move it away, he could only feel his heart beating under his palm.

How could he want to kill him...

Obviously in his memory, he saw that they were so intimate, how could he be acting on the spot.Although he couldn't remember many things, he could still recall the kind of happiness and warm emotions that Ruo Guanye had, so it couldn't be fake.

"Very confused, isn't it?" Mo Xi pressed against his ear, his breath was close at hand, moist and hot, "Actually, I can't figure it out either. You pushed me into hell seven years ago, and I have been thinking about it for seven whole years. To this day, I still can’t understand why you can be so cruel.”

His voice was so low, but the hatred of gnashing his teeth was so high, "I don't understand you, Gu Mang, do you think I will forgive you time and time again without a bottom line, that's why you trample on me. Or is it because——"

He paused, and his throat rolled: "Actually, you never had me in your heart."

So you can put my heart on the soles of your feet like mud, it doesn't matter that I am facing the enemy, I am in a dilemma, and the kindness and righteousness cannot be complete.

Gu Mang was forced to go nowhere by these bloody questioning, he felt that his poor brain was about to be overwhelmed.He only has a spoonful of memories, but Mo Xi wants to scoop out a sea of ​​affection from him.

"I don't know..." he murmured, "I really... really don't know..."

"You know, this answer is buried in your heart." Mo Xi whispered, "I will keep you until the day you remember. I will make you kneel in front of me and give me an answer and an apology. .”

After he finished saying this, Xiu Chang's cold hands loosened, and he let go of Gu Mang's tightly clenched hair, and then patted Gu Mang's back threateningly.

"My patience is actually no better than Murong Lian's."

"..."

"So." He slowly distanced himself from Gu Mang, Changye Wuji stared at Gu Mang's face, tapped his fingertips on the side of Gu Mang's forehead, and said in a low voice, "Brother, don't make me wait." You've been too long."

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"The Miserable Conference"

Gu Mangmang: Hello everyone, my name is Gu Mang, and I am a man who went to jail as soon as he appeared on the scene.

Murong Lian: Hello everyone, my name is Murong Lian, and I am a man who draws hatred as soon as I appear on the stage.

Princess Sissi: Hello everyone, my name is Mo Xi, and I am a man whose wife ran away as soon as I appeared on stage.

Jiang Yexue: Hello everyone, my name is Jiang Yexue, and I am a man whose wife died as soon as I appeared on the stage.

Lu Zhanxing: Hello everyone, my name is Lu Zhanxing, and I am a man who died before he appeared on the stage.

Everyone: ...that's still the worst for you, Brother Lu. Brother Lu is stable, Brother Lu wins, Brother Lu won the first place.

Lu Zhanxing: But being the champion of this conference doesn't make me feel the slightest drop...