What's on Jasmine's mind- My leader, my regiment follow-up

(One)

Watching Silong's back when he left, I greeted the old cannon fodder to leave quietly for a while, so that Lao Zhang, who had been telling stories all night, had a good rest.

When we were once again in the open nature, the old cannon fodder gradually became active.I kicked the stones as I walked, while thinking silently.

"Tuan Zuo, what are you thinking? It's all right now, Lao Zhang, that bastard, told your son what happened to us as heroic deeds. I see Si Long, but I'm so excited to hear it. Go up with us and beat up Little Japan. Why are you worried? Look at you frowning, you are almost catching up with Bitter Gourd..." Uncle Milong nagging in my ear.

At this time, Ah Yi bravely pushed Milong away, and came over: "Commander, don't listen to that man with a big northeast tongue who can't speak clearly. You were always worried that Silong was young and ignorant. , When you hear the Kuomintang, you think of the word □□, so you have been reluctant to meet him. Now, you can also see that Silong has grown up, and he will no longer be so one-sided when looking at problems. He should be able to understand Your father understands the difficulties of our generation of soldiers, and you can finally visit him. I mean, Tuomeng! Finally, you don’t have to deliberately avoid him anymore, and father and son can recognize each other!”

"Father and son recognize each other? What do you recognize? I seem to have abandoned Bao'er. When did I deny my son?" I yelled at Ah Yi, and continued to kick stones boringly while scratching vigorously. Scratch your scalp, even if you scratch your head.

At this time, this group of people quickly gathered around, seeing that I had something on my mind, they were always so concerned and nervous.Ah Yi was yelled at by me, but continued to come over, he became more frustrated and courageous: "Commander, Bao'er is not what it used to be today and ten years ago, he will no longer just because you are an officer of the national army I just thought of severing the relationship between father and son. You saw his reaction last night. He will be proud of you. What else do you have to worry about? I just don’t understand, you obviously want to see him so much in your heart He, but why do you want to watch him go?"

Being told by Ah Yi, I decided not to go any further, and found a suitable place to sit down on the spot.Gently said to the brethren:

"Actually, I don't care what he thinks of me, and I don't care whether he will be proud of me. I don't go to see him, I'm just afraid of giving him a bad influence in politics, or...misleading.

What time is it now?An era in which class struggle is the key link.Why was Lao Zhang imprisoned?Why did Lao Zhang stop abruptly when he only talked about Nantianmen in the story last night?You must know that the current Kinmen still often sounds the sound of guns against Taiwan.Our country has not yet achieved true unity.Let Silong know his father's real identity now, is it good or bad for him?I have to think again.

Actually, it doesn't matter to me.I don't care if he misunderstands me.I just don't want to affect his political future because of me. 'Political future', this is the most important thing for every young man with ideals and pursuits in the present world.

Silong, he is such a lovely child, I still look at him from a distance, it is better for him..."

(two)

Silong is a little upset these days.On the one hand, I am still worried about whether the teacher will continue to be punished. It is really hard to be locked up in there. He is also getting old, so how should I think of a way?On the other hand, I called Kangmei twice in the past two days and wanted to make an appointment with her to have a good talk, but for some reason she was always... inconvenient? ?

Now the high-level leaders are divided into two factions. The moderates advocate that these various "elements" who have been "labeled" should be sent to the farms attached to the army to work, so that labor can be used to reform their thinking. Just let the farm take care of it.However, the rebels firmly disagreed with this opinion and wanted to detain them indefinitely.

Silong is just a small battalion commander, and he hasn't had the chance to make any impact on this matter, but he very much hopes to help the teacher leave the place where he is currently being held as soon as possible.If it can be sent to the farm, at least part of the freedom can be obtained, and the environment is stronger than it is now.But this matter can only be worked hard in secret.If the goal cannot be achieved openly and directly, even if it takes seventeen or eighteen turns, I will get this done.Silong secretly made up his mind.

And anti-Americanism, is she still angry with me?Called her for two days, but she said she was not available.I know she's in a bad mood recently, don't you have time to listen to me say a few words?She is on duty tonight, and she won't get off work until ten o'clock, or should I go directly to her? !

And my mother, I haven't received a letter from my mother for a long time, and I don't know how her health is?I haven't been home for almost ten years, and I've been busy all the time, as if to show how important I am.In fact, it's not that I don't want to go home, it's that I dare not, dare not mention to my mother the things that make her sad.How I want to ask her about my dad...?

About my father, I don't know when my mother will tell me.When will I truly grow up in my mother's eyes?

Thinking of this, Si Long shook his head, put aside these troubles for the time being, and went to work on him again.

(three)

That night, Silong had been waiting at the gate of the division building.Since 09:30, he has been hiding under the shade of a tree beside the flower bed. He came to wait for Kangmei to get off work, but he was also very careful not to be seen by others.As the most experienced scout, he certainly knows the importance of scouting the environment in advance and approaching the enemy covertly.

After ten o'clock, I saw several female soldiers from the communications company of the division headquarters come out in twos and threes.The female soldiers are always like this, chatting and laughing wildly, it's already so late, I don't know why they have so many ridiculous things?Silong murmured in his heart, why hasn't he seen Anti-American?She should be in this class too?

After the group of people dispersed, a few minutes later, I saw Kang Mei walking out slowly with a few books in his hands.Hey, it's easy to handle now, I can make a surprise attack.Thinking about it, Silong turned to the only path that Kangmei must take to go back to the dormitory.

Holding the book in his hands, Kang Mei buried his head in the path that he had traveled countless times, while thinking about things in his heart silently.When she got off work, she deliberately dawdled for 10 minutes before leaving.She knew that many colleagues were unwilling to be with her, so she didn't want to embarrass others, so she deliberately left behind.

I was thinking in my heart, 'Dad, I don't know what's going on these two days?When can I find another chance to see him, a figure suddenly popped up in front of me, which shocked her a lot.

"Kangmei, come here and talk here." Silong said as he took her hand and led her to the side of the road, a safe and hidden location that he had scouted a long time ago.

I was taken aside by him in a daze, and held by him in a daze, the face of Kang Mei was ashamed and ashamed, my mind suddenly became a mess, and my heart was pounding non-stop Jump.

"Kangmei, let me ask you, are you so busy recently? Why have I called you twice, but you are not free?" Silong asked with a smile on his face, but no matter how you looked at it, there was a smile on his face. A trace of unreasonable arrogance.He suddenly realized that he was still holding Kangmei's hand, so he let go of it embarrassingly and embarrassingly.

(four)

Kang Mei looked at him, tried to restrain her excitement, and said slowly: "Yuan Silong, just tell me what you need. I will go back to accompany my mother later, she is not in good health."

"Well, that's actually not important. I just want to tell you, don't care too much about other people's opinions and visions. Also, on the teacher's side, we all believe in him and respect him. I will try my best to take care of him. Yes, you can relax.

Actually, I just want to tell you, don't be afraid, I support you. "I don't know why, but now I can't remember what I had planned to comfort Kangmei. These few words were difficult and stuttering like never before. Silong scratched his head and touched it with his hands uncomfortably. Touching his ears, he felt bored.

Seeing that Kangmei was still standing there silently, Silong thought for a while, and then said: "Kangmei, you are still angry with me for that incident in the hospital a year ago, right? At that time, I I was anxious to go back to the company, and I was afraid that you would stop me. Well, later, as I was talking, I stopped talking. I didn’t mean to say that about you. If you are still angry, you are still angry , then I apologize to you.

Anti-Americanism, don't worry about it.Only children are so careful!Don't be angry, okay? "He was apologizing to her with a playful smile.

Looking at that familiar smile, that smile that once made her both fascinated and heartbroken, Kangmei felt so complicated in her heart.She reminded herself that she must be rational now, and must not act emotionally, but must use her brain to think carefully and analyze carefully.If it was half a year ago, and Silong could apologize to her so sincerely, he would have passed out with happiness.However, the current situation is different from six months ago.If now, my father has not been punished and is still the same as before, will Silong still apologize to me like this?So proud Yuan Silong, he would not apologize to Zhang Kangmei, unless it was because of sympathy? ?

Yes, my current situation makes him feel pitiful.Aunt Molly once said that he had been a kind and compassionate child since he was a child, and he would naturally sympathize with the weak.So what is he to me now? ?I must figure this out.I can't let the person I love stay with me just out of sympathy and pity, not to mention being with me will affect his future and political life.No, I can't be so selfish and only consider my own feelings, Silong is still the most promising young officer recognized by the leaders!

Thinking of this, Kangmei tried to calm down his nervous and excited mood, and said slowly: "Silong, thank you, thank you for taking care of my father all the time. As for the past, you don't need to apologize. You originally I didn’t say anything wrong. At that time, I really couldn’t do anything. Thanks to your reminder, I have learned how to sew buttons, make patches, and even learn to cook, cook and knit sweaters. Even if I didn't do very well, but I will gradually improve in the future. So, you don't have to apologize to me.

I just hope that you will never come to me again, and I don't want others to see you with me.goodbye! "After finishing speaking, she turned around and wanted to leave.

After hearing her finish, Silong's smile froze little by little.Seeing her turn around, he quickly grabbed her hand and grabbed her in front of her.

"Kangmei, why do you say that? What's wrong with you?" He couldn't understand how Kangmei, who had always been happy and carefree, would talk to him in such a calm and calm tone.

Seeing his bewilderment, seeing his frustrated and bewildered face, like a wronged big boy who has nowhere to confide innocence, the anti-American heart hurts, so uncomfortable, but I still have to encourage myself, no matter how brave A little bit, a little bit stronger, don't hurt him or the person you care about the most because of a momentary soft-heartedness.

Kang Mei gently pulled out her hand, and said in a low voice, "You are very good, you have always been so kind and willing to help others. But, I don't need your pity and sympathy."

After she finished speaking, she immediately turned around and rushed up the path as if fleeing.Tears were already welling up in my eyes, running down. "It's all right now, I completely ruined my happiness, and I can finally be free!

Originally, when I came out of Aunt Jasmine's house, I still had a glimmer of fantasy and hope for him.At that time, he didn't like me, but I thought that with my own efforts, maybe I could make him change his opinion of me.But now, he pities me and comes to care about me, but I don't want to see him again..." Kangmei was in a mess, feeling only bursts of sadness and despair, she took out the bag from her bag with tears in her eyes. Wiping his eyes with a handkerchief, he quickened his pace.

(Fives)

Silong never expected that Kangmei would say such a thing.When Kangmei took his hand out of his own, when she said the phrase "I don't need your pity and sympathy", he only felt that there was a slight pain in the softest part of his heart. click down.This feeling seems to have never been experienced before.

He couldn't help but walked a few steps forward along the path that Kangmei had left. Seeing her running fast in front and disappearing at the corner, he was still standing on the spot in a daze.Suddenly, I saw a small piece of paper in front of me was blown up by the wind and floated up. It seemed that it had just fallen from the anti-mei bag.He stepped forward to pick it up, and looked at it carefully by the light of the street lamp.

It was a small black and white photo, only three or four inches in size.The anti-American smile in the photo is so sunny and bright, with a carefree look.Is the woman next to her an anti-American mother?Also has a kind face.Oh!Silong suddenly screamed, that person next to him?Why is she my mother?Although compared with ten years ago and when I left home, I have added a few more wrinkles, but that soft and kind smile is definitely my mother!

Si Long was amazed with this photo.He looked over and over again, and found a date written in pencil on the back of the photo, 'Photographed in Zenda in the autumn of [-]'.

In the autumn of 1971, that was more than half a year ago.At that time, the teacher had not had any accidents; Kangmei, she seemed to have taken a family leave, and I heard that she went to Zenda to see her brother.Zenda, she went to Zenda?Isn't it just to see my brother?Also went to my house at the same time? ?Si Long guessed in his heart.

Holding this photo, Silong kept scratching his scalp while walking back.These things tonight are so depressing.Originally, I wanted to ask Kang Mei to apologize and comfort her, hoping that the smile would return to her face.How I wish I could see the cheerful, heartless, straightforward and cute anti-American again!

Although, I also know that in the current situation, when her father was still wearing those two "hats".It's almost impossible to make her as happy as before; but at least I want her to know that I will support her and protect her, and I won't watch her being bullied by others, or by those useless people.I just want her to know this, but why does she reject people thousands of miles away?

And this picture is also very strange, if she visited my mother when she was on vacation, why didn't she tell me?What did she say to my mother?You won't sue me in front of your mother, saying that I bullied her, right? ?My mother's letter has never mentioned this matter?

What an incomprehensible woman!Silong put away the photos, put them in his usual notebook, and fell asleep in a messy mind.But as soon as he closed his eyes, he seemed to see Kang Mei's eyes when he looked at him for the last time.Such eyes, such sadness and despair, when have you seen them before?It seems that more than a year ago, when I was in the hospital, I was about to be discharged, and she...

"Kangmei, what are you thinking about!" He muttered to himself, and finally gradually fell asleep.