What's on Jasmine's mind- My leader, my regiment follow-up

(One)

Ever since we swam the Nu River, I have been overwhelmed with what happened afterwards.

First, Milong accepted Tang Ji's reward of a thousand oceans in our contempt.I really have to admire Deputy Master Tang for buying people's hearts so hard, so thoroughly, so shocking and irresistible.

Immediately afterwards, the Japanese bomber fleet flew in.We just grabbed the gun on reflex and shot at anything with the Japanese emblem on it.I was so dazed that I didn't notice that Milong and Fanla had chased the Japanese plane into the direction of Zenda City.And Milong, a bewildered little bastard who loves and protects his family so much, finally brought disaster to himself and us.

When I came to my senses, I tried my best to chase Milong and Fanla to the gate of Milong's house in Zenda City, but I was still one step late.Milong, who caused the catastrophe, was still foolishly sitting on the gun emplacement, but the military police of the division headquarters had already appeared on the street and were surrounding them, and at the same time, the people on Zenda Street were also surrounding them.

There is no extra time for me to think about it. Maybe I just thought about it for half a second and then made a decision.I have to discipline Milong in front of the military police, even if he is beaten half to death, it is possible for me to spare some time to plead for mercy and fight for his life.

When I took the firewood and beat Milong on the ground, the pain in my heart was numb.I didn't even notice the hatred and coldness in the eyes of Shangguan and Lei Baoer.I just thought in a trance, this is survival, survival, survival for the remaining cannon fodder of our cannon fodder regiment.

(two)

Under the watchful eyes of the military police, we placed Milong in our only remaining tent under the slope of the sacrificial flag, and then hurried to the division headquarters to intercede.After being stared blankly and shut the door by the division headquarters, I had to find trouble again, Zhang Lixian, Yu Zhi and I ran for our lives together.

Yes, I was running all the time, rushing from one lifeless fate to another unknown.It's just that now I feel that my way is running out.The unknown end seems to be visible, within reach.

Although Yu Xiaoqing's attitude towards Milong disappointed me, I was already used to this disappointment.From the four hours on the Nantianmen to 38 days; from the bridge I built when I went down to the Nantianmen, I was disappointed.So, now he treats Milong like this, I'm not surprised.At least he kept Mi Long from handing him over to the military, at least he knew he wanted Mi Long to die like a soldier.

But Mi Long, a bastard, doesn't look like a soldier at all.Every moment before his execution, he was looking for even a glimmer of life.It took me a lot of effort to persuade him.I have seen countless dead people, I have seen countless brothers fall beside me, but I have never killed a brother with my own hands.When I finally fired that shot at Milong, my broken heart was completely wiped out with this shot.

The heart is empty, the heart is gone, and I have become a living dead who is really walking dead.

(three)

We were some kind of creature again in captivity, and we got paid for it.After receiving the military pay, I, a living dead who has not died yet, have something to do again.I promised Mi Long that I would pay his debts and take care of his family.

When I forced Fanla to accompany me all the way to Milong's house, I didn't think much about it. A person without a heart would not have too many thoughts, although I occasionally remembered the way they looked at me , I can also feel shuddering, but I am just doing what I have to do according to the inertia, and I can't escape to hit Nantianmen again.

Until he saw the eyes of their mother and child, that cold gaze could kill.If my heart was still there, maybe it would have collapsed in that gaze.Fortunately, I am a heartless person.But people who have no heart, their brains turn slowly, and simple politeness and entertainment will make me think for a long time.

Until she served that cup of tea, as a soldier who had been in the rivers and lakes for many years, of course I smelled something strange.However, looking at her expression of "whether you like to drink or not", I knew that I had no choice. Since "debts are paid, and murders are paid", then well, so be it.

Annoyed, I don’t understand why I know it’s □□, but I have to try again and again.In fact, this is just a very simple truth, the most basic truth of being a human being, my mother has reminded me of it when I was very young.

I just want to live up to my conscience.A man who has lost his heart, but still has a conscience.But I'm tired of this vicious cripple, he doesn't believe anything, and he insists on asking some nonsense like "I've fallen in love with her".

"I'm afraid so." I replied casually to the bad cripple, so as to block his subsequent tirade.At the same time, he casually brought out a sentence: "I'm afraid there are dozens of women who have dealt with each other in this life, and I'm afraid it's not as good as a little finger." Actually, when I said this sentence, I thought of me. mother.Shangguan always reminds me of my mother, maybe they all have some kind of similarity in appearance.

Yes, at that time I was thinking about my mother, my mother who could not be matched by dozens of "passing clouds", the real lady in my mind.Not only has the appearance of a lady, but also has the connotation of a lady.And the conscience she taught me since I was a child, and why I became the person I am now, doing what I have to do, and doing my best.But how could it be possible with my tortuous thoughts, I confessed to Fanla.