lark

"I said, our relationship ends here, and we won't see each other again." Qi Yubai looked at him, every word clearly.The words sounded light and light, without any embarrassment.

The sound of rain outside disappeared in my ears.Lin Nan's heart felt as if someone had punched his heart tightly from both sides. The pain was so painful that he couldn't breathe. It took him a long time to finally understand Qi Yubai's meaning. Ugly smile.

"Mr. Qi...you...are you kidding me? I don't think...I don't think it's very funny..."

He felt that he must have some kind of hallucination, or simply misheard what Qi Yubai said, so he looked at Qi Yubai stubbornly and asking for help, expecting him to change his words.

"No." Qi Yubai flatly denied, "I mean it."

Just these few words are enough to make Lin Nan fall into the abyss.There was a buzzing in his head, and the warmth all over his body was taken away in an instant, and the tenderness and joy just now seemed to disappear in an instant.

"But why?"

The person in front of him was still this person, but he couldn't understand the words.He carefully observed Qi Yubai's face, not wanting to miss any subtle expressions of the man. After a while, he found that Qi Yubai seemed to be serious. , Holding it in his hand and refusing to let it go, he muttered to himself: "Is there anything I did wrong? How could it be...how could it be..."

How could it be so sudden, how could the person who was holding him a moment ago say to stop here at this moment.

"It was so sudden...I...I feel..."

Qi Yubai let him hold it, without any intention of breaking free, and there was no reluctance on his expression.The starlight above his head was always on, and last second it looked like a courtship, but this second it was like a mockery.

"There's no reason." Qi Yu looked forward with blank eyes, and said in a steady tone, "I feel annoyed. Sometimes I would rather go abroad to work than see you."

Feel bored, tired, it's time to leave, simple and clear reasons.

"Are you bored?" Lin Nan's eyes slowly turned red, his lips moved a few times, he wanted to say something but didn't say it, his whole body was cold, and he said with a miserable look: "Really, why are you willing to stay here this week? at home?"

"Do things from beginning to end." Qi Yubai wrote lightly.

Lin Nan thought of the man's hesitation in the room, and suddenly felt that many things had answers.Maybe Qi Yubai didn't have to be so busy, but just wanted to avoid him.As for the last week, it was the tenderness bestowed upon him.

Qi Yubai seemed to be annoyed by the answer, and turned to look at the rain outside the window.

"Don't be like Lin Nan, don't be so worthless. I just played with you, and I think it's fresh enough, and it's time to change it."

Lin Nan shook his head vigorously, and held his hand with both hands: "Think again, think again, okay? I know I always annoy you recently, I, I always send you messages and phone calls, Mr. I’m urging you to go home, no no, I’m urging you to go back to Bohai, I know I’ve done too much, if you tell me I’ll change it, really, don’t—”

"Okay." Qi Yubai interrupted him, withdrew his hand and said, "You also annoy me, you're very verbose, do you know that, I don't want to hear so much from you."

Lin Nan immediately fell silent, tears streaming down his eyes, he didn't dare to make a sound, his hands still wanted to hold Qi Yubai's hand but didn't dare anymore, he stretched forward in the air and stopped He stopped, slowly retracted and grabbed his pants.

He bit his lower lip with his teeth, and when he let go, there was already a row of deep tooth marks on his lip.After a long while, he said in a hoarse voice as if unwilling to reconcile: "I'm sorry, may I say something again?"

Qi Yubai didn't say a word, which was his acquiescence.

Lin Nan's tears flowed down his cheeks, his whole body began to tremble slightly, his fingers clenched even tighter, and it took a while to stabilize his voice, "You were fine before you went out, why did you change when you came here?"

It wasn't that he was unwilling to accept the reality, it was that all these changes happened so fast that people couldn't bear it for a while.

Qi Yubai remained motionless, his brows slowly retracted, and seemed to be pulling his tie impatiently.

"I'm afraid that if you make trouble in the apartment, it will be ugly to be overheard."

Lin Nan was startled and looked at him in astonishment.It turned out that he was afraid that he would never let him go in Bohai.How could it be?When Qi Yubai wanted him, he was meek and obedient, and when he didn't want him, he didn't dare to say no, and would never argue with him in the apartment.

The man in front of him really didn't understand himself at all.

Tears gushed out of the lacrimal gland one after another like something worthless than self-esteem, and hit Lin Nan's trouser legs drop by drop. Fortunately, the whimpering was covered by the sound of rain, so that it would not be more embarrassing.

Lin Nan couldn't accept it, and remained awake in the dream of the past.Like a person who has been walking alone on a quiet road for a long time, only to see a happy car light in the haze, he stood on the side of the road and waved from afar, thinking that the car would stop, but who would have thought that the car would stop? This faint light like a candle has nothing to do with him, this car is not here to pick him up.Could it be that he is destined to go on alone, and is it really the end of the two of them?

No, he didn't want it to end in such a vague way.

He couldn't let go.

On nights when there is not even moonlight, the wipers of the car work non-stop, brushing the rainwater from both sides of the windshield over and over again, and flowing along the hood of the car to the ground in large streams.Lin Nan looked at the rain outside the window, then at the starry sky above his head, mustered up the courage to approach the person in front of him a little bit with his thin body, trying to absorb a little of the man's body temperature.

He moved towards him trembling, and tried his best to move his lips closer and closer. He was about to stick them in the next second, but was suddenly pushed away by both hands of the man.

"Lin Nan!" Qi Yubai shouted in a low voice.

With a bang, he leaned back violently and slammed into the car door. The handlebar hit his waist so hard that he couldn't help but yelled "ah".

Qi Yubai said in a deep voice as if he didn't hear his cry of pain at all: "Do you understand what is enough is enough?"

"Mr. Qi..." Lin Nan put his hands on the door behind him, and then endured the pain and shook his body and threw himself forward, hugging him desperately while crying: "Can you hug me again, please hug me again ..."

Loving someone is hard, leaving him with dignity is even harder.

"Lin Nan, Lin Nan!"

At this time, Qi Yubai was hugged tightly by Lin Nan, and he paused for two seconds as he watched his arched back, and then began to open his arms and push him out forcefully.

"Let go—!" he snapped.

"Please...please..." Lin Nan struggled desperately as if losing his mind, his arms were torn apart one second and then hugged back again, repeating in his mouth: "Hold me again, the last time……"

The sound of the rain mixed with pleadings, both pitiful and desperate, no one could resist, except Qi Yubai who had already made up his mind to make a clean break.

"Enough, Lin Nan, enough." Qi Yubai broke Lin Nan's hand away with all his strength, held his shoulder to keep him from moving, and forced him to raise his head to meet his gaze.

Lin Nan's face was covered with tears, and even his neck was covered with water. The high collar of the light-colored sweater he was wearing was soaked in a large area, and his breathing was so short that he seemed to be dying. He only looked at Qi Yu Shiro started to cry again, and then covered his face with his hands.

But the tears could not be stopped, they leaked from between the fingers, and flowed out from under the palms, as if they would never end.

"Lin Nan, can we stop arguing until the last moment?" Qi Yubai said, "You know who I am, so please leave some thoughts for each other."

Lin Nan didn't know why Qi Yubai was still so calm at this moment, as if he was facing another person day and night for these two hundred days.He remembered what Wu Yutong had said to him - when dealing with Qi Yubai, you should know when enough is enough, so that's what it meant.He shed tears silently at first, slowly turned into soft sobs, and finally burst into tears in this car with countless memories and tender moments.

Qi Yubai just looked at him like this, guarding him, never saying a word.

Lin Nan was finally tired after crying for a long time. He covered his cheeks and eyes with his sleeves, and his voice became smaller and smaller until he finally calmed down. Then he put down his sleeves and looked directly at Qi Yubai with a pair of red eyes. Puzzled, but more determined.

He said slowly: "The last question, I won't bother you after I ask it." His voice sounded unbelievably hoarse, and his nasal cavity was completely blocked.

Qi Yubai said, "You ask."

Lin Nan was silent for a while, then asked in a low voice: "In the past six months, have you ever put me in your heart for even a moment?"

The two have never been truly honest about their hearts for a moment, but Lin Nan couldn't believe that there was no affection in those hugging and sleeping, protecting and supporting, or even just looking at each other.

He stared at Qi Yubai stubbornly, like a person stuck in a swamp looking at a rope outside.

"No." Qi Yubai's slender and straight lips moved up and down, "I thought you slept comfortably, so I slept twice more, why take it seriously."

Every word is like a knife, all piercing the softest place.Again and again, like Ling Chi, Lin Nan's already fragile heart finally gave up lingering, and his chest was as empty as if nothing existed.

Qi Yubai looked at his pale and shapeless face, and the hand that was far away from him was put back on the steering wheel as if unintentionally, and his fingertips trembled uncontrollably in a place that Lin Nan couldn't see.

You ask me if I love you, and I say yes, it's no big deal.Then what?You have to know that it is easy to say the word love, it is as light as the wind and as thin as the cloud, and no one can be hurt.Only hiding in the heart is like torture, it will become as heavy as iron and sharp as a sharp edge, and can smash a person's heart alive.But even so, Qi Yubai still chose the latter.

Before Lin Nan appeared, Qi Yubai's life had already entered a dead end, where there was no light, only regret and helplessness.His mother died because of him, his father was a stranger, and his family did not have a family.He was trapped in a dilemma in the dark alley, and he never thought that there would be someone who would give him the urge to escape.He gradually felt that he was a living person, and that someone really cared about him and needed him.However, because of this, he couldn't let this person's future become a stepping stone for him to be freed.

Lin Nan is so good, so lively, his future should be in the sun, it would be better without him.So let it be like this, I will continue to live in the dark world, and all the light will be left to Lin Nan, and everything will be broken when it is broken.