After wearing a book, I fell in love with an old man in the fairy world

Useless people are a drag and a burden in the last days.

Maybe there are people in this world who will not change until death, and have feelings that will never give up, but Lian Miao doesn't think 'Miao Miao' is such a lucky person.

Perhaps Ye Ming once really loved mourning, but in the face of the cruel environment, this feeling has not withstood the test.

"...Although my mother and I stayed in the team, the people in the team didn't look good. I can understand them and don't blame them, because I am indeed a burden, an idler, and an idler who needs to be taken care of. "

"In order not to embarrass Ye Ming, and to prevent everyone from abandoning me, my mother has done a lot of things, such as the logistics of the team, and when I go out to find supplies, my mother will take the initiative to follow, so that everyone can complain less and let me, a person who eats nothing Leave."

"I also want to work hard, but I don't live up to it. As the team said, even if you sell ass, it's not a matter of skill... But I can't do such a simple thing. I'm always an idiot. The burden has been burdening my mother and burdening other people's burden..."

"It's not your fault."

Feng Yan couldn't help opening his mouth, he saw that Yao Nan's calm face finally changed, and faint water marks appeared on his face.

His chest felt a little stuffy. At this moment, he would rather not explore the secrets in the other party's heart, and would rather the Yao Nan always look heartless.

Feng Motou has always been hard-hearted and ruthless, but his heart cannot be hardened towards this person. No wonder the old demon said that people in the way of demons cannot be emotional.

"Why don't you blame me? If it weren't for me, my mother would live a much easier and happier life... You know, that woman is so stupid. "

Lian Mourn laughed lightly at himself.

"... She came from the countryside. Her grandparents left early, and her relatives were not very helpful. She grew up eating a lot of food, and went to the city to work when she was not full, just to make a living."

"She doesn't have a degree, and it's hard to get along in a big city, but she is a woman who can endure hardships. She can do all kinds of dirty work. She is also a special... beautiful woman, so she met my father, who was alone. Scum, a scum who ran away after defrauding her of her money..."

"But do you know how stupid that woman is? She has been cheated out of people and money, and she still insists on giving birth to evil seeds. She wanders around the vegetable market every day, relying on other people's pity, picking up vegetables and leaves to eat. The belly was raised...but a medicine jar came out."

"Everyone said she was stupid, that she was stupid, but she said that Mourning is her most precious treasure..."

What's in the eyes can't be controlled, Lian Mou doesn't want to think about it, but when the buried memory is dug out, it can't be stopped like a spring.

"Just to raise such a medicine jar baby, she gave up the man who was sincerely willing to take care of her, gave up the opportunity to live a happier life, and even gave up her own life and dignity, just because the doctor said when I was ten years old that I would not have chemotherapy. saved……"

"Not long after that, she told me, 'Mourning, Mom has found a good new job with a lot of salary, but you have to work overtime at night, so you have to stay at home obediently and don't run around until Mom earns money. , I will buy you the chocolates and candies you like, you know?"

Then I saw her start to wear beautiful clothes every day, put on nice makeup and go out to work... She was already beautiful, and she looked even better than the stars on TV when she was a little bit dressed up. I especially liked seeing her in a skirt, gentle and Gentle. "

"She got back a lot of money, enough for me to survive chemotherapy, but do you know where she went to work... In your terms, that place should be called a brothel? A brothel? I really don't Knowing what kind of treasure I have, it is worth that stupid woman to go this way, I would rather never see her in a skirt... But she always said, mourning, to live well, mother's mourning must be Be the happiest kid in the world."

"But her happiness, she never thought about it, it would be great if she didn't have this son..."

"Ye Ming is also a very good person. If there is no apocalypse, I think he might really take care of me, love and mourn me for the rest of my life as he said..."

"But some feelings cannot stand the test. The pressure of survival in the last days cannot be resisted with a single sentence. In the face of being alive and hungry, many people will choose to bow their heads. Although they didn't drive me away, I know he started to hate me. I hate you, hate me."

"I don't blame him. I was just a burden. He was so affectionate to me. It was reasonable for him to leave me behind. I can't blame anyone. If I really blame him, I can only blame myself for not living up to my expectations and dragging my body. What am I doing?" I can't even do it, I can't even use my body to please him... People in the team called me a freelancer, and they were right."

"Half a year after the end of the world, Ye Ming brought back a boy from outside. The boy was very beautiful, he was healthier than me, and he was more likable than me. Even if he was an ordinary person, the people in the team were very like him……"

"Afterwards, my house was given over to that boy, and I was also given the job of cleaning the house to that boy. The chocolates and toffee brought back by Ye Ming also belonged to that boy... I like sweets, and I like eating chocolate the most. And milk candies, the kind of big white rabbits, my mother always used these two kinds of candies to coax me when I was young."

"At that time, I realized that the former Ye Ming was really gone. I lost someone I could rely on. I began to feel restless day and night. I was afraid that he would drive me and my mother out of the team. After leaving the team, my mother and I had nothing to do. I can't survive, I've been racking my brains thinking about what I should do to stay with my mother..."

"But if I knew he would be so ruthless after changing, I would rather be kicked out of the team and die earlier."

"My body is not good, but my brain is good. Maybe this is what people often say is the road to heaven. I have a very good talent in computers. I have been isolated from the world since I was a child. Knowing the outside world through the Internet, this kind of forced single-mindedness makes me not even know that I have become a genius in the eyes of others..."

"Although this kind of talent is not as useful in the apocalypse as it was before the apocalypse, at least I can do logistics in the base to ensure that life is no problem. I am happy to think that I have grown up, I am not a burden, and I can protect my mother, but I It's so naive, so naive as to be stupid."

"One day, my mother and them went out to look for supplies as usual, but she was not in the team that came back at night. Ye Ming told me that they encountered a wave of zombies. Mom was old and ran too slowly, so I can't come back..."

Lian Mourning's voice choked his throat, and his nails dug into his flesh.

"But no one knows, I put something on my mother, not because my mother was running slowly, but because of fighting for a piece of chocolate, Ye Ming's boy pushed her out of the car..."

"No one thought to tell me the truth, including him. Maybe they thought it was a trivial matter. Too many people disappear every day in the last days. My mother and I belonged to the eliminated people. Who cares?"

"Everyone said that people will change, and they were right, so they didn't expect that a sick child like me would have the strength to kill people, and Ye Ming would not have thought that I would be able to do it that night and kill his most beloved at the moment." No one would have thought that the boy who was panting after walking two steps would be able to live alone to the end of the last days..."

"I don't know, I only know that the last voice of my mother... She told me to save her, she said that there are many monsters around, and her arm hurts from scratching, she is afraid... That stupid woman, she also knows that she is afraid Now, I thought she was like a superman who could always protect her baby..."

Yes, he has always thought that, thinking that all the good things he imagined.

He thought she could protect her baby all the time, but when the end of the world comes, everyone can't protect themselves;

He thought she could accompany her son to grow old, but she never came back;

He thought she was still alive, but he forgot that she said the monster scratched her arm sorely...

Yes, it's just...he thought she was still alive, and his so-called persistence and desire were just deceiving himself all along.

But fetching water from the bamboo basket was in vain, and all his calculations and efforts were just a dream.

Lian Mou stood there and chuckled...

The surrounding illusion dissipated and fell into a chaotic darkness, even darker than before. The space seemed to fluctuate faintly, with slight cracks appearing.

Accompanied by Lian Mour's chuckle, the cracks became bigger and wider, and finally formed a black hole like a whirlpool, sucking Lian Mour's soul past, as if to swallow him up.

"Lian Mourning, come back! You come back to this deity!"

Feng Yan bared his eyes and roared, reaching out to grab it.

But obviously he had already touched the soul called 'Lian Mourning', but he passed through it in an instant, and he couldn't catch it no matter what.

Lian Mourn was sucked into the entrance of the black hole vortex, he seemed to hear the noisy sounds belonging to his world, as if he saw that stupid woman waving at him, calling her baby, calling her son, showing him a gentle and gentle smile...

He wants to go home, he really wants to go home.

Lian Mou worked hard towards the black hole vortex, he seemed to smell the smell of his hometown, he seemed to see the environment of his hometown, he seemed to see the house where he lived with his mother for more than ten years...

Go back, yes, go back, it's all a lie, it's all a lie, it's all a lie, go back, go back to his world.

"Lian Mourning, do you really want to go back now, do you really want to give up halfway?"

Suddenly, a familiar voice and sigh came from behind him.

Yue Xixian...

Lian Mou paused, he wanted to cover his ears and didn't want to listen, he just wanted to go back, even he was deceiving himself, why should he trust others.

His wishes and his persistence are nothing but his beautiful fantasies.

"Lian Mourning, I need you, and everyone here needs you. As I said, if you help me complete the task, I will help you realize your wish. Please trust me, trust me, okay..."

The voice behind him was full of prayers.

Lian Mou covered his ears and couldn't make a choice.

This is just a two-dimensional virtual world, but a two-dimensional character. Why should Yue Xixian help him realize his wish? Why should he help him when the other party can't even help him?

He has no wish, no attachment, he just wants to go home, to see his mother's picture, to see the place that belongs to him.

"Lian Mourning, please, please, please believe me..."

"Long mourning, even mourning..."

The increasingly distant voice was like the last voice of my mother, so desperate, nostalgic, and begging, it made people unable to breathe.

"How do you want me to believe you? I don't want anything, I just want that stupid woman to live for herself once, change her life against the sky, can you do it if you don't even have freedom..."

Lian Mourn put down his hands covering his ears, sneered and turned around.

Yue Xixian's soul stood behind him, his red clothes fluttering like the smell of fresh blood.