A Thousand Mountains and Twilight Snow Continues A Thousand Paper Cranes One Thousand and 95 Days Fa

At the end of the song, I waved my sleeves desolately, and left her world without a trace of cloud, walking gently just as I came gently, and this walking turned out to be a complete farewell, alas, really Good fortune tricks people, a chain of chains is a set of sets.I feel that everything seems to be predicted in advance, and everything is performed according to its original trajectory, but we can only be at the mercy of fate, unable to recover, and there is no way to recover, and the child I share with Tong Xue is I think Mu Yongfei should be happy to be the victim of this series of tricks. After she made such a good show, it not only deepened the misunderstanding and hostility between me and Tong Xue, but even worsened the relationship between me and her. The hatred between people has been pushed to Bai Huai, hey, it really reflects the old saying that people's words are terrible. After all, it is the fault of these two mouths of people. The short joke said that one sentence can make things happen, one sentence can make things bad, can you be a little more sunny, look at it, the implication is don't care about it, don't be serious, just go in the left ear and out the right ear, don't take everything seriously , it will be much happier.

is that so?But sometimes people just like to compete with themselves, I really can’t figure it out, I really want to compete with myself, I’m really puzzled, why the hell would Chen Hou listen to Mu Yongfei’s instigation?I don’t want to spend my time researching this issue anymore. I said clearly that I was afraid of being distracted. In fact, I didn’t think that I was deceived by Tong Xue and engaged in an extramarital affair. This person watched me go all the way. The capable man who has always stood up for my father and assisted my father with all his heart, he has paid more for me than his own children. In his heart, he has always treated me like his own children. , but it is such an elder who is like a father who cares and assists me all the way. How could he be the murderer who killed my own flesh and blood? I still can’t figure it out until now. When I saw him kneel down and say such a far-fetched reason , I just felt absurd and powerless, and realized that I didn’t even have the qualifications to get justice for my unborn child by losing my temper. After all, the results like today were all brought about by me. It was my heart that betrayed me first. My own will, violated the rules of the game, did not play the cards according to the rules, now facing such a farce, no matter how much injustice and grievances I have in my heart, I can only knock down my teeth and swallow blood.

In the final analysis, Tong Xue and I, as well as our unborn child, were all plotted against by Mu Yongfei, a woman with a vicious heart like a snake and a scorpion. As expected, she is the most vicious woman. What I said is absolutely true. I am still very grateful to her for the matter, now it is all right, we are cleared, and no one owes anyone, but I feel sorry for my unborn flesh and blood, I have not had time to take a look at the world, so I left quietly Now, child, it’s dad’s fault, dad is sorry for you, sorry for your mother, if I let go earlier, your mother wouldn’t suffer so much, and you wouldn’t have sacrificed your life in vain, really I'm very sorry, I'm an incompetent father, I didn't protect you well, I didn't protect your mother well, I made her suffer and almost died at the same time. Instigated by you, out of control and angry, you went to your mother to settle accounts. In fact, you don't know how much your father expects your existence, because you are the last move of your father. The original relationship between your father and your mother At that time, there was already an imbalance between water and oil, but I just didn't want to admit defeat, and I insisted on fighting for the last time.When I accidentally saw her having so much fun with a child, I had the idea of ​​having a baby with her. In addition, I saw the surprise and disdain in her eyes when she learned that I had this idea. Knowing that she never thought of being with me forever, as long as I think of her wanting to escape from my side all the time, I want to fight her and keep her by my side forever, even if I face such a dead end, I also only wanted to put my life on the line and waited for the miracle of turning a dead tree into a spring with a fluke mentality, but what I waited for was a heart full of scars and regrets of not being able to love in time. In fact, I also understand, will Such a result is that God is punishing me, just like what your mother said, the world of adults is so hypocritical, it’s because Dad is not good, he doesn’t know how to cherish, he is always calculating your mother, and even wants to use you to redeem He always uses the businessman's cannibalism and treacherous calculations in emotional transactions, thinking that money is the first thing, there is nothing that money can't buy, and there is nothing that money can't solve, but now you and Your mother taught me an important lesson that can be said to affect my entire life and change my destiny for the rest of my life. Now my father finally understands that everything can be traded, except for feelings that cannot be exchanged for money. Material needs can be met, but spiritual comfort cannot be exchanged.

It’s ridiculous to say it, I’ve lived one-third of my life, and now I realize this truth, Dad shouldn’t be so obsessed with forcing your mother to design your mother, Dad knew it was wrong, Dad understood it too late, it hurts I killed your mother, and also killed you. Dad is the executioner who killed you. I am not worthy of your mother, nor worthy of being your father. Feel ashamed of your father, and your father also feels very ashamed. Now that your father is bloody, you know that your father should go to hell. So, forget it, let this guilt and self-blame kill me bit by bit.There is nothing to miss in the world. Losing you, your mother, and your grandfather, I would rather die than die. No amount of regret and tears can make up for the mistakes I made. As a father and a son at the same time, you know best what your son is thinking at the moment, this time the son really can't hold it anymore, let the son be self-willed once, let himself close all his senses, and cry happily, Cry until your throat is hoarse, cry until you are completely powerless, and cry until you are completely desperate. I didn’t understand that men don’t flick their tears because they haven’t reached the depths of love. Now they all understand. They all say that a man’s crying is not a sin, not a regret, not a mistake , In fact, it is not the case, only when a man has reached the point where there is no way to retreat, will a man shed tears. The meaning contained in that kind of tears, only those who really understand him can interpret the meaning behind those tears. The love, remorse and reluctance are just like the last tear that King Lanling left for his dead wife. Regret, regret, to the point where I feel pain like a thousand pieces in my heart every day. Always remind you of the mistakes you have made, and feel restless day and night, and suffer from conscience and moral condemnation all the time, which cannot soothe your tormented heart. Wherever I go, I can’t get rid of the torment of sins and debts that follow like a ghost, like being pushed into a bottomless abyss, surrounded by darkness, and I can’t hear anything. I can't see anything, I can't feel anything, I want to cry but I can't cry, all the strength in my body seems to be taken away, it's like a heavy boulder is pressing on me, and I can't breathe. Shout but can’t, want to struggle but can’t get out, feel like all the limbs and bones in my body are dismantled and torn apart, as if they are no longer my own, my head is dizzy, my body is heavy, like drowning It was like being roasted by fire, and I was completely immersed in this deep and fiery pain and could not extricate myself.

I don’t eat or drink every day, don’t say a word, just sit blankly, completely isolated myself from the outside world, and only one thought in my heart is that I killed my own child, and I want to punish myself, but I understand why This punishment did not fall on me, but involved my most cherished and cherished little friend who took it on my behalf, cute, you can love it or hate it, I still remember when my mother gave me that puppy, she taught me earnestly and earnestly , but now I can only hold a cold, bloody and mutilated corpse, mourning and reminiscing about the time I was with it. I suddenly felt as if I was strangled by someone and couldn’t breathe. All the blood in my body rushed to my forehead. , suddenly felt the sky shattered, heartbroken, as if someone had slapped a sap, his mind went blank, and he exhausted all his strength from the heart completely out of instinct, condensing the emotions full of grief and indignation into a sound like a head When the wolf king stood on the hill and yelled to find his companions running around, he screamed and wailed heart-piercingly, letting tears overflow from his eyes, and instantly sat limp on the ground with no willpower, and his mind was completely bewildered Yes, but the heart is so painful that it is as numb as a knife, living like a walking dead, not knowing what to do at all?I don't know what else to do for dad, for baby, for cuteness?I don't know why it wasn't me who died?I don't know why I'm still alive?Why are you leaving me one by one?Why is it always me who is left behind?Why does one lose so much?Why is the sun still rising and my world is already dark?Love is like a city that never sleeps, and memory is like a sky full of stars. When love reaches the depths, it turns into hot tears. Boil and boil until it boils. Under the fumigation of steam, the body is hot but the heart is cold. Where is the soul of a dying person seeking relief from his sins?

Unknowingly sitting until the moon gets off work and the sun changes shifts. It’s a brand new day. Today is the first day. It is said that the first seven days after the death of a person is the first seven. Show up, but until today, I haven't waited for the person I want to see. I think it must be because I have committed an unforgivable mistake. They don't want to see me. Dad, you are also angry with your son. I want to see you very much, Dad. The moment I called out to my father, under the reflection of the sun and the moon, I saw Dad’s kind face in a trance, and saw him standing in the sun with a smile on his face and a hand in his hand. Holding an angel with dancing wings in a white gauze dress, holding a star stick in one hand, and a Teddy puppy in blue clothes in the other hand, dancing happily among the flowers, that is?God, I can't believe what I saw, I'm afraid I'm dreaming, I walked towards them carefully and slowly, and the little angel in white clothes saw me, ran towards me excitedly, and rushed into me eagerly In her arms, she hugged me tightly with her little arms and at the same time shouted happily: "Dad, you are here, come to see Ai'ai, Ai'ai has been waiting for you, grandpa said you will definitely come, So let Aiai be sure to wait for you here, and say to you: 'I am fine, I am very happy, don't worry, live a good life, and live happily with your mother, until you and your mother are very old. , we will welcome you in heaven, and our family will never be separated again!"