[The Big Bang Theory] Cohabitation strategy

The wind was blowing very hard outside, I touched my hungry stomach, and planned to eat some fried noodles left in the morning at night, or go out to buy vegetables and then cook, I guess my stomach can't take it anymore.

As a person who is already in his third year, he can save as much as he can, and there is no need to spend more money in restaurants.

I feel really old ╮(╯▽╰)╭

After finishing my graduate studies last year, I followed a few friends to the United States to work hard, and I swore to my parents that I would never come back until I made a name for myself.However, he underestimated the role he could play as a manga talent—my old man still scolded me, and he was not engaged in scientific research, why would he go to a foreign place where no shit like drinking milk and eating bread—he always I thought it was a miserable life, but it turned out that what he said was right. I couldn’t overcome the jet lag for a month when I first came to the United States, and I didn’t get enough sleep every day.In the end, I didn't find a job, and spent a lot of money on medicine.Later, my mother called me and asked me if it was okay, if not, come back quickly, don't wrong yourself.

At that time, I still haven't forgotten the oath I made. Although I was moved, I still said to my mother in a very cool and special way: What's the matter, your daughter and I are the ones who want to do big things, so please rest assured.

However, the story is not generally tragic.I have encountered all the tragic experiences that everyone should experience in a foreign country. I dare not communicate with foreigners. I misread the stop sign in the car and reversed the car for more than an hour to get to the location. Relying on instant noodles for a living... Fortunately, there are brothers and sisters who followed me, otherwise I really couldn't stick to it.

Just six months ago, after more than 100 difficult days of finding companies while working in restaurants, a manga magazine finally decided to sign me.

I was so excited at the time.As a girl manga artist, in fact, in the magical country like the United States, where teen comics are popular, there is not much room for development, but I just want to come out and see the world.

So I settled down in America.

When I received the explosive news, I was eating the freshly warmed Zhajiang noodles with a stern face, while conceiving the storyboard of the next comic, and then the phone ringing interrupted my train of thought, and successfully scared me half to death .

Jessica is coming.

My first reaction was to move and run away.

There is a reason for this reaction.

If the first half of the year in the United States was a tragic beginning, then I always thought that Ji Xi was the prince charming who ended my miserable life. It should be said that everything went very smoothly after he came into my life.I can only attribute this to his good character.

Then our relationship transitioned harmoniously from holding hands → hugging → kissing. On the last night when we were about to go further, Jessica called.

She called Ji Xi. He was taking a shower in the bathroom at the time. Jessica and I have a good relationship, so I answered it after thinking about it.

She recognized me.

Jessica said: "Xiaoka, Ji Xi and I slept | in bed."

For the first time, I felt a bone-chilling chill emerge from the bottom of my heart, and I almost couldn't hold the phone in my hand.But for some reason, I pretended to be very calm.

I sneered and said, "Going to bed? Don't tell me it's your first time."

She seemed to choke, and then said, "He will break up with you, do you believe it?"

I was trembling with anger, but I refused to lose at all. I still gave a fake smile and said to her: "He is taking a shower in the bathroom, and he will do the same thing with me in a while, otherwise Shall I call him out to talk to you?"

Jessica probably understood that the game was to see who would pretend to be calmer, and also heard my lack of confidence, so she said contemptuously, "Forget it, I still want to see you break up with him."

Then she hung up.

I was still in the posture of answering the phone, and I couldn't even move.Then tears rushed out, making me dizzy.

I knelt down, hugged my head and cried.

After that, things became bloody, there was a big fight, we broke up, and a few days later I saw the two of them eating at a restaurant at the same time, and wept at the bus stop sign with a sore nose... In short, in those few days I was Drowsy, all day long except drawing sketches is sleeping, and then drinking beer to get drunk.My drinking capacity is not good, probably inherited from my mother, she will get confused after a few glasses of white.

When I was shopping with Huang Moyu and Dou Xiaoyi, I didn't eat well for a long time, and I passed out from hypoglycemia.

When I woke up in the white ward of the hospital, Dou Xiaoyi was already asleep, Huang Moyu saw me awake, and immediately scolded me severely regardless of my delicate and sick body, saying that it’s because of a man, why did I go to bed so much? After studying and reading romance novels for so many years, why did I faint because of such a trivial matter?Then she succeeded in waking Dou Xiaoyi up, annoyed to get up, she vented her anger on me, and attacked me together with Huang Moyu.

I also feel pretty stupid.

It's been almost three months now, and I thought I'd be able to let it go.

But subconsciously I still don't want to see them.

"They're moving upstairs?!" I almost choked to death with a mouthful of noodles stuck in my throat.

As my best friend's boyfriend, Li Mingyu is very conscientious for the sake of our marriage - because we once threatened him that if he is not nice to us, we will find a handsome guy to lie on Dou Xiaoyi's bed alluringly, and he immediately As long as we said two, he didn't say one.But this news made me really want to jump out of this tragic world.

Li Mingyu tapped on the keyboard on the other end of the phone: "That's right. What Catherine told me just now, anyway, Jessica has already said that she is going to move in, but I don't know if Ji Xi will also move in." This person's eyes It's very bad, and I only had a deep understanding at this moment, because he immediately added, "I guess it's for sure, they have lived together for a long time."

At night I tossed and turned in bed and couldn't fall asleep.

In fact, a long time has passed, so long that my first serialized manga has reached chapter No.13, so long that the bakery downstairs has been replaced by a boutique, so long that I thought I would not think about it anymore .

Maybe it's because I came to this foreign country, and I always thought that Ji Xi's arrival has changed my life a lot, and I still have a kind of dependence on him psychologically.But the betrayal and time have faded a lot. Most of the inexplicable boredom now comes from unwillingness. I am unwilling to be happy with him and Jessica, and I don’t want them to see that I am still alone. Going upstairs and downstairs, looking down but not seeing up, I guess I still have to move.

I sat up and turned on the desk lamp, flipped through a comic from the bookshelf, and looked at it in a daze.

After all, everything has settled down, and I really don't want to cause trouble for myself anymore.I used to think that this kind of mistress stepped in to strengthen the relationship with my lover, not everyone said it was abusive and pleasant, but after I really experienced it, I felt that it was better to be ordinary.

Before college, I studied very seriously. I didn’t miss my homework when I went to the Academy of Fine Arts in high school, and I never thought about falling in love with boys. Even if someone chased me, I didn’t care about it, let alone care about it.Later, when I was in college, I started to fall in love. We talked about it twice, but in the end we broke up because of some trivial matters. When I was in senior year, I was busy taking the postgraduate entrance examination, and I didn’t have time to think about dating and other things. Preparing to go abroad, it was not until more than half a year in the United States that I met Ji Xi.

In fact, my experience is really very little, and Ji Xi only had it three times.Now, I'm 26 and haven't married myself yet, and my mother is also very anxious, always telling me that it's better to go back to China for a blind date. After staying in the United States for a few years, I really become a leftover woman.

I refused with righteous words, saying that it was still too early, and there were so many people chasing me, I couldn't even look down on them.In fact, I haven’t thought about looking for a man for a long time. Maybe it’s because puberty is over. I just want to draw manga, make more money and buy a car and a house.

I feel old again.

I sent my sighs about life and the withering of my years to my friends, and after a while, a few night owls who didn't sleep sent me text messages back.The first to bear the brunt is Dou Xiaoyi, who is in excellent spirits at night.

I guess she has an endocrine disorder, because her language is very sharp:

"Old ass? You're only 26, and you're still far from thirty. I think it's enough to marry Li Mingyu before the age of 30. I think you are an old maid."

I was dissatisfied: "Aren't you?"

Dou Xiaoyi only sent me an emoji, and I knew it by heart:

"Don't bother you two anymore, I'll drink coffee alone (╯‵ ′)╯︵┻━┻" I decided not to disturb their two-person world, or my computer would definitely be hacked if Li Mingyu got angry when I came back. Li Mingyu is a man of science and engineering, proficient in various computer technologies. To be honest, I admire and hate this kind of person. When the computer breaks down, there will be free maintenance personnel, but there is a possibility of being hacked anytime, anywhere.

I read the comics for a while, bored, and got out of bed to make a cup of coffee.

Holding the warm cup, tears flowed in the mist.

I tried to cover my mouth to keep the crying out.

I am still afraid of betrayal, afraid of being alone.

Sitting alone in the house feels deserted, and I still can't escape the loneliness for a year.To be honest, in this foreign country, I really never thought that I was truly integrated into this world.Saying that you are strong is nonsense, and you are all trying to be brave. I am too embarrassed to talk to my parents, so I can only bury it in my heart and shed tears silently in the middle of the night.

During the year I came to the United States, I really saw a lot of injustice, and it was only when I got out of society that I really grew up.I don't understand why I was crying this time, maybe it was really lonely and powerless that I couldn't hold it anymore.

Maybe Jessica's moving here is an opportunity, and I have to find a different place to find my feeling.

I think, I really want to find a house to move.