[Comprehensive] Escape from shame is useless

What is man born into this world for?

Grandma said it was for love.

That she who has never been loved by anyone, who doesn't know how to love others, who doesn't even know the definition of love——

Why was it born in this world?

"Something went wrong, yes, it must be a mistake! Why did Airi and his wife die, leaving behind such a freak?"

It was an accusation that was unknown to her when she was born.

My wife Keisuke, three years after my beloved younger sister Airi married away from home, a baby wrapped in swaddling clothes was waiting for her, and she and her sister died of hemorrhage in labor, and her brother-in-law died in love.

He didn't cold-bloodedly throw the child to the orphanage and chose to raise her, but he couldn't give her the care she deserved.

For Yuno, no one likes her in this deep house.

Even her grandmother, who occasionally tells her bedtime stories, has a subtle barrier to her.

Perhaps the servants didn't have such a serious dislike for her, but the emotions of the masters inevitably infected them.

Repression, indifference, neglect, disgust.

By the time the adults reacted, little Yuno no longer knew how to smile.

She is quiet and well-behaved, used to sitting alone in a corner, talking to the only doll her mother left for her.

Get used to being keenly aware of how your family wants her to behave when they look at her.

Just like a well-trained dog, as long as the owner looks at her, she knows what actions she needs to make to please them.

Why try to please them?

For the sake of love, the few grandmothers in the family who are willing to communicate with her told her this way.

"As long as you are obedient, uncle and brothers will treat you well and love you."

Although I don't know what it feels like to be loved, my grandma said that if you do that, you will get happiness, so she did it.She insisted that when her family treated her with indifference, when she had to eat green peppers that her brothers secretly poured into her bowl when they didn't like them at lunch, and when she came home from school and said "I'm back", there would be no harm. when anyone responds.

During the 8 long years, she thought that she had already gotten used to being treated indifferently by everyone around her.

However, on her birthday, her cousin deliberately locked her on the roof of a commercial building for a day and a night on the pretext of giving her a surprise.From the moment I woke up in the hospital and found out that I was allergic to ultraviolet rays——

She found that she understood the meaning of hate earlier than love.

She can turn a blind eye to indifference, she can turn a blind eye to bullying, but that doesn't mean she won't never get angry.

"Can't bask in the sun? Why don't you just stay until the sun goes down?"

Lies, sarcasm, ridicule, exclusion.

No one will care about her feelings, no one will understand her mood.

Such a world, such people, all—

The long-suppressed anger was like a volcano that was about to erupt and could no longer be suppressed. Just at the critical point of eruption, a warm little hand grabbed her.

"Is the big umbrella missing? Too bad! My wife and classmates don't worry, I'll look for it with you."

who?Is it a child she doesn't know?

What is this for?Accompany yourself to find an umbrella?Why?

Doesn't she know that she is an existence rejected by this school?If you help her, maybe you will be bullied by others.

What the hell is this man thinking?

Before she could react, the owner of the voice dragged her out of the teacher's office.

Brown ear-length hair, green eyes, two cute dimples on a steamed bun face, and a soft, baby-like voice like a newborn kitten.

This was little Yuno's first impression of this girl she had never seen before.

After running around half of the teaching building, and even crawling through the grove in front of the restaurant, the girl remembered belatedly and asked a question that should have been asked immediately.

"My wife and classmate, where was the last time you saw an umbrella?"

"...classroom, I put it back in the locker after lunch and never took it out again."

She didn't know why she had to seriously answer the words of this classmate she had never met, and even followed her for so long like a headless chicken.Maybe it was the sincerity in her eyes that moved her, or maybe she never let go of the hand that held her tightly, passing on to her the long-lost temperature.

"Classroom, classroom... My wife's classmate is in Class C, right?"

She nodded.

The two returned to the classroom together, and of course the iconic big black umbrella was not found in the locker.

The brown-haired girl contemplated the empty cabinet for a long time, and suddenly she had a flash of inspiration: "Ah, yes, the cabinet has a lock. My wife and classmate, besides you, who else has the key to this cabinet?"

"...Life committee member and head teacher."

"Hmph, I see, the prisoner is the life committee member!"

This is an easy-to-understand reasoning, in fact, Yuno had already thought of this possibility at the very first moment.But what's the use of thinking about it, the life committee member has already returned home from school, even if he suspects him, there is no evidence, and the teacher who is prejudiced against Yuno can't believe her one-sided statement.

"My wife's classmate's umbrella is very famous in the whole school, so that guy will definitely not take it out blatantly." Not to mention bringing it home, even if you walk around the school with it, it may be seen by many people.

So the biggest possibility is-

The eyes of the two shifted to the locker of the life committee member.

"Let's go to your head teacher to get the key."

This time, Yuno grabbed her hand.

"It's useless, that teacher won't believe me."

To her surprise, the girl didn't say anything like "How will you know if you don't try?" Instead, she held her head and thought hard for a long time again, and then left the sentence "I have a way to give it to me" and ran out alone classroom.

Not knowing what she was going to do, Yuno, who never expected others, just sat back in her seat silently, resting her chin and watching the orange-red sunset slowly sinking towards the horizon.Just when the colorful clouds in the sky were about to be dyed dark blue by the dark ink, the sound of hurried footsteps came from far to near.

The girl with short brown hair opened the door of the classroom with a swipe. She was out of breath, but happily raised a bunch of keys in her hand.The silver key reflected the light of the setting sun, gentle but so dazzling, it made her heart beat wildly like a drum, and an unprecedented intense feeling ran through her whole body, burning hotly.

Yuno stood up uncontrollably, and ran over there at an unprecedented speed.

The girl rushed to the locker in three steps at a time, frantically looking for the big key in her hand while shaking her hands.

"Quick, quick, quick!" It was probably the first time since she was born that she spoke at such a fast speed, "My wife and classmate, come and help me find which one it is! The teacher will come after you later! Hurry up!" point!"

stunned.

Never expected that the girl's so-called method was to use robbery.

Outside the classroom, the sound of high heels hitting the ground sounded, and it became more and more clear as time went by.

"Hurry up, my wife and classmate, I, I can't find it!" The girl asked her for help in horror, her eyes were wet, like the little sika deer she saw in the zoo.

Yuno quickly scanned all the keys with names written on them, and found the life committee member's name accurately, grabbed the key chain, and firmly inserted the correct key into the lock of the locker.

Click.

"What are you trying to do?!"

The head teacher's furious roar sounded at the same time as the creak of the locker being opened.

The two little girls looked at each other, and at the same time moved away from the body that blocked the teacher's view.In the cabinet behind them that didn't belong to them, the black parasol that was almost famous in the whole school was standing quietly in a corner, showing a sense of existence that could not be ignored.

After explaining the detailed ins and outs to the teacher in charge, the sun had already completely set.In the dark sky, Polaris has begun to shine its unique brilliance.

"It turned out to be dark before we could go back."

She remembers very well that it was the first time she had ever said anything of her own accord.There is still a five-point overwhelmed, five-point reserve that does not dare to expect a response, as if speaking to himself.

The brown-haired girl seemed completely unaware of the deep meaning hidden in her words, and responded quite naturally:

"That's not true. The umbrella is still needed tomorrow. Besides, if my wife and classmates lose the umbrella today, Mom and Dad will be angry."

It was obviously a meaningless comfort to her, but she felt happier than ever before.

This was the first time someone was willing to respond to her positively.

No sarcasm, no sympathy, and no disgust.

Pure and true, equal and friendly.

Wanting to keep something for the first time in her life, she held out her hand hesitantly.

"I'm my wife Yuno from class C of the third grade, how about you?"

Then the girl grabbed her without hesitation: "I'm Kuroki Jasmine from Class A of Grade 3, just call me Jasmine! Can I call you Yuno from now on?"

The life committee member who bullied her has transferred to another school, and her life has returned to its original state.

No, it's not, there's an extra idiot who's always on battery saver.She also got to know her good comrade-in-arms, the proud son of heaven.

As if she had been brought into a special class, her campus life seemed to have changed in a blink of an eye.Polite and friendly classmates, kind and kind teachers, it seems that everything that happened to her is just an illusory morning mist.When the sun comes out, it disappears without a trace.

So Jasmine is also her sun?

Where is such a stupid sun.

Believe what others say, and do what others tell her to do, she is so stupid.Being unprepared like her is good for everyone, what if you meet a bad person?Then there will be nothing left?It's better for people to be selfish.

But if she was really that kind of person, like others, who would sympathize with her but dare not reach out to her, would her life still be as stagnant as before, struggling in the muddy abyss?

She only found out later, and Jasmine didn't even know about her being bullied on campus, and she didn't think about the consequences of reaching out to her at all.The reason for paying attention to her is even more speechless. It turned out to be because the parasol looks very handsome.

"It's black and big, it looks very strong, and it can also block the wind and rain and the sun. Don't you think it's very handsome?!"

I don't know why she said that about something she hated so much before, but she still thinks it makes sense!

There must be something wrong.

Three days later, Jasmine, who asked her about the brand of the parasol, also bought an umbrella that was exactly the same as hers and started fighting.It's just different from Yuno's pure black, her umbrella has a big cat on it.The sticker was also of poor quality, and it became messy after being exposed to the rain once.So the act of being handsome did not succeed, and became a daily act of being stupid.

What's weird is that it was obviously being stupid, but it had unexpected results.Also holding an umbrella in the sun, not only did Jasmine not be squeezed out by everyone, but more and more students followed her example, bought exactly the same black umbrella, and put various stickers on the umbrella.

For a time, this strange fashion swept the whole school.

As a result, she, who was originally a maverick, became a member of ordinary students, and she was no longer treated specially because of being different.

Because they were together all the time, she was very sure that such a result was not within Jasmine's calculations.

She just loved it simply, and expressed kindness to the classmates around her, and then contributed to such a result.

Maybe another person does the same thing, maybe it won't be this kind of development.

Because she is an idiot, that's why she can do such a thing.

In addition, she will bring various snacks and cakes mixed with carrots from home every day, and share them with the two.

"She doesn't like carrots. You'd better get more of those snacks, lest she throw them all to me later."

If it weren't for Akashi's reminder, she probably wouldn't understand the girl's hidden intentions until she recovered from her illness.

Ultraviolet allergy is not necessarily due to the lack of vitamin A, but if you want to treat it, you can't go wrong by eating more vitamin A.The carefree girl really took her matter to heart. When others laughed at her and bullied her, the girl seriously understood the disease and gave her hope and care in a way that would not make her feel heavy.

Holding a bento box full of carrots, she suddenly understood.

Perhaps, this is the love that grandma has been talking about.

Jasmine also did everything to her, maybe not all actions were deliberate caring, and there was also a warm side of her personality.But no matter what kind of move, it must be an expression of her love.

She has pure kindness to the people around her, to the things she loves, and even to this world full of flaws, so everyone will respond to her with the same kindness.

This is a difficult thing to do.

Especially after she knew what kind of pain Jasmine had suffered, she couldn't imagine how she survived.After going through such a past, why can she still have such an innocent soul?

It must be because under such a weak appearance, there is a strong and gentle heart.

Yuno knew clearly that she couldn't do it.

Because I can't do it myself, I cherish her existence all the more.

Treat a piece of fragile porcelain like caring for a rare treasure.

I want to hold her in the palm of my hand, keep all suffering away from her, and keep her smile pure and warm all the time.

Just like she taught herself what love is, she also wants to repay her kindness with deeper love.

From the day I wrote my name on each other's umbrella——

This is her agreement with her unknown.

The author has something to say: Then Jasmine also used this umbrella to send Miu to the station, but Yuno returned home in the rain. (manual bye

I think I ordered Yuno what's the matter with the first session less than 00?

Must be an illusion =w=