[Comprehensive] Escape from shame is useless

After talking to Yuesen thoroughly, Jasmine no longer has any worries.Out of a responsible attitude, I made an agreement with Tsuzuki and Ueno that if within three days she didn't have any trouble with her fingers during practice, she would agree to their invitation to attend the New Year's Eve concert at the end of December.

For the next three days, Jasmine also planned to spend all of her spare time practicing difficult repertoires of various techniques, to see if her hands could still be as stable as usual under such an extreme environment.

So on Thursday——

"Minister, why hasn't master come to the stadium today?"

Matsuoka, who was already in the third year of high school, still stepped on the timing of the department's activities to report on time, sat on the sidelines and saw that the first-year members had already started warming up. The person he was waiting for had not yet appeared, so he thought of asking Mao Yelan.

"Oh, Kuroki said that she promised to help the orchestra department, so she won't come over in the next two days." And if it goes well, she may rarely find time to show up at the department in the next month and a half.

"Is the orchestra... a New Year's Eve concert?" It seemed to be all right at this point in time.

"I don't know about that." Chino stared at him blankly for a while after speaking, then pulled him two steps to the side, and persuaded him in a low voice, "Matsuoka, I know what you're thinking. It's just January The national examination will be in the second half of the year, so it's better for you to focus on your studies at this time. What's more, you know that Kuroki already has a boyfriend."

"Minister, what are you talking about, I'm not—" He hurriedly waved his hand in denial.

"Whether you are or not, I hope you will think about it and figure out what you should do now, Matsuoka-senpai."

Kayano finally patted him on the shoulder solemnly, turned and left.

Matsuoka looked at this junior who couldn't even serve well and asked him to teach him, and silently lowered his head.

what should he do...

Ever since he was beaten to the ground by Jasmine, ever since he knew that she was that Kuroki Jasmine, ever since he knew that she was still studying music and hadn't given up on the violin, he felt that this was an opportunity given to him by fate.Just like the movie I watched some time ago, the hero hurt the heroine because he was ignorant when he was a child, but the heroine was relieved and grew up, and she finally forgave the hero and came together with him.

What a tortuous and touching story, maybe they can also have such a happy ending.

Thinking of this, all of a sudden, happiness, envy, suspicion, jealousy, guilt, love, sympathy... all kinds of complex emotions are intertwined, and finally drove him to do all kinds of strange actions, and even conceived a dream. The master-student relationship is used to cover up his desire to contact her again.

The point of contact between them is tennis balls, just tennis balls.So he could watch her secretly from such a safe distance, gain her attention and favor by hiding his secrets.As long as he is given enough time, he will be able to impress her with sincerity.When the relationship between the two of them deepened to a certain level, and he was telling the whole story of the past, she would definitely forgive him at that time.

——Just like forgiving Yuesen, after all, resentment will not bring anything, people have to look forward.

It's a pity that this overly romantic hope was shattered by reality before it could bear fruit.

She has a boyfriend.

She let the man touch her.

asshole!

Before she knew it, she found that she had reached the practice tower and was parked outside her practice room.An inexplicable impulse in his body drove him to open the door and snatch back his own destiny!But at this moment——

"Ah, it's the senior apprentice!" Ueno appeared behind him, joking unconsciously, "Why, do you feel lonely because the master is not going to work today? But I'm sorry, Mr. Kuroki was alone by me during this time." If someone monopolizes it, it will not be returned to you, senior! Hey, what's the matter, senior?"

"No, I just want to see what she's doing, nothing else..."

Because of the strange guilt, Matsuoka forced a smile and quickly left the training tower.

He doesn't know how many people have seen his thoughts, but as long as the secret is not revealed, no matter what he does, there will be no problem.He still thought so when my wife Yuno called him to the student council room the next day.

It was the lunch break at the moment, and he had just finished his lunch when he received a notice from other students, saying that the student union was looking for him.He has been in school for nearly three years, and he has never set foot in the student union room. For the first time, he pushed open the double door on the top floor of the club building, and saw the person who caused a sensation two days ago, and now he is sitting quietly behind the desk alone. , the chairman with a blank face.

For some reason, the gaze that looked at him was very cold.

"Well, what's the matter..."

"Before I start, I would like to express my attitude. Although I am here to talk to you, I am not representing the standpoint of the student union. I am looking for you only for personal matters. The reason why I chose this place is because it is absolutely safe enough. No matter what you say, no one will find out."

Yuno's words further deepened his uneasiness, Matsuoka gritted his teeth, raised his head, and met her gaze.

Yuno did not reveal any emotion because of his performance, and continued to say coldly:

"Since you understand, then I'll say it straight. Matsuoka Kazuya, please don't appear in front of Jasmine again in the future."

Did she discover something? I heard that my wife Yuno is a close friend of Kuroki Jasmine, and she probably learned something from her.No, he had long been away from music, and it was impossible to suspect him without good reason.It is impossible for her to dissuade him because of that reason, it must be because of something else, after all, no one would be so busy as to investigate the eight generations of ancestors of everyone close to Jasmine, right?

For this reason, Matsuoka pretended to be calm, and even bluffed into a superior posture.

"Huh? Who do you think you are? The master hasn't said anything yet. Why are you telling me what to do?"

It is a pity that when the cards held by the two sides are completely different, this kind of confrontation is doomed to be completely unequal from the very beginning.after all--

In this world, there are people who check out the other person's life history just because they are close to Jasmine.

This person is my wife Yuno.

"It doesn't matter who I am, what is important is that you know who you are, Matsuoka, no, Kazuya Akita."

As soon as these words came out, the stone was shocked.

Whether it was Matsuoka who was stunned all of a sudden, or Jasmine who was with Ueno and was hidden in the next room by Yuno listening to the conversation between the two.

Akita Kazuya... I see, no wonder Yuno suddenly made such a fuss, and asked her that question again during lunch.She had already found out first, the reason why Matsuoka-senpai approached her.

"If the contestant who bullied you appeared in front of you again, knowing that you are the same you back then, but still wanting to continue to be friends with you as if nothing happened, what would you do?"

After eating the bento, in the quiet student council room, Yuno asked such a question softly.

This is an area that was absolutely not allowed to be involved in the past, and it is a deep and deep scar on her heart for many years. Let alone thinking about the answer to this question, just thinking about it for a while will make her feel unbearably painful.

Time has passed, and she can finally assume this premise without putting her life in danger, and think about this kind of question that she never thought of.Before the brain had time to come to a conclusion, emotions boiled over.

"Of course I will be angry! They passed it lightly, but I have really suffered from that incident for so many years!"

But she also knew that if the other party didn't care, continuing to be angry would only trouble her alone.But if she really acted as if nothing had happened, or said something like "Oh, everyone was young and ignorant", she couldn't do it.

"However, I am very generous. If I sincerely apologize, I can consider forgiving. But it is absolutely impossible to pretend that nothing happened!"

"I'll say it again, Akita Kazuya, please don't find any reason to pester Jasmine any longer."

In the student union room, the room was bright, Yuno stood up from behind the desk, her light red eyes were burning brightly in the glare of the noon sun, as if suppressing boundless anger and rage.

"You, what are you talking about, what Akita Kazuya, I don't know who you are talking about."

This level of sophistry is meaningless. Apart from showing that the person in front of him is at the end of his rope, it poses no threat to her.

"I say that, naturally I have enough evidence. Why, do you think that when you transfer from Tokyo to Kanagawa, others will never know everything about your past? Matsuoka-san, who has the mother's surname now?"

Sure enough, he gave up struggling very quickly, no longer defended his identity, and didn't even have the courage to ask to take a look at the information found by Yuno.

"...So Kuroki also knows?"

Yuno didn't speak.

"Why did you tell her?! You told me what to do next, how should I face her?" He yelled ferociously, rushed to the desk in three steps and stared at Yuno fiercely, His right arm drew an irregular arc in mid-air and hit the desk heavily.Then, under Yuno's unmoved cold eyes, he accused:

"I'm ready to apologize to her, how can I get off stage like this?!"

"Apologize?" Yuno twitched the corner of her mouth slightly as if she had heard something very funny, "I gave you a month to apologize, but you are obsessed with your master's little game and have no intention of apologizing. Now you I don't have this chance, run and yell at me...does it work?"

"I...apologizing is about timing. How can she forgive me if I apologize now?"

"Do you think that if you apologize when she doesn't know, she will forgive you?" Yuno was amused by this selfish guy, "Stop kidding, don't you have to confess before you apologize, what's the difference from now? Don't pretend Well, everyone can see what you're up to, Matsuoka-san, just because you want to play this kind of lame emotional card? It's useless, and Jasmine won't forgive you either."

"Who said that? Didn't Kuroki forgive Yuesen? He is obviously the same as me!"

The day before yesterday, he heard the conversation between the two outside the roof gate.Yue Sen personally admitted that he was just like them back then, he was jealous of Jasmine's talent, and he was not much nobler than them.In this case, as long as their relationship is a little bit better, Jasmine will definitely forgive him!

"You have to understand that what determines what a person is depends on his actions, not his thoughts. Yuesen is indeed like you, jealous, painful, sad...but he has taken actions that are completely opposite to yours. You are also violent towards Jasmine, and he stands in front of Jasmine to protect her from your threats. How thick-skinned are you, thinking you are the same as Yuesen?"

"But at that time I was just young and ignorant, and I have been regretting it for so many years." He said incoherently, not so much asking for forgiveness, but rather seeking sympathy.

"You know, because of this incident, I can no longer continue to learn the violin. I have nightmares every day. During that time, I was so thin that I was out of shape. When I entered high school, I still couldn't let go of my obsession with the violin. I would rather Lai Xingzuo didn’t feel like going to a key high school even after studying general subjects, do you understand? My dream, my original good life, was abruptly cut off on that day!”

With the sound of the door hinge turning, the door of the small room next door was pushed open, and Jasmine also walked in with the angry Ueno.

"Ah, Black—"

"That's the price you should pay for what you did to me back then."

I can't believe it, every word of this person is inseparable from me, whether it's regret, guilt, the reason for apologizing to her, or the reason for asking her to forgive, it's all just for me!

"That's right!" Ueno was not as good-tempered as Jasmine. She pointed at the disgusting man and said, "You can continue to live with that kind of guilt and regret! You hurt Master Kuroki and let her be so The pain is so sad! You say you are uncomfortable, you say you are pitiful, you say you have no dreams? You deserve it! You just continue to live with this twisted mood! Scum!"

"No, I'm not... I know that incident will make you painful, maybe you will still be afraid, sad and even cry when you think about it now, but I—"

"You made a mistake, Matsuoka-senpai." Jasmine also interrupted her again, "I'm not as painful as you think."

She didn't want to admit it, didn't want to admit defeat, in front of such a person, she didn't want to hear his sympathy even if she was trying to be brave!

"I'm not as weak as you. I've never given up on the violin. Not only that, my technique hasn't deteriorated at all, and my emotional expression is much better than when I was seven years old. Next month, I will talk to the star Together with the orchestra played by the Stars on the biggest and best stage in the history of the Stars School, creating brilliant achievements that belong to me and the whole school. I will continue to move forward, and you will be left far behind by me, truly Be an unimportant pebble on the road of my life."

Her words almost brought Matsuoka back to the backstage back then, to the stage full of resentment and jealousy, just like what the young volunteer said:

[You should also quickly recognize the reality, realize that you are just useless scum like me in front of her, and if you recognize yourself, you should obediently be her stepping stone on the road to true hope!Not only that, but I should also feel honored to be qualified to be her stepping stone~]

No, how is this possible, their dreams, their persistence, everything they do is meaningful!He is not an insignificant person to her, they are two people connected by fate!

"Maybe without what happened to us back then, you wouldn't be able to make it this far now! Maybe you would have given up on the violin a long time ago! It was because of our encouragement back then that you were made into who you are now? You don't care about people like Yuesen If you know how to be grateful, why don’t you understand our painstaking efforts?”

This person actually has the face to call their bullying "whip"? !

"Enough! This is all my own efforts, and it has nothing to do with your injuries. I didn't grow up because of your injuries, but because my relatives and friends accompanied me to overcome all difficulties to get to where I am today , has nothing to do with you!"

"That's right, don't put gold on your face, shameless!"

"Senior Matsuoka, this is the last time I call you senior, just like Yuno said, please don't appear in front of me again in the future. I don't need your apology, and it's not rare!"

He heard the words and wanted to continue arguing, but none of the three people present wanted to continue listening.In the end, Yu Nai dragged the stalker out.Probably also included some very practical words, anyway, from this day on, he never appeared in front of Jasmine again.

Yuno seemed to be returning from throwing out the trash, and even patted the non-existent dirt on her hands.

"Yuno let me listen inside because he was afraid that I would be cheated by him, right? Thank you." Because of her soft heart, she easily trusts others and doubts herself too easily.Yuno had promised her to let her deal with this kind of thing again, but she was fully prepared.

Yuno nodded as a matter of course and asked, "How do you feel?"

Feel?

It is really the first time that I have expressed my feelings so firmly and fiercely without any regrets.

This was something she could never have imagined in the past.

As long as he hears a little bit of rumors, he will be trapped in terrible nightmares, and hang himself on the ventilator bit by bit, cowardly, fragile, weak, unable to face reality, and have no courage to stand up against fate , I didn't have the courage to implement my beliefs amidst those criticisms, so I forced myself into a cage.

But she did nothing wrong, whether she was 7 years old or 15 years old now.

Jasmine also laughed heartily, showing her eight big white teeth, and gave Yuno a thumbs up.

"Refreshed!"

The author has something to say: It is not enough to know how to forgive, but also to know how to refuse.

Only by not forgiving those who should not be forgiven, and by not forgiving those who should not be forgiven, can tolerance and kindness be more valuable.