[Comprehensive] Escape from shame is useless

I never thought that what I saw was not the whole world.

Abandoning her, he chose the father who accompanied his mother to heaven.Raising her is like an uncle raising a wild dog that can be discarded at any time.Playing with her is like teasing a cousin of a cicada caught in a net and unable to break free.

The clansmen who attacked her as a woman and wanted her to hand over the power, and the elders who thought her age could not bear the burden of revitalizing the family, despised her and excluded her.The classmates at school isolated her, and the teachers ridiculed and hated her, so she couldn't get a chance to breathe outside.

in the end--

The so-called family is just a group of shameless people fighting for power and profit.

The so-called classmates are nothing but selfish people who have nothing to do with themselves.

Her world has been filled with stench from the very beginning, full of fishy rot, rotten to the bone marrow, and there is no cure.I never thought that I could break free, and I never expected to get out of the mud without being stained.In order to survive in such a world, she has long been soaked in this dirty mud, stained with a blackness that can never be removed, and branded with a mark that can never be removed.

In this life, you will surely sink into this hell, and perhaps you will not be able to escape this fate until you die.

The existence of Jasmine was just an accident.

The angel lowered his head by chance and stretched out his hand to everyone in the ground without discrimination. He didn't care that she was covered in dirt or stench. He held her hand that unconsciously stretched out towards the light, and never let go.

This hand is the only ray of light in her entire world.

The angel didn't know what she wanted or what she was thinking, but he could give her everything she needed accurately and continuously.She wants warmth and she gives warmth.She wants hugs and she gives hugs.She wanted friends, and she gave them... She satisfied almost all her demands, and finally one day, she became greedy, and began to demand things that should not belong to her.

I want to be free-

It was not announced, nor was it reflected in words and deeds. It was just that when I dreamed back at midnight, I secretly dreamed unrealistic dreams in a corner that no one knew.I dreamed that I was born in an ordinary family, a little girl who didn't understand anything and only worried about her grades every day, with a kind mother, and a father who worried about her daughter being abducted by bad boys—yes, it was like Like Aunt Yuelong and Uncle Masato, the family lived a simple and peaceful life in a noisy environment.

Yet again, without mentioning anything, her angel miraculously heard her wish, and—

【It is the loss of the whole human race to waste your mind like this! 】

In front of her, there was a glorious road leading to the land of golden light that had never appeared before:

You should go to a better high school, you should not stay in Xingzuo, you should go to the best university to realize your ideals and complete your life.

【Your goal should be the sea of ​​stars! 】

That is, the stairway leading to another world, where the angels and the Holy Spirit are, that radiant road with flowers and applause, happiness and the future.

For the first time, she saw the world beyond this swamp.

It was also the first time that she realized that she also had the opportunity to climb up.

But can she?

This kind of her, with her hands covered in blood, half of her body stuck in the swamp and unable to get out?

In order to survive, she has done too many wrong things, which are not sins that can be written off with a simple sentence of "I don't want to".When she decided to swing the butcher's knife at her relatives, there was no room for turning back.

Does such a girl have the qualifications?

After all, it won't work.

But I couldn't help yearning, couldn't help trying to raise my arms, took a step, and wanted to climb that road to see what scenery there was along the road.

[You don't need to go to high school, anyway, when your 16th birthday comes, you still have to drop out. 】

I can't help but think, if I could choose, if I was willing to leave Jasmine's side, which high school would I go to?

[Miss, you must give birth to an heir as soon as possible, otherwise the position of patriarch will not be secure for a day.All your hard work will be in vain. 】

I can't help but think, if I can go to university, what kind of major should I choose?

[Getting married at the age of 16 is a condition set by the separation of the family.Miss Yuno, time waits for no one, please choose a suitable husband-in-law as soon as possible. 】

I couldn't help but think, if there were no such burdens, what kind of man would she fall in love with at first sight and have a sour and sweet love?

[On the last day of the month, we will wait for you and your future husband-in-law. 】

Ah, if only I hadn't looked at it, thought about it, or tried it in the first place.

Why did she clearly realize that she had already found the answers to all her questions before the deadline was approaching!

out of control.

The heart that was originally stagnant, the fate she originally believed was derailed, and her judgment began to be disturbed.

What to do, what to do, what to do...

"Yuno, how about we go to a hot spring for this year's birthday?"

After lunch, Jasmine also sat on the sofa, her warm body leaning against her, shaking her arms.

"Okay, but why did you arrange it so long in advance this year? Is it because I'm afraid that the brat won't have time to accompany you?" Yuno let her hug her arm and acted like a baby, turning her head to rub the top of her hair, "Don't worry, If he dares not to be free, I will let him be free from now on."

"No, I mean next week, your birthday." Her... birthday?Ah, yes, it's been a long time since she talked about it, but she actually forgot that it was originally a day with other meanings.

As if she didn't notice the sudden stiffness of Yuno's body, Jasmine also carefully observed her expression and continued to plan.

"Last year, I was not in a good spirit, so I couldn't give you a good time. Let's celebrate this year. Do you want to invite everyone to come and play together, or just the two of us?"

The last day of October is her parents' memorial day, and for the young Yuno, that's all.My wife's family would go to the cemetery to offer incense on this day, and my uncle never tires of emphasizing it every year that she killed his sister and brother-in-law.Even after she took the seat of the Patriarch, no one in that mansion dared to say happy birthday to her.

All her memories of her birthday are closely linked with those around her.

Only Jasmine would smile at her on that day, give her presents, and tell her it was a day worth celebrating.

So she doesn't really care about the form, as long as she can see her smile on that day, she is satisfied.

But this year——

"I'm sorry, Jasmine, I'm 16 this year, and my family stipulates that this birthday must be celebrated at my home. Actually, I'm going home from the 29th to prepare, and I forgot to tell you all the time."

The right hand hidden in the cuff was tightly clutching the sofa, but Yuno's face only showed just the right amount of helplessness and regret.

"Oh, it's okay, then it's the same when we go to your house to celebrate. Or...inconvenient?"

Her mandible moved slightly, and she wanted to refuse reflexively, but looking into her eyes, the words of rejection were swallowed back by a ghost.

"If it's just you... and Akashi..."

Do you know what you're talking about my wife Yuno?The situation that day was so complicated, how could you get Jasmine involved? !

"My family won't say anything..."

If you invite her, the secret you've been hiding for so long will be revealed, and the side you least want her to see will be exposed in front of her.

"I'd be happy too."

No matter how--

Now that she is the patriarch, she hoped that Jasmine would be present at her birthday party, her wedding ceremony, no matter if it was sincere or not.She needs her testimony, she needs her approval.If this was the most important turning point in her life, then she hoped that Jasmine would be there.

My angel, my Jasmine too.

Please cut off my nostalgia there, and give me the courage to completely embark on the path of Shura.

Jasmine really couldn't see what Yuno was hiding.

There is not much abnormality in Yuno's coping attitude, and there is nothing particularly noteworthy when it comes to birthdays.Because it was her 16th birthday, the family had to make a big fuss about it, because Zheng Jun's family did this every year, and Jasmine felt that it was no big deal. Rather, it was strange to let her spend her birthdays outside by herself all the time.

But the "DeadLine" on the calendar was so weird that she had to pay attention.

Yuno calls her birthday a deadline, which must mean the end of "something" for her.

What will the end be, a good thing or a bad thing?

Thinking of her recent meeting with different men, the string in her heart really couldn't be shifted to the good side.

His chest was heavy and restless, and bad premonitions filled his mind.The more Yuno acted as if nothing had happened, the more Jasmine worried that this was just the calm before the storm.

The weekend passed quickly in this uneasy atmosphere.

After school on Monday, Yuno left the school first because of something to do as usual.But unlike usual, this time she not only didn't come back at night, but she wouldn't come back until the birthday party was over.

Before leaving, he babbled and told Jasmine a lot of things as usual, such as remembering to lock the door before going to bed, and so on, just like a year ago.Just listening to her endless nonsense, watching her hands straightening her neckline, Jasmine also found that her state of mind was completely different from that time.

She took Yuno's hand and asked again:

"Yuno, are you really alright?"

The bleak autumn wind blew, and a dead leaf fell from the branch above the head, shaking and falling from between the two of them.The moment the wide fallen leaves blocked his view, Yuno pouted, his teeth trembling, and at that moment he showed a weeping expression.

It was just Jasmine's light word of concern, and her layer upon layer of barriers were ruthlessly smashed open a huge hole, tearing her wounded heart sore and painful.I really want to just throw myself into her arms like this, I really want to say all the words hidden in my heart in one breath, I really want to cry and beg her to touch her head to comfort her.

But what exactly do I want to seek from her?What kind of words and comfort do you want to hear?

Maybe she didn't even know it herself.

This time, even her angel couldn't understand her heart.

After all, the weakness was only a short moment, the leaves drifted by, Yuno regained control of his expression, and put on the most gentle smile.She raised her other hand, put it on the back of Jasmine's hand, and patted it lightly twice.

"Don't worry, it's really fine. Then... see you on my birthday?"

Jasmine was also silent for a while, then suddenly stepped forward and hugged her.He touched her head under her surprised gaze, and softly whispered in her ear: "Yuno should also take good care of herself, don't be afraid, I will go, I will definitely go."

The tense emotions collapsed in an instant, and tears welled up in his eyes, and he could no longer suppress it.

Why, she can always poke her weak spot so easily...

Be caught off guard.

Yuno trembled uncontrollably, and Jasmine also hugged her tightly, allowing her to open her mouth and shout crazily in a breathy voice, allowing her to wrinkle her school uniform uncontrollably.Tears wet the collar, and the hot liquid soon turned into a coolness, and was covered by a new temperature in an instant.

She didn't know what kind of difficult decision Yuno was facing, and she didn't even know how to help her.But one day there was no doubt that her Yuno was crying silently in her arms.It was a predicament that could not be revealed, a secret that could not be told to anyone, but she was still conveying a signal with such unprecedented catharsis——

I need you, please help me!

"I will save you." She emphasized every word, and made a promise in Yuno's ear, "No matter what happens, I will save you. So Yuno, no matter what happens, don't give up, know ?"

After crying, with red eye circles, Yuno no longer pretended to be calm, and with a lonely smile, reluctantly bid farewell to Jasmine.What she can do, what she can say, is all there is.She is just a coward, dare not say anything, dare not do anything, only leave the right to choose to her angel who knows nothing.

No matter what awaits her at that time, whether it is judgment or redemption, she is willing to do so without a single complaint.

"No matter what happens that day, our relationship will never change. I will always love you, Molly."

With a final kiss on her cheek, Yuno let go of their tightly held hands and embarked on a journey to the most important fork in life.

Jasmine also stood quietly on the same spot for a while, and then slowly remembered that there was still some work to do today, and then walked to the tennis court in a daze, completely unaware that her racket was still hanging by the desk in the classroom.

"Ah, master, I thought you wouldn't be here today."

As soon as he walked to the sidelines, Matsuoka pushed open the iron gate and walked out.Finding that her expression was not quite right, I asked more questions.

"What's the matter with you?"

"It's nothing, it took a little longer to talk to Yuno just now."

Although I came to the court, I didn't have the mood to play. I played with such a heart that I couldn't get up and down. I felt sorry for the person who practiced with me, and even more sorry for this senior who was sincerely studying.Apologize to him and the minister and ask for leave today.

"I--"

"Is the president telling you about her dropout? I just passed by the principal's office and overheard it. Did something happen to the president's house?"

Jasmine couldn't hear a single word of what he said afterwards.

Yuno... she dropped out of school?

It's not asking for leave, not suspending school, not transferring schools, but... dropping out?

Was it that the thing that troubled her was so difficult that she was forced to drop out of school?

Jasmine also tremblingly took out her mobile phone from her pocket, because she was too nervous, but failed to complete this simple action several times.The mobile phone that was finally taken out was accidentally dropped. If Matsuoka hadn't caught it quickly for her, it might have hit the ground directly.

"Master, are you uncomfortable?" His face was so bad.

She ignored Matsuoka's words again, and immediately called Yuno after taking the phone, but——

"Sorry, the number you dialed is off. Sorry, the..."

Shut down.

The reminder sound echoed in my ears many times, and Jasmine didn't put down the receiver until the connection was completely disconnected.

"I'm sorry, Matsuoka-senpai, please help me take a leave of absence for the minister."

Jasmine also raised her head again, and the wind stirred her bangs, revealing those firm eyes.

"—I have something important to do."

The author has something to say: Although Yuno said "I want Jasmine to witness my decision", in fact, it is not what she thinks in her heart.