[Comprehensive] Escape from shame is useless

"Is there anyone dating Yuno now?"

"No, that was just a whim, there will be no next time."

"But--"

"Jasmine too, it doesn't mean anything to people like us, it's just like shopping for karaoke, it's just for fun."

This time, she just brought it up in one stroke, and the mood that had been secretly excited for a day when she thought she could hear the good news suddenly cooled down.

But how can such a thing happen on a whim?

Maybe there is such a high school student, maybe she really doesn't know anything about the practices of the underworld, but she knows Yuno, she is not such a frivolous girl, even conservative to a certain degree.

She strictly abides by the dress requirements of the school rules, never deliberately dresses up, and does not pursue fashion, and all the jewelry she has bought so far are for Jasmine.She keeps a distance from people, never being too close to any opposite sex, and has never accepted any confession from any boy. Even Akashi and Yukimura, who have the best relationship, rarely go out alone.Jasmine even secretly wondered if Yuno had no interest in boys.

Moreover, with her character that does not tolerate a grain of sand in her eyes and her decisiveness when she decides, to be honest, if it is not for true love, it is hard for her to imagine that Yuno would refuse her boyfriend's request because she couldn't bear it or was embarrassed like other girls And half-pushing and half-doing it without knowing why.

She neither denied Jasmine's guess, but she was also unwilling to admit her feelings for the other party, and even preferred to use such a reason to stigmatize her own personality.

She didn't know what Yuno was thinking, but Jasmine also understood one thing deeply——

Yuno didn't want her to ask any further.

As if to prove that she didn't care, Yuno once again resumed the days when she and Jasmine also went in and out together.They went to and from school together every day, and they almost got tired of being together during lunch break. No matter whether Jasmine was eating or taking a walk, she would never leave her, as if everything had returned to the beginning.

But has nothing really changed?

"Master Kuroki, every time you encounter a place marked Cadenza (cadenza), do you follow the score or improvise?"

After lunch, a large group of people gathered at the atrium chat meeting. They seemed to come to Ueno to discuss the performance arrangement of the orchestra. After hearing her conversation with Jasmine, they chatted for no reason.

Jasmine replied without thinking, "Impromptu, isn't this meant to be impromptu? Isn't it boring to follow the score?"

"That's right, this kind of time is the time to show off your skills, don't be cowardly and just do it!"

"But, you don't know what to play, okay? The more we let us play casually, the more we don't know what to do!"

"Although we don't have this kind of score on our sheet music, I understand the feeling. Every time I help someone grab bread, what I hate to hear is that any kind is fine! I really want to blow her head off!"

"But we can't blow the heads of Beethoven and Paganini..."

"I think it's time to ask the audience for their opinions. Chairman, if it were you, what kind of cadenza would you like to hear?"

She really didn't know anything about classical music, Yuno listened to their chat with a perfect business smile, just like listening to the heavenly scriptures, when the question was thrown in front of her by surprise.

This second-year senior really has no malicious intentions. After all, Ueno and Jasmine also brought up this topic in the first place, and they acquiesced to the third person who was there—the student council president who seemed to be really omnipotent. .

"Ah, Yuno's words—"

Interrupting Jasmine's desire to smooth things over, Yuno rested her chin on one hand, looked lovingly at the little angel beside her, and said in a chant-like tone: "My opinion has no reference value, because if it's Jasmine's , no matter what I play, I like it."

"Yuno!" Amidst the blushing screams of everyone, Jasmine also rebuked her speechlessly.

"Just kidding. I think that at that time, you will definitely show what you are best at. Whether it is gorgeous skills or rich emotions, as long as you play with all your strength, we as the audience I can definitely feel your enthusiasm. I believe that even the distress at this moment will become an indispensable seasoning in your performance."

I don't know what is Cadenza, what is cadenza, and what does it matter?Judging from what they discussed just now, it should be the part where the performers are more encouraged to improvise although there is a well-written score.As long as you know this and think about it from the perspective of "how to complete a good improv performance", it is natural to draw this conclusion.

"Right?"

"That's right, the important thing is not what is played in the end, but what we want to convey."

"As expected of the chairman!"

Yuno spoke modest words, with a smile on his face, but there was no fluctuation in his heart, and he was indifferent.

In the past, there were times when she was beyond the scope of her knowledge. As long as she solved the problem perfectly with her wit, it would always give her a sense of superiority that she could control everything. The satisfaction that she could handle all the problems perfectly would make her happy physically and mentally.

But now I just feel bored, even a little bored.

She didn't know anything about the issues they were discussing, and she had no interest in it. It was only because Jasmine was here that she sat reluctantly and took the trouble to answer the questions they threw at her inexplicably.Once or twice is fine, but in just one week, this happened three or four times.It is foreseeable that in the future, after Jasmine also embarks on the road of a musician, more friends with the same ambition will gather around her, and the topics between them will become more and more professional. One day——

It would be completely beyond the scope of her intervention.

But in fact, this matter is easy to solve, she just needs to learn.There is nothing in this world that my wife Yuno wants to learn but cannot learn. She still has this confidence.But the key is whether you think about it or not.

She is not interested in classical music, and she is not good at physiology.As long as she heard it, she felt dizzy, and she was not interested in those complicated music theories at all, and she felt dizzy just looking at it.And the more beautiful the classical music, the more sleepy she felt after hearing it.To put it bluntly, if it weren't for the level of the students who like to practice on the rooftop and the forest square, she would probably be exhausted just walking around the campus, let alone studying hard. student council president.

She had tried it a long time ago. After she knew that Jasmine also liked the violin in elementary school, she tried to get in touch with and learn classical music knowledge, but every time she ended up falling asleep, and even the little angel teaching it herself didn't work.

There is no way but to give up.

She also thought that it didn't matter if she didn't understand, even if she didn't understand Jasmine's music, she was still her best friend.

but--

"Did you watch the TV show yesterday? That person didn't make a single sound, hahaha, I laughed so hard!"

"Ah, look at it, my mother was drinking water and spit it out!"

"You said he was ashamed to show such a confident smile after he finished stretching——"

"I recorded it, which one of you wants to review?"

Jasmine also looked at the mobile phone of one of them, and within two seconds, she also burst into laughter.The girls' laughter was crisp and hearty, and their smiles under the sun were as bright as April Fangfei, attracting curious eyes from all directions.

Among the crowd, she was the only one who was out of place, like an ugly duckling mixed in with a flock of swans.Oh no, the ugly duckling can always grow into a beautiful swan, and everything they talk about is something she can never touch.

Just then, the phone rang.Yuno smiled apologetically at everyone and walked away a few steps.

"Miss Yuno, the elder asked if you have time this afternoon, and would like to invite you to have another meal."

Standing in the shadow of the teaching building, she turned around and looked at the people bathed in the sun.

Even though she was wearing the same general department uniform as her, Jasmine still integrated into a group of music department students without any suspicion, and was even more outstanding and dazzling than them.Once she steps on the stage in front of everyone again, the world will once again tremble with her melody, she will completely remove the shackles that have been imposed on her over the years, soar into the sky, and step into the temple of music .

She sincerely looks forward to that day, and also dreads that day——

The day when her little angel no longer belongs to her alone.

Akashi is Jasmine's favorite person, even important enough to make her give up music voluntarily to get his love.

But what about her?She didn't know what she was to Jasmine.

In her opinion, she is nothing but a coward who deceives herself.

Pretending to be generous without being ashamed, saying that as long as Jasmine is happy, I have nothing else to ask for.

But in his bones, he valued her feelings for him more than anything else.

If one day, Jasmine no longer needs her, no longer treats her as a friend, no longer relies on her.Can she really let go with a blessed heart like she said?

Ha ha.

"Understood, tell the elders, I will go."

Therefore, you can no longer make mistakes, and you can't indulge in occasional slack emotions, just do what you should do.

My wife Yuno, don't forget that what is really important to you is not yourself——

But Kuroki Jasmine also.

In the atrium behind the teaching building, Jasmine was also sitting among a group of music students, but her eyes drifted to Yuno who was answering the phone with her back turned to this side from time to time.Unknowingly noticing her gaze from time to time, Yuno turned his head and met her gaze from a distance of more than ten meters, then softened the lines of his face, raised the corners of his mouth, and showed a gentle smile.But I don't know if the shadow covering her is too thick, making her smile mixed with something else, making people look a little lonely.

What has Yuno been worrying about lately?

I don't know if she has noticed, but recently she often loses her mind during the conversation, and she needs to call out several times before she can react.After school, without telling her the specific itinerary, it also happened from time to time to disappear for most of the night under the pretext of "something".They finally went home together, and after dinner, they stopped pestering her to chat about endless topics, but rushed into the room in a hurry, and didn't come out until it was almost ten o'clock to urge her to sleep.

This kind of doubt reached its peak when she found a reason to go to Yuno's room to have a heart-to-heart talk with her, but was pushed back to the living room by her.

Yuno...is she in trouble?

But no matter how you ask, she just doesn't let go, and always uses "it's okay, you think too much" to perfuse her.

Jasmine was also a little discouraged, after a year, Yuno still treated her like a child, unwilling to tell her what happened, and wanted to solve it by herself.However, if she didn't tell her, wouldn't she be able to find out?Others may not be able to do anything about it, but Yuno has always been unguarded against her. If she can't find the problem like this, then it's too useless, right?

So, after Yuno left again for "occupation", after confirming that she really left the school, Jasmine did not go to practice the piano, but went to the student council room.At this time, only the secretary and the accountant were left in the student union room, and they both knew her.So when Jasmine went to look through Yuno's desk and bookcase with the excuse of "Yuno has left something here, please let me bring it home", she didn't encounter the slightest suspicion.

Yuno's desk is the same as her own, tidy and tidy, all the materials are clearly marked by category, separated by several book folders, so it is easy to see what is there at a glance.

Application form, proposal, various reference books, Xingzuo's school history, music history... At first glance, it seems that there is nothing particularly suspicious.Open it casually, it is full of various replies, impressions after reading, and analysis of key paragraphs, which shows how attentive Yuno was when he read it.

The same goes for the bookcase. They are all materials from the past years, and there is nothing particularly noteworthy.If I have to say, there are a few books in English that she can't understand at all. Judging from the title, it should be related to medicine, but I don't understand the specifics.That's right, among a lot of proper nouns, she can only recognize the word "Medicine".

But even if there are a few medical-related books, it can't explain anything, right?In the past, Yuno would occasionally read psychology-related books, of course because of her PTSD.So it is not surprising that medical books appear here.

No clues were found in the student council room, and only her room remained.Just when Jasmine was also carrying the piano case and schoolbag and was about to leave school early for the first time, when Yuno went back to have a look before she went back, something unexpected happened.

"Hey, have you heard? The president is doing aided dating in private!"

Such an endless discussion suddenly reached her ears, which abruptly stopped her from leaving.

Jasmine also decisively put the things on the ground, walked into the women's toilet where the sound came out just now, closed the door with her backhand, and stood in front of the tongue-twisting person.

"What did you just... say Yuno?"

The author has something to say: Calvin, at least I finished writing orz in the last few seconds

Will modify.