Do not lie to me

Qi Liang stood in front of the tombstone and didn't know how to answer. He didn't know that Shang Xuechen had experienced so many things that day.No wonder, no wonder he sighed when he picked himself up off the ground when he arrived.

Shang Xuechen patted Qi Liang on the back, "I tell you this, not to make you blame yourself. I want you to know that I didn't deliberately avoid you back then. In fact, I was too wrong back then. I shouldn't have Jia Jia is your life-saving straw, so you should not ignore you. Now that I have made it clear, I hope you can open up your knots. Maybe, you want to start again, and come to find me abroad when the time comes."

Shang Xuechen moved two steps forward and knelt down in front of the tombstone, "Dad, uncle, how are you doing lately? I'm really sorry that it took me so long to come to see you. Dad, I'm sorry, just to say goodbye to you , Think about how unfilial I am. I’m leaving, don’t worry, I’ve made an agreement with my cousin that he will visit you often. I’ll tell him the wine you like to drink and let him visit you more often. Uncle, you have never met your cousin. Although he is the son of the uncle, he looks a bit fierce, but he is actually very talkative. Don’t quarrel with Dad just because he is the son of the uncle. Forgive them after so many years, Take a good look at the scenery here with Dad."

Shang Xuechen stood up and saw Qi Liang behind him still hanging his head, flicked his forehead with a smile, and thought of Ji Shuping again after the flick.He also flicked his forehead that time in the kitchen.

Qi Liang looked up at him, and Shang Xuechen came back to his senses, "Don't blame yourself. Go out and treat me to a good meal, and you should practice it for me. After I leave, you must live a good life. It sounds hard to start over. But people still have the opportunity to choose when they are alive, don’t they?”

When people are alive, there will always be opportunities to choose.

Shang Xuechen's heart tightened. At that time, Ji Shuping held his hand and gave him a chance to choose to follow him, but he killed it himself.

When people are alive, there will always be opportunities to choose.

Of course Qi Liang knew that if he was alive, he still had the opportunity to choose. At that time, he was about to give up life, but Shang Xuechen gave him a hand.But after he stood up, he chose the path of being disliked by others.Choose now, how about those sins, how to redeem them?And what about those who have sinned against themselves?Can he forgive easily?

Qi Liang felt that he couldn't start again, because he couldn't learn to forgive, he couldn't let go, so he deserved to suffer now.

Shang Xuechen took Qi Liang's hand, "Let's go."

He knew that Qi Liang would block himself if he got into a corner, so he left quickly. He only hoped that Qi Liang could be better in the end, so that he still had hope in life.

Shang Xuechen didn't go back, he wanted to go straight through the path in front of the tombstone and go down the stairs on the other side.Qi Liang followed behind him, and suddenly stopped moving.He turned his head to look at Qi Liang, and saw Qi Liang stop in front of a tombstone and stare fixedly at the photo on it.

"What's wrong?" Shang Xuechen walked up to him and asked him.

"Xuechen, I can't let go."

Shang Xuechen didn't understand what he meant.Qi Liang pointed to the tombstone in front of him, "Xuechen, how do I start over? On the day I made an appointment with Shen Ao in the unfinished building, I met that girl, she might be waiting for someone. Later her stepfather came, I was about to take her home by pulling her hair. She was pulled by her stepfather and passed by me. When she saw me, there was a flash of begging in her eyes. When I was not bad, I often encouraged Ask her to call the police, speak out, and resist. And that day I stood by the side of the road and watched her being dragged away quietly. What did I want to do with me at the time? I am grateful, but I never thought that I would become miserable. In fact, I think about how much she hated me when I saw my righteous words. People who have never experienced it can say it easily. Later, I experienced it and was bullied Only after I was beaten by Ling did I realize how high-sounding what I said to her. When she was dragged to the corner, she called me, and she called my name, which sounded very soft. At that time, I was thinking, why did she Will she call my name? If she calls to save me, will I go up to save her? Actually, there is nothing to think about, she didn’t ask me to save her, she just called my name.”

Shang Xuechen looked at the tombstone in front of him, on it was a picture of a young girl, he thought, so it was her.It turned out that she betrayed Qi Liang's secret, causing Qi Liang to be bullied by Shen Ao, causing Qi Liang to lose his kindness.

"Xuechen, thank you for telling me what happened back then. Thank you for not blaming me and apologizing for not taking responsibility for me. I know it's not your fault. What happened back then was designed by me. It's wrong to provoke Shen Ao. I deserve it. I can't start over because I'm guilty. I killed her and I deserve it."

Sometimes when Qi Liang was at home, in the alley, or in any quiet place, he could hear someone calling him from behind, just like the girl who called "Qi Liang" softly at the corner back then.Every time Qi Liang heard it, he would think, I am not ashamed, if you want to resent, then resent.In fact, he felt ashamed in his heart, so he felt that being with Shen Ao was the punishment he deserved, and it was also the punishment Shen Ao deserved.

"Qi Liang, it's not your fault, you just, you just..."

"It's just what? I just watched with cold eyes, right? It's more than that. I let Shen Ao fuck me that day, I called you to let you see, and then I went to the hospital. That night in the hospital, I didn't expect that she would Come."

Shang Xuechen vaguely remembered that a girl came to find Qi Liang, but he didn't remember clearly.That night when he sent Jiajia away in the hospital, someone passed him by. When he turned his head to look, he seemed to see a girl entering Qiliang's ward.When he came back after delivering Jia Jia, he fell ill, and that was the first time he fell ill.Why did I get sick, as if someone robbed him, who robbed him, why did he rob him?Shang Xuechen couldn't remember.

"She was standing in my ward, and I saw the first button on her collar was torn off, and I could see that she was taken back by his stepfather and sexually abused. But I didn't care, my own I was always lying on the hospital bed, not much better than her. I told her that I was also raped/violated by Shen Ao, and I was not a clean thing like her. It's an eyesore. I told her on purpose, because I later found out that she told Shen Ao my secret. After she heard it, she was a little abnormal, and asked me if I could forgive her. What kind of forgiveness is there between me and her? She hurt me like this, although I didn't hurt her, but I did nothing to save her, even if it was evened out, there is no question of whether to forgive her or not."

Qi Liang took a deep breath, he understood from his own affairs that kindness can see the limit, but malice has no bottom.What he said at the time sounded like it didn't matter, but it probably hurt her heart.If she hadn't forced him into this situation, maybe he would have rushed to protect her when he saw her stepfather grabbing her hair and beating her, but it was a pity that she broke his kindness, so he got his in the end Beside the cold eyes.The causal cycle is used to maliciously play tricks on the fate of the world.

"After listening to my words, she stood in my ward for a while, and then left. You've seen her before. When she left, she seemed to bump into you when she went out."

Shang Xuechen stared blankly at the photo on the tombstone, he couldn't remember, "I bumped into her? Then?"

"Later? That night, she committed suicide by jumping off the roof of the hospital."

Suicide.Shang Xuechen looked at the tombstone in front of him, he should know the ending of this girl, because he had seen the photo on the tombstone before, it was Wen Ting, he had seen this photo at Hang Qing, she was sent by Shao Ling to approach Ji Shuping on purpose, The girl who was interviewed and dismissed by the chairman.

"It's me. It was my resignation and inability to forgive that became the straw that crushed her. Because of this, I shouldn't be forgiven, nor should I forgive Shen Ao. This is the punishment we deserve. I Both Shen Ao and Shen Ao are guilty of killing her."

Shang Xuechen frowned. Shao Ling and Yao Caier, the people who lured Wen Ting to come out to sit on stage, were both dead. Is this the punishment they deserved?He frowned and thought, and looked down at the flowers in front of the tombstone. The flowers were a little dry, as if they had been let off for a day.Shang Xuechen stepped forward and knelt down to look at the bouquet of flowers.A card was exposed from the wrapping paper of the bouquet. He picked it up and saw the words "Happiness Flower Shop" on it.

"Qi Liang?" Shang Xuechen pinched the card and rubbed his fingers over it, "How is this girl's family well?"

"My mother is unemployed at home, and my stepfather is helping people to buy goods. I don't know what to do now. It's not a good look."

Shang Xuechen stuffed the card into his pocket. He should have guessed that Wen Ting's family conditions are not very good, otherwise why would he come out to sit on the stage.So, why is Wen Ting's tomb in this cemetery with a high land price?Who buried her here?She had a relationship with Ji Shuping, so the Ji family paid for it?

Forget it, don't think about it, this is not something that people who are about to leave should worry about.Shang Xuechen got up and pulled Qi Liang over, "Qi Liang, let's go. She is not only your fault. Maybe you are not the only one she can't let go of."

Wen Ting, like herself, should be the most attached to Ji Shuping.

Shang Xuechen felt a little headache, too many things happened that day.He didn't know what he had forgotten. Qi Liang said that he had bumped into Wen Ting, but he didn't have much memory of Wen Ting.The building she jumped from the hospital rooftop?

No, she never thought of jumping off the building.Shang Xuechen froze on the spot, and Qi Liang, who was following behind him, bumped into his back.Why, why am I so sure that Wen Ting never thought of jumping off the building?

"Qi Liang, did you see what happened after I collided with her?"

Qi Liang stood behind him, looked up and only saw the back of Shang Xuechen's head, "I only saw that when she opened the door to go out, she bumped into you who was about to enter, and after being bumped into, you suddenly became irritable and slammed the door to go out At that time, I was still on an IV drip and didn't chase after it, so I don't know what happened next."

That was the first time Shang Xuechen had an illness. When he had an illness, he would sometimes get overly anxious and throw things in a temper tantrum. He once slashed a knife across the back of Ji Shuping's hand, so did he hurt Wen Ting at that time?

"Qi Liang, I always feel that she didn't jump off the building because of you."

Qi Liang lowered his head. He kept this matter in his heart for many years. Shang Xuechen had obviously bumped into Wen Ting at the time, but he turned around and never asked himself who came to see him. His reputation was ruined at that time, and there were no classmates. When he came to see him, his parents didn't want to recognize him anymore. Only Wen Ting came to see him, which seemed very abrupt, but Shang Xuechen never mentioned seeing Wen Ting, as if he had never met him before.

"Why do you say that?"

"I remember that I seemed to be chasing it out, as if I was trying to recover something. Feeling, feeling told me that she didn't jump off the building because of you."

Qi Liang thought, actually Shang Xuechen is a good person, knowing the self-blame in his heart, he still needs to use his feelings to comfort himself that she did not jump off the building because of what he said, he walked around Shang Xuechen with a smile, and looked back He said, "Xuechen, thank you."

Shang Xuechen saw Qi Liang turned his head and smiled at him, a very different smile than usual, he always smiled fakely, but now he smiled genuinely, but the corners of his eyes drooped instead of raised, looking very sad.Shang Xuechen knew that Qi Liang didn't believe what he said, and he didn't believe that Wen Ting didn't commit suicide because of his words.Qi Liang still couldn't let go, and started over again.

But this is not something he can interfere with. He only hopes that Qi Liang can come out after he leaves.

Shang Xuechen smiled back at Qi Liang, and walked forward, "Thank you also for accompanying me to see my father and uncle today, let's go."

When the car drove back to the city, it was already dark.Shang Xuechen looked at Qi Liang who was driving the car in a bad mood, probably because he saw Wen Ting's tombstone, "Is the bar still open today?"

"Well, business still needs to be done." Qi Liang spoke listlessly.

"Would you like to take a day off? I don't think your complexion is very good."

Qi Liangqiang shook his head vigorously, "No, I'm fine. It's just that I don't feel too sad when I think about what happened a long time ago. After all, it has faded a lot over time."

Shang Xuechen turned his head and looked out the window, "Since the bar is open as usual today, you can put me on the side of the road. I live quite far from your bar. I'll get down and take a taxi to save you time on detours."

Qi Liang wanted to say it was okay, but Shang Xuechen insisted, so he had no choice but to put Shang Xuechen in a convenient place to take a taxi.

Shang Xuechen got out of the car, and when he closed the car door, he looked back at Qi Liang and said goodbye with a smile, "Qi Liang, I know that you have always been kind, so giving you a hand was the luckiest thing I ever did."

Qi Liang also wanted to say some warm farewell words, but he couldn't say it. He had been bad for a long time, so everything he said seemed hypocritical.

Shang Xuechen looked at Qi Liang's hesitant look, he didn't force it, just smiled and waved to Qi Liang, closed the car door, hailed a taxi and left without looking back.

It wasn't until a car honked its horn behind that Qi Liang came back to his senses and turned the steering wheel to drive to his own bar.After entering the bar, there were three or two regular customers ordering wine and chatting happily. The bartender at the bar had already started working. Qi Liang greeted them with a smile, and went straight into the staff lounge.

Today, he thought of what happened many years ago, and felt a little tired, but no matter how tired he was, he didn't want to go home to rest. When he was alone, he could always hear someone shouting "Qi Liang" weakly behind him. He had to work non-stop , Let yourself be too tired to think about these things.

"Qi Liang."

Qi Liang was so frightened by the sound from behind that the clothes in his hands fell to the ground, and he turned his head to see that it was Shen Ao standing behind him.Shen Ao knew that Qi Liang went to see Shang Xuechen today, and he thought that Qi Liang should be in a good mood to see Shang Xuechen, so he allowed himself to approach him.Since the last time Shang Xuechen and Qi Liang talked in the lounge, Qi Liang never allowed himself to touch him again.

Shen Ao opened his arms, and was about to hold Qi Liang in his arms, to smell his body well, he hadn't smelled it for a while, and he missed it very much.

Qi Liang stretched out his hand and pushed Shen Ao away. Shen Ao didn't understand what he meant, and asked him, "Didn't you see him today?"

So it's time to reward yourself.

Hearing what he said, Qi Liang turned his head and looked at Shen Ao sullenly. Shen Ao thought that Qi Liang had suffered from Shang Xuechen, so he bent his knees and wanted to kneel down and beg for mercy from his master, letting him vent his anger.

Qi Liang grabbed his arm, not wanting him to kneel down, his expression seemed to be still angry, but there was mist in his eyes, "It's not like this, Shen Ao. I didn't want to be like this!"

Shen Ao thought that it was rare for Qi Liang to soften his heart towards him, so he straightened his knees, stretched out his hand and wiped the corner of his eyes with his thumb.Qi Liang looked up at him, "Why? Why did you treat me like that at that time?"

Caused me to abandon kindness.It caused me to watch Wen Ting coldly and say cruel words, which made me feel guilty for the rest of my life and kept torturing you.I don't want to do this anymore.

Shen Ao withdrew his hand, not daring to touch Qi Liang.He was most afraid that Qi Liang would ask him why, what should he say, and tell Qi Liang that I was born with anger regulation disorder, because you are so cute, so cute that my hormones rise, and I want to invade you.After the aggression, it makes me obsessed with your body and wants to be by your side all the time, so it's okay, it doesn't matter what you do to me.Now as long as you are willing, whether you hate or vent your anger, I will bear it, because happy relationships are always short-lived, and resentment is the most lasting.

Qi Liang looked at the dumbfounded Shen Ao who was standing in front of him and was asked why, he always looked like this whenever he was asked why.Qi Liang raised his hand, wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, pushed Shen Ao away, and walked out of the lounge.