Do not lie to me

The rain stopped and the car arrived at the station.

Shang Xuechen dragged his heavy body, carrying his soaked bag that weighed almost ten catties, and went to the lobby of the platform to buy a ticket.It was already dark outside, and only one working window was lit. Shang Xuechen walked towards the lit ticket window, only to realize that the last train of the day had just left.Buy now and only buy until the first bus tomorrow morning, leaving at a quarter past five.

Shang Xuechen bought a ticket for the first train tomorrow morning and went back. The situation was not too bad. He comforted himself, as long as he stayed in the hostels around the station for one night, the journey back would only take more than an hour, and the time was not too long. Now just open / room to take a hot bath to warm up the body.

So, you see the situation is not bad.He forced himself to laugh, and went to look through his bag, which was soaked in water and weighed almost ten catties. At first, he just wanted to look through the wallet, but when he reached in, he touched the wet clothes, "So this bag is not waterproof."

After saying this sentence, just this sentence, the psychological defense line collapsed, and everything that was deliberately built before was not very bad.In fact, it was terrible, his nose was sore, he was drenched and uncomfortable, he missed the bus that just left, and he only missed 1 minute, and Ji Shuping just left after saying goodbye to himself, the bus The car came, and everything was bad, bad in the word of God's will.

At that time, he just joked that the waterproof performance of the bag was good, it was because the mobile phone was not wet, why everything in the bag was soaked, but only the mobile phone was not wet, why it was thundering and raining, and the countryside was remote, so he called Uncle Kang His phone signal was not disturbed at all, he lied, from the waterproof performance of the bag to the bus behind him, he hated himself for lying to Ji Shuping from the beginning to the end.Will Ji Shuping feel bad?Do you feel that you really don't want him at all?Why on earth did I make that phone call!Shang Xuechen seldom has any regrets, because he used to think that regrets meant self-inflicted pain, and he was right in the past, and now he is standing in the station hall where the flow of people is decreasing, feeling his own regrets, this self-inflicted feeling Very uncomfortable.

"Ji Shuping, the car really came later, and I really got on it, I didn't mean to lie to you." He was tired from crying, and he was powerless, and could only accept the status quo dejectedly, "Let's go first Let's buy some clothes."

Uncle Kang sent Ji Shuping back to the villa where he lives now. Before getting off the car, Ji Shuping told Uncle Kang, "You don't need to pick him up tomorrow. I will drive to the company by myself."

Uncle Kang glanced at Ji Shuping's arm, "Master, let's rest at home first."

"I've been resting outside for a long time, and the employees are also on vacation. There are a lot of things in the company. You should go to work early. You don't need to pick it up tomorrow." Ji Shuping left the room after speaking, and closed the door without wanting to listen to Uncle Kang's persuasion.

Uncle Kang stood still and sighed, sometimes his young master is really confusing.Uncle Kang had no choice but to drive away first, thinking that it would be good if he didn't come tomorrow, and the chairman would probably find himself to report the situation tomorrow.

Ji Shuping leaned against the gate, heard the sound of Uncle Kang's car driving away outside, and waited for another 2 minutes before opening the door and heading straight for the garage.Shang Xuechen disappeared on the platform. He said someone was coming to pick him up. Did Xu Xueshi pick him up?He regretted that he left him on the platform at that time. If Xu Xueshi had picked him up then, would he not be seen anymore?

Ji Shuping was worried. The house he rented in Shang Xuechen Community had not yet been returned. He was going to guard there. Maybe Shang Xuechen would come back to pack his luggage. Whether he wanted to or not, he would do whatever he wanted. Take him away, because he really regrets it now.Ji Shuping got into the car, started the car and was about to reverse the garage, when the headlights came on, he saw the dent on the hood, and looked back at the co-pilot, at that time Shang Xuechen was sitting in the co-pilot, they had quarreled in the car, sweet However, he just drove him to the store to buy ingredients and came back. He seemed very happy to eat hot pot that day.In the future, when I get him back, I won't hate hot pot, as long as he likes to eat, I can always eat with him.

Shang Xuechen came out of the station hall, and the outside of the old station was very lively, with stoves selling tea eggs, and stalls selling pancakes and Kanto cooking, all kinds of cheap snacks that we were used to.He was indeed hungry, but the most important thing was to buy some clothes.

After walking two steps, he saw a street stall selling clothes. He searched casually and found that none of them were good products. Either they were disconnected or they were in bad shape, which seemed too big to him.Originally he wanted to buy a white T-shirt, but when he flipped through it, he saw a black floral shirt. He remembered the shirt Ji Shuping gave him, not to mention, it fit him perfectly.Shang Xuechen touched the flowered shirt on the street stall, not thinking of bargaining, "Boss, let's take this one."

The boss casually folded the clothes into a black plastic bag and gave it to Shang Xuechen.Shang Xuechen took it, got up too quickly and felt a little dizzy, thinking maybe he was hungry, and was about to find a small shop for something to eat.Just as she was about to raise her head, a couple bumped her shoulders. The little girl turned around and smiled at him apologetically. He didn't care about the collision, anyway, he didn't care much now.

Shang Xuechen shook his head at the girl, expressing that he was fine.Judging from their faces, they seemed to be high school students. Shang Xuechen looked up and saw several Internet cafes nearby. They might be sneaking into the Internet cafes for a date.He continued to walk, and the couple who were running in front of him suddenly stopped, and he heard the little girl holding the boy's hand and coquettishly, "I want to eat this. Why don't you buy it for me."

Shang Xuechen saw the boy pointing his finger at the girl's nose, as if he was helpless and pampering, and suddenly thought that Ji Shu usually used his nose to rub against himself, he forgot to see if Ji Shuping's expression was also like Same as the boy.Shang Xuechen sighed, and when he came back to his senses, he saw that what the girl wanted to buy was cotton candy.

"Cotton candy." He still remembered that Ji Shuping roasted marshmallows for himself at the beach, and he ate them very sweetly.Shang Xuechen smiled, and followed to line up in front of the cotton candy booth.

It didn't take long for him to arrive. Now there are many varieties of marshmallows, and the boss asked him what flavor he wanted and what color he liked to roll. He didn't add anything, and asked for a pure white one.After the boss rolled it up for him, he held up the stick and glanced at the cotton candy rolled like a cloud, which was different from the one Ji Shuping baked for himself.He opened his mouth to bite the marshmallow, and the taste was different. The one Ji Shuping baked for himself was delicious and sweet, a small piece, and it was soft in his mouth. The one in his hand now is nothing special except that it has more saccharine.

"At least I look in a good mood." Shang Xuechen comforted himself, and he didn't want to eat anymore, and walked in the crowd with cotton candy.He heard all kinds of yelling from the stall owners on both sides of the road, in dialects that he didn't quite understand.This is a strange place, you can hear it from the words, he looks a little out of place when walking on the road, he thinks that going abroad is not a big deal, and he might be out of place with the surroundings after going out.But no matter how strange they are, the people around here are not scary. If you go abroad, you will be surrounded by people of different races and living habits, not to mention being out of place. Some people will be excluded by then. Think about it.

If you go abroad, are you afraid of being alone, what do you do when you are lonely and emotional, drink like before, and find a bed partner at will?

Ji Shuping's question rang in his ears.What else can I do?For so many years, I have endured it all by myself.Drinking is fine, domestic drinking is enough, and foreign bars don't know how to order alcohol.I don’t want to find a bed partner, I guess I don’t like foreign bed partners. Foreigners are too big. He doesn’t like those who are too strong. He likes petite ones.But Ji Shuping doesn't seem to be the type I would like, so why did I want to hook him up in the first place?

Shang Xuechen lowered his head and walked on the road, unable to figure it out after much deliberation.In the end, there was only one result, forget it, it is better to keep your own place when you go abroad.

Isn't there me?stay here, okay?

I know that I have you, because of you, I have been comforted by someone these few times when I was sick, and it feels really good to be accompanied by someone to comfort me.I feel good, will it be a drag on you?

Why don't I stay with you on the edge.If you feel that you have no way back and insist on leaving, can you take me to wander?

Homeless people are poor people. I have a bad background and a bad private life. I should stay on the edge.But you come from a good background and your private life is clean, so why should I take you home and make you a poor person like me?How nice it is to be a rich person who is envied by others, the upper class, the top of all people, and the center of the world.

I love you.

Me too.Because I really love you too, so I can't be selfish to you.

Ji Shuping drove to the apartment where Shang Xuechen was renting, went upstairs and entered the room, and went directly to the bay window where he used to peek.The house on the opposite side was pitch-black, as if no one had come back.Ji Shuping rummaged through the binoculars left here, he hoped that Shang Xuechen had come back, maybe he was tired and had gone to sleep.

I looked at it with a telescope for a long time, but I didn't see what happened.Ji Shuping dropped his hand, he didn't come back.

Ji Shuping, in fact, I really want a home, otherwise I wouldn't like to eat hot pot and dumplings, but I might really miss the word home.

In fact, I hate the word home, so I hate hot pot and dumplings, but if you want it, I want to give you a home, and I want to eat hot pot and dumplings at home with you.

Why should I write to you?

I don't blame you for not believing me, it's because I lied to you too much, that's why I lost my trust with you.But I still want to bet on you, bet that I love you, and bet that you love me too, so that I have the confidence to take you away.

Do not be silly.

I am stupid.In fact, I don't understand why I want to monitor you, why I have to do something irreversible to you, and then I realized that it was destined, so even if I am stupid, I don't want to let you go.

Because I don't want to go with you at all.

I shouldn't have left you, I shouldn't have left you alone on the platform.It's okay if you don't want to go with me, but I'm sad that you're gone.

Nice to meet you.

me too.

Ji Shuping touched the wooden ring on his ring finger.

But I don't want to just say goodbye to you, can you show up again?

The living room on the opposite side turned on the light, Ji Shuping picked up the binoculars and looked at the living room.What I saw was not Shang Xuechen, but Zhou Yuan who had returned.They were later questioned by the police, surrounded by reporters, and kidnapped by Xu Xueshi. They all forgot about Zhou Yuan.Zhou Yuan entered the living room, turned around and said something to the door behind her. Is there someone at the door? Is Shang Xuechen back?Ji Shuping hurriedly took a telescope to look. The man was standing at the door and did not enter the room, so Ji Shuping couldn't quite see it.Zhou Yuan didn't seem to come back by herself, someone sent her back.Ji Shuping couldn't see clearly, but only vaguely saw the figure of a man, as if he had seen it somewhere.

Shang Xuechen took a room in a hotel around the station.When I checked into the room, the person at the front desk saw that he was soaking wet, but he was still holding a big cotton candy, and he looked weird.Shang Xuechen didn't care, he waited for the registration at the front desk, looked up at the cotton candy in his hand, and saw a man in a suit turning up the second floor from the corner of his eyes, he didn't have time to wait for the front desk to give him his ID, and ran forward Holding the man in the suit, "Ji Shu..."

The man in the suit turned around and saw the man holding the large marshmallow holding him back, with a look of disgust on his face.Shang Xuechen resentfully withdrew his hand, "I'm sorry, I admitted the wrong person."

He watched the man walk up the stairs to the second floor. He was mistaken, and he was wrong too much.The middle-aged man in a suit just now, with a bald head and a fat belly, is nothing like the tall and slender Ji Shuping, except that he is wearing a suit and has a pair of gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose. It's just that these two points are similar, and Shang Xuechen can't help it. misidentified.

"Sir, your ID."

Shang Xuechen was urged by the front desk lady to recover.

After entering the room, he looked at the shrunken cotton candy, took a bite, it was still too sweet, not the taste Ji Shuping gave him.He put the marshmallow on the head of the bed, looked at the marshmallow, thought that Ji Shuping gave him a lot of flavors, and deliberately teased himself. The bitter melon he ate, besides the sweetness of the marshmallow, there were also melon sticks with fruit juice flavor, he forgot to tell He, the salt-baked chicken he made is delicious, salty and easy to eat, yogurt cabbage, sweet and sour, very appetizing, and hot pot with a little spicy taste, the two of them are very happy to eat around.Thinking about it this way, they seem to have eaten the ups and downs together, but in fact it was enough.

Shang Xuechen leaned against the door and lowered his head and sighed, can he eat these dishes again when he goes abroad?Will it be as convenient to order food abroad as it is in China?Do you want to cook by yourself?But I can only make scrambled eggs, why don't I bring some instant noodles.Thinking back, the instant noodles I ate at Ji Shuping's house at that time seemed to be more delicious than usual.

Shang Xuechen laughed again, laughing at himself for being greedy.When I came out of the shower, my body was much warmer, so I took out the wet clothes I had changed out of and the rain-soaked clothes in my bag and dried them under the air conditioner.Then wrap up in the hotel's dry quilt, and open the curtains to look at the stars in the sky.Downstairs is a bustling market, with stars twinkling above his head, very similar to the stars at the seaside that night, Shang Xuechen stood alone on the second floor of the hotel, all the bustle had nothing to do with him, he just looked at the stars and drove away. Sleepy, and then confessed in the bottom of my heart, Ji Shuping, I miss you very much.

Ji Shuping sat on the bay window and waited all night, from dark to dawn, but Shang Xuechen was never seen.At the beginning, he still persuaded himself that maybe he came back early and had already gone to bed, but he waited until the morning when he saw Zhou Yuan come out of the room, enter the kitchen, and go to the bathroom, but he didn't wait for Shang Xuechen to come out.

Sitting on the bay window, he suddenly remembered that when Shang Xuechen lived with him, when he woke up in the morning, his hair was always curled up on his head disobediently.He would stretch out his hand to help him flatten it, and he would scratch the back of his ear embarrassingly. At that time, Ji Shuping saw Shang Xuechen's red ear, and when he deliberately pressed his hair, he touched the tip of his ear and touched it. to his burning ears.

Ji Shuping laughed, and then his face collapsed after laughing, looking at the sky outside the window, he really missed Shang Xuechen so much.It's a pity that there is no time left for him to think.He has to go to the company today. Before that, he even gave the company employees a vacation. Now that he comes back, if he doesn't go to the company, he will be suspected by the chairman again.Anyway, this time, let him make a smoke bomb for Shang Xuechen, don't let the chairman know that he is leaving.

Ji Shuping changed into a suit. He hadn't worn a suit for a long time after being away for so many days. Now that he wore it, he felt that the stiff suit was not as comfortable as the loose T-shirt that monk Xuechen wore when he was together.

Go downstairs and drive the car, go straight to the company.It's still early to go out, and I can move forward slowly on the road when I don't encounter the most traffic jams in the morning rush hour.I stopped at an intersection at a red light, and at the intersection on the right, I seemed to be catching a green light. There was a car accident, which caused a burst of car noise.Ji Shuping was not in the mood to watch the car accident, he was still thinking about Shang Xuechen, when the red light turned green when he came to his senses, he stepped on the gas pedal and crossed the intersection.

Shang Xuechen stayed up all night, partly because he had to take the first bus in the morning, and partly because he was looking at the starry sky and thinking about Ji Shuping, so he didn't really want to sleep.Now, I can still look at this piece of sky in China and think, this small town is only an hour's drive away from where Ji Shuping is, so his thoughts are still under the same sky with Ji Shuping, if Ji Shuping can sense it, it will probably pass on It's just over an hour, not a very long distance.When he left the country in the future and traveled across the ocean, he was afraid that Ji Shuping would never be able to sense it again, so he simply spent the night exhausting his thoughts.

When it dawned in the morning, he packed up his clothes, put on the black floral shirt he bought at the street stall last night, ate the marshmallows that had shrunk overnight, and went to the station with his bag on his back to take the train.I fell asleep in the car, woke up and came back.He got out of the car and left the station. It's still early now, so he can take a taxi back and catch up on sleep.I just got out of the station and saw the bus at the intersection, so I still took the bus after thinking about it.

He still sits in the last row of the bus, and he can see the scenery clearly along the road. He has lived in the city since he was a child, and he wants to say goodbye to this city before leaving.It's just that the time is not very good, the bus stops and stops, and after a while on the main road, it hits the morning rush hour.Stuck at an intersection, I managed to cross the intersection after moving for a long time.Even more unfortunately, there was a car accident ahead, which caused a lot of horns.Like the people in the bus, Shang Xuechen stretched his neck to see the car accident ahead, but the others were anxiously complaining while rushing to work.Only Shang Xuechen was not in a hurry, he thought the bus would go slower so that he could watch for a while.

Just as he was about to retract his neck and continue to look at the street view outside the window doing nothing, he saw a car in front of him going straight through the intersection. He didn't know whether it was because his eyes were dazzled or the car went through too fast. He always felt that the car looked familiar, which made him think it was Ji Shuping's car, because he also saw the dent on the front cover.Maybe he was really dazzled, maybe just like he mistook the person last night, today he also mistook the car and Ji Shuping was given by Uncle Kang.Shang Xuechen withdrew his gaze and laughed at himself, "Do you miss him that much?"