Do not lie to me

Shang Xuechen is white and thin, not as delicate and cute as others.At the moment, his white face is lifeless illuminated by the neon sign lights on the street.This actually discounted his handsomeness a bit. People like the lively and bright youthful look, and depression has never been the mainstream.But boys and girls have always imagined that the prodigal son will only turn back for him, so Shang Xuechen knows how to send a smile of love at the right time to seduce those innocent and ignorant fantasies.

Now he was walking on the road with a hunched back, showing a decadent and prodigal temperament. When he was hunched, even his shoulder blades protruded obviously.His hair is long enough to cover his eyes, and he stomps one foot deeply and the other lightly. He pretends to be drunk even though he hasn't drunk alcohol. He doesn't look like a drunk but rather like an addict.This dejected look is a bit of a waste of such a romantic and romantic name that his mother worked so hard to choose.

After wandering around the puddle outside the bar for a long time, he still didn't go in.The man hid in the dark alley next to the bar, leaned his back against the wall, and only when he raised his head and sighed did he reveal his pair of eyes with upturned corners and dull eyes.

"It's boring." Shang Xuechen leaned against the wall. The neon lights outside the alley were filtered by the darkness in the alley, and some low-brightness light penetrated and hit Shang Xuechen's side face, making his eyes look more empty. Addicts are a little more stubborn on the bridge of their noses.Leaning against the wall to feel the manic vibrations in the bar, looking up at the starless night sky, sighing more, "It's so boring." He always feels bored easily, especially after indulgence, the feeling of boredom is even worse than before. I don't know if it was hollowed out by excessive indulgence or there was nothing inside, once indulged in sexual desire, it contrasts with a double sense of powerlessness.

Someone stumbled into the alley, Shang Xuechen heard the sound, his pupils turned around feebly, and then continued to stare at the dark, starless night sky above his head.The entangled figures paused, "There are people here."

"Leave him alone, he will go." Then they continued to entangle, the sound of saliva overlapping with the sound of breathing was obscene in the kiss.Shang Xuechen pretended not to hear, and continued to raise his head to pretend that he was deep. There was always someone who came first, and he hid in first.

The person next to him was upset, "Dude, do you want to watch or have a 3P?"

"It's all right. If you don't mind, please open a room." Shang Xuechen raised his neck and didn't look at the man.

"Bah, what a disappointment." After cursing, Shang Xuechen was the only one left in the dark alley.

"I was disappointed." Shang Xuechen straightened up, walked out of the alley with his head down, his thick bangs covered his eyes again.

When he heard the sound of the key being inserted into the lock and turning, Ji Shuping, who was sitting on the bay window, picked up the binoculars, opened the curtains and took a look at the opposite building.Shang Xuechen's figure framed the telescope in Ji Shuping's hand in the opposite living room.It was just a confirmation. Seeing Shang Xuechen enter the living room, Ji Shuping put down the binoculars, but he didn't let go of his prying heart, and continued to listen to Shang Xuechen's voice coming from the phone.

"You should try to cover it up, okay?" Shang Xuechen took out a beer from the refrigerator and turned around, and saw Zhou Yuan coming out of the bathroom with a bath towel hanging on.

Zhou Yuan went around him to get the wine from the refrigerator, lifted the ring on the can, pouted to suck off the foam, raised her head and drank half of the can, and said to Shang Xuechen, "What are you afraid of? No loss."

"Bloody eyes." Shang Xuechen walked to the living room and sat on the floor leaning on the sofa.

Zhou Yuan followed, "I thought you had something in mind for me."

Shang Xuechen said absently, "No one will treat you."

Zhou Yuan raised her eyebrows, "You don't date everyone, so I'm not happy about it."

"I can't sleep with you unless I'm planning to move, otherwise I won't be able to live together, and there are a lot of things to talk about, which is annoying." Shang Xuechen turned his head and glanced at the dark building opposite, "Is there no one living across the street? "Ji Shuping heard Shang Xuechen's words from the mobile phone, folded his hands, and stuck his left hand into the tiger's mouth of his right.

"Why do you ask this?"

"If there are people living across the street, you will not be in vain for the people across the street." Hearing what Shang Xuechen said, Zhou Yuan immediately went back to her room, changed her clothes and came out.

While waiting for Zhou Yuan to return to the room, Shang Xuechen took a sip of beer, his eyes still staring at the dark building opposite, "It would be great if someone was there." Sitting in the dark, Ji Shuping tightened his left hand on the tiger's mouth with his right hand, and twitched his mouth lightly. up.

"Why do you keep looking at the building opposite?" When Zhou Yuan came out, she saw Shang Xuechen sitting on the ground and turning around to look at the opposite side.

"I see it's pitch black on the opposite side, like an open box." Shang Xuechen turned around and faced the TV in front of the coffee table.

"The occupancy rate of this neighborhood is quite low. Didn't you go to the bar tonight, why did you come back suddenly? Qi Liang should miss you a lot after not going there for so long."

Ji Shuping half-closed his eyes, who is Qi Liang?

Shang Xuechen took a sip of wine, "I wanted to go, but I suddenly felt bored and came back."

"Boring? You've been hanging out all day, and now you suddenly feel boring?"

"It's not all of a sudden, it's just that I've always found it quite boring."

"Then why don't you find a serious job and work part-time all day long because you don't think work is interesting?"

Shang Xuechen held the beer for a long time, and after a while, he raised his head and drank the wine in his hand, "I am a person, life is random anyway, and it is good to waste it." After drinking, he turned around and reached for the TV remote control on the sofa , It's a pity that the time is not good. At the moment, idol dramas about love between men and women are broadcast everywhere, and it makes me upset watching it.Even if you want to find a news broadcast to improve your happiness.

There was no other way, Shang Xuechen picked an idol drama at random and started watching it.Just a few routines, slap the domineering CEO, and the CEO is slapped out of love.An old-fashioned complex, but today Shang Xuechen looks a little envious.

Zhou Yuan, who was next to her, drank her beer and began to complain, "What time is it? I'm going to go up and give our manager a slap, and I'll be banned from this industry from now on."

"It's good, I like to watch it." At least sunshine and health are not love on the bright side.

"Oh, I didn't expect you to be very girlish."

Shang Xuechen didn't say it, he was envious of the love that was shown, and knew that he would not have a healthy love.

Seeing that he was in a bad mood, Zhou Yuan grabbed his shoulder and shook, "Oh, what's wrong with you today?"

Shang Xuechen replied truthfully, "My first love is married."

Zhou Yuan obediently shut up and didn't speak. A man's first love is Bai Yueguang, so he can't be touched or talked about.But after thinking about it, she couldn't hold back her doubts and asked, "Is Qi Liang married?"

Shang Xuechen sighed, "It's not him."

"It's not him. The area where he opened the bar is rumored that he is your white moonlight."

Shang Xuechen didn't bother to explain, it's useless to say more, they think it is, anyway, he doesn't care anymore.

Zhou Yuan bumped him lightly, "Tell me, I feel uncomfortable."

Shang Xuechen watched the TV, was silent for a while, and said, "She confessed first, this is the first time I have been solemnly confessed. It turns out that the feeling of being cherished by others is really good. She has always been very good, cheerful and generous, and she is also good at things. It’s really sunny.”

"Then why did you break up? Her fault, your fault?"

"My fault. The fault was that I was momentarily dizzy and accepted her confession." The fault was that I was greedy for tenderness for a while, but felt that her bright and cheerful face was too dazzling.

Zhou Yuan couldn't understand, "I'm asking at the end, who brought up the breakup and why?"

At that time, it was Shang Xuechen who first said "let's forget it". If we really want to trace the question of who raised the breakup, it seems that we can't tell. "Because I'm too bad, it's understandable that she chose someone else."

Zhou Yuan curled her lips, "I don't know her, so are you still afraid that I will speak ill of her?" After she remembered something, she added, "I won't tell Qi Liang."

Shang Xuechen sighed, "When Jiajia confessed to me, I felt her sincerity. The sincerity without lies is very dazzling. I saw joy and fear. I felt uneasy and kept away from her. I'm afraid that she will walk away, and if she gets close, I'm afraid that her heart will be hot."

"Maybe so, so she felt insecure and questioned whether I loved her or not. When she questioned me, I couldn't answer. Then she cheated. I made her uneasy, so even if she cheated, I knew I couldn't." Blame her, because I didn't treat her sincerely well."

"But I was really moved by her." I was deeply moved by this unadorned sincerity, and while I was away from her, I wanted to fasten her.

The idol drama on TV has been broadcast to the point where the hero and heroine go from misunderstanding to understanding. It’s great. After communicating like this, we have each other’s peace of mind.

Women's desire to gossip makes them ask the bottom line, "So your bouquet was ordered for her?"

Shang Xuechen said truthfully, "Yes. She used to like white roses very much. She was really as innocent and innocent as white roses before."

"You said she was in the past, but now."

"Now?" Shang Xue raised her neck and rested her head on the sofa, "I wanted to bless her sincerely today, but she insisted that I was going to mock her and forced me to admit that I hated her because of her cheating. She." The originally innocent person forced him to use the most disgusting lies to give a broken ending to the relationship that started with sincerity.

why?Obviously wishing with a sincere heart, but in the end it turned into a prejudice in a lie.But who can blame this, not myself.Back then, when Jia Jia confronted him, something happened to Qi Liang, which happened to let Jia Jia know about her entanglement with Qi Liang, and let her see a shameless scene.At that time, Shang Xuechen understood that he really could only stay in the dark, and when people like Jiajia approached, he could do nothing but bring her misfortune.

Zhou Yuan looked at the TV and said with a somber face, "You don't love her, and this caters to her self-deception, doesn't it make you feel less guilty?"

Shang Xuechen raised his head to look at the lamp on the ceiling of the living room, it hurt his eyes so much that he had to close his eyes.

Zhou Yuan's voice came, "Until the end, she would rather believe that you came to ridicule her than you came to bless her sincerely, because even if you hate her a little bit, it means that you once had a little loved."

"It's not you who can't let go, but her."

It was not you who loved hard, but her.

There was no sound of the two talking in the living room for a while, only the emotional dialogue of the protagonist on the TV.Zhou Yuan watched TV and asked the words buried in her heart, "Did you really only hurt this one woman?"

Shang Xuechen thought that Zhou Yuan still wanted to gossip, but he really didn't have the energy to talk about some romantic things, pretending that he didn't hear Zhou Yuan's words.

Zhou Yuan didn't wait for an answer, she stood up and went back to her room.Shang Xuechen opened his eyes when he heard that Zhou Yuan had locked the room, sat up straight, and continued watching TV.

The editing of the TV series is really very appetizing, put it at the climax for you to freeze and end.Shang Xuechen turned off the TV, walked to the balcony, and looked at the dark building opposite.

If I can only stay in the dark night, can there be sincerity in the dark night, can I see the true heart in the dark night?

"What does the true heart look like in the dark night?"

Ji Shuping saw Shang Xuechen on the opposite balcony without using a telescope.sincere?He and Shang Xuechen have one thing in common, he has also met a girl who treats her sincerely, and he has never treated this sincerity well.

Ji Shuping is the same as Shang Xuechen, he will not have a love that can stand upright and hold hands under the broad daylight.

Waking up early the next morning, Shang Xuechen thought about cleaning the villa today, and the sadness and hypocrisy brought out at night was lost to the difficulty of work.I deliberately avoided the morning rush hour, went to the supermarket, and bought a pair of lazy mopping slippers.Put on these slippers and walk around the villa every day, even if you have swept the floor.

When I got to the villa, I remembered that I kept the goldfish in the kitchen sink.Walking towards the kitchen, two red butterflytails are swimming freely with their fan-like tails.Shang Xuechen squatted down, folded his arms by the pool, and rested his chin on his arms, watching them swim with their tails wagging.

The memory of goldfish is very short, not as short as 7 seconds but not more than 30 seconds.The memory of a goldfish is like a stopwatch whose readings have been cleared, always counting from zero after clearing.Because I can't remember, I can swim happily even in a narrow place, and forget where I swam when I turn around.

Xuechen, if you want to live a less painful life, you have to have a poor memory like a goldfish.

But, uncle, what if the goldfish is not reconciled.The short-lived memory of the goldfish is emptied, and it starts from scratch again, then its unwillingness to be reconciled to a small fish tank will rise again, and then emptied, and then resentment, forgetting, resentment again and again.

It turns out that it is not because people have a poor memory that they will not suffer, but because they will not let go, they will always suffer.

Shang Xuechen picked up two fish and went to the indoor swimming pool.He put the two fish into the pool, and the two fish swam away in an instant. He thought that the pool was so big that when they met again, they would not remember each other.A goldfish lives for ten years, but it doesn't know how many paths it has gone through in its brain. Is it good or bad?

Shang Xuechen stood up, took off his coat, and jumped into the swimming pool.With a splash, the water splashed, Shang Xuechen buried his head and held his breath, his arms and legs thumped vigorously, and the water in the swimming pool he brought swayed and hit the wall of the pool.After swimming back and forth twice, Shang Xuechen floated on the water with his arms spread out and his legs crossed.

Ji Shuping watched him swim through the surveillance camera, cut a close-up shot of the swimming pool, saw Shang Xuechen's white body against the bottom of the pool covered with blue bricks like a floating cloud, and thought that even his body was like this white.A red butterflyfish swims past, and a drop of bright red in the huge swimming pool sparkles Ji Shuping's eyes.

Ji Shuping began to be confused whether Shang Xuechen was the trigger point he found for himself, or whether it was because he was the trigger point that attracted him to lean on him.

Shang Xuechen felt much more comfortable after swimming.Drenched to the bathroom, there were footprints on the marble floor.Standing under the shower, I poured myself from head to toe. First, let the water from the shower pass through the back of my neck, along the spine, and flow straight down from the middle of the raised butterfly bone, waiting for the water to wash away the pool water. With the smell of bleach, he took a step back, shook his head, and wiped his face. The bangs on his forehead were all pushed up to the top of his head, and his neck was raised, revealing a beautiful neckline.I randomly picked up two handfuls on my body, turned off the shower, took the hair dryer standing next to the mirror, and started blowing according to my body.

Shang Xuechen didn't take off his panties when he was swimming, and he didn't take off his underwear when he was in the shower. Now he's holding a hair dryer to dry his body, but he's wearing boxer pants that are tight on his crotch and close to his buttocks. No matter how he blows them, he still feels damp .After he put on his shirt, he felt that his crotch was really uncomfortable, so he simply bent down and tore off his underwear, put on his outer pants directly, and threw the damp underwear on the high platform bathtub to dry.He guessed that no one would come to this rich man's villa at night, but he slept through the night, even if he came back, he would lose a pair of underwear and quit.

Put on your clothes and look normal from the outside, who would think that there is a vacuum inside.After packing up my bag, I was ready to catch the evening shift at the convenience store. Before I left, I looked around. Although I made a mess, I would feel a greater sense of accomplishment when I cleaned up the mess. Shang Xuechen thought about it and asked himself to come tomorrow Pack it up and reap the sense of accomplishment.

Ji Shuping saw the mess in the bathroom through the monitor. The monitor in the bathroom was small and concealed, and the area covered was limited. The shower room was not installed in the middle of the bathroom like the high-level bathtub, but in the corner.But fortunately, the resolution is high, just in time to capture Shang Xuechen bending over to pull his underwear, his butt covered by a loose top, bent over to reveal the lower half of the circle, Ji Shuping crossed his fingers, resting on the tip of his nose, and his eyes behind the reflective lens It was very quiet, and after a long time, an incomprehensible smile appeared.