Do not lie to me

Shang Xuechen got up early recently and didn't see Ji Shuping.

Ji Shuping went to work in the company, and his face had been swollen for a long time. It's just that he didn't wear a tie recently. Instead, he undid a button of his shirt and tied a scarf around his neck. The hanging part of the scarf was stuffed into the collar of his shirt to play The effect of covering the scratch marks on the neck.

Shang Xuechen happened to meet him in the living room when he came back from get off work, and he felt that rich people had a lot of fashion tricks, a tie around the neck looked serious, and a scarf loosened around the neck looked elegant.When Ji Shuping came back from get off work, Shang Xuechen saw his attire, with his shirt loose and a scarf tied, his hands in the pockets of his trousers, and his handmade leather shoes, with an ankle exposed between his trousers and leather shoes. The company went to work, but took a flight to Paris to watch the fashion show.

On the other hand, his right arm is still hung around his neck by a protective gear, and he wears pajamas all day long.Originally, there was only one set of pajamas, but Ji Shuping later gave him another set. The silk ones look quite high-end, but no matter how high-end they are, they are just pajamas, and they have no ornamental effect except to make you sleep cooler.After he injured his hand, Shang Xuechen never left this villa. He is a disabled person, and his hand is inconvenient anyway, so he stayed in the house, wearing pajamas and slippers, and didn't even comb his hair when he got up early.

When I get up in the morning and go downstairs, breakfast is already prepared and placed on the table. At noon, someone will deliver the meal, and in the evening Ji Shuping will directly buy it and bring it back, and then say that he has eaten it before.

It was all because Shang Xuechen spoke the truth that night, he told Ji Shuping that he was a little confused.The untimely stress disorder disrupted the sequence of his memory, and the images that appeared intermittently could not tell the truth from the fake.In short, they have become an awkward relationship, a lover is not like a lover, and nurturing is not like nurturing.

This day when Shang Xuechen was eating with a spoon, he grabbed the handle of the spoon and looked in the mirror at the surface of the spoon.As soon as this idea popped into his mind, he didn't eat, dropped the spoon and went back to the room to pull out his clothes.

There was only one set of clothes for going out, and it was the same set that Ji Shuping put on him after he woke up that day. At that time, he said he was ugly, but in fact he couldn't say that he was ugly. He said that at the time because of Ji Shuping's intentional discord.The three elements of good-looking clothes are fit, quality, and brand. This set of clothes meets the requirements and can be regarded as qualified. The main reason is that it is a famous brand, and the color design is only a bonus item and not a basic item.As for collocation, there are two elements in proper collocation, face and figure. Shang Xuechen seems to be able to achieve this. A good brand and a good appearance can be called a mix and match even if you wear it indiscriminately.Shang Xuechen had a mix-and-match outfit, shaved his beard, wiped his head, sprayed Ji Shuping's perfume on his wrists and rubbed the back of his neck, and the shape matched his determination to indulge tonight, and he went out with his disabled shoulders. Door.

When we got to the bar street, Shang Xuechen didn't go to Qi Liang's store, thinking that the store was paid by Shen Ao, Shang Xuechen felt uncomfortable.After graduating from university, he has never had a serious job. He has never been like a mediocre young man in the new era.She didn't know what she was planning like this, and she didn't know what Qi Liang was planning by staying beside him like this.I really don't know where the confidence comes from, thinking that I can take Qi Liang away just by walking away.

Shang Xuechen doubted his own life, went to a place he didn't frequent, ordered wine, sat at the bar and drank it sullenly.The men and women in this room were all bright and beautiful, and from time to time someone passed by the bar to look at Shang Xuechen, watching him walk away with his arms hanging and his mouth covered.

Shang Xuechen didn't care, and was still drinking wine dullly. After finishing one glass, before ordering another one, the bartender put his head on the coaster and gave him a glass of whiskey.Shang Xuechen knew in his heart that someone had taken a fancy to him, and giving wine to hook up was a common method. He understood, and looked up at the bartender who was wiping the glasses at the bar. The bartender silently gave him a look, Shang Xuechen Following his eyes, he saw the young man who was two seats away from him.

The young man was only seventeen or eighteen years old, and he was wearing an exaggerated brand name. When Shang Xuechen looked over, he sat down beside him generously with the wine glass in his hand.He looked around Shang Xuechen's arms and waist, and then jokingly asked him, "Brother, which master is this serving? Why did it happen like this?"

It turned out that this young boy was a "young master" who was up for grabs, and he also regarded Shang Xuechen as an old fellow in the same industry.Now no matter what industry you are in, you should first look at your outfit when looking at people. Although Shang Xuechen is wearing a famous brand, but his wrists are empty and his belt is ordinary, anyone who knows how to read people will know that he is just an empty shell.It's just that the name tag on his body is real, his appearance is also good, and his hand is hurt, so he is naturally regarded as an old "young master" who can take on any job without deep skills.

Shang Xuechen glanced at him with a smile, raised his glass and took a sip of wine, "Where do you go to school?"

Hearing this question from him, the young man looked unhappy, and the wine glass in Shang Xuechen's hand fell back to the coaster, "It looks like you've worked hard, so you're so short of money?"

The young man remained sullen and did not answer, Shang Xuechen sighed and said, "You have misunderstood the person, I am not from your circle, I don't have any clients that I can share with you, and I can't guide you. I will pay for today's drink." Pay it, go back to school after drinking, don't misidentify your seniors, kiss again as soon as you call me brother, and throw you into the snake's den if you meet a cruel one."

These days you have to pay attention to connections in everything you do, and you have to have a "leader" if you want to hook up with rich people in high-end clubs.If you spend one night with someone, you get more rewards, so naturally you have to give tribute to the "leader".The only way out is to close your eyes and bump around outside the gate of vanity, and what Shang Xuechen encountered today is to close your eyes and bump around.

The boy bit his lower lip, "How do you know I work hard?"

"Hold out your hand." Shang Xuechen touched his hand, touched his middle finger, and kept rubbing against the side of his middle finger. He waited until the young man blushed before withdrawing his hand. "There are two fingers on the side of your middle finger." A thick callus, which is left by grasping the pen and writing too hard."

Shang Xuechen didn't have calluses on his fingers, because he didn't take notes in class, it was Qi Liang who took notes.Qi Liang has always been serious in class, and he is also serious in taking notes. He writes a copy, transcribes a copy, and writes hard.

The young man smiled, heaved a sigh of relief, and his back collapsed, and the ease he had pretended before was removed in a breath of relief, "It's due to hard work, I also learned to draw outside of class, and the calluses are only caused by heavy brushes. I am a freshman this year and want to go to school, but I have no money, because my dad owes usury and ran away, and my mother has no money, a bottle of pesticide was rescued and died, why didn’t my mother remember to bring me a bottle with me.”

Shang Xuechen never sympathizes easily with others, they are all passers-by, but they are just playing on occasion.He held his glass and bowed his head to drink, with a cruel and heartless expression on his face, "If you want to enter that circle, no one will care about you if you sell miserably. People have to smile and greet you, and you will know how to be interesting. You come up and pretend to be pitiful, why don't you directly Those who want money with a vain face will be likable, and those with obvious desires will find a way out."

"Brother, can you help me?"

Shang Xuechen pointed to his right arm, "Brother is worse than you, so I can't help you."

After saying this, the boy's eyes dimmed, his shoulders drooped, and his words poked him like a leaking ball.After Shang Xuechen finished drinking, he really didn't want the flowers of the motherland to be so ruined, so he felt a little compassion. If he is really desperate and can endure hardship, it doesn't matter if he helps him, "If I don't do that, I have other ways. Money may Not as much as that, but not less, it’s just a little dangerous, it depends on whether you are willing or not.”

Hearing this sentence, the boy raised his shoulders again, and looked at him with bright eyes, "What job?"

Seeing him like this, Shang Xuechen immediately thought of Qi Liang's appearance. Qi Liang was really cute when he was cute in the past, "Private detectives do a lot of stalking and tracking, but they are actually similar to paparazzi. Just started, teach you the rules, Maybe the money will be less, and if you become proficient in the business later on, and the black and white are free to eat, you will naturally be able to settle your moneylender. You must know that even if you pay back the loan sharks honestly, you will not be able to finish it."

"I do!"

Shang Xuechen asked the bartender for another glass of wine, "Think about it, it's not easy, it's not uncommon for people to stare at you, and it's not uncommon for you to break your ribs."

The young man didn't hesitate at all, "It's better than being intimidated by usury all the time. If I don't sell myself today, the usury will sell me cheaply. A male prostitute worth 200 yuan a time will be squeezed dry. Cut out my organs, and my life will come to an end, even death is incomplete."

Shang Xuechen handed the wine to the boy, "What's your name?"

"Yuan Li'an."

Shang Xuechen took out his mobile phone and called Brother Zhou, "Brother Zhou, it's me. Didn't you need people before? I have a little brother here who is very short of money. If you think it's pleasing to your eyes, use it."

After finishing speaking on the phone, Shang Xuechen stretched out his hand towards Yuan Li'an, "The student ID card is here for me. Let me talk about some things first, and I will lead you in the process. I will find a way to help you settle the debt and try to repay the two debts." It will be over in three years. But you'd better not think about getting revenge and let others lend usury to your mother's life. When the time comes to mess with me, let alone someone looking for you, I will be the first to throw you to usury and let them give you money. You are the one who dismembers the corpse."

Yuan Li'an hesitated for a while holding the hand of the student ID card, gritted his teeth and slapped the student ID card on the bar counter, "Brother, how can I repay you?"

Shang Xuechen rushed to the bartender to ask for a pen and paper. He wrote crookedly with his left hand, and threw the pen to Yuan Li'an, "When you walk in the world, you don't talk about kindness and enmity, but only look at the benefits. This way, you can get along for a long time. I don't want you to think that I gave you life." Well, I want you to remember that you sent me a debt of favor. If you and I are against each other in the future, and the interest is on my side and not on your side, you have to give me the interest to repay the debt. When the repayment is over, the matter between you and me will be over. If we meet again, we don't have to give in."

Yuan Li'an lowered his head and bit his lip while listening, took a pen and signed on the "favor debt" handed over, "Brother, but I am a person who recites kindness, I will give you one more favor as my repayment. I will agree to any request."

Shang Xuechen rubbed the rim of the cup with his index finger and said with a smile, "This is a good deal, so let's kiss my brother."

Yuan Li'an, who was straightforward before, hesitated now, Shang Xuechen felt that he was really sick, why scare other children, "I just opened a..."

"can."

Shang Xuechen looked at him from the side, the child's face was flushed red, Shang Xuechen only felt that he had a bad taste, why did he tease a child who had just grown up, "Brother, I'm just joking with you, don't take it seriously."

"If it's brother, I can."

Shang Xuechen didn't expect him to take it seriously, and with a playful attitude, he moved over immediately, and the child closed his eyes knowingly.When the tip of the nose was about to touch, Ji Shuping suddenly came to mind, and I thought of his kiss with his head bowed in delusion.Shang Xuechen put his left hand on Yuan Li'an's shoulder opposite him, saw his eyelashes tremble, and when he wanted to just close his eyes and kiss him, he looked down and saw Yuan Li'an's fingers on his thigh.Shang Xuechen raised his eyes to see Yuan Li'an's tense eyes closed, and then thought of Qi Liang. He himself is always casual and irresponsible, but not everyone in this world is like him. The innocence makes people laugh, but it exists after all, and it is a disaster for such an existence to meet such a chaotic person as Shang Xuechen.

Shang Xuechen let go of the hand that was holding Yuan Li'an's shoulder, turned to touch his head, retracted his leaning forward body, and continued to drink.Yuan Li'an looked at him with doubts in his eyes. It was the first time that Shang Xuechen explained his ambiguous behavior, "Brother, I just found someone to confirm. You don't seem to have done this with a man. Cherish yourself from now on, don't sell your body if you have no choice." These words sounded like comforting Yuan Li'an, but also like Shang Xuechen telling himself.

"Brother, what do you want to confirm?"

Shang Xuechen drank his head down, and the voice came from the glass, "You don't understand."

When Ji Shuping came back from get off work, he saw the slippers scattered at the door, and he had an ominous premonition.I didn't change my shoes, left my bag at the door, went straight to the second floor, knocked open the door, and saw the pajamas on the ground.Obviously gave you space for you to meditate, but you still left.

Ji Shuping took out his mobile phone, but he didn't know what capacity to question.Sitting on the sofa in the room, after a moment of silence, I still sent a text message: Where are you?

Unexpectedly, as soon as the text message was successfully sent, a phone call came immediately, and when he answered it was not Shang Xuechen's voice, Ji Shuping asked in a deep voice, "Who are you?"

Yuan Li'an heard the low air pressure on the phone, then glanced at the person lying on the side of the bar next to him, swallowed his saliva and said, "Brother Shang is drunk."

"Where is he?"

Yuan Li'an reported the address and the name of the bar, and hung up the phone without even saying goodbye.Yuan Li'an has suffered all kinds of neglect since his father ran away, and it's not about these outright hostility.Putting the phone back into Shang Xuechen's pocket, Shang Xuechen lay on the table, clutching Yuan Li'an's student ID card tightly in his hand.

The bartenders at the bar often see drunks, and there is no sympathy for spending money to get drunk. They usually drive away when they see them, leaving a place for the next drunk to buy.Resisting the bartender's urging, Yuan Li'an lifted Shang Xuechen's waist and walked out with his left arm.When he was being lifted from the bar, Shang Xuechen opened his bewitched eyes to carefully identify who was entrusting him. Seeing that it was Yuan Li'an, his hand on Yuan Li'an's shoulder suddenly caught Yuan Li'an "Xiao Yuan, you must study hard, find a decent job in the future, and live an ordinary life."

Yuan Li'an lowered his head and walked forward with his arms around his waist. Shang Xuechen whispered in his ears, like a community aunt with a broken mouth, telling him that no matter how hard life is, it will be difficult. Don't spoil yourself.Shang Xuechen was obviously drunk and couldn't even form a sentence, but Yuan Li'an still got a sore nose from his confusing sentences.

He hugged Shang Xuechen and stood by the side of the road, afraid that if he let go, Shang Xuechen would slip from his body and fall to the ground.When Ji Shuping arrived, he saw Shang Xuechen leaning on a young man. Even his young age could be seen from his immature face. There was stubbornness in his clear eyes, but he was full of dust.Ji Shuping felt jealous right away, this young man was obviously similar to the one named Qi Liang, Qi Liang looked more disciplined, and the one in front of him looked to be looking for trouble.

Ji Shuping didn't say a word, and directly grabbed Shang Xuechen's waist and hooked him into his arms. Yuan Li'an's hand was empty. Seeing Ji Shuping's unceremonious actions, he showed some ferocity without showing weakness. It's a pity that his age Not enough, no matter how you look at it, there is no threat.Ji Shuping usually doesn't bother to care about the ill intentions he shows towards people of this age, but today he just wants to care about it.Before the ruthless words came out, the person in his arms twisted/body, "Xiao Yuan, remember what I said, don't come here again in the future."

After Yuan Li'an heard this, he felt that Shang Xuechen was gentle, and he didn't want to fight hard, so he nodded slightly and agreed to Shang Xuechen softly.

Ji Shuping raised his eyes and looked at Yuan Li'an expressionlessly, "Is it for sale?"

Yuan Li'an never felt ashamed when others underestimated him. When his life was about to die, he didn't care about being ashamed. It was only when Shang Xuechen said to kiss him just now that he was shy for the first time since he hadn't seen him for many years on the face.Yuan Li'an smiled, "It didn't sell." He glanced at Shang Xuechen, and deliberately showed complacency, "It can also be said that it will definitely be sold." The words were ambiguous, and the provocative meaning could not be more obvious.

Ji Shuping probably didn't expect that one day he would deliberately make things difficult for a child who had just grown up, "I don't think it was sold, after all..." Ji Shuping raised his brows, his contempt was obvious, "This famous brand is too fake "

Yuan Li'an stood where he was, watching Ji Shuping stuff Shang Xuechen into the co-pilot, and drove away without looking back. Although he was young, he was not like a child of this age who would be agitated by just one or two sentences, and he would Draw a line with others by force.The provocation just now was all because of Shang Xuechen's words "you don't understand". He watched Ji Shuping's car go away. The expression on his face at the time was too inconsistent with the words he said, and they were clearly put on his face for people to understand, but he was perfunctory by saying that others didn't understand.

Shang Xuechen woke up when the car was parked at the entrance of the villa, his mind was still fuzzy, he looked sideways at the gate of the villa, and felt that the door was bent by alcohol, Ji Shuping's voice came from his ear, "Are you drunk? "He was sure it wasn't a hallucination brought about by drunkenness, "a little bit." Even though the scene is distorted in the drunken eyes, you can still distinguish it clearly, why can't you tell it apart when you are sober?

"Can you get out of the car by yourself?"

Shang Xuechen turned his head and stopped looking at the door outside the window, clutching something in his hand, looked down at Yuan Li'an's student ID card, "Ji Shuping, I sprayed your perfume today."

The two of them were talking wrongly, Ji Shuping only thought that he was drinking too much, even if the words were not coherent, he could take this opportunity to come forward.Ji Shuping leaned on the steering wheel and approached sideways, tilted his head and sniffed in Shang Xuechen's ear, "I still like to smell your sweaty smell, like the smell of wine koji." You Qi hugged him from behind, bowed his head in the He took a deep breath with his eyes closed, because the ups and downs were too violent, the pores were open, and the smell that evaporated from his body smelled like old rice wine with the lid removed.Take a sip of intoxication and taste intoxication, so I forget to push it, wanting him to steam more intoxicating taste.

Shang Xuechen didn't care whether Ji Shuping's words were provocative or flirtatious, and he didn't push him away, bursts of hot air sprayed behind his ears, "When I was spraying the perfume, I found that my arms could move." Shang Xuechen Turning his head, the tip of his nose just touched Ji Shuping's when he turned his head, "Why didn't you ask a doctor to remove the bandage for me?"

Under Shang Xuechen's gaze, Ji Shuping didn't back down, "You actually know why."

He should know that if he didn't say anything, he acquiesced, and after a few glasses of wine, he became sober instead of disturbing his brain's judgment.Ji Shuping saw that he didn't answer, instead of retreating, he thought of the young man who was holding him when he picked him up, "Shang Xuechen, why are you promiscuous?"

Shang Xuechen lowered his eyes when asked, and scratched the cover of his student ID card with his finger, "Because of the edge."

Because I was born on the edge, because I like the edge, because I am always on the edge, I accept my fate, but I hide a little unwillingness. This unwillingness is accompanied by loneliness, so I exchange my body with others to gain a sense of existence, in order to prove that I am not only myself Live on the margins.Shang Xuechen didn't reply in a perfunctory manner, and he didn't go around for a long time to change the concept secretly. He spoke honestly and directly this time, which made Ji Shuping back his leaning body.However, he still did not give up, and traced the source of Shang Xuechen's history of promiscuity, "Who did you date for the first time, and when?"

Shang Xuechen pulled up half of his mouth weakly, and smiled. If he was willing to tease and tease Ji Shuping before, he would definitely say, it was with you. I have never done anything to anyone, so my first time was with you.It's very easy to play with the human heart, but Shang Xuechen didn't want to play with himself, and he still confessed honestly, "Sophomore, I eat fast food." He was afraid that Ji Shuping wouldn't understand, and then explained, "Fast food is what those bells eat. Short cheap chicken."

"I thought you'd be with your girlfriend." The now-married girlfriend.

Shang Xuechen knew from the very beginning that he was living on the edge, not only because of his background, but also because of his own sexuality.He felt that it was difficult for him to integrate into the mainstream, and he was struggling not to be exiled. When Jiajia appeared, he tried to let such a good person pull himself into the center of the mainstream.There are too many differences between Jiajia and him. He is sincere and always loves to laugh. He is a veritable sunny successor of the next generation. He can't help but want to get close to the warm life like Jiajia.He has never touched Jiajia, but he just doesn't want Jiajia to regret one day, and then cry and accuse him, saying that he is disgusting.

His only attempt to get close to the mainstream failed in the end. Qi Liang could not be blamed for this, but he could only blame himself for not knowing how to love and understand the feelings of Jia Jia and Qi Liang.When he was in college, he called a chicken. He thought that maybe people on the edge could have a little conversation with him, but who can talk to you if you have less money? The price is low and the quantity is high. Pants to catch the next order.As the young master of a rich family, Ji Shuping would not understand. They should have never socialized, and they gave each other psychological hints that they should love each other by accident. Shang Xuechen thought that he really deserved to be killed this time There was a thunderbolt.

There was no movement in the carriage for a while, and Shang Xuechen remembered that he didn't answer Ji Shuping, so he had to push the topic back to Ji Shuping with Tai Chi pushing hands, "The first time you were with your girlfriend, I remember you said you had a girlfriend. girlfriend."

"Like you, I also ate fast food for the first time."

Shang Xuechen didn't expect Ji Shuping to be so casual, "Then you have to show me your medical report. You didn't wear a condom when you fucked me, and I was bleeding."

Ji Shuping glanced at Shang Xuechen, his eyes seemed to question his cleanliness, Shang Xuechen shrugged, "I have a physical examination every year, and I am very safe."

Ji Shuping didn't look away because of Shang Xuechen's promise, but still looked at him, and Shang Xuechen was surprised by what he said, "My girlfriend sells fast food."

"I thought..." He stopped immediately as soon as the words came out. He still remembered that his principle was not to pry into other people's secrets, and once he found out, he would have to pay a price.The surprise in his heart was because his imagination of Ji Shuping had dropped. He thought that Ji Shuping's girlfriend was in the same family as him, and they were an incomparable match when standing together.Their rich people can't play with anyone, why should they play with people from cheap backgrounds? Shang Xuechen thought of Ji Shuping being strong against him. He didn't think Ji Shuping was a person who would conquer the same sex, and he didn't believe Ji Shuping because he liked him. And red eyes.

"Why did you treat me like that at that time?" Shang Xuechen still asked, "You have talked to a girlfriend before, and you can have sex with her. It seems that you have never done it with a man before me. Why did you treat me like that?"

"I did it with her to prove that I don't dislike her. At the beginning when I did it with you, it might be because your missed appointment made me angry. Later, it was the part you didn't remember. I really liked it." Ji Shuping recalled the past The scene he saw through the gap in the dark corner, "I didn't care about sexuality before. She is because we got close by chance and we have the same desire, so we cherish each other. I once saw two people by accident. A man did that kind of thing, and he didn't feel conflicted at the time. As for using force on you, it's hard for me to explain it myself. Many behaviors in this world are hard to explain, so there is the word ghost."

"Is that so? Can all criminals use such an excuse to get away with their crimes?!" Shang Xuechen refused to let go, but he was relieved in his heart. To decorate the brutality, Shang Xuechen would only feel sick to his stomach, but what exactly was he angry about, he clearly said he didn't care.

Ji Shuping didn't know how to make him feel relieved, if it was because Qi Liang was leaning on him at the time, he was angry at his promiscuity and missed appointments, so he wanted to punish him; if he didn't know how to love, if Tell him that I really used a bad way because I was tempted and worried about gains and losses?Probably he would find it annoying, because he was impulsive and reckless that time, and there was no chance for them to speak out about their love. Shang Xuechen would rather believe in lust than love, and Ji Shuping lost his love to Shang Xuechen because of his momentary anger. From the standpoint of love, they can only get along awkwardly.

"Ji Shuping, my hand is already healed, let's not meet again in the future. I won't play with you anymore."

Ji Shuping grasped the steering wheel tightly, "Shang Xuechen, are you afraid? You are afraid of what you said to me. You are afraid of loving me yourself."

Shang Xuechen clutched the student ID card in his hand, "I was very happy when I was admitted to university, thinking that I would go to school, graduate, and work like ordinary people. I specially used my student ID card to buy a special ticket to take the green train to other places. I don’t have a specific destination, but I just want to try to buy a ticket with my student ID card. Even the successful issuance of the ticket feels like a feeling of being recognized. This student ID card not only proves that I am an ordinary student, it also seems to prove that I am a member of the mainstream I was on the train that day. When the train stopped in the middle, I watched the people getting off the train with their luggage. I don't know where I want to go, but I just created an illusion of returning home. Ji Shuping, I forgot that part, and the promise I made to you is also an illusion."

Another long silence.

It took Ji Shuping a long time before he opened his mouth, "Shang Xuechen, you can't be absent from work without reason, and you don't want the money? Let's make a compromise. I won't force you to give me compensation for breaking promises, and you will continue to work for me. You really If you want to relieve your anger, I can give you one too."

Shang Xuechen suddenly laughed when he heard that, "Are you willing to fuck me?"

Ji Shuping also smiled, "Yes, but I'm more expensive, 500 million per visit."