Do not lie to me

Shang Xuechen felt much more comfortable in his stomach after drinking the millet porridge, but Ji Shuping was still sitting on the sofa next to him holding his computer and typing.Shang Xuechen leaned against the bed and looked at the opposite wall. The room was very dark, and the curtains were weird. The sound of Ji Shuping's keyboard was playing the rhythm board of horror music. Boom" is scary.

Shang Xuechen felt that after waking up, everything was wrong. First, he felt sad due to the pain, then his temper was inexplicably irritable, and now he started to lose his courage again. He was always thinking wildly, looking at the curtains and wondering if there would be a door behind him. There will be some monster running out, maybe someone wearing a human skin mask and holding a chainsaw will come out at night.The horror effect of the movie is not the scariest thing, the scariest thing is the human imagination.

"Hello." Shang Xuechen called Ji Shuping, Ji Shuping looked up at him, and came over to help him pull out the needle.When he was about to turn around, Shang Xuechen grabbed his pants.Ji Shuping looked back at him, Shang Xuechen stared at the opposite wall, his voice trembling, "I'm a little scared."

Ji Shuping sat down by the bed and held his hand instead, "What are you afraid of?"

Shang Xuechen didn't speak, the hand holding Ji Shuping trembled a little, Ji Shuping followed his gaze and saw the floor-to-ceiling curtain on the opposite side.Ji Shuping held Shang Xuechen's waist and led him up, led him to the wall, opened the curtain, and took out a key from his pocket, "I'll take you to see it, and you won't be afraid after reading it."

Shang Xuechen was led by Ji Shuping up the stairs behind the door, and entered the attic. In the attic, there were only windows on the sloping roof, and the moonlight shining through was just in the middle of the room, where a black upright piano was placed.

Ji Shuping led him over, leaving half of the piano bench for Shang Xuechen to sit on.Shang Xuechen sat down and asked him, "Why the piano?"

"This is the piano my dad bought for me."

"Your father is so kind to you."

Ji Shuping smiled after hearing this, let go of Shang Xuechen's hand, opened the cover of the piano, and played several keys in succession. After testing the piano pitch, he stepped on the pedal, and his fingertips began to jump flexibly on the black and white keys.Shang Xuechen was soothed by the sound of the piano, and his mood gradually stabilized, "What did you play?"

"Schubert's Serenade." Ji Shuping replied without turning his head, just bowed his head and concentrated on playing.

Shang Xuechen looked at him intently, and his heart gradually felt at ease, "Is a serenade similar to a lullaby? Does it also have lyrics? Like a lullaby, the lyrics can lull people to sleep by opening their mouths."

"With lyrics, it's a poem written by a German poet."

Shang Xuechen thought he couldn’t remember a few poems from Tang Dynasty, so he might as well not listen to German poems, “Sing lullabies for children, who will you sing serenades to?” He looked up at the moon above his head, the nocturne probably meant reciting the moon Missing his hometown, like Jing Ye thinking about the poem, "Sing to the moon?" He didn't hear Ji Shuping's answer, he turned to look at Ji Shuping's side face, saw the marks on his collarbone, and finally couldn't help asking Him, "What did I forget?"

Ji Shuping didn't stop, "I can tell you, I have conditions."

"You said."

"First, you can't deny what you said, and second, you have to tell me what happened to you."

Hearing Ji Shuping's request, Shang Xuechen was a little hesitant, he was not sure what he had said during the time he had forgotten, and he also had some doubts about Ji Shuping, after all, no one had ever known about some things about his psychology.

When Ji Shuping's finger made the last note, Shang Xuechen nodded and said, "Okay."

Ji Shuping put on the lid of the piano, turned to meet Shang Xuechen's eyes, and told him solemnly, "We have made a vow, and we will be each other's lovers in this life."

"Huh? You're fucking kidding me, playing Shakespeare. Let me tell you, Hamlet didn't agree with it. It's clear that you forced it, but I still swear to you. To whom? The Jade Emperor, or the Queen Mother of the West Heaven? You Saying that you pierced Taishang Laojun's big ass/eye is more credible than this. My head was smashed out of the hole! I swear to you, I didn't kill you, and you still want to take an inch of me."

Shang Xuechen doesn't believe what Ji Shuping said at all, I swear to stay with you if you insist on it, and now I will play some Qiongyao drama with tears in the sky with him.Shang Xuechen felt that although his behavior had never followed the three-view model of ordinary people, it was not so bad.

Listening to his complaints, Ji Shuping only said, "I did hit you on the head at that time."

Shang Xuechen choked up when he heard this, and he forgot to settle accounts with him, now is not the time to bicker.Shang Xuechen regained his composure and asked him, "What happened?"

What happened then?

Later, when Ji Shuping mounted Shang Xuechen again, Shang Xuechen gritted his teeth and trembled, not knowing whether it was from anger or fear.Entering from the back, with the lubrication of the things left inside before, it is much smoother.It's just that the people under him didn't react at all, and couldn't even hear their reply.Ji Shuping gradually felt bored, and when he looked down at Shang Xuechen, he saw Shang Xuechen's dull face, without the usual provocative/teasing disdain, he looked very unlike him.

Ji Shuping stopped his movements and called him, "Shang Xuechen."

Hearing his shout, Shang Xuechen looked at him with focused eyes, with a blank expression on his face, "Who are you?"

Ji Shuping always felt that Shang Xuechen was playing some kind of trick again, so he pushed hard on the top on purpose, and moved Shang Xuechen's body up and down, "Look at our current situation, who do you think I am?"

Shang Xuechen still looked dazed, and it took him a long time to reply, "Love?"

spouse?Ji Shuping was stunned for a moment, then responded to the title of lover expressionlessly.Shang Xuechen wanted to get up, only to realize that he was tied up, "Then why did you tie me up?"

Ji Shuping couldn't figure out what Shang Xuechen was playing, did he deliberately lure him close, and then took the opportunity to bite him? "It's fun."

Shang Xuechen had an understanding expression, "Then you continue."

Ji Shuping looked at Shang Xuechen's gritted teeth with hatred just now, but now he seemed to have forgotten the tense relationship between them.Ji Shuping couldn't figure it out, Shang Xuechen's shirt was still on, but he lifted it up to reveal his belly.Ji Shuping wanted to test, and unbuttoned the buttons one by one. Shang Xuechen seemed to be waiting for his next step. He was still a little worried that Shang Xuechen would bite him. Although he was worried, he didn't want to be led by the nose by Shang Xuechen.He leaned down / kissed Shang Xuechen's chest, looked up, and saw Shang Xuechen looking at him curiously.Ji Shuping kissed him a few more times, intentionally biting the two protrusions on his chest, coordinating with his tongue sliding over intentionally or unintentionally, Shang Xuechen said flatly itching.

Ji Shuping raised his head and held Shang Xuechen's face, looking at his innocent face, it was the first time he saw such an expression on Shang Xuechen's face, he couldn't express his feeling, no matter how tough he treated him, he would never There is no look of showing weakness.Ji Shuping lowered his head and closed his eyes and kissed him softly. Shang Xuechen responded well without biting him.This kiss was not like the previous one where both sides were attacking the city and plundering land. Shang Xuechen kissed carefully, and Ji Shuping's cautiousness towards him was also gentle and lingering.

After the kiss was over, Ji Shuping buried his face in his neck and continued the movement he had just stopped.Shang Xuechen turned his head to look at the bedroom, "Are you my lover?"

"Yes." Ji Shuping gritted his teeth, and the movements under his body became heavier. Shang Xuechen gasped, "Hiss~, be soft, it hurts." Ji Shuping had to slow down his movements.

Shang Xuechen continued to observe this bedroom, "Is this?" Unsure in his tone, "Is it our home?"

Ji Shuping was stopped by Shang Xuechen's question again, propped himself up, and looked at him face to face, Shang Xuechen waited for his answer with anticipation.

"Well, you are my love and this is our home."

Hearing this answer, Shang Xuechen smiled and wrapped his legs around Ji Shuping's waist, signaling him to continue.Ji Shuping started kissing his forehead, and Shang Xuechen's voice was broken into fragments, "Uh...you, um... are... my lover... ah... slow down... I... hurt. This, is... our home."

"Then do you know who I am?"

Shang Xuechen returned to his previous dazed state, "Who are you?"

Ji Shuping bit the tip of his ear, "I am your lover, Ji Shuping."

Shang Xuechen was still staring blankly at the ceiling, "My love, Ji Shuping?"

"Well, you are my lover, Shang Xuechen."

When Shang Xuechen heard this sentence, his expression became much clearer, he raised his head, put his cheek on Ji Shuping's left ear, and followed each word, "I am your lover, Shang Xuechen."

Ji Shuping's hands went around Shang Xuechen's back, and picked him up. Shang Xuechen's upper body left the bed, and his lower body was hung on Ji Shuping's waist, but his hands were hung on the head of the bed, without any support. Ji Shuping hugged his hands, "Can you untie my hands?"

Ji Shuping kissed his temples, "What? Is the posture uncomfortable?"

"I want to hold you."

Without a trace of doubt, Ji Shuping gently put Shang Xuechen down, and was about to reach out to untie it, when he heard Shang Xuechen ask, "What is brighter?"

Ji Shuping turned his head and saw that Shang Xuechen's cell phone was on when he fell on the ground. The cell phone was turned to mute, and only the screen was on.Shang Xuechen urged him, "Go and destroy it!" His tone was impatient.

Ji Shuping got out of bed, picked up his phone and came back, it seemed that the caller ID was Qi Liang, Ji Shuping glanced at Shang Xuechen, not sure if Shang Xuechen was going to miss Qi Liang's call, so he showed Shang Xuechen the screen.

Shang Xuechen looked at the caller ID, and roared more and more violently, "You're going to kill it! I'll let you kill it!!!" His tone gradually turned into anger.Shouting and struggling with his upper body, Shang Xuechen forcefully pulled out his right arm, dislocating it.The belt that bound both hands suddenly became free, and it came loose from the head of the bed. Shang Xuechen threw the belt on Ji Shuping's left hand and rushed towards Ji Shuping.

This swing was not light, Ji Shuping instinctively backed away, Shang Xuechen pounced on Ji Shuping's body and scratched Ji Shuping's neck with his fingers, "I told you to put it off!!! Don't light it up! Don't let it light up!!!"

Ji Shuping quickly turned off his phone and threw it on the ground, and wrapped his arms around Shang Xuechen's waist to calm him down.When the phone was off, Shang Xuechen gradually calmed down, his back was shaking up and down due to shortness of breath.He looked at Ji Shuping's face, saw the scars on his face and neck that he had thrown, and became flustered.He wanted to hold Ji Shuping's face, but unfortunately he couldn't lift his right hand anymore, but his left hand was wrapped around a belt when he raised it. He remembered that the belt on his left hand had slapped Ji Shuping's face, so he didn't dare to touch Ji Shuping with his raised hand. His face, his hands drooped down, and his eyes drooped down, looking lifeless.

Ji Shuping saw it, went to hold Shang Xuechen's left hand, helped him untie the belt, licked the wound on his wrist for him, then grabbed his hand and stroked his face. With guilt in his eyes, "I'm sorry."

Ji Shuping raised his head and patted Shang Xuechen's head, "It's okay. Your arm is dislocated, I'll call a doctor."

Shang Xuechen grabbed Ji Shuping, murmured, "I'm sorry." After posting on Ji Shuping, he began to kiss the place where he was beaten.A kiss is an apology.

Ji Shuping supported his shoulder and comforted him, "It's okay. Your arm needs to be reset by a doctor."

Shang Xuechen hooked his neck with his left hand, "Don't go." Ji Shuping wanted to persuade him again, but Shang Xuechen said, "You said we are lovers, you can't leave me alone."

Ji Shuping didn't speak, touched his head, supported his waist and laid him on the bed, trying his best not to touch his right hand.As soon as Shang Xuechen lay down, his legs wrapped around Ji Shuping's waist, and his left hand was still around Ji Shuping's neck.Ji Shuping was invited to go in. When Shang Xuechen was shaken by the bullying, he still didn't forget to kiss Ji Shuping's face, neck and shoulders. Accompanied by panting, the two whispered repeatedly, emphasizing "We are lovers" over and over again. .”

Ji Shuping protected his head so that the top of his head wouldn't hit the bed, Shang Xuechen put his arm around him, stared at the ceiling blankly, and asked him in his ear, "Will we be lovers forever?"

"En." Ji Shuping kissed his ear, making the sound sure to reach his ears.

"What if life and death are parted?"

"If it's a lover, I won't let us be separated by life and death."

Shang Xuechen hugged Ji Shuping tightly, "I want to hug you."

Ji Shuping supported his waist and sat up, letting him straddle his lap, wrapping his arms around his waist.Shang Xuechen couldn't stand Ji Shuping's bullying, his calf was so weak that he was supporting his body, he just knelt down and used his knees as a support, put himself on Ji Shuping's chest, hugged Ji Shuping's shoulder with one hand, lowered his head and kissed Ji Shuping's collarbone, raised his head Kissing Ji Shuping's eyebrows, "Why are you sad?"

Ji Shuping buried his head in Shang Xuechen's chest, tears mixed with the sweat on Shang Xuechen's chest, "I have never been loved. I have never been hugged."

Shang Xuechen touched the back of his head, bowed his head and kissed his heart, held his face with one hand, leaned over and kissed the tear stains at the corner of his eyes, "I will love you from now on."

Ji Shuping tightened his arms around Shang Xuechen's waist, "You swear."

"I swear."

When Ji Shuping heard Shang Xuechen's guarantee, he felt that what his mother taught him was wrong. When you hold the electric shock baton, although the mouse will be obedient, it will not get close. No comfort, no hugs, only love can give you that.

Shang Xuechen was a little ashamed when Ji Shuping finished speaking, and supported the piano with his forehead, "This is not an oath, at most, we gave each other psychological hints." Psychological hints are not hypnotizing, nor are they like being hypnotized. It's like a curse and a voodoo, and it's like a feather hanging in your heart, scratching your itchy spot from time to time.

"You promised not to deny it. And you'll tell me what's wrong with you."

Shang Xuechen propped his chin and looked up at the framed moon on the window above his head. The window was too dirty and gray, and the moonlight through it was not so bright, "It's nothing, don't worry, I'm not schizophrenic, just a stress disorder."

Shang Xuechen thought he hadn't had this problem for a long time. Ji Shuping really aroused his negative emotions at that time. At the beginning, there was an escape mentality, showing a state of dementia. When I woke up, the fragility of my body function brought out psychological grief, and then I was irritable and panicked.The feeling of being unable to control emotions is uncomfortable. Sometimes it is like boiling water to scald the heart, and sometimes it is like an ice cellar to calm the heart.

"Why do you have this disease?"

"Did I ask why you pretend to be sick?"

"I pretended to be sick because..." Shang Xuechen immediately covered Ji Shuping's mouth, "Don't tell me, I don't want to hear it." If you hear other people's secrets hidden in your heart, then you have to show something accordingly , either to show his secret, or to show his sincerity, both of which Shang Xuechen can't give.

Shang Xuechen covered Ji Shuping's mouth and looked straight into his eyes, "Ji Shuping, you should know who I am. I'm not a good person. I'm a scumbag. I don't know how many good promises I made when I coaxed people into bed. , How many vows have you made to be struck by lightning. But, you have to know that there is something in this world called scumbag, you are unlucky to meet me, a sloppy king, so you better not take it seriously. Now the relationship has become like this , I can't play ambiguous and keep my body at the same time, that's too shameless, let's go straight and simple, I am short of money, very short of money, you have money, I sell myself, how about it?"

Ji Shuping took Shang Xuechen's wrist covering his mouth, and moved his hand away, "But you promised me that you will love me."

Shang Xuechen avoided his face and withdrew his hand, "Then when I told you not to force yourself, did you stop? The love on the bed is the same as the incense, but it just sets off an atmosphere."

Ji Shuping put his hand on Shang Xuechen's shoulder, turned Shang Xuechen towards himself, and put his forehead on Shang Xuechen's shoulder, "You obviously want someone to love you, otherwise you wouldn't say that I am your lover. Why? Don't admit it when you wake up?"

Shang Xuechen felt that he couldn't explain clearly to Ji Shuping, and the fault was that he was sick. He sighed just right on the top of Ji Shuping's head, "Ji Shuping, do you understand love? I don't really understand what love is. My mother is a street girl. I happened to have me when she was with my father. Not long after I was born, she fell in love with someone who was richer. She made it clear to my father, and my father let her go. They There is no love between them, no marriage, just a horse boy, a prostitute/woman who just matches, and spends a period of time together. The only accident is that I didn’t do a good job. With me. You let a person who doesn’t understand love How can someone love you?"

"What about Qi Liang? Do you love Qi Liang?"

"Qiliang is different. At the beginning there were two people who loved me, Jiajia loved me, and Qiliang loved me, but in the end I didn't give them a good ending because I didn't know how to love. Jiajia was clean, and I Having entanglements with her from this kind of background can only bring her troubles, besides, she is married well now, only Qi Liang is not doing well, so I can only compensate Qi Liang." Compensate him for his kindness.

"Then you pay me too."

Shang Xuechen smiled helplessly, "Why should I compensate you? You don't love me like they do."

"You promised and then backed out, can't I ask for compensation?"

"Then you force me, I don't care, it's compensation to you."

Ji Shuping raised his head and rested his chin on his shoulder, "You changed the concept secretly again, you clearly negotiated a good price and paid the payment, and now you are wronged, will I feel sorry for you for not seeking compensation?"

Shang Xuechen thought to himself that you still beat him up, you force it, I haven't asked you for mental damages yet.But I can't explain this kind of thing clearly, after all, I was the one who brazenly teased Ji Shuping at the beginning, every time I whetted Ji Shuping's appetite, but he couldn't eat it, and I deserved to set myself on fire.Shang Xuechen patted Ji Shuping's shoulder with his intact left hand, "Then tell me, how do you want me to compensate you?"

Ji Shuping stretched out his arms to hug Shang Xuechen, "I haven't made up my mind yet, I'll tell you when I think about it."