Do not lie to me

Shang Xuechen sat alone on the sofa and looked at the opposite seat in a daze, not paying attention to the dissatisfied gazes from the waiter because he sat there for a long time without ordering.Qi Liang had already left, and there was only a water cup on the opposite side. The wall of the cup was covered with a layer of water vapor, and the water droplets got bigger and began to fall along the surface of the cup.Shang Xuechen looked at the lip marks on the water glass in a daze. When Qi Liang rejected his proposal, he was actually relieved.

The water glass cast a figure, and Shang Xuechen looked up to see Ji Shuping in a well-shaped tailored suit.Shang Xuechen looked down at the shirt he was wearing. He didn't know whether it was because he was skinny or because Qi Liang bought the wrong size. The shirt was loose and baggy. In comparison, Shang Xuechen found that Ji Shuping's double-breasted suit suited him very well. The figure, the curve from the armpit to the crotch has distinct ups and downs, and a slender leg is pulled down.

He watched Ji Shuping sit down and unbutton a suit in front of his stomach. His movements were natural and elegant. Shang Xuechen laughed when he saw it. He wondered if he had a small belly. When he sat down, he was afraid of being strangled by the tight suit Bar.Ji Shuping didn't ask him why he was smiling, but felt that his smile was bleak, so he reached out and pinched his chin.Shang Xuechen wanted to turn his head to dodge, but he squeezed his chin too hard, leaving no room for him to escape.

Shang Xuechen looked up at Ji Shuping, who was actually very angry.The playmate he left behind with money wants to take the money he gave and go away with others. He is angry, and his face is not obvious. It is reflected in the hand holding Shang Xuechen's chin. The more angry he is, the harder he is. Xuechen didn't respond.

Shang Xuechen's chin was pinched red, Ji Shuping watched him turn the corner of his mouth, and looked at himself with a smile, the voice in Ji Shuping's throat was suppressed and provocative, "You smile really ugly."

The corners of Shang Xuechen's mouth were stiff, his eyes were empty, "Really?"

Ji Shuping pinched Shang Xuechen's chin with one hand, propped up the table with the other hand, and Shang Xuechen watched his face getting closer to him, without dodging, let him pinch his chin, the lower lip was pulled by external force , broke the seam of the lips, and opened the mouth slightly.He looked up at Ji Shuping, saw his mouth opening and closing, and said, "You taught me to smile naturally with the tip of my tongue against the roof of my mouth. Now I'll help you."

Ji Shuping's teeth bit Shang Xuechen's lips, and his tongue slid in along the gap between his lips, pressing against his palate. Shang Xuechen half-closed his eyes and thought, this is the second time he and Ji Shuping kissed.He has always been casual, casual in dating people, casual in kissing and flirting, he remembered that he had never kissed Qi Liang, never hugged him, never even gently shook his hand, never found comfort with him Qi Liang, what was he thinking when he was held down and ripped off his clothes?He thought Qi Liang was right when he said he was hypocritical.

Ji Shuping angrily punished Shang Xuechen unilaterally, but Shang Xuechen didn't respond.No matter how hard I bit him and how much I disturbed him, Shang Xuechen seemed to be dead. Maybe it was because he drank too much ice water, even his mouth was cold.Even if a sadist beats with a leather whip, leaving a cold corpse without even hearing a scream, the tyrannical factor will also become impotent due to the cold corpse.So Ji Shuping withdrew his unilateral self-righteousness and returned it.

When he withdrew his tongue, Shang Xuechen bit him like a warming snake. Fortunately, Ji Shuping was not a simple farmer, so he would not die of poison because of his sudden return of the gun.If Shang Xuechen bites him, he will unceremoniously poke it deeper, to explore Shang Xuechen's sublingual flesh.Shang Xuechen closed his eyes, hooked Ji Shuping's neck with one hand, and grabbed his tie with the other, forcing his body to bend down even lower.Ji Shuping also stretched out a hand to hold the back of Shang Xuechen's head. The coldness in his mouth returned to room temperature because of Shang Xuechen's counterattack, and the temperature gradually rose during the guerrilla battle between the two of them. The force of the kiss without showing weakness made the sublingual frenulum ache.

Ji Shuping broke Shang Xuechen's hand hooking his neck, sat back in his seat, and smoothed the folds of Xizhuan.Shang Xuechen was still smiling, with a rogue face, "Ji Shuping, you have only played with a few people, and you can see how many people I have played with. Don't take it easy on me when things go wrong. Look at yourself wearing an expensive suit, If you look at me cheaply, you will lose your identity if you are messing around. You can't let go of your face if you mess around. In fact, you can't beat me, so I'll let it go." Shang Xuechen glanced at the restaurant and threw all kinds of things in this direction. With a look of indifference, "Are you okay?"

Ji Shuping lowered his head and tucked his tie back into his suit, without looking at his surroundings, "I said that I have a history of mental illness, and people with mental disorders are prone to ambiguous sexual orientation. No matter what happens, it can be done because of a psychiatric certificate." Cover up. Besides," Ji Shuping looked up at Shang Xuechen, "rich people play crazier than you. Face, money can buy it. Even if I fuck you on this table right now, it will be the same tomorrow Not a single piece of news."

Shang Xuechen lifted one foot onto the western dining table, "Okay, come fuck me now. I'll see if your mental illness history will appear on the news tomorrow."

This time, Ji Shuping smiled, and after laughing, his face was gloomy, "Don't think that you are pretending to be barefoot. I, who wears a suit, will let you go if I am afraid that I will get wet by the river. You think I don't know you I'm just being stubborn. Once in the swimming pool and once in the living room, it means I'm out of line, but it's not you who escaped first. It's you who narrowed the line of the game and raised the limit, so no matter how I qualify, I will cross the line no matter what. If I have the heart, you won't be able to escape even once."

Shang Xuechen withdrew his foot, "It's better to do it once than to say a hundred words. You talk so much nonsense, I concluded that you actually have nothing to do with me. It was in the swimming pool, it was in the living room, and it is now."

After speaking, the two looked at each other in silence, and the meeting eyes were sparks to lightning.Shang Xuechen suddenly felt something was wrong and asked him, "How do you know I'm here and you're following me again?!"

Ji Shuping was confident, "I came here to try the new cakes, I didn't even know you were here!"

Shang Xuechen was dubious, "Then why are you angry?!"

Ji Shuping was suddenly frustrated, and he couldn't tell that he was eavesdropping behind his back just now. He was angry that you wanted to elope with someone else with the money you won, "Because you didn't reply to my text messages."

Only then did Shang Xuechen remember that Ji Shuping had sent him a text message. He was going to reply, but then he forgot. Shang Xuechen softened his words, "I was going to reply, but I forgot." Now, the expression on Ji Shuping's face was still a little displeased, and he passed on the reason and planted it on Ji Shuping's head, "Who asked you to put a period. How do I know what you want to do when you say a period."

After hearing this, Ji Shuping stopped talking, beckoned to the waiter, took away the tableware in front of him and replaced it with a new set, and then started to order.The waiter pretended to be calm and listened to Ji Shuping's orders, but he still couldn't help looking at the two of them, Shang Xuechen pretended not to see.He, Ji Shuping, was able to calmly prepare to start eating, and if he said that he wanted to leave, wouldn't he slap himself in the face for what he just said.

Shang Xuechen looked at Ji Shu flat-cutting the steak on the opposite side, and lowered his head to pick and choose on his plate. He thought that he should leave a call to that ANDY when he came to get a haircut, and experience the body movements with a difficulty factor of 9.8, so as not to save himself Now I'm having lunch with Ji Shuping face to face.In a moment of distraction, the fork picking at the plate threw the sauce on the clothes.Shang Xuechen hurriedly picked up the napkin and wiped his clothes.These are the clothes Qi Liang gave him, he has never worn them before, this time he specially wears them to show Qi Liang, to let him know that he is willing to accept him.

Ji Shuping looked up at him, and saw Shang Xuechen vigorously rubbing the mottled spot of sauce on his chest, rubbing harder and harder until a hole was about to be wiped, and finally he lowered his hands weakly, lowered his eyes, and sighed softly. tone.Ji Shuping put down the knife and fork in his hand, and asked him, "It's just a piece of clothing."

Shang Xuechen lowered his head and smiled, yes, it's just a piece of clothing, why bother.But he really cared about it. On the day of Qi Liang's accident, he lost everything. Jia Jia pulled herself hard and asked him, what was she? Going to see Qi Liang lying on the hospital bed, he thought maybe he really only had Qi Liang from now on.Such an innocent and kind person like Jia Jia is not suitable for a bastard like him, Qi Liang deliberately designed it, but in the end, only he bothered to stay by his side.No matter how extravagant he is, how miserable he is like a bereaved dog, no matter when he looks back, he is the only one still around.That's right, bad love is still love.

Ji Shuping looked at Shang Xuechen with his head down and calm face, but his body was shaking.Ji Shuping was hesitant to ask him what was wrong, but Shang Xuechen spoke first, "But these are the clothes he gave me."

he?Ji Shuping frowned, thinking of the person just now, he remembered that his name was Qi Liang, the person Shang Xuechen wanted to take away with him.It's great that there are people who can elope. Ji Shuping also had a failed elopement plan when he was young.

"you love him?"

Shang Xuechen looked up at Ji Shuping, but without opening his mouth, he gave up wiping the spot on his chest, and lowered his head to cut the steak in front of him.This series of actions seems to be default.

love?Shang Xuechen thought that he seemed to have never loved anyone, so how could it be considered love?He thought of his parents, they probably had no love, a horse boy, a street girl, and he got himself in one night.

Shang Xuechen looked at Ji Shuping on the opposite side, he was tall and handsome, dressed in a suit with style, not as weird as he was in a suit.He thought Ji Shuping was from such a good family, so he probably knew how to love, "Have you ever loved anyone?"

Ji Shu's hand that cut the steak flatly stopped, the problem of love is really unsolvable.He seemed to have respected and loved his father and his mother, but in the end love was distorted and respect turned into fear.His quiet monk Xuechen looked at each other and said no, would the person on the other side believe it?So the problem of love is really difficult to solve. The difficulty lies in the tricks of fate, and the difficulty lies in the wrong words and hearts.

"I once had a girlfriend." This answer sounds irrelevant, but it is intriguing.

So it was love?Shang Xuechen picked up the steak with his fork, "I've had a lot..." A lot of what, a lot of sex friends?Thinking about it carefully, it seems that like Ji Shuping, he has only had one real relationship partner, and that is Jiajia.Shang Xuechen sneered, "I also had a girlfriend."

Shang Xuechen recalled how Jiajia was wearing her wedding dress that day, and how she was when she was 16 years old, holding his hand and running ahead, occasionally turning around and smiling at himself, that smile was really like the wind in spring, blowing away The gloom in my heart.It's a pity that I made her cry all the time, crying hysterically, so Shang Xuechen understood who was with him, how cheerful the smile was at the beginning, and how tearful the cry later was.He thought it was probably due to his poor background, bad genes, and the scumbag character brought out of his bones.

"What's your girlfriend like?" Shang Xuechen guessed that a person like Ji Shuping would probably be matched with a wealthy family, gentle and elegant, so that they would look good when they stand together.Although he could guess it, he couldn't help but ask.

"She..." Ji Shuping put down the knife and fork in his hand, "She didn't have a good life at that time, and I didn't have a good life either. By chance, we got close to each other and comforted each other."

Shang Xuechen listened quietly to Ji Shuping, thinking that children from good families would do the same thing, find someone with the same skin and bruises, and lick each other's wounds.However, the troubles of children from rich families are probably that they learn too much and are under too much pressure, and they will not be whipped so badly because of the excellence demanded by their families.No matter what, it wouldn't be too bad, after all, the person who really made a bad life was right in front of Ji Shuping's eyes, and Shang Xuechen's skin that hadn't been whipped by life was too horrible to look at, he was just emptied.

"It's just a breakup. It's not that you can't find good conditions. Like your family should find you a good match. And you have money, what kind of person can't you?"

Ji Shuping didn't answer, Shang Xuechen didn't ask what happened to them later, he just said that if you are rich, you will always pick what you like, what you said is reasonable, it doesn't sound like consolation, it's just a plain statement, even Ji Shuping Believe that this is the life he should live in the future.

"At that time your girlfriend got married, and you went to send bouquets. Have you ever thought that maybe if you drag her to escape marriage, she will go with you."

Shang Xuechen sneered, "What's the point of coming with me? The person he married had a house and a car, and the wedding was held at Jinyuan Hotel. Although her husband was a bit picky, he had to support the family and had heavy loans. This is not the case every day. Is it a situation that every family is facing? After marriage, it will be fine. Come with me? I can't give her anything. "

"What about Qi Liang?"

"Qi Liang is different."

"What's different? Do you like him more than your girlfriend? Or is he special?"

Shang Xuechen looked at him coldly, and spoke in a cold tone, "I can't leave him."

"why?"

Why?Shang Xuechen twisted the corner of his clothes, "Because he gave me expensive clothes, I owe him." Shang Xuechen didn't think Ji Shuping could understand what was the reason, so he made excuses at will.

Ji Shuping looked at Shang Xuechen's unbuttoned plaid shirt. The price of this dress was very common to him.Does Ji Shuping think he is such an easy guy to buy?It seems that 5000 million agreed to his vague game without specific judging rules. The fact is that Shang Xuechen who agreed was at a disadvantage. Before he called to stop, he had to keep playing with him. Maybe He will tie him up to play with him for the rest of his life, without having a life of his own.Perhaps, he used the 5000 million to get rid of him after he got bored.But he doesn't seem to be so easy to manipulate, he can tease, provoke, and wait for the opportunity to escape, leaving him alone with a full belly of desire that he can't vent.Has very good kissing skills, can stir up lust and suppress restlessness.He had experienced that the kiss in the swimming pool deliberately provoked lust, but the kiss just now suppressed the injustice with malice.

Ji Shuping looked into Shang Xuechen's beautiful eyes, he was so elusive, but if he was easy to see through, Ji Shuping would not want to get close.

Shang Xuechen felt that the meal he and Ji Shuping ate was a bit inexplicable. Ji Shuping appeared inexplicably, throwing fire on himself, and then the two of them began to eat peacefully for inexplicable, talking at random.It's harmonious though, which is kind of funny.But this kind of inexplicable dilutes the nameless emotion in Shang Xuechen's heart. It can't be said that it is sorrow or something else, but he feels empty in his heart, as if the blood in his heart has been pumped dry, but it doesn't wither, it just beats empty.

When the dessert finally came, Shang Xuechen really smiled happily, and the lava chocolate cake was served.Ji Shuping watched Shang Xuechen cut a small piece of cake from the corner with a fork, put it into his mouth with a satisfied smile, and couldn't help asking him, "Why are you so happy?"

Shang Xuechen continued to eat with a smile, "Did you know dogs can't eat chocolate?"

"Ok?"

"Then do you know why dogs can't eat chocolate?"

Ji Shuping raised his eyebrows, he really didn't know Shang Xuechen's brain circuit.

Shang Xuechen ate the cake and said to himself, "Because cocoa beans, the raw material of chocolate, are poisonous, and the theobromine in cocoa beans can kill animals. But the human digestive system can not only digest theobromine but also produce a sense of pleasure." Tell me, what was the mentality of the first Native American who tasted cocoa beans? He watched the animals try to die, but he still couldn’t help but taste it curiously. Does it mean that people are instinctive when facing love? , with an adventurous spirit?"

Ji Shuping listened carefully, seeing Shang Xuechen's mouth stained with black chocolate, "If seeing chocolate automatically brings love, I can only say that this is a very successful commercial packaging method."

Shang Xuechen bit his fork and nodded perfunctorily, "Cocoa powder is very bitter. After improvement, sugar, milk, and caffeine will be added, so love is also sweet and bitter, mixed with all kinds of good and bad. Processed chocolate, eat It will stimulate the secretion of dopamine and make people feel good. In fact, as long as it is sweet, it will make people feel good."

Shang Xuechen pointed to the untouched cake on Ji Shuping's plate, and Ji Shuping picked up a fork to start eating.Shang Xuechen watched Ji Shuping swallow the cake one bite at a time.But he put down the fork in his hand, "But why do people use sweets to make themselves feel better?"

Ji Shuping stopped what he was doing and motioned for Shang Xuechen to continue.Shang Xuechen wiped the chocolate residue from the corner of his mouth with a napkin, "Because people's emotional reception is set to a self-abuse system by default. Sadness, fear, and anger can be remembered by the body for a long time, and negative emotions are always easily engraved in the brain. Burned in the heart, time will never erase the trauma in the heart. And happiness is always very short, the body can't remember it."

Happiness is like an injection. As soon as the syringe is pushed to the end, the happiness is over. If you want to relive the happiness by memory, when you look back, you will leave a small needle hole on your arm, but it will disappear within two days.

"But people are always unwilling, so there will be playgrounds, flowers, chocolates, and drugs in the world, all because the human body can't remember happiness, and these things are created for the false and short-term happiness."

"The older you get, the more miserable you become, less innocence and more worldliness. It is difficult to use flowers and chocolates to cultivate happiness. Only the body is honest, so kissing and making love all the time, confirming happiness through the body over and over again, and being true to instinct , pursuing a purely physiological orgasm. The human body is not too bad, although a self-abuse system is set up for emotions, at least it still retains the most primitive physical happiness, leaving you a way out."

Shang Xuechen smiled brightly at Ji Shuping, "So chocolate is like drugs, it blocks the emotional self-abuse system and gives people a sense of euphoria." People pursue pleasure and are constantly addicted. When they do not use external objects to paralyze, the accumulated pain will explode and they will laugh Laughing at myself for being lonely, empty and cold.

Ji Shuping didn't understand why Shang Xuechen knew about these strange theories. Shang Xuechen looked at Ji Shuping with a puzzled face and continued to smile and said, "My dad used to be a drug dealer. He sold a hallucinogen in a casino, and the sales volume was very high. Well, he named the drug Chocolate Chip."

This drug is to keep a loved one.Pack the drug into chocolate and put it in the mouth of your lover.

"What about him now?"

"died."