Secret crush hides my cub [entertainment circle]

Hospital, single ward.

Tucking Sophie's thin arms into the quilt, there was a sound of the door opening and closing behind her.

The sound was extremely small, and it was obvious that the person who came came deliberately lightened his movements.The footsteps are also kept to the lightest, so as not to disturb the daughter's sleep.

The daughter will not be woken up. She was quite frightened, and when she saw herself, she cried and rushed forward, lying tightly in her arms without letting go, and her tears could fill the Great Lakes.Tired from crying, just fell asleep, and won't wake up for a while.

Xia Chu turned his head, and Le Wei smiled at him.

He also returned a uncomfortable smile, and asked softly, "How are you?"

"It's okay." Le Wei touched his bandaged elbow subconsciously, "A slight injury, caused by the other party's resistance, will heal within a week at most."

As for how anxious he was, how he persuaded the police to go himself within 5 minutes, and how he took the risk to save his daughter, all the twists and turns are hidden.

Anyway, if you don't talk about it, Xia Chu must be able to guess it with his intelligence.

"Thank you." Xia Chu raised his head and looked directly at Le Wei. Although there were only three simple words, the gratitude behind him was more than a thousand catties.

Le Wei smiled: "The daughter belongs to both of us, why are you seeing each other like this. Is Sophie okay?"

"I only suffered a little skin trauma, it's not a big deal. It's just that I was frightened. The doctor told me to stay in the hospital for observation for a few more days, and then... a psychiatrist is needed." Xia Chu looked down at her daughter who was still frowning in her dream, not knowing her Did you dream about something scary, otherwise how could you fall asleep and not relax?

Xia Chu's heart ached, she was so young, she couldn't bear to hit her, but today she walked around the edge of life and death...

"It's all my fault..." Xia Chu closed her eyes tightly, her voice trembling slightly, "It's all my fault."

"Don't blame yourself, I lost Sophie, blame it if you want..." Before Le Wei finished speaking, Xia Chu shook his head slowly, telling him to stop talking.

"If I had told Sophie earlier that she was born to me and that you were her other father, maybe she would not have rejected you so much. If I hadn't left you and concealed the existence of Sophie, you have been a family from the beginning , how could today's incident happen?"

Le Wei knew that Xia Chu had blamed himself so much that he couldn't think about the problem rationally.This person has always been thoughtful, and he put a lot of pressure on himself invisibly. Now that his daughter is lying on the hospital bed, pitiful, it makes him feel distressed and guilty. He can't bear to blame his daughter or Le Wei, but of course he can only blame himself.

"It's not your fault." Le Wei said, "Everything happened back then was all wrong, and you can't be blamed alone."

"No, blame me." Xia Chu held Sophie's hand through the quilt, as if something had been weighing heavily on his heart, and he finally planned to explain, "Remember you asked me why I didn't tell you, did you a daughter?"

"Because I said in Iceland that if we can survive, we will go our separate ways. I don't want to entangle with you anymore, and you don't want to use the child as a bargaining chip to threaten me and force me to turn back." This is Xia Chu Le Wei still remembers what he said.

"Yes, but these are only part of the reason, there is another reason..." Xia Chu looked at Le Wei, "Le Wei, it was not an accident that the car broke down on our last day in Iceland."

Levi's eyelashes trembled slightly.

Xia Chu did not avoid his gaze.

"I thought about it before I went. I don't want to divorce you. I know you love me, and you must not really want to divorce me. I want to use these few days to save you. I believe I can succeed. We are in Iceland After staying for so many days, eating together, hiking together, and going to glacier snow caves, no one mentioned the past, I thought you would change your mind." Xia Chu laughed at himself, "But you rejected me. Your answer is very It's tactful, but it's very clear that you will never be with me no matter what."

"I didn't sleep all night, and I thought about what you said over and over again in my mind. Later, I thought of many, many things, and my heart was extremely chaotic. In the end, I only had one thought - rather than losing you forever, I would rather die with you." Xia Xia Chu's voice was short and trembling, he was guilty and afraid.Le Wei guessed that he might have planned to let this matter rot in his heart, but in the end, he forced himself to confess to Le Wei.

He must confess, otherwise this will become a dissatisfaction deeply buried in Xia Chu's heart. Even if Xia Chu and Le Wei stay together forever, every time he thinks of this matter, he will have trouble sleeping and eating.

"I pulled out the antifreeze pipe when you finished filling up and went to pay. The antifreeze was just enough to last us until we got to that road. I also checked in advance. The road is deserted and it is Christmas. The night before, it was even more impossible for someone to pass through. I originally planned to make our mobile phones malfunction and lose contact with the outside world, but I didn’t expect the signal to be poor, and the phone could not be dialed out. The original plan was useless.” Xia Chu said, “But the other plans were successful. Yes, you and I were successfully trapped there, and it was so cold that we almost froze to death."

"I once wanted to kill you." Xia Chu closed his eyes, his eyelashes were wet with tears, he sucked in air, refusing to let the tears fall, "As long as I think about this, how can I have the cheek to go to you? How can I forgive myself? I'm even afraid that if Sophie finds out that Dad is such a despicable person one day..."

Xia Chu clenched his teeth tightly, took two deep breaths, and managed to regain his composure.

"I originally planned to let this matter rot in my stomach and not mention it to anyone for the rest of my life. But after seeing you, I don't care about guilt or self-blame. I want to be a villain again." Xia Chu sneered, "But it's really hard to be a villain. Seeing you every day makes me happy and guilty."

"Le Wei, after all, I'm not a good person." Xia Chu raised his head and looked into Le Wei's eyes, "I wasn't honest enough with you before, and I wasn't firm enough, and then I thought of that again. You can't forgive me, Or whatever you want, I can understand and accept it. I am very happy that you came to the United States to find me. It’s just that I don’t deserve it.”

After finishing speaking, Xia Chu slightly turned his eyes away, with a calm expression on his face as if waiting for a verdict.

Le Wei also looked at him quietly.

It turned out that it was not an accident, but Xia Chu's scheming.

The truth came to light, Le Wei should be angry, but his eyes were unusually calm, like the surface of a lake without waves.

He looked at Xia Chu quietly for a long time before breaking the silence.

"Did you regret it back then?" Le Wei asked softly, "When we were about to freeze to death in the snow, did you regret it?"

I regret it.

How can I not be ashamed when I want to kill you and you still want me to live and say "I love you" at the last moment?

I regretted it so much, and at that moment, I hated myself so much.

I wanted to kill you.

The same is love, you want me to live, but I am planning to die with you.

How can I deserve to mention this word again?

Xia Chu didn't answer, he had hated himself in his heart for six years, now it was like a trial, he didn't want to give himself any excuse.

Levi didn't want to judge him.

"Later, the people in the car repair shop told me that the pipe didn't fall off due to aging, but someone pulled it out forcefully. They knew that I almost died of freezing to death in the ice and snow because of the leak of antifreeze, and suggested that I check it carefully. Something. I said no need to check, the pipe was pulled out by myself when I checked the car the day before, maybe I didn’t press it tightly when I put it back in, the road was bumpy, and it fell off by itself.”

Xia Chu looked at Le Wei in shock, but Le Wei was very calm.

"Yes, I guessed it. Whether the pipe fell off by yourself or was pulled out by someone, you can tell at a glance. I also know your abnormal behavior and strange expressions. I know you want to die for love with me, it's okay No, I really don't want to entangle you anymore, but that is when I am alive, if I die, I am willing to die with you."

"But you said later that you hoped that I would live..."

"Because it's too cold." Le Wei raised the corners of his lips, showing a cynical smile—it's no time, he still has the heart to smile, "It's too cold, and it's in a foreign country. When others find it, they won't I think we are dying for love, and maybe I think we are two unlucky ghosts. Such a death is not worth it. After thinking about it, I still hope that you can die after five or sixty years when you are tired of looking at the scenery of this world. In a warm bed."

Going around the head of the bed, Le Wei walked up to Xia Chu: "The nurse said, if you hadn't run out in the snow and ran so far, by the time we were discovered, you would have frozen to death long ago. At that time, your frostbite was worse than that of Xia Chu. I am serious, and my physical condition is much worse than mine, but you woke up before me, and the first thing you did when you woke up was to visit me in my ward. Xia Chu, I know you regret it. enough."

Le Wei put his arms around Xia Chu's shoulders and hugged him into his arms.

"That's what's been bothering you for a while, isn't it?"

"Yeah." Xia Chu wrapped his arms around Le Wei's waist and nodded gently in his arms.

Because he felt unworthy, every bit of happiness seemed to be stolen; because he concealed the truth, this suffering made him worry about gains and losses.

Le Wei said, "Xia Chu, you are not a good person, and I am not stupid. Whether you have scheming or selfishness..."

"I do not care."

After sleeping all night, the frightened Ms. Sophie woke up slowly the next morning.

Xia Chu stayed by her bedside all night, and Le Wei stayed by her bedside with Xia Chu and her daughter all night. As soon as Sophie opened her eyes, she saw her father and Uncle Levi who bravely rescued him from the fire.

Sophie opened her mouth, but the adults were more anxious than she was.

"Did you sleep well?" Xia Chu asked, "Is there anything uncomfortable?"

"Are you hungry?" Le Wei asked, "Uncle can you get something to eat?"

Sophie rolled her big eyes twice, and replied softly, "I slept well, and I'm a little hungry."

"What do you want to eat?" Le Wei came over, "Uncle will buy it for you."

"If you want to eat pizza, you have to bring cheese on the side, double cheese." Sophie was really rude.

"Just woke up, don't eat such greasy things, I remember there is a Chinese restaurant nearby..." Xia Chu looked at Le Wei, then at his staring daughter, and sighed, "Forget it, go buy it, passing by Restaurants remember to bring a bowl of porridge to avoid indigestion."

Le Wei took the order, turned around and left.

There were two father and daughter left in the ward, Xia Chu went to the table next to him to pour a glass of warm water and handed it to his daughter.

Sophie propped herself up on her small arms like lotus roots, holding the glass of water with her two fat little paws, and drank in small sips.

"Do you want more?" Xia Chu asked.

Sophie nodded, and Xia Chu poured another glass.

This time Sophie only drank half a glass, Xia Chu took the glass and put it aside.

"Does it still hurt?" Xia Chu asked.

Sophie lay back on the bed, watched her father tucked in the quilt for herself, shrunk her head and groaned.

"Daddy, I'm sorry." Sophie whispered.

Logically speaking, with Sophie being so indifferent, Xia Chu wanted to teach her a lesson.But thinking of her terrified appearance yesterday, she thought she had learned enough lessons, and Xia Chu couldn't bear to criticize her anymore.

What's more, Xia Chu is still blaming herself, how can she have the heart to teach her daughter a lesson.

"I also want to apologize to Uncle Le Wei, you know?" Xia Chu bent down, stroking her daughter's smooth forehead with her palm, "If it wasn't for Uncle Le Wei, you would never see Daddy again."

Sophie nodded, and looked at Xia Chu's expression with dark eyes, as if she was holding back something and wanted to say it but dared not.Xia Chu couldn't be more familiar with this look: "What do you want to say, just say it, Daddy is not angry."

Sophie immediately put on a gossip expression that broke the casserole and asked the bottom line. It was like an eggplant beaten by Shuang, but after a few words, it was full of vitality: "Daddy, have you really known Uncle Le Wei for six years?"

Xia Chu was startled: "Huh?"

"I heard it." Sophie shrunk her chin, "You were talking next to my bed last night, I...I heard..."

The knot was untied, and the two talked a lot last night.I thought Sophie was asleep, but I didn't expect the child to wake up and hear a few words.

"How much have you heard?" Xia Chu asked.

Sophie's eyes moved up, as if she was thinking carefully, and then said everything she heard in a daze: "I heard you say, what happened six years ago, and... and ...I'm the daughter of you two or something..."

"What do you mean?" Sophie blinked, obviously not understanding.

Xia Chu really wanted to tell Sophie everything.

But this kind of thing, even an adult may not be able to accept it, the child is still young, let her know so early, even if she is not sensible now, who knows what thoughts she will have as she grows up? ?

"Don't worry, when she gets older and more sensible, we will tell her slowly." Last night, Le Wei comforted Xia Chu like this.

So Xia Chu swallowed all the words, leaned over and kissed her daughter's cheek.

"Uncle Le Wei and I have known each other for a long time."

Life experience is a secret, but others are not.Xia Chuwei talked about his acquaintance with Le Wei. Naturally, there is no need to mention the details, and the twists and turns can also be omitted.After finishing speaking, Sophie opened her mouth so wide that she could see the little tongue in her throat.

"So what you said that day is true, didn't you lie to Johnny?" Sophie blinked her eyes hard, and with her brain capacity, she still couldn't digest such a complicated plot, "So you and Uncle Le Wei have been married a long time ago, just like the original Brother Harry who lives next door to us is just like Uncle Nick..."

"What about me?" Sophie stretched out an index finger, pointing at herself in turn, her mouth pouted into a circle, "What about me? I...whose daughter am I?"

"You are our daughter." Xia Chu patted her daughter's forehead and couldn't help laughing, "However, as long as you don't want to, you can always call Le Wei uncle."

Uncle Levi is a pragmatist and won't mind these names.

Sophie responded blankly, obviously, her focus was not on the title.The little girl was obviously confused, curled up on the pillow for a long time, and asked stupidly: "Then why did you separate later?"

"Many reasons." Xia Chu said.

"For example?" Sophie pursed her lips, she meant to say at least one, to satisfy her curiosity.

Xia Chu thought for a while, "Because Dad refused to say 'I love you' to him."

"Ah? Why?" Is it that simple?

"Because at that time Dad felt that saying 'I love you' to him was equivalent to handing over the initiative of the relationship to him. Dad doesn't like others to take the initiative." Xia Chu never told Le Wei about such a secret thought. , But, you can still confess to your daughter.

"what about now?"

"It's still a bit difficult." Xia Chu was very honest.

"Because of fear?"

Xia Chu was taken aback for a moment, her daughter's mind was sensitive and sharp, but she really guessed wrong.

"No." Xia Chu said, "Dad doesn't care about that now. It's good that your Uncle Le Wei has the initiative, and I'm still happy. Dad didn't say anything because... he didn't know how to speak."

"Don't know how to say 'I love you'?" Sophie can't understand the convoluted thoughts of adults. In terms of expressing feelings, she is more like Levi, simple, direct, and what to say.

Even if Xia Chu explained to her that he is a person who doesn't like to express his feelings, she probably wouldn't understand.

However, children have their own children's solutions.

"Daddy, do you love me?" Sophie asked.

"Well, I love you." Xia Chu smiled.

"Look, how simple it is." Sophie spread her hands.

Xia Chu was slightly stunned, then smiled and hugged her daughter with the quilt in her arms, and kissed her head and face countless times.

"Sophie," Xia Chucai couldn't stand kissing his daughter all the time, looked down at her daughter, and asked seriously, "Daddy wants to live with you and Uncle Lewei in the future, do you want to?"

Sophie fell silent. This question is still a bit difficult, and she needs to think it over carefully.

After thinking about it, he waited for Le Wei to come back.

Le Wei bought two big pizzas, steamed buns, white rice porridge, and Sophie's favorite fried chicken wings, and went into the ward with his hands full.

"When I walked in, I happened to see the nurse freaking out. The guy bought a bag of KFC, and the nurse scolded him so badly. When I saw the stuff in my hand, it was several times hotter than him. Did I get caught? Isn’t it even worse? I was so scared that I didn’t even dare to take the elevator, so I came up by the stairs!” Levi was sweating from running, but cheerful, he sat down on the chair next to Sophie’s bed, opened the pizza lid, and opened the pizza from inside. He took the one with the most cheese and handed it over, "Eat it, Your Royal Highness."

Sophie was so happy that her hands and face were covered with oil.

After eating, she muttered in a low voice, if only there was a glass of iced Coke.It would be great if Xia Chu could ask her to eat pizza, but would you like to drink Coke? Just hand him a glass of water without thinking about anything else.

Sophie had no choice but to exchange an aggrieved look with Le Wei, and drink water honestly.

At noon, Sophie watched cartoons for a while, and felt sleepy, so she was going to take a nap.Xia Chu stayed with Sophie all night without closing his eyes, and Le Wei asked him to go to the side to rest for a while, and change himself when he had enough rest.He stayed by Sophie's bedside, and the big talker met the little talker, and the two chattered.

When Peppa Pig talked about Ultraman, Sophie suddenly asked Levi: "Uncle Levi, do you like Sophie?"

"Of course." Le Wei said, "Sophie is so cute, of course Uncle Le Wei likes you."

"What about dad?"

"Uncle Le Wei likes Dad too."

"Then me or Dad, which one do you prefer?"

Le Wei touched the girl's cheek and smiled: "I like all of them. Uncle Le Wei likes you two."

"You wouldn't want Sophie, would you?" Sophie's dark eyes reflected Levi's shadow.

"Never." Le Wei solemnly seemed to be swearing, "No matter what happens, Uncle Le Wei will never let Sophie go. I will always protect you, and I will always protect Dad."

I believe, Sophie thought, I believed you when you jumped out of the car and punched the bad guys hard.

"This." Sophie twisted her small body in the quilt, and stretched out a hand with difficulty for a long time, holding a wedding ring between her short fingers.

"I forgot to return it to you that day."

Sophie took Levi's hand and put it back on her ring finger seriously.

It has been a month since I came to the United States.

Levi should go back.

The company can't be left to Tian Xiaomeng all the time, there is still a lot of unfinished work left when he came impulsively.Thanks to the good maintenance of Le Wei's interpersonal relationship over the years, now that he has transformed his career and become an actor without doing traffic, he can withstand the tossing without exposure for a month. Otherwise, Le Wei can directly announce his retirement if he does not return to China before.

Even if he is already in the United States, he should cooperate with domestic places.Occasionally shoot a small video to entertain fans, take some time to do a live broadcast, and take a few more selfies to post on Weibo. If there is a script to send, he has to hurry up and watch it to give an echo to the country.

This month is busy, but it's also quite busy.You don't have to worry about being chased and intercepted by the media when you go out. After all, he hasn't become popular across the ocean yet, so who knows who he is.There is no need to sigh at the full schedule, there is no work for him in the United States, and it is all his work to be with Sophie during the day and Sophie's father at night.

If I say I'm busy, I'm pretty busy.

The team helped him accept a variety show as a guest, and recorded three episodes in total, which will be finished a year ago.He watched the first two seasons of the show in the US and took notes.Director Yue Lin has been dormant for three years and wants to make a new film. He was asked to play the leading role. The two met in Ji Qinzhi's manor and chatted for the whole afternoon. They basically settled the matter and waited to return to China to meet the main creators. Everyone, be good Work out the details.In addition, several New Year's Eve parties sent invitations, and the directors were all kind and enthusiastic. Tian Xiaomeng made a preliminary selection. As for the final selection, according to the usual practice, Le Wei had to decide by himself.

There are a lot of things to do, and the days of stealing Fusheng's half-day leisure are over. Le Wei has booked a plane ticket and is going back.

Of course Xia Chu was reluctant, but the plane is so convenient, the future is long, and there is plenty of time to meet. Sophie couldn't figure it out, and often popped out a sentence while playing, asking Le Wei if he could not leave.

It's impossible not to leave, Le Wei agreed to Sophie, and will come to see you when he is free.

The afternoon before going back, Xia Chu told Le Wei not to go out. He would come back early today, and the two went to school to pick up Sophie. In the evening, the family of three had a big meal and saw Le Wei off.

In the afternoon, Le Wei went around the yard.There is a big yard behind Xia Chu's house, planted with flowers, plants and trees.I heard that when the house was sold to Xia Chu, these flowers and trees were there.It is impossible to expect Xia Chu to grow flowers and trees. It is amazing that this person can raise his daughter without illness or disaster. Poor Huaer Caoer has not eaten any fat except drinking Xia Chu's cold tap water. Come down, all of them are sallow and thin.

Fortunately, Le Wei came, bought flower fertilizer and nutrient solution from the Internet, sprinkled it several times, and raised the flowers, plants and trees to flourish within a month.

Le Wei is about to leave, and Le Wei is reluctant to part with the fruits of his labor, let alone if these labor fruits are handed over to Xia Chu, will he regain his sallow and thin face when we meet next time.While watering, he told the flowers and plants to thrive regardless of whether there was fertilizer or not.Suddenly, he heard the doorbell ringing, and it seemed that someone was coming to the front door. He ran over quickly, but saw a car parked in front of the door, and a person standing at the door.

The person who came was an Asian woman, wearing a white casual lady's suit, which was properly tailored to outline an elegant figure.She doesn't look very beautiful, but she is very friendly.The wrinkles at the corners of her eyes showed that she was a little old, but judging by her mental state, she was much better than many young people.

"Hello, my name is Emily, and my Chinese name is Huang Yue." The visitor said with a smile, "I'm Xia Chu's psychiatrist. Is Xia Chu here?"

"He's not here." Le Wei looked at the time, "But he's coming back soon. Please come in and wait, he should be here soon."

Le Wei let people in, arranged the guests to sit on the sofa, and asked Huang Yue whether to drink tea or coffee.Huang Yue smiled Yanyan, saying that she has been in the United States for 30 years, but she is still not used to drinking coffee. If there is good tea, please have a cup.

Le Wei went to make tea and talked to Dr. Huang while making tea.It turned out that Huang Yue came to deliver materials to Xia Chu today. Sophie wanted to hire a psychiatrist, and Xia Chu thought of her immediately.But Huang Yue thought he was not good at children's psychology, so he recommended a few trustworthy friends and attached information.This is a big event, Le Wei immediately thanked Dr. Huang, just a pot of Longjing brewed, he served the coffee table, each guest and host poured a cup, the fragrance is so fragrant, you can tell it is good tea when you smell it.

"You don't have to thank me. I've known Xia Chu for so many years, and we've been good friends for a long time. It's right to do my best for Sophie." Huang Yue picked up the teacup, took a sip, and looked at Le Wei with a smile, "By the way, are you Levi?"

Only then did Le Wei realize that he hadn't introduced himself yet, so he hurriedly said, "Yes, I'm Le Wei. Xia Chu mentioned me to you?"

"I mentioned it. He called me before and said that you came and didn't know what to do. I was still giving him advice."

Le Wei responded. He didn't take it to heart at first, but after thinking about it carefully, it's not right!

"Xia Chu... Did Xia Chu call you that morning?" Le Wei was surprised.

"Yes." Huang Yue didn't understand the twists and turns, thinking that Xia Chu didn't understand what he said, and said with a smile, "Who do you think?"

I thought it was Xia Chu's new love or suitor, and then I ate a lot of dry vinegar!

Thinking about these days, when I think of that phone call, I feel like a stick in my throat, but it turns out... the other party is just a psychiatrist.

Le Wei relaxed, and couldn't help scolding himself for being stupid in his heart.

He was in a good mood, and seeing Dr. Huang in front of him was also very kind, Le Wei joked: "Xia Chu has changed a lot now. It turns out that he never tells anyone about his worries. I have never seen him ask anyone for help, even at work. rare."

"Do you think he's getting better or worse?" Dr. Huang seemed to be probing.

Le Wei smiled and said: "He is more cheerful than before, and he smiles more, of course he has changed." After a pause, Le Wei said, "You said that you have been his psychiatrist since Xia Chu came to the United States. There are changes today, thank you."

Huang Yue deserved this thank you, but she drooped her eyelashes and shook her head slowly.

"It's not anyone's fault that Xia Chu has become what he is today."

The first time Huang Yue saw Xia Chu was in the hospital.

She has registered as a volunteer in the community and provides free psychological counseling services to residents in her spare time.On a rest day, a social worker hurriedly called her to the hospital and asked her to provide psychological counseling for a suspected Chinese.There, Huang Yue met Xia Chu for the first time.

The man sat on the hospital bed with his back against the pillows.His figure is extremely thin, and any T-shirt looks like a big nightgown on him.The blue blood vessels on the back of his hand were intertwined, and there were several needle holes. The nurse said that his blood vessels were too thin, and the needle tube could not stay, so it could only be stuck on the large blood vessels in his wrist.Next to him, there is a volunteer in overalls named caretaker, who is actually a caretaker.

The social worker who called Huang Yue said that this person took an overdose of sleeping pills yesterday and was rushed to the hospital, where he was almost unable to be saved.Finally, the rescue was successful, and after careful investigation, it was found that he was pregnant.

Man, pregnant.

Ye Huang Yue has been in the industry for many years and has heard all kinds of strange things, so she can't help but gasp.

She stood at the door and calmed down for a while, then adjusted her mood and walked in.

She thought Xia Chu was transgender - which made sense.Some women retain their reproductive organs after sex reassignment surgery.What's more, Xia Chu is so good-looking, his facial features and outline are very soft and beautiful, Huang Yue can believe that he used to be a beautiful woman.

And transgender people happen to be a group with a high incidence of mental illness, such as depression.

Huang Yue sat down and chatted with Xia Chu.

She wondered why Xia Chu tried to commit suicide.

Xia Chu was polite and well-spoken.Even though he looked embarrassed, Huang Yue still felt that this person should not be underestimated.During the conversation, Xia Chu clarified that he didn't commit suicide, but that he didn't sleep well and didn't control the dosage of sleeping pills properly, which caused this big oolong.Of course Huang Yue didn't believe it, so she took out the questionnaire and gave it to him.This questionnaire is self-made by Huang Yue, and based on the answers to many specific questions, a preliminary judgment can be made with a good degree of accuracy.Xia Chu's answer tended to be perfect, looking at the dark circles under his eyes due to long-term poor sleep, Huang Yue thought, it must be a misunderstanding.

To be on the safe side, before leaving, she left Xia Chu her contact information and told him to go to her clinic every two weeks.

Xia Chu never went there.

Huang Yue also gradually forgot about this Chinese man, although he was really very beautiful.

Until one day, after get off work in the evening, Huang Yue drove home and saw that thin figure again.

He was thinner than before, and his body looked like a piece of paper when viewed from the side.Huang Yue counted the time of his pregnancy. He has been pregnant for seven months, but his lower abdomen is only slightly swollen, which can be covered with clothes. It is obvious that both he and the fetus are severely malnourished.

Now that you have seen it, you can't pretend you didn't see it.Huang Yue wanted to stop him to ask about his recent situation, but he saw that the man crossed the road without even looking at the traffic lights.

Cars come and go on the road at an extremely fast speed, and you will be killed if you walk this way!

Huang Yue immediately pulled over and stopped, regardless of the danger, rushed to the middle of the road and pulled Xia Chu back.

"You don't want to die!" Huang Yue said sharply against the roar of passing vehicles.

Under the street lamp, Xia Chu raised his head slightly and glanced at him lightly.

At that moment, the psychiatrist's intuition told Huang Yue that the scene just now was no longer an accident, let alone a misunderstanding, Xia Chu was really looking for death.

Even the one he explained with a smile a few months ago was no ordinary mistaken drug.

He wants to kill himself!

Huang Yue took Xia Chu back to her home.At that time, Xia Chu cut off all contact with the country, and his mental state was not strong enough to support any interpersonal relationship.Helpless in the United States, alone, with a big belly... Huang Yue doesn't know why he came here, but she's sure that from the very beginning, Xia Chu has been in self-imposed exile

What exactly drove him into depression? Why on earth did he give up his life?

At first, Huang Yue couldn't ask anything.Xia Chu, who was able to pretend to him a few months ago, is gone. Now Xia Chu is plagued by severe depression, unable to sleep for several days and nights, and eating has become extremely difficult.If left alone, he can sit on the couch, from sunrise to sunset, sitting upright for a long time.He couldn't control himself, often cried silently, and couldn't communicate with others, and he was reluctant to say a word.Going out became even more difficult. Huang Yue found out after a long time that Xia Chu felt that he was finally getting better that day, and wanted to go to the convenience store to buy something to eat, but halfway, he felt depressed. Looking at the passing vehicles, he only thought of any one of them. Do it well, run over yourself hard.

Huang Yue wanted to know why, but unless he wanted to say it himself, no one could ask.She treats Xia Chu as a patient in her heart, and she feels that she is responsible for Xia Chu.For this, Xia Chu was grateful. When he was in better condition, he once thanked Huang Yue earnestly, and assured her that he would be fine when the child was born.

"Is he alright?" Levi asked.

Huang Yue looked at Le Wei for a long time, took a deep breath, and shook her head.

"Xia Chu had depression a long time ago. It's just that he is very smart and knows how to make himself appear normal, so no one has noticed it. I suspect that Xia Chu has been hiding it for a long time, and he has probably deceived himself. But the pregnancy emotion Fluctuations, exacerbated the deterioration of depression. Maybe it was mild depression at first, but then it got worse and became unmanageable." Huang Yue said, "He is very repulsive to see a psychologist. I gave him medicine. He didn't refuse, but he didn't I am too willing to accept it. He has lived in my house for less than a month. When I accompanied him to the birth checkup, the doctor said that the condition of the fetus was not ideal and that there might be a risk of premature delivery. Unexpectedly, he would give birth prematurely the next day."

"I didn't know until then that he is not a transgender person, he is a complete man, but has the ability to bear children." Huang Yue recalled.

The birth of Sophie was a joy. Apart from joy, Xia Chu had completed her mission and could finally let herself go and bid farewell to this world.

In the second week after Sophie was born, Xia Chu tried to commit suicide again.

He was standing by the window, one foot had already stepped out, but fortunately Huang Yue found out in time and dragged him back.

Huang Yue slapped Xia Chu hard.

"As a psychiatrist, I shouldn't treat my patients like this, but Xia Chu, look at Sophie, she is only a tiny bit old, and she is still living in an incubator because of premature birth. Every child can cry, only She can't. She can't, she's too weak to cry at all!" Huang Yue pulled Xia Chu, not caring whether he was weak or unable to walk, and dragged him directly to the nursery room. Tell him to take a good look at his daughter sleeping in the incubator through the glass window, "You are her father and the only person she can rely on. If you die, who will take care of your daughter? You were born so hard. Let her go, once she is born, she will be buried with you!"

Xia Chu looked into the window, his legs were weak due to long-term physical weakness, and he was half lying on the glass window ugly.There were so many children in the nursery, and he tried hard to look inside, trying to see his daughter, but he couldn't see them all.