Who is the heroine?

Guan Xi never thought about who she would fall in love with.

Maybe there was a faint fantasy when I was young and ignorant. In the free chat of others, it was like the sunshine shining on the body at the moment of the speeding train, just for an instant.

The fantasy comes from the template of the real world, which is the wedding photo hanging on the wall of the parents, a man and a woman, holding hands and showing smiles that are hard to see in ordinary times.

This trace of yearning, like smoke and dream, was quietly extinguished the moment he knew his life experience.

From then on, Guan Xi never thought about who she would fall in love with.

Just like before, she never thought that she was not like the daughter of the Guan family.

She seems to have fallen into the ocean, surrounded by water in all directions, but she will never see the land, and she has nowhere to use her strength in a daze, so she can only forcibly shift her gaze to Lu Yun as a reference——

But I don't know when it started, this temporary anchor point gradually turned into a long-term lighthouse, an ever-burning lamp, lighting up the whole world.

At the very beginning, she was single-minded and only wanted to make up for it.For a long time, Guan Xi thought that she was a strong person. Compared with her peers, her mind was much more mature. Therefore, after knowing Lu Yun's existence, she always regarded him as someone who needed to be taken care of.

After all, Lu Yun has the same personality as that child...

Her personality has always been introverted and indifferent, perhaps because of her childhood experience, or because of the influence of the Guan family... The best relationship with her is her elder brother, and sometimes Guan Xi can't help but think: what is the difference between the elder brother? So he treats her so well, isn't it... some of it is because he sees his own shadow in her?After all, in this family, their personalities are really similar.

People often praise Guan's eldest son for being calm and calm, calm and composed before the collapse of Mount Tai. After Guan Xi grows up, more and more people praise her like this.Guan Xi knew, however, that this was not calmness, but pure indifference.

The world is like a glass of plain water, plain and boring is the norm, calmness is just the attitude you should have when dealing with this glass of plain water.

As a result, Lu Yun became the only taste that was suddenly thrown into the boiled water.

At first, it was just out of some compensatory psychology, but gradually, that ordinary gaze gradually condensed, and finally became the center of her gaze, the only brilliant color.She suddenly realized that there had been a huge change in her body. She no longer maintained a dispensable state for everything - no, to be precise, she put all her attachments on Lu Yun.

That kind of emotion is subtle, beautiful like the gorgeous fireworks reflected in the water by the head of Juzizhou, blooming silently on the water, like Guan Xi's heart.

Maybe Lu Yun didn't know how true what she confessed that night - she said that she didn't care about other people's eyes and opinions, and that was true.She has never cared about it, and even made no secret of it, her attitude of indifference to the world has never changed: whether she knows it or doesn't know it, whether she supports it or opposes it...

The heart beats lazily, not influenced by any malicious or sweet words, the world cannot hurt it.However, as long as Lu Yun's breathing is a little disordered for a second, as long as Lu Yun's eyes change any posture, her heart is like the softest water, and she can't help changing.

Isn't that unfair?She was reading boring books in the study, and she would suddenly fall into unreasonable thoughts during the interval-isn't this unfair?She likes Lu Yun so much, so much that she likes a careless gambler in the silent time, letting a lot of precious moments and precious first times leak from her fingers to Lu Yun: The one who takes care of you carefully, the first friend, the first girlfriend, the first sister, the first person you like, the first person to watch the sunrise and sunset together...even, the first person to fall in love with people.But Lu Yun didn't know anything. What's ridiculous is that when those moments happened, even Guan Xi didn't pay attention to them. It wasn't until some time later that she suddenly realized what she had lost...and, what she had gained .

It's so unfair.When Lu Yun was still joking and spending her days happily and easily, she stood behind her, looked at her back, sighed, and sometimes inadvertently had a thought of resentment, and wanted to hold it down immediately. She, tell her loudly: You know what?Lu Yun, I like you, the kind of love that I want to be with you forever——

She shouldn't be so heartless and unaware, leaving her alone in love.

But that was just a momentary thought, almost before it became a strong impulse, it was suppressed by another emotion: Isn't it better for Lu Yun to be so happy than any other situation?

Although, she still can't help sighing in the occasional leisure time: It's really unfair...

But... What if there was no mistake back then, what if Guan Xi was the daughter of the Guan family, what if there were no mistakes, what if she had never met Lu Yun?

So what will she be like?

Maybe it will be the same as my brother, become an outstanding Guan family, the pride of another Guan family, become one of the countless successful people, climb to the top, then meet a less annoying man, and enter the palace of marriage , hang their wedding photos in the room like their parents, the hostess in a white wedding dress and the host in a suit show the same smile, their faces are blurred as if they have applied a template, maybe they will give birth to a child, cultivate She or he becomes his heir.

Like boiled water, it should be taken for granted without any ups and downs.

If he hadn't met Lu Yun, maybe that would have been Guan Xi's life.

Guan Xi couldn't help but smile, for she was lucky to avoid such a life.

She exerted a little force on her hands, and heard Lu Yun's dissatisfied murmurs. She frowned in her sleep, and soon fell into a deeper sleep.

Guan Xi stared at Lu Yun's face in the dark, then gently kissed her on the brow.

--Good night.

Good night my love.