[Yang Chan] Fei Tian

"Second brother, what is that?"

After recovering from a long illness, the eight-year-old Yang Chan followed Yang Jian into the mountains. She lost her heart, but fortunately, she did not lose her curiosity about her surroundings.

At this time, she pointed to a plant, which is not unusual for it to be found everywhere on this mountain.She looked at it silently for a long time, and finally couldn't bear to ask.

"It's not this one, it's the ones climbing on it, these..." She pushed aside the grass and trees, and added.

"That's..." Yang Jian looked at it and replied, "That's Cuscuta."

"Cuscuta?" she repeated.

Yang Jian stopped, and squatted down beside her: "Climb on it, cling to other plants for a living, that's Cuscuta..."

That plant was wrapped around a chrysanthemum whose branches and leaves were withered and yellow, and it was about to die.

"The weak."

This was Yang Chan's first thought. In her opinion, that was the weak - clinging to other things, robbing other things of their vitality. In the end, she couldn't live long, so she had to find another host.

At this moment, she raised her head and saw a Maemi cicada nearby on a tree: it clings to the trunk and relies on the sap to neigh for a season.

However, creatures like cicadas are also weak.She is also weak.

A person who cannot protect himself is like a cicada that can only climb on a tree trunk, or a dodder that can only climb on a chrysanthemum.

The weak.

"Achan, don't be weak!"

It was then that she made up her mind.

……

"The lotus heart stays for a long time, and the flowers bloom for a long time, and the cicada sings and hides for three years in three months," the old man said, "Is it the cicada, or the lotus?"

……

Yes……

She woke up with a start and heard movement outside the cave, the child came again.

A panting sound—he came running.

"I... I'm coming!" he said.

The commotion in the ears of the dream subsided, and Yang Chan was displeased: "Baby, why are you here again!"

"I said, I will come again! Today, I brought something for you..."

"I said, I don't want your return..."

"This is not a reward, but a gift that a guest should give when visiting the host's house," Liu Xi said, "I told my mother that I met a friend on the mountain, and she specially asked me to bring it! Look——"

Hearing the sound, he took out something from his body.

Yang Chan reminded him angrily: "You have been chatting with me for so long, can't you see it? I'm blind, what did you show me!"

"Sorry..." Liu Xi was a little embarrassed, "I really don't know..."

"Is it... a sachet?" Yang Chan interrupted him, "I smell agarwood..."

"Yes……"

She turned her head, this move was obviously noticed by Liu Xi.

"You...don't like it?"

"A woman's thing, too delicate!"

Liu Xi was surprised: "Huh? Could it be that...you are not a woman?!"

"I have no idea."

……

"...Achan, if you want to learn martial arts, you can only remember one thing: from today onwards, you are a warrior and a criminal. You can be delicate, but being weak is only a means for you to save your life. From now on From the bottom of your heart, you have to completely forget—that you are a woman."

"A-Chan understands," she licked her lips, "A-Chan doesn't know what it means to be weak."

……

She really has never been frail again, at least not as frail as she was when she was five years old.She is not a woman, and she does not regard herself as a woman, but before her eyes, there always seems to be the expression of the second brother when he said these words... Looking back, the expression was hesitation, indecision, and pity It's a pity——that was the decision he had already made, he asked her to do that, but he was the one who wavered first...

"Are you in a daze?"

The little ghost interrupted her thoughts.

She turned around: "it's nothing, I'm just thinking, you shouldn't come again."

"Why not?" he asked.

"This is a prison, and I am the prisoner. You are not a prisoner, what are you doing here?"

Liu Xi refused to accept it: "I went to Huashan to play since I was a child, and I didn't just come to see you, I also came to see the mountains, and I also came to see the water! Do you know that there is a valley full of red maples over there, which is very beautiful!"

Yang Chan pondered: "Red maple... Autumn is known when a leaf falls, and after autumn, it is winter."

"Red Polygonum, Danfeng, and autumn are all in one color, and Chuyun, Wushui are long together. Everything in the world passes through the west wind, but the Cangjiang River flows day and night." The boy recited a poem from his predecessors, and then sighed pretending to be old-fashioned, "Why do you When it comes to autumn, is it melancholy? We know that winter will go from spring to spring, and the four seasons will change again in the coming year. I love autumn maple the most, followed by bamboo, then lotus, and finally plum..."

Yang Chan teased him: "I've been loved by you all four seasons, it's really not easy."

"Then you don't have any plants you love?" Liu Xi asked her back.

"Yes," Yang Chan said, "but I'm very vulgar."

"What is it?" Liu Xi asked curiously, and then added, "I promise not to make fun of you!"

"Peach Blossom." Yang Chan replied.

Liu Xi said honestly: "Uh... many literati like it, but... it's quite vulgar..."

Yang Chan continued: "That's because my mother was once trapped in a place called Taoshan, where peach trees were planted all over the place, and peach blossoms... are in full bloom all year round."

"..."

"It's a beautiful place. Once you see it, you will never forget it for the rest of your life."

"What about your mother?" Liu Xi asked softly.

"……died."

After getting this answer, Liu Xi was silent for a while, and finally, he said, "Sorry..."

"Why do you have to apologize?" Yang Chan asked.

"Just now you said peach blossoms, I don't know your mother..."

"It all happened more than 2000 years ago, why do you need to apologize," Yang Chan said, "What's more, the person who should apologize for her is not you, but Tianting..."

"Tianting... Taoshan..." Liu Xi went through these two words in his mind, and then remembered to ask, "You... I haven't asked your name, so I want to take the liberty to ask..."

"My surname is Yang," Yang Chan said bluntly, "My name is Yang Chan."

"Ah...it's...Yang Sanniang—the third Holy Mother of Huayue!" Liu Xi said in shock.

"Three Holy Mothers... It's just a false name, anyone can bear it." Yang Chan laughed at himself, "Sometimes it's someone else, sometimes it's me, sometimes it's someone else... Only the name of Yang Chan will never change."

"No! The name of the Three Holy Mothers is only you," Liu Xi said stubbornly, "Whether you are imprisoned or not, according to mortal legends, the third Holy Mother, the goddess of Huayue, is surnamed Yang. Everyone thinks it is you, that is you! "

Yang Chan sneered at this: "Do you know that I have only held this title for a few years, and how long has that Huayue goddess in your legend been passed down? I have walked in the mortal world, and I have heard the legends of mortals. At first, Huashan The Goddess has no name and surname, and was belittled by the scholar, so she was beaten to death with a single palm. Have you heard this first story?"

"This... I've never heard of it..."

"So, what everyone thinks is right? Three people can become tigers, let alone everyone can make money? A story can be distorted and changed over the years. How many of the legends that have been passed down are true? Yes, you are a little baby, can you see clearly?"

"I can't." Liu Xi sighed.

"There are some things that I don't even recognize. I don't even know how many things have been changed in my memory," Yang Chan said. With me..."

"You? Why do you have to apologize?" Liu Xi was puzzled.

"because……"

……

"Second Brother...Second Brother...I heard it! I heard Mother's voice, and she was crushed under Taoshan...you save her, save her!"

"Achan, mother kisses her...can't go out of the mountain..."

"why?!"

"because……"

"Okay! If you don't save her, I'll come! Anyway, you taught me this skill! I'll use what you taught me to save her from the mountain!"

"A-Chan can't do it!"

"Why not! After you went to the Heavenly Court, you were timid when you came back! How difficult is it to save your mother, but a mountain! Now that my brother and sister are working together, if there is anything that can hinder us, it is better to overturn the Heavenly Court!"

……

——It’s better to overturn the heaven!

——It’s better to overturn the heaven!

Such a stirring reverberation caused another turmoil in her mind, and when she was unable to restrain herself, suddenly——

"You... what's wrong with you..."

Perhaps seeing something strange, Liu Xi seemed to take a few steps closer.

She was startled and stopped all her complicated thoughts.

"It's nothing." She put down her hand that was unconsciously covering her forehead, "I remembered something from the past."

Liu Xi said: "If you forget the unpleasant past, just forget it. If you don't want to mention it, don't mention it..."

"Is it unhappy?" Yang Chan asked back, "Because I don't know, every time I think about it, what is in my heart."

"My memory is not complete," she said, "I only remember that I insisted on breaking the mountain to save my mother, and then... my second brother agreed..."

……

"Achan, if you insist on doing this, then I will do this matter..."

……

Then, she remembered the thing that jumped out of the mountain because of her, and the mountain of peach blossoms that withered in an instant—the miasma filled the mountain, the fallen flowers were scattered, and the ground was scorched.

Then, her second brother stood in front of her, blocking the white-haired monster: "Achan, you finally saw her...Call out...'Mom'."

Mother.

Not the one in memory.

Not at all...

Why did the once graceful Maid of the Heavenly Court turn into a white-haired zombie when she came out of the mountain? Perhaps the Heavenly Court has tampered with it, or maybe she was already dead when she was detained. With an alienated body.

But no matter what, Yang Jian stood in front of her and took the crime of killing her mother for her.

He has always known about this matter, and has always kept it from her, until he couldn't hide it anymore, and then blocked it for her again...

She is like a dodder, like a clump of dodders that have to climb her second brother!

This is the truth.

"Boy, what you said last time was right. I am the weak, the weak that I hate the most," she said, "I killed so many people just for fun, this is what the strong do Is it? I have been sitting here for 900 years, but it is only in the last five years that I have thought of this truth..."

Seeing this, Liu Xi was a little embarrassed: "What I said...you don't have to take it so seriously..."

"It's true, it will be true! Words spoken are like water poured out. Anyone should be responsible for what they say... Because of my words, my second brother was charged with murdering my mother; because of Xi Hai and his party, He also injured his unmarried wife... My fault was unavoidable! But I forgot... I can only piece it together from the fragments I can think of in my memory..."

But what is the use of knowing the truth?She suddenly discovered that she was afraid of facing the truth, and she was unwilling to make up those memories that could not be made up.

She will also have a day of fear, and a day she cannot face.It turned out that she was just a coward.

"Stop talking about it!" The child didn't want to listen to it any longer. "Is there nothing to be happy about in your life? Why are all the unhappy things coming out of your mouth?"

"My previous pleasure was killing people. Killing people is the happiest thing. Are you willing to listen?"

"I don't want to..." Liu Xi muttered, "Is there nothing else besides killing people?"

Yang Chan thought for a while: "Yes, telling and listening to stories is also my pleasure."

"That's it... But I don't have any stories," Liu Xi said, "Besides, you must know all the legends I know... Otherwise, you should tell it!"

"I'm talking? What are you talking about?"

"Anything is fine...except killing people, as long as it can make you happy, have you never encountered it in your life?"

Yang Chan was silent, she thought about it, the happiest thing was the malt candy that Yang Jian gave her when she was four years old, but now, a candy is nothing, and it may not be meaningful to say it.

So she blurted out: "Momoyama."

She thought of Momoyama again.

Liu Xi was a little surprised: "Taoshan...but Taoshan is not..."

Yang Chan said: "No matter what happened later, the scene of my first arrival in Taoshan was etched in my heart, and I can't get it out of my mind for thousands of years. Everyone likes the pleasing beauty. My child, don't you wonder, what I said What kind of scene did you see?"

"This……"

Yang Chan continued: "Aren't you curious, which one is better than the maple forest you saw somewhere in Huashan?"

He thought about it, and still told the truth, "Curious."

"Then stretch out your hand," Yang Chan stretched out a finger, and tapped on the barrier in front of him, "reach out and touch me, today, I will let you have a look!"

Liu Xi hesitated for a while, and finally obeyed, stepped forward a few steps, also extended a finger, and touched her through the barrier.

As soon as the surprise changed, the Huashan cave suddenly became another place. Although he knew that what he was in was a memory, but it was as real as an illusion.

Yang Chan waited for him to see enough, and withdrew her hand.

"What do you see?"

She made a sound, calling back the mortal's sanity.

"...Baili Yanhong...Snow crushed on peach branches..."

Liu Xi's voice was dull, as if he hadn't completely withdrawn from the scene just now.

"Compared with your cloudy red maple, which one is better?"

"Incomparable," Liu Xi said hastily, "What I saw just now is a fairyland; but what I like is in the mortal world."

"That's the difference between cloud and mud."

"You can't say that, the clouds are as elegant as the clouds, and the mud is as beautiful as the mud..."

"What beauty is there in mud?"

"Exquisite porcelain in the world has different shapes, and the finished products are crystal clear, like jade, or clear. These are all made of mud. The mud is spread under the feet every day, so it seems insignificant, but it is the foundation of human beings; Yunri The sun floats in the sky, and because it cannot be touched, many people look up and envy it, but they ignore that it contains rain, which can moisten the earth..."

"So, cloud and mud are both indispensable to human beings?"

"Yes," Liu Xi said, "I love Hongfeng, and I am also amazed at Taolin just now, but I can't choose between the two. I can't compare the beauty of two completely different scenery."

"Can't two different things be compared?" Yang Chan pondered, "I remembered that someone once asked me a question."

"what is the problem?"

"He asked me, should I become a cicada or a lotus."

"This……"

"These two things are completely different. One is a flower and the other is an insect. If you were you, how would you choose?"

Liu Xi thought for a moment and replied, "If it were me, I would like to be a lotus."

"Why? Lotus seeds and cicadas are both things that can stay dormant in the soil for several years. Is there any difference?"

Liu Xi said: "Yes, once the ground is broken, the cicadas can only sing for one summer, but the lotus can bloom for another season, and the next season... The lotus grows out of the mud without being stained, and the noise of the cicadas is annoying. A gentleman loves the lotus, so I choose the lotus." .”

"You're right," she remembered, "Look at me, I'm full of lotus flowers, maybe I was born for this choice."

"Lianhua..." Liu Xi seemed to look around, "It's really strange that the lotus doesn't grow in the water, but grows out of the cracks in the stone..."

There are lotuses growing in the stone, and the flowers have been blooming for [-] years. I don't know what it portends.

On this day, Liu Xi was not thrown out by Yang Chan.He stayed in the cave until he voluntarily left, and promised Yang Chan to come see her next time.

However, after a long time, she never saw him again.Only the sachet he put in the cave, the fragrance overflowed for a long time.

Perhaps because the holiday was coming to an end, his mother took him back early.After all, he said "next time," not "next day."

And Huashan's earth energy has also accumulated to the peak, and the ground has been repeatedly shaken, as if something is waiting for the right time to burst out...

The vision in her mind gradually eroded her mind.Using pain to relieve pain no longer has any effect.

One night, her consciousness left her body and re-entered the earth's veins.

It was still the dazzling flowing fire, from which a huge dragon head slowly protruded.The dragon's head formed by the flow of flames opened and closed its mouth.

"The Huashan Mountain Range has been completed, and now, just for your answer..."

"Can I not choose?" she asked.

"Of course you can," Longshou replied, "It's been 600 years, and you haven't chosen yet. I'm not afraid of another 600 years...but you will eventually choose. You have been pursuing, but you have never been curious, why? And pursue?"

"I need to think about it."

"Thinking about it means you don't have the courage to take responsibility. You don't want to be a coward, but you are being a coward, Yang Chan..."

The dragon's mouth opened again, and it became bigger and bigger, and finally split eight petals from the center, like a lotus flower.

There was a person standing in Na Lian's heart. It turned out that it was that person who was talking all the time.

"Why don't you understand," said the man, "why don't you want to remember..."

The flames flowed, and in the brilliance, what she saw was - that person had a face that was identical to her own!

"You are me, I am you!"

When her consciousness reset, she became sober again.

This is the 34th year of Jiajing, November 22nd.