Lin Shilang Gu

Lin Yuewei jumped up from the bed: "What?!"

She almost thought that she lost her memory, or she was too busy, and directly cleared this part of the memory.

Gu Yanqiu said: "You don't have amnesia, it's because I haven't thought about how to tell you."

Mr. Liu found out about Yangqing Village, the hometown of Gu Yanqiu's mother, Shen Huaiyu, not long ago, during the training camp at Lin Yuewei.Gu Yanqiu came to N City to see her, and received a call from Mr. Liu the day after he returned.

Mr. Liu is used to weird cases, but now that the times are very different, he is no stranger to such things as Shen Huaiyu.

Mr. Liu: "I have already checked, and found a few old people who were also in Yangqing Village back then. One of them is a relative of Shen's family. You can pick a time to come and I will tell you in detail, or do it on the phone first." A simple explanation."

Gu Yanqiu was silent for a long time, the original uneasiness captured her senses again, she said: "Give me the address, I will go this weekend."

Gu Yanqiu is not afraid of anything, but she doesn't like the state of half-knowledge, she can't fly immediately, so she postpones the time to know the truth for a few days.

"That weekend?" Lin Yuewei thought back to what message Gu Yanqiu sent her in those few days. All she could think about was acting and couldn't remember it. She called back to check the chat records. Except for a few good morning and good night messages, she just asked if she had eaten. , and every day is no different.

Lin Yuewei said unhappily, "Why don't you tell me what you know?"

Gu Yanqiu: "It's about the same as I expected, but it may be an incredible result for you."

Lin Yuewei: "What incredible result? Let me hear what you said?"

After more than a week of relief, Gu Yanqiu had almost digested it, so she told Lin Yuewei what Mr. Liu found out and what she had assumed before.

Gu Yanqiu said: "Do you remember that one day when Gu Feiquan asked me to cooperate, before we went to the movies at night, that sentence you blurted out?"

"remember."

What Lin Yuewei said was: Have you ever thought about the possibility that your mother knew the existence of He Songjun's mother and son before she was alive, and there is a connection between them.

Lin Yue narrowed his eyes slightly: "So this sentence..."

Gu Yanqiu said: "I think it makes sense, so I didn't sleep all night after I went back that day. Based on this possibility, I deduced a series of results. I found that once this premise exists, many things are not so complicated. , Why is my dad so eager to marry He Songjun? Could it be my mother's last wish? Gu Feiquan told me that he once saw my dad weeping at my mother's relic late at night. I don't think he loves He Songjun , Even if it is guilt, my dad is a businessman, and he is a successful person with both fame and fortune. The series of things he did, regardless of my identity as his daughter, are stupid from the perspective of bystanders. One word explanation , It’s just not necessary, there’s no need to do such a terrific thing, it’s so criticized.”

"I followed this chain of clues and pushed back, so why did my mother let him marry He Songjun? First, he was really sorry for He Songjun; second, my mother didn't love my dad, didn't care, or she loved me too much Dad, I love him so much that I don't care that he has other women, and even let him make up for his mistakes and marry someone else soon after her death."

Lin Yuewei: "..."

Gu Yanqiu asked her: "Which of these two possibilities do you think is more likely?"

Lin Yuewei didn't dare to say it, but she already had the answer in her heart.

It's more like the first type, the second type, if you really love someone, you will never do such a thing, unless Shen Huaiyu is a self-sacrificing virgin, if she is really a virgin, why doesn't she know that He Songjun is there The first time to give up the position of Mrs. Gu, but after death.Gu Huai immediately married someone else, which indirectly shows how strong Shen Huaiyu's last wish is.

Lin Yuewei didn't know if there were such people in the world, but she definitely wasn't anyway.If she knew that Gu Yanqiu had a mistress, she would beat her up first, and then let her leave the house as far as she could go, and she would be poor for the rest of her life.

Gu Yanqiu said calmly: "I think it's the first type. My mother doesn't love my father."

Lin Yuewei was not good at expressing her opinion on her family affairs, so she could only give a soft "hmm" to show that she was still listening and let her continue talking.

Gu Yanqiu said: "There are three pieces of evidence, but none of them are conclusive. My guesses are mostly. First, what I just told you is that she is most likely the one who prompted my father to marry He Songjun; second, according to Gu Feiquan's He told me that he met my mother when he was a student. My mother probably knew him. Naturally, she might have known about the existence of He Songjun's mother and son; third, my impression of my mother over the years is that she is a very... In today’s words, it’s a Buddha. It’s not a fake because you can’t get anything and let nature take its course, but you really don’t care about anything. Do you have some desires to live alone in this world? I have it, and you have it too. .”

The pure little pony was caught off guard and sprained her feet in Lin Yuewei's mind. She changed her sitting position and corrected her running mind.

Gu Yanqiu said: "But she didn't, I didn't see her get emotional because of that incident, Dad's company made the first big money, or the financing was successful, I was admitted to a good school, and such things, my dad was so happy with what Like, my mother... It doesn't mean that she is indifferent, she will be happy for us, but it feels like, my dad and I are one family, and she is another family, and the happiness is separated by a layer.

"She doesn't have a private life of her own, no family, no friends, she doesn't have a little sister bond like your mother does, she's very loving with her husband, and occasionally goes out on a honeymoon. My dad took her out, I heard I have invited you several times, but she usually only agrees once in ten times. Do you think this is love?

"Besides, if one guess is a coincidence, are so many coincidences still coincidences? At least there is a seventy to eighty percent probability that this conclusion is true."

A question popped up in Lin Yuewei's mind, and just as he was thinking whether to ask it, Gu Yanqiu thought of something with her.

"Since she doesn't love my dad, who does she really love?"

"It's also possible that she loves no one."

"She really doesn't love anyone."

"What?" Lin Yuewei was surprised by her understatement, isn't this her mother?Why did you suddenly become so disrespectful.

"Death is like a lamp going out, and it's too illusory to say whether you love or not, isn't it?" Gu Yanqiu seemed to add a sentence impromptu.

"...Yes." Lin Yuewei thought, there should be something else.

Without giving her time to think about the result, Gu Yanqiu said again: "Do you still remember my grandma? She fell off the wheelchair last time."

"remember."

"Do you remember what we were doing?"

"doing what?"

"Remember."

recall.Lin Yue narrowed his eyes slightly.At that time, Gu Yanqiu went to the inner room to look for a photo album, and she was in charge of accompanying Mrs. Gao outside. Afterwards, Gu Yanqiu came out. She just walked towards Gu Yanqiu, before she even had time to say a word, Mrs. Gao fell not far from them. down.

"What are you doing..." Lin Yuewei murmured, flashing that clip back and forth, suddenly a flash of inspiration flashed in his mind, "Could it be because of the two of us?"

"I can't think of any other reason."

"why?"

"I'm wondering if she thinks we are someone else, or this scene has been staged in front of her, and she is deeply impressed by this scene, and has a psychological shadow." Gu Yanqiu said, "Also, you Said that after my grandma fell down, she said a few intermittent words."

"No, yes, no, Dad. These few."

"The only thing we can be sure of with a high probability is that the 'dad' should refer to my deceased grandfather. The third word is hard to guess. As long as the first two words are thought in that direction, the solution will be easily solved."

Lin Yue was slightly blessed to the heart, and said calmly: "We can't be together."

"As I thought."

"Cheng Yong from Gaoshan County said that he saw my mother go to look for my grandma, but grandma drove her out, and there were tears on her face; director Fang of the nursing home said that my mother came to visit my grandma once every six months, okay. The time is very good, most of the time it will offend the old lady, and the old lady will get started at every turn. I have been unable to figure out what kind of deep hatred can make mother and daughter turn against each other. In a woman's mind, who is the most important person?"

"Husband and children."

"Yes, husband and child. My grandfather died. I don't know how he died. Cheng Yong asked, but my grandmother kept secret about it. She kept her dead husband secret and kept silent about her daughter who was away. What would be the reason? One day my daughter After returning home, my mother lost her temper and even refused to recognize her and drove her out of the house. What do you think is the reason?"

"Does the husband's death have something to do with the daughter?" Lin Yue frowned slightly.Apart from this, she can't think of any other connection. Both of them are close relatives and loved ones. She can't bear to let go of either of them. Neither of them recognizes it. Either her husband and daughter are on the same front and did something to offend her. , either one person died because of the other, or a large part of the cause died because of the other.If it is the first type, it is impossible for the old lady to still have the portrait of Grandpa Gu Yanqiu at home and enshrine it every day.

Gu Yanqiu didn't answer this question, but threw out another question: "What do you think will make a mother brood on her heart for more than 20 years, and she will react to such a big thing at any trouble? Why would she say so firmly?" Can't be together'? She was already in her fifties when she moved to Gaoshan County. Why did she take such a big risk to leave her hometown at this age? Judging from her poor life later, her departure seems more forced. "

As Gu Yanqiu mentioned earlier, Mrs. Gao reacted so strongly when she saw the two of them appearing in front of her at the same time, so...

Lin Yuewei's pupils shrank suddenly.

Is it...

The pair of young girls from Gaoshan County appeared in her eyes at the same moment.

-I also have a girlfriend, but my family doesn't agree with me being with her.

- It has been two years since same-sex marriage became legal, but they are still old-fashioned, saying that men and women are just right and proper, and women and women are rebellious, affecting human relations, and they will feel sorry for their ancestors in the future.

Gu Yanqiu let out a long breath: "These were all my guesses before."

Lin Yuewei waited for her next words.

Gu Yanqiu said: "The things Mr. Liu found told me that these are not guesses, but facts. Except for the fact that there is no progress with He Songjun's mother and son, everything else is facts."

So Gu Yanqiu went to Yangqing Village back then—now it belongs to a prefecture-level city, Yangqing Village has long since disappeared.Times have changed, and it is very difficult to check, but some things have happened, and there will always be traces.

Mr. Liu found an uncle of Shen Huaiyu, that is, a cousin of Gu Yanqiu's grandfather, and Gu Yanqiu's third grandfather.Counting back 30 years, the brothers in the countryside all lived in the same village, and the chickens and dogs heard each other, and the whole village knew when there was any movement.

The third grandpa also passed [-] this year. He wears dentures, and the children are up to the challenge, so he took him to the city.

The first time I saw Gu Yanqiu, I stared at her for a long time, then sighed and said one word: "Like."

He took two puffs of old cigarettes and said, "It's really like it."

Gu Yanqiu said, "Third Grandpa."

The third grandpa said "Hey", agreed, and said, "You look really like your mother, just as beautiful." He narrowed his cloudy old eyes, and recalled some old events with a look of nostalgia, "At that time, Xiaoyu, who was you Mom, she is a well-known beauty in ten miles and eight villages, she is obviously a girl who grew up in the countryside, both in skin and appearance, she looks like a city person, when she was just thirteen or fourteen, a suitor broke through the threshold."

"My elder brother, that is, your grandfather, his name is Shen He. The elder brother picked up a pole and drove out all the suitors. The sister-in-law put her hips on her hips and scolded at the door: 'Everyone is shameless, right? How many times have I said this, my daughter is going to study and go to college, and if she is not in a hurry to get married, just leave me.'”

Gu Yanqiu showed some doubts.

The third grandpa explained: "You don't know, that's how we are here. If you don't speak clearly and be harsh, there will be more troublesome things. The eldest brother and sister-in-law drove away wave after wave, but they still can't be beaten to death." Like a fly, Xiao Yu went to school, followed by a bunch of young men who pretended to be escorting her, who didn't know what they were thinking.

"My elder brother, check out those boys one by one, and then ask their parents to educate them. If it doesn't work, they will go up with a shoulder pole and smoke. While smoking, they will curse: 'Let you know what's good, let you know what's good, you son of a bitch, Stay away from my daughter', and later I made a bottle of chili water for Xiaoyu, the kind that can be sprayed, and if you see a boy with bad intentions, spray him."

Gu Yanqiu evoked a little smile, she knew nothing about her mother's past or her relatives here, and through the third grandpa's narration, a specific picture appeared in her mind.

It was not easy for her mother to grow up, and her parents were heartbroken.

The third grandfather squinted his eyes and smiled: "Xiaoyu herself is also cruel, carrying a bottle of chili water, whoever is here, will not show any affection. And they are all half-grown, who has no work to do?" , the kind of idlers will retreat when they see this battle, can't be shameless, can't they?"

Lin Yuewei also smiled, and doubts arose in her heart: the Xiaoyu that the third grandfather said was very different from the Shen Huaiyu she knew, so it was because of what happened later?

"Xiaoyu lived up to everyone's expectations and was admitted to the university. The first high school student in our village, the first college student, and the first famous college student. At that time, the university entrance examination was not as easy as it is now. It was not easy to pass the entrance examination. Our whole village , going from house to house, putting up lanterns and festoons, and the eldest brother’s house putting up a water table, this is a great joy for the whole village. We, especially my elder brother and sister-in-law, are finally coming to a better life. The bachelors in the village will not come to propose marriage again, college students Are they worthy? It is an honor to have a look from afar."

"But we didn't expect..." Third Grandpa stopped talking with a muffled voice, smoking a cigarette.

Gu Yanqiu pinched the knuckles of his other fingers one by one with his thumbs, and took a sip of water from the water glass at hand.

The smoke lingered on the third grandfather's lips, and he let out a long sigh: "We never thought that such a smart and filial child would become like that."

"What has it become?"

The third grandfather glanced at her, then looked around, shook his head as if remembering something, and said, "I forgot, the world is different." He changed the subject suddenly, and said, "But it was not possible in our era, girls and girls To be together, but also to get married, what does that sound like?"

Gu Yanqiu: "What did you say?"

The third grandfather said: "During the summer vacation of the first year of college, your mother brought home a female classmate. She was a serious child in the city. She was dressed like a rich man. The eldest brother and sister-in-law took the only hen in the family that laid eggs. Killing stewed soup, entertaining people, you have to know that she is... a... who has turned Xiaoyu into a pervert, let alone chicken, the eldest brother will not give her a grain of rice."

The third grandfather looked at Gu Yanqiu again, and said with relief and regret: "Fortunately, she also lost her way and found her way back, and walked the right path. With you, elder brother Quanxia Youzhi should also rest in peace."

"Third Grandpa, you are digressing."

"I'll continue." The third grandpa swallowed, and the smoke in the air was getting more and more. He said slowly, "I only found out later. During the summer vacation, Xiaoyu's female classmate stayed at her house." About ten days ago, I went back to the city, and Xiaoyu went back with her. The day she left, I stayed for a while, but she was very determined, her eyes seemed a little red, I can’t remember now, maybe I remembered wrong Bar."

The third grandpa: "I didn't think about it that much at the time, but Xiaoyu didn't come back during the winter vacation that year. I asked my elder brother and sister-in-law, and my elder brother and sister-in-law were silent for a while, saying that she would work in the city to earn money during the New Year. This is popular among children. It’s called a work-study program. I didn’t understand it, so I complained about it, so I can’t come back for years after the study abroad program. My eldest brother and sister-in-law didn’t say anything.

"In the summer vacation of the second year, she still didn't come back. The elder brother said that she was working part-time. The summer vacation was longer and she earned more. I still didn't doubt it. Now that I think about it, I am so stupid. My sister-in-law's eyes are red and she is about to cry. , I didn’t think much about it. In the third year, the fourth year, and the fourth year, she came back during the Chinese New Year, but the atmosphere at the eldest brother’s house was very strange. Just after New Year’s Eve, she left again on the first day of the new year.

"At this time, I realized that something was wrong. I went to ask my elder brother and sister-in-law what was going on. The elder brother didn't speak. He never smoked. Xiaoyu spent a lot of money on schooling. Every penny was pulled out of her teeth. That day Grabbing my cigarette rod and smoking a bag in silence, my sister-in-law cried intermittently and told me about the incident. It turned out that the female classmate Xiaoyu brought back from the first summer vacation was not a pure female classmate, but her girlfriend. , You say it's absurd, isn't it absurd?"

There is only one thought in Gu Yanqiu's mind: Sure enough.

Sure enough, not unexpectedly.

The third grandpa continued: "The elder brother was furious, the father and daughter had a big fight, and the elder brother drove Xiaoyu out of the house. So Xiaoyu only stayed at home for ten days during the summer vacation and left, and never came back. Senior In the winter vacation of the year when she was about to graduate, when she came back, it wasn't that things had turned around, but that she planned to go to another city farther away, to Yanning, to stay with her girlfriend, and to inform her parents when she came back."

The third grandfather smiled bitterly and said: "I don't know what's wrong with this child. After eating the weight, he became determined. For a nondescript girlfriend, even the parents who have raised her for so many years and sent her to college are gone. Wolf."

"and after?"

"I haven't seen her."

"Never seen again?"

"No, I moved into the city later, the village was also demolished, and an industrial park was built. She may have come back later, but she probably couldn't find where her home is."

Gu Yanqiu was silent for a moment, and asked, "How did my grandfather die?"

The third grandpa took a puff of cigarette forcefully, and after a while, he said in a hoarse voice: "Car accident."

"How did the car accident happen?"

"It's been a long time, decades, it's been a year or two since your mother graduated from college." The third grandfather squinted his eyes, not wanting to recall this memory in his long life, "Is the country building water conservancy? The allocation, the eldest brother is lucky, the location of the family field is good, and it has taken a lot of advantage. Some people look at him with jealousy and want to exchange it with him. Do you think it can be exchanged? The land is the life of our farmers. He and the family There was a little conflict."

"If I knew that something would happen to him, I would definitely not persuade him to drink that wine." The third grandpa took a deep breath of the cigarette, his throat became dry, and he took another sip of water, his old hands trembling uncontrollably.

Gu Yanqiu waited for a while before hearing him continue to say with a trembling voice:

"There is a boy in the east of the village. He is married to a girl from the county. He is quite rich. The banquet was held in the county town, and a big hotel was booked. About ten tables were invited, and more than half of the people in the village went to the dinner table. There was a dispute with that family on the Internet, should the younger generation get married and invite wine? Of course, you can’t make trouble. My eldest brother and I both wanted to settle the matter and let it go. Don’t rush into the happy event. Who knows that the wife of the family started yelling, saying that the daughter of Shen He’s family, Shen Huaiyu She is a perverted homosexual, my eldest brother was stunned for a moment, and I was also stunned, I don’t know how she knew, and she knew so much, that the other college student who came to our village as a guest at that time was not her ordinary classmate, but her girlfriend.”

The third grandpa rubbed his hands, he seemed a little cold, Gu Yanqiu poured him a cup of hot water, and handed the cup to him to cover it.

"In the end, the master came forward and told the woman to shut up. But more than half of the people in the village have gone, and everyone knows about it. I don't know how it will end in the future? The elder brother just drank, and finally said that he If you can’t eat anymore, you have to go first, so I agreed, and I thought about going back to discuss countermeasures.”

The third grandpa took a sip of hot water from the water cup, calmed down his trembling slowly, and fixed his eyes on the table without moving: "Who knows, he left that night and never came back."