Roommate Daily Research Report

Shu Yang sat down in his seat, turned on the computer and was about to do something, but he couldn't stop breathing heavily, and his mind was full of the colleague's glance just now.

He clenched his hands tightly, pinching the knuckles of his index finger with his thumbnail, forcing himself to calm down.

He was staring at the computer screen in a daze when suddenly a hand stretched out in front of him and put down two siu mai and a cup of coffee on his desk.

Shu Yang looked up.

Du Xiao smiled at him: "Brother Yang didn't eat breakfast? I brought it specially for you. The siu mai downstairs in my house is quite delicious. But I forgot to buy soy milk. Let's combine Chinese and Western food."

The attention of the whole office was on this side. Seeing Shu Yang raised his head, everyone silently turned back and pretended to be busy, but their ears were all pricked up.

Shu Yang smiled: "Thank you Du Xiao, I got up late today, so I really didn't eat."

Du Xiao giggled, and went to the tea room with the cup in his arms.

Shu Yang watched her leave, and when she turned around, Sister Hong happened to enter the office, the two of them exchanged glances, Sister Hong lowered her head a little helplessly.

This was the first time Shu Yang saw her expression like this.

After a while, Teacher Ye also came. He was still sitting at the desk at the back of the office. As usual, he didn't give Shu Yang a single look.

Shu Yang suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.

Throughout the morning, the atmosphere in the entire editorial department was strange.

Everyone is used to talking to people, and it is unlikely that they will talk to Shu Yang in private, but Shu Yang knows what they will say.

The big deal is that it revolves around the themes of "relationship households" and "AIDS", and maybe it will discuss whether Mr. Shang and Mr. Ye are unclear about his real relationship with Cheng Xinyi.

When chatting, the expression is not only distasteful, but also maybe a little happy.

After the lunch break, Mr. Ye and the deputy editor-in-chief hadn't come yet, so they spoke freely in the office and said anything.

A colleague asked: "Zhao Bin, are you in such a good mood today?"

"Really?" Zhao Bin asked back.

Those people immediately whispered a few words, Zhao Bin blew a low whistle, and said, "If you want people not to know, you have to do nothing. Everyone knows the truth since childhood, right?"

Someone chimed in.

Du Xiao suddenly said, "Are you bothered? I can hear you guys when I'm sitting at the edge of the office, and I go out for a walk by myself when I don't sleep. Do you have a sense of public morality? Next time when you take a nap, I'll be next to you and karaoke" no?"

Zhao Bin glanced at Du Xiao, Du Xiao raised his chin and stared back, and the voices of the people who spoke gradually fell down.

Shu Yang buried his head in his arms, opened his eyes, and his heart was peaceful.

Cheng Xinyi sent a lot of messages as usual - took a few photos of the company, talked about his work, reminded him to eat, told him that the towels should be changed, and said a few words of love.

Shu Yang said in advance last night that he was very busy, so he didn't reply.

But in fact, he read the news over and over again.

I don't know whether it was intentional or not, Pingzi from next door came several times, and still joked with Shu Yang as usual, but couldn't hide the worry on his face.

Shu Yang saw that she was talking to Du Xiao, so he didn't ask any more questions.

It was not until the evening that Shu Yang replied to Cheng Xinyi, saying that he was very busy today, so he was free now.

Cheng Xinyi's phone call came right away.

Shu Yang forced himself to lift his emotions, but Cheng Xinyi still keenly noticed something was wrong, and asked, "Brother, what do you do?"

"Yes." Shu Yang said, "Ms. Ye wants me to be the team leader, but I feel that I am not good at coordinating things. The project with Huaicheng Ancient Books is not over yet, and there are suddenly many things."

Cheng Xinyi smiled: "Brother, you have worked hard, and those who are capable will work harder. Brother Xiaoxin rubs your shoulders for you. Is the strength appropriate? Do you want to be heavier?"

"That's just right, pinch it well, if you pinch it well, you won't be paid." Shu Yang said with a smile.

Cheng Xinyi smiled: "Do you only need to rub your shoulders? Do you want to rub other places as well?"

Shu Yang: "..."

He was silent for two seconds and said, "Actually, it's not hard, because there is nothing harder than thinking about you."

Cheng Xinyi: "Don't steal my lines."

Shu Yang laughed haha.

We chatted until it was time to go to bed, Cheng Xinyi said: "Brother, let's sleep with the voice on? I want to hear you next to me, and I want to hug you."

Shu Yang: "I forgot to ask, is your dormitory in such a good condition? Single?"

Cheng Xinyi smiled: "I don't live in the company, I found a small single room in a remote place, just in case you want to come, right? But when you come, let's find a bigger house..."

Shu Yang didn't understand the second half of the sentence at all. He felt very dizzy, and he smiled after Cheng Xinyi finished speaking: "Okay, you have the final say, and I feel good about it. Be good, brother, you can do it anywhere in Beijing." Don't go, wait for me to come to you, soon."

Cheng Xinyi replied: "Okay! Then I want a big big hug, and I won't let you go unless I say let you go!"

"Hugs, hugs, I will give you as much as you want, and I will give you everything you want to hug." Shu Yang said with a smile, "Then hang up the phone and send a voice."

The two of them were talking on the phone, Shu Yang didn't feel sleepy and didn't dare to turn over, so he had to force himself to close his eyes and breathe evenly.

Actually fell asleep in a daze.

The next morning was a personnel change meeting.

The previous gossip had been saying that Sister Hong might be promoted to deputy editor-in-chief, but after being transferred, her position has not changed, and she is still the leader of group b.

Two more people were transferred from the team working with Huaicheng Ancient Books to form editor group C, led by Shu Yang.

The rest of the changes are the responsibility of the directors of each department, and the editors are not in the way.

The announcement on the notification board was posted at noon, followed by the disciplinary notices from Sister Hong, Li Feng, and Zhao Bin, all of which were serious warnings within the unit.

The entire office was boiling, and the discussion that was suppressed yesterday was finally hit on the surface of the water today.

Throughout the afternoon, wherever Shu Yang went, he could feel strange eyes.

Huaicheng Publishing has always seemed to be calm after the change of leadership from old to new. In fact, the rift has been covered up for a long time. At this time, some clues suddenly appeared due to this incident.

The matter fermented, not only the editorial department, but also the American editorial department and publishing department next door began to discuss.

The email was spread more and more widely, and finally the deputy editor-in-chief invited Teacher Ye to the editor-in-chief's office under pressure, and the two talked for a long time.

A quarter of an hour after the deputy editor came out of the office, Teacher Ye came out.

He stood at the front of the office and said: "This time the personnel transfer is temporary, and the implementation period is one month. During this period, you can come to me directly if you have any comments. But please note that I do not accept no-roots and no-ones. Based on conjecture."

Teacher Ye finished speaking and asked, "Any questions?"

After waiting for a few minutes, no one spoke, Teacher Ye said again: "Usually leave you alone, but today I will also be a dictator. Since everyone has no doubts in front of me, it is best not to have any questions in private. Old Ye, I like to open Skylight speaks brightly, don't talk too much behind the scenes, it's not very polite."

After Mr. Ye left, Zhao Bin said in a strange way: "Sure enough, there are people in charge who are good at handling things, and it's a matter of overwhelming everyone's opinions!"

Someone laughed and said, "Hey, who's to say it's not? It's been so long since I've been here. I'm so crazy. I don't know who's surname will be in the office from now on."

"What's wrong with this society? Do homosexuals have privileges?" Another person pretended to ask in a "whispered voice".

A long-time editor in Group B laughed and said, "What kind of privileges do homosexuals have? Having a financial backer is a great privilege."

Sister Mai couldn't see it, and said, "Mr. Ye said just now that you should go to him if you have any opinions. Don't be so weird here, okay? There's no need to be annoying."

After saying this, several female colleagues were a little bit aggrieved.

Zhao Bin and the others laughed indifferently, and a fair-looking person said again: "Our unit has also become an entertainment circle."

Du Xiao just heard here when he came back from work outside.

She looked at the man who spoke contemptuously, and said loudly: "Brother Sun, if you say that our unit is like the entertainment industry, then you are the most beautiful in the entire entertainment industry. Are you regretting that you don't have a financial backer? Or is it your Is the patron not strong enough? Can everyone help you find out?"

"You!" The man took two steps forward and stared at Du Xiao.

Du Xiao raised his chin: "What? Want to hit a woman? Come on, sister, I have a black belt in Taekwondo, and I will accompany you anytime."

Sister Hong, who had been sitting quietly all this time, stood up and shouted, "Enough! Go to work! Are you off work and are you going to quarrel?"

Zhao Bin and the man surnamed Sun went to the tea room cursing, and Du Xiao raised his voice from behind: "It's a good unit, it looks like a vegetable market. The men have small bellies, and a group of sharp-toothed women who don't like others!"

Sister Hong said sternly: "Du Xiao, you're not from the editorial department, so I can't control you, can I?"

Du Xiao curled his lips, walked past Shu Yang's desk, and put a candy on his desk.

Shu Yang heard all the comments just now, but it was strange that these words did not arouse his anger at all.

The lethality is not even as good as the glance from my colleagues yesterday.

He sat at his desk, looked at the candy calmly, finally picked it up, peeled it off and put it in his mouth, laughing at himself.

Half an hour before get off work, Du Xiao sent a message: "Brother Yang, Teacher Ye told you to wait for him after get off work."

Shu Yang replied "Yes" and typed again: "Thank you Du Xiao, the candy is very sweet."

Du Xiao replied: "Candy is not as sweet as me."

Shu Yang smiled: "Yes, you are the sweetest."

Finally, it was time to get off work, and the office gradually became empty.

Shu Yang packed up his things and waited at the door. Teacher Ye came out at about 06:30, approached and patted him on the shoulder: "Go, chat with me."

Shu Yang responded and silently followed behind him.

Finally, I arrived at a small teahouse in the lower reaches of the Hibiscus River.

It's time for dinner now, there's no mahjong to play in this teahouse, it should be closed by now, and I didn't see any other guests after I went in.

Teacher Ye called the aunt behind the counter to come, and said, "Fry two dishes."

Shu Yang was a little surprised, Teacher Ye smiled: "This is my little sister's house, do you want a cup of tea?"

"Thank you, Teacher Ye, if you don't drink it." Shu Yang smiled, "I can't sleep at night after drinking it."

Teacher Ye: "That's right, I probably can't sleep now."

Shu Yang pursed his lips and didn't answer.

The two sat in the far corner, and there was no one around. Teacher Ye said bluntly, "I have received that email, and Lao Shang has also received it."

Shu Yang took a deep breath and said, "I'm sorry, Mr. Ye, for hurting you."

Teacher Ye slowly shook his head: "It's not about getting involved, I know what I recruited you for, it's not something that can be changed with just one email."

Shu Yang smiled palely: "Yeah, it's not about an email."

Teacher Ye: "I am talking to you today as an elder, not as a leader. I hope you can have a heart-to-heart talk with me."

Shu Yang nodded: "Thank you, Teacher Ye."

Teacher Ye: "Lao Shang and I have been friends for many years. I watched Xiaoxin grow up. Lao Shang and Cheng Min regard him as their own son."

Shu Yang sat very straight, staring at him blankly, not knowing what to say.

Teacher Ye leaned back, relaxed on the back of the chair, and asked, "Should you have been exposed to some religions when you were studying?"

Shu Yang hesitated for a moment, and answered honestly: "When I was an undergraduate, I regularly attended house churches, and as a graduate student I stayed in a Taoist research institute, and I also studied a little bit of Buddhist literature."

Teacher Ye smiled: "Do you still go to church?"

Shu Yang shook his head.

Teacher Ye was silent for a while, and asked, "Why?"

Shu Yang looked down at the grain on the wooden table: "My friends in the church always tell me that God loves you."

Teacher Ye: "So?"

Shu Yang paused for a long time before speaking: "I'm sorry, Teacher Ye, it's very disrespectful to speak like this, but I don't feel saved, and God can't save me."

Teacher Ye: "Are you afraid when you read "Genesis"?"

"I'm afraid." Shu Yang smiled, "I later found out that the city of Sodom really existed, and thought that if there is a God, then he really wants to abandon homosexuals. I am one of the abandoned ones. Abandoned, I might as well walk away by myself."

Teacher Ye didn't speak.

During this silence, three dishes were served on the table, and Shu Yang thanked the aunt who served them.

No one moved chopsticks all the time.

After a long time, Teacher Ye touched the cigarette box and came out: "Do you mind?"

Shu Yang shook his head: "You can do whatever you want."

Teacher Ye lit a cigarette: "I was forced to quit many times, but I couldn't help but want to smoke when I was under a lot of pressure. I think people are old and don't mind what they do."

Shu Yang: "I'm sorry, Teacher Ye."

Teacher Ye: "There's nothing to be sorry about. It's a matter of personal feelings, so I shouldn't take care of it. It's Cheng Min who wants me to talk to you."

Shu Yang was taken aback suddenly, speechless.

"They all know about it." Teacher Ye dusted off the cigarette lightly, "The email was sent to Lao Shang last night, you should know that Lao Shang and Cheng Min have no children, and they really love Xiaoxin very much. It was a bit of a shock to them. Not to mention them, even I was shocked. Cheng Min called and cursed last night, saying that I don’t recognize people clearly.”

Shu Yang was stunned, his body was so stiff that he almost lost consciousness.

Teacher Ye smiled: "But this is about the three of us, it has nothing to do with you. Let's talk about you, why did you reject God's salvation?"

Shu Yang looked at Teacher Ye's gray hair, and suddenly felt a little careless.

He said: "When I went to church for the first time, I heard the pastor share the story of the prodigal son in the Gospel. After listening to him, I couldn't control my emotions. It was not because I was a prodigal son, but because I was moved unconditionally. , on the contrary, because I am the eldest son."

"I haven't run away, I haven't rebelled, so I won't be forgiven. I keep my place, not because I'm really that good, or because I want to be in my heart. I haven't been honest, I haven't worshiped God, my honesty Both respect and respect are put on. I don't hold grudges when I see the prodigal son who turns back is accepted, but I feel very uncomfortable."

"I'm supposed to be the prodigal son who ran away, I was rebellious and disrespectful, but I stayed in a safe place for a little bit of reputation, doing things I didn't like, forced to accept things I couldn't accept.

"The friend who took me to the church asked you why you were so moved. He told the people next to me that I was experiencing God. They were all happy for me, but I never had the heart to speak, because only I knew that I was not moved, I It’s a pity, and it’s a shame about myself.”

"It is impossible for me to belong to God, because a person like me is a person who even God will abandon." Shu Yang said faster and faster, "I did nothing wrong, and I have no right to choose. I was born for no reason. Come down to live a life I don't want to live, I don't have the right to choose but I'm the one to be punished, but I did nothing wrong and I can't turn back."

"The root of it all is just that I don't like women."

After finishing speaking in one breath, Shu Yang suddenly stopped.

The impulse finally tore open a hole to vent, and he knew that he was a little out of control.

Regardless of whether Teacher Ye understood his disorganized words, he suddenly had the joy of letting go of the disguise, and the hand holding the tea cup trembled uncontrollably.