dear tiger tooth boy

01

When Yunho came out of the bathroom, Jiang Ning was sitting on the sofa with a blushing face.

Of course Jiang Ning knew that Yunho didn't want to vomit or go to the bathroom just now.The relief on his face after he came out of the bathroom said it all.

Yunhao was also a little uncomfortable. He walked around the room for a while before sitting down beside Jiang Ning.

The two have known each other for many years, even if they haven't seen each other for four years, they are not unfamiliar.

But what happened just now made the two people who had only held hands and kissed in the past feel a little embarrassed.

Jiang Ning has never seen Yunho like that.It turned out that his arms were so powerful that he could easily lift himself up.Jiang Ning felt extremely shy about the strong masculinity and naked desire that pervaded her body, but she couldn't help being intoxicated by it.And Yunho has never seen Jiang Ning like that.Delicate and gentle, as if it will melt when touched...

The image of a little boy and a girl in each other's memory has collapsed.The former bamboo horse Qingmei has unknowingly become a man and a woman.

"Why?" It was Jiang Ning who spoke first.

"What?" Yunho still didn't dare to turn his head to look at her, "Why... let you go..." Yunho sighed for a long time, meaning "Don't you know why I let you go?"

"No. Of course I know why you asked me to go away... For so many years, I am sorry for you, you should tell me to go away..." Jiang Ning lowered her head, "I mean, just now, why didn't you... ...is it because I'm afraid?"

Yunhao suddenly turned his head and looked at Jiang Ning deeply, as if he wanted to put her in his eyes.

Jiang Ning also plucked up the courage to look at Yunhao: "Is it just because I'm afraid?"

"No." Yunho shook his head gently.

"That's because...you think you're drunk...so..."

"No." Yunho couldn't help rubbing Jiang Ning's hair, "What are you thinking... because..."

Jiang Ning looked into Yunhao's eyes, but Yunhao turned his gaze elsewhere.

"Because the current me is not worthy of having you." Yunho stood up and turned his back to Jiang Ning, "The current Zheng Yunhao is not worthy of having you."

"Nonsense!" Jiang Ning also stood up.

Yunho turned his head and looked at Jiang Ning with tenderness in his eyes.

"You go." He said softly.

Jiang Ning thought she heard it wrong: "Why do you..."

"Really, let's go." Yunho looked at Jiang Ning, "I drove you away just now, I was angry, I was angry. I was angry that you really could leave me cruelly, and you told Changmin Heechul when you left. They, the only thing they didn't tell me is that they really don't have to contact me at all if they've been mad at you for four years..."

"Yunho..."

"But now, it's not angry or angry. I know why you left me, but you don't necessarily know why I'm willing to let you go." Yunho's eyes turned red, "Because, I can't protect you... Jiang Ning, the me now is not as good as the me in the past. I am no longer the Zheng Yunhao of the past. But I am still unable to protect you. "

"I don't want your protection!" Jiang Ning ran over and hugged Yunhao's waist from behind, "Who said you are not as good as before! In my heart, you have always been the best boy in the world. I don't need you either Protect me... I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I really regret leaving you like that at that time. Why was I afraid then? I'm not afraid of them hurting me, but I... I'm really afraid of them hurting you... But, I'm not afraid of them hurting you either I should have left you... I should have been by your side, I should have come to protect you... But I just ran away. When the three of them left, I was still in the set foolishly filming. You are suffering It’s bitter, but I don’t know anything... I don’t know that you can’t eat well or sleep well, that you have to take so many medicines every day, and that those annoying media have been grabbing you all the time... It’s me too Stupid, I'm so selfish! Yunho, I don't complain if you beat me or scold me, but please don't let me go... I will never go, this time I won't leave even if I die!"

Jiang Ning cried again while talking, leaving a wet tear on Yunhao's back.

Yunho's body trembled slightly, he turned around and hugged Jiang Ning tightly in his arms: "I didn't protect you well, I didn't protect you well. It's all my fault, Jiang Ning, it's all mine wrong……"

Jiang Ning buried her head in Yunhao's chest and did not speak.

The two of them hugged quietly like this, as if everything in the world had disappeared, leaving only the arms and body temperature of their lover.

After a long time, Yunhao suddenly said: "But...these four years...you and Zhao Chengbin..."

Jiang Ning raised her head: "What?"

"I don't mean anything else." Yunhao's eyes flickered, "I mean, you and Zhao Chengbin have been together for four years... What, what should he do..."

"Yeah. What should he do." Jiang Ning said, "Then I'll go back and find him." Then she went to break Yunhao's hand around her waist.

"What?" Yunhao immediately tightened his arms, "If you dare to go to him, you will die."

"Why, who wanted to drive me away just now?" Jiang Ning's eyes widened on purpose, "Since you want me to go, I'll go."

"Absolutely not!" Yunho simply buried his head on Jiang Ning's shoulder, swaying his whole body coquettishly, "You said you wouldn't leave. I won't let go either."

Jiang Ning smiled, stopped teasing him, and hugged him tightly.

"Actually, I didn't go to America with Cho Seung-bin. I've been in China."

"What? But, the photos I received at the time... are indeed the plane tickets of the two of you, and the photos of you in the United States..."

"Fool...I can't travel to America..."

"Ah, you just lied to me on purpose, right..." Yunhao suddenly realized.

"Yes." Jiang Ning nodded honestly, and said with a smirk, "What do you want?"

Yunho just took a deep look at Jiang Ning, and hugged her back into his arms again: "If you cheated, then cheat. Just come back now, just come back now."

Jiang Ning's heart tightened suddenly.

"As long as you don't really leave, as long as you don't leave forever, as long as you come back, it doesn't matter..." Yunhao murmured, "It doesn't matter."

Jiang Ning patted Yunhao's back in distress.

The TV cabinet not far away was empty.Jiang Ning remembered that before, there was a group photo of five people there.

The wind and rain outside seem to be a little less.

I don't know when the rain will stop.

I don't know when I can look forward to the dawn.

02

Yunho has been taking antidepressant drugs for a while, and the side effects are also very obvious.After Jiang Ning returned to him, his insomnia eased a lot, and his heart was not as empty as before.He applied to the doctor to reduce the dosage, but the doctor was extremely disapproving at first, because it is very unscientific and very dangerous for depression patients to reduce and stop the medication rashly.But Yunho himself doesn't have "depression gene", this illness is mainly due to too much pressure from the outside world.After the examination, it was found that the hormone level in Yunho's body had also tended to be stable, coupled with his firm attitude, the doctor temporarily agreed to his request, but he still insisted that he must remember to re-examine.

While the doctor was talking, Jiang Ning kept taking notes in her heart.After returning home, she specially asked someone to buy two books related to depression and two cookbooks.Jiang Ning seems to have become Yunho's full-time nanny.

The biggest trouble that depression brought to Yunho was insomnia.Work still hasn't stopped completely, but considering Yunho's health condition, the announcements during this period are limited to Seoul, so Yunho can go back to his residence to rest every night.Jiang Ning will prepare hot water for his bath in advance.When Yunho took a bath, she went to warm him up milk.She even seriously considered whether to buy two books of fairy tales and read them to Yunhao's children every day before going to bed.

Yunho is very attached to Jiang Ning's embrace, and Jiang Ning really sits on the bed every day, letting him hug her coquettishly, pat him on the back gently, until he falls asleep, then quietly get up and go to another room to sleep .

Yunho, who was gradually able to sleep peacefully for a few hours, pushed forward: "Why don't you sleep here from now on. I wake up in the middle of the night and I can't see you and I can't fall asleep." Jiang Ning grabbed the pillow at hand and smashed it on his face: "Think beautifully."

Although I have made up my mind to give myself to the other party, I share the same bed every day. This kind of daily life is too "husband and wife".Jiang Ning was still not ready.

But she compromised and moved a small bed to Yunhao's room, and placed it side by side with his bed.With some concern in her heart, Jiang Ning's sleepiness became very shallow, even if Yunhao turned over even a little bit, she would wake up with a start.

Yunho will still be haunted by some nightmares and wake up in the night.But as soon as he opened his eyes and silently looked at Jiang Ning on the opposite bed in the dark, Jiang Ning would say softly: "Don't think too much. Go to sleep. I'm here."

This kind of tacit understanding is more than once.Yunho was surprised.He didn't make any sound at all, and she didn't even open her eyes.But her words "I'm here" were indeed enough to make him sleep peacefully again.

Because of Jiang Ning's appearance, Yunho's mental state is gradually improving, and everyone in the company can see it.In addition, everyone has not forgotten the "legend" about Jiang Ning and Ding Caijing's identity a few years ago, and they are well aware of Jiang Ning's identity as a "folk princess".Both Ding Caijing and Park Xiuhuan acquiesced to Jiang Ning to take care of Yunhao, so naturally everyone would not say anything.

As sleep improved, Yunho's edema gradually disappeared.In fact, he was not too fat, but he was swollen due to excessive mental pressure. In addition, the media, who don't think it's a big deal, always choose some photos with weird angles and extremely fat. That's why it spread that "former TVXQ captain Zheng Yunhao gave up on himself. Explosive fat" and other news.

Jiang Ning was very pleased.Yunho was able to show a smile again gradually during the broadcast.Although there was still fatigue and bitterness in the smile, Jiang Ning knew that it was no longer a forced smile of pain.

He was a man of steel.If this "injury" hadn't touched TVXQ, his brothers, and his family who he valued the most, he wouldn't have lost his footsteps due to the pain.

But he is, after all, a man of steel.Jiang Ning knew that even if she didn't return to him, he would stand up again sooner or later, and said with a smile to everyone, "I am Zheng Yunhao."

It is absolutely impossible for Zheng Yunhao to never recover from a setback.

Back in Seoul for several months, Jiang Ning never asked Yunho any details about this "dissolution incident".

Whether it is right or wrong, whether there is right or wrong, is not important to Jiang Ning.

There was a lot of noise online.The three people who supported the departure attacked Yunho and Changmin as traitors; while those who supported the two people who stayed, they cursed the other three people for breaking their promises.

The anger of fans is terrible, and Jiang Ning has experienced it a long time ago.What's more, TVXQ made such a huge mess.

Yun Hao's parents in Gwangju were also disturbed unimaginably.Wisdom was already in college at the time, and was even forced to the point where she couldn't leave the dormitory to go to the classroom.

A large part of Yunho's pressure stems from blaming himself.

Many things in the world are not right and wrong.Jiang Ning has long understood this truth.Even if one party really did something wrong, that party may not be without pain.

Just like her and Ding Caijing.Ding Caijing's coldness and selfishness are all true, but the pain that Ding Caijing felt because of her Jiang Ning is also not adulterated.

People who love each other are torn apart for some reason, and there will never be a winning party.

This time the "dissolution" is also.For five people, it was a huge trauma.

Jiang Ning didn't ask, because she understood and because she was helpless.

TVXQ has involved too many interests, and S/M Company is also a big monster that a little girl like Jiang Ning cannot understand.Jiang Ning can't save anyone.

All she can do is stay by Yunho's side.

Yunho's condition recovered and the exposure increased, the media naturally noticed that there was a little girl beside Yunho.

Four years is not a long time, and everyone in the industry knows who that little girl is.

What is more powerful than the paparazzi is the "omnipotent" illegitimate meal.Long before the media reported it, there had been rumors in the fan circle of sneak photos of Jiang Ning and Yunho shopping together in the supermarket.

Jiang Ning was more cautious in the first place.Since the "superglue incident", the security around TVXQ's residence has been strengthened a lot, and the media and illegitimate fans are not too close.Although Jiang Ning has been taking care of Yunho, she rarely "same frame" with Yunho outdoors. When going out, she would sneak back to the company's office building from the internal parking lot, and then go out through the company's gate.

It was completely unexpected that I was secretly photographed in the supermarket.At that time, Yunho was rushing to promote a TV series, and he could only come back once or twice a week.Jiang Ning never expected that he would suddenly appear next to his shopping cart wearing a mask and hat.

"What?" Jiang Ning was shocked, "Why did you come here?"

"The event is over early." Yunho picked up a box of chicken breast on the shelf, "Shall we eat this today?"

"Okay, okay." Jiang Ning hurriedly pushed him away, "You go home first. I will buy it. Where is the manager uncle? Why did you just let you come here..."

"He didn't know you were here too... But, I just want to go to the supermarket with you... Ordinary couples just want to go to the supermarket together..."

"Are you crazy?" Jiang Ning continued to chase him, "Are you an ordinary person? Be good, go home."

Yunhao was driven home so reluctantly.

But it was just a few minutes of dragging, and it was still photographed by Almighty fans.

"God..." Jiang Ning sat cross-legged on the sofa, closed her laptop weakly, and sighed, "Look, fans have already started posting photos of the supermarket in private! Just say why you came here today... "

Yunho leaned over and took a look: "I didn't say anything. Didn't I just say I saw me in the supermarket? I didn't say anything strange."

"Nothing strange?" Jiang Ning pointed at a comment angrily, "Look at this, this, they are all asking who is that annoying woman next to them..."

"How could you hate it? She's so cute." Yunho smiled and squeezed Jiang Ning's face, "This cute woman is my girlfriend..."

"Okay, stop making trouble." Jiang Ning looked serious, "In short, this situation must not happen in the future. If it is photographed by reporters and seen in the newspaper, Ding Caijing and the others don't know what they will do..."

Yunho looked at Jiang Ning, who was annoyed by the comments on the Internet, and was silent for a while thoughtfully.After a long time, he suddenly said: "Jiang Ning, I have an important performance in two days. I will stay in Las Vegas for a month."

"Las Vegas? What's the announcement, you're running so far?"

"It's an event to commemorate Michael Jackson." Yunho looked sad.

"Ah... that..." Jiang Ning felt a little sad when she heard that.Although she doesn't know much about music, she also knows how rare a genius MJ is. "Well, don't worry. I'll wait for you to come back in Korea. Or, can I go with you?" Jiang Ning's tone was a little expectant.

"You'd better wait here for me to come back." Yunho patted her head.

"Got it..." Jiang Ning was a little disappointed.

"When I come back, I will always be by your side, okay?"

"Are you kidding me?" Jiang Ning knocked on the computer and replied casually, "Our Ms. Ding Caijing is still staring at you to shine and generate income for the company. Mr. Zheng Yunhao, you are the hottest artist in the Republic of Korea-wow, I I just found out that MJ’s memorial performance invited you, an Asian artist—how dare I let you stay with me for an artist like you!”

Yunhao smiled, and gently pinned a lock of hair hanging behind Jiang Ning's ear: "Then I won't be an artist, okay?"