[HP] Don't talk to me

Hogwarts has only started for a week, and the most exciting news is not Dumbledore's newly promulgated school regulations, which have brought forward the curfew time, but about the young and beautiful Professor Ta Effa.

Her class was almost full every day, and it became the most popular course in the whole school.For the first time, the Muggle Studies class, which was always snoring and no one cared about it, became lively and interesting for the first time.Before the previous teacher resigned, the textbook of this course lasted for more than 150 years. In that book, Muggles were still riding in carriages and wearing top hats. Now the times are different, and Ta Effa has brought about changes.She made up a set of simple teaching materials by herself, accompanied by news photos of the Muggle world, so that those students who live in pure-blood families who have little contact with Muggles can better understand this group, plus her sweet smile——really It doesn't get any better than this.

The students who didn't have the chance to take this class had the only chance to meet Ta Efa during the meal time except for beating their chests and feet.But they soon discovered that Ta Efa after class was not as humorous and smiling as rumored by the students who took her class. She always stared indifferently at the meal in front of her, and for a long time He didn't even pick up something to eat.

She is broken in love, no one can know.

Maybe it's not called love, it's just ridiculous and sad unrequited love.She should have known that those books on love are right. If a man is interested in a woman, he will never wait for a second to act.She had naively thought that the distance between her and Snape was due to their identities, but when the two of them really eliminated these problems, she painfully discovered that the change of identities was just a self-loved struggle.

He doesn't love her.

On that dull and suffocating night, she plunged into his arms like a demented girl, and spent the most courage since she was born to confess, but what she got was the last result she wanted .

If she had known, she would rather never say those words out of her mouth.

"Tata, let go." He was trembling when he spoke. She thought he was excited, and looked up at him happily, but found that his bright eyes under the moonlight were full of fear.

"I--"

"I... regard you as... sister, that's why I used to care about you, if you misunderstand, it's my problem. You are very young, and you are also very beautiful... soon you will meet someone who is better than me There are too many people, don't think highly of me."

He stepped back as he spoke, his tone became more and more steady, and he was drawing conclusions.

In fact, she could have actively fought for it more, such as posting it and pleading as she had imagined in her mind, or smiling and saying hello to him every day in the days to come, and ignoring his refusal once on holidays Invite him to go out together.It's not that she didn't think about what she would do if he rejected her pursuit. She designed many kinds of pursuit methods that were almost like the stories played by actors on TV.But when he said those words softly, she couldn't respond at all.

She froze for a few seconds, then turned and walked away quickly.

On the way back to Hogwarts alone, she was heartbroken, but she dared not cry at all.She was afraid that once she cried, she would be out of control, and what lay in front of her was not only love, but also the work at the beginning, something she couldn't ignore.

Most of all, she was afraid that if she shed tears, it would really be the end of everything.In the next few days, when she saw him appearing in front of her, she took a detour, not as she had imagined, she still put on a face and pretended not to be hit at all, and continued to chase him.

She was afraid that because of her actions, he refused repeatedly, and then drew more thorough conclusions about their relationship.That way, she would completely lose even the strength to anesthetize herself.

Snape stopped at the end of the corridor and turned to look at the bulletin board.

His eyes glanced at the list of vacation stays that had just been posted, as if in a dream, he caught a glimpse of a name, written with a slender quill pen dipped in black ink.

Ta Effa, returning to Hogwarts for his first term, decided to stay.

Anyway, there is nowhere to go, and there is no need to worry about living expenses anymore, because Dumbledore is considerate of her difficulty, and advances part of her salary in advance.She simply planned to stay and spend Christmas break and New Years alone in school.It's not that she hasn't stayed here before, she has already become familiar with it.Of course, in the past few years, she almost tried to avoid staying in school, just because she was afraid that he would stay with her. In fact, she knew that she was thinking too much, and he was going back to Spider's End.

Ta Efa sat alone on the lawn by the Black Lake. Due to the heavy snow, few people would come here for a walk in the evening.The surroundings are covered in silver, the mountains in the distance are wrapped in hazy dark tones, and the nearby trees are covered with hoarfrost, like white robes. They are neatly dressed and stand there quietly.

She heard the sound of someone approaching, and suddenly, she dropped her finger holding the cigarette butt to the seat beside her, and turned her head to see who it was.

Snape frowned, he saw a star of fire brushing past Ta Effa's mouth, his eyes had already moved to her fingers following her movements, even though she half-covered it, he had already seen it.

She smokes.

"It's so late, what are you doing here?" Ta Efa had never spoken such a long sentence to him in a semester, and Ta Efa secretly felt sad, and half pressed the cigarette butt under his buttocks, covering it with his robe.

Snape was so depressed that he clenched his fists and took two steps forward so that he could see her cheek more clearly.The sun went down, and besides being cold, the lake was getting darker and darker.The street lamp standing beside Dumbledore was dimly shining, like a frail old man coughing lightly from time to time, accompanied by a slight trembling.

"Come to look for you." Snape said coldly, "It took me an hour to find you here."

The normal lines may be that she started to ask, why are you looking for me?Then he answered either seriously or affectionately.Ta Effa shook his head, trying to get those ridiculous thoughts out of his head.

In the end, she just grinned and said softly: "Come out for a walk, I didn't know you were looking for me, I'm sorry."

"Get up, isn't it cold in the chair?" Snape glanced up and down, his tone softened.

"Magic, not cold." Before finishing his sentence, Ta Effa took a breath, no longer cared about Snape, and lowered his head.

She hid the cigarette butt under the robe, but she didn't expect that she was only talking, the robe was ignited by the sparks from the cigarette butt, and a hole was scalded. She smelled a burning smell, so she got up and took off the robe.

Before she could draw out her wand, Snape's hand reached out, grabbed the robe, pointed at the hole with his wand and whispered a spell.The flames were extinguished, and the fabric was spliced ​​again, leaving only the smell in the air related to the last second.

Still holding the cigarette butt in his hand, Ta Effa stared blankly at Snape's movements until Snape put the robe back on her body, and then snatched the burnt finger from her hand. She didn't realize it until she reached out to snatch the cigarette butts from the chief executive, but Snape turned around and threw the cigarette butts into the Black Lake not far away.

The cigarette butt still carried sparks, rolled a few times in the air, fell to the lake, maybe on the ice, maybe in the snow, and went out silently.

Snape stood up straight, the frown between his brows deepened: "Don't smoke, Tata."

Ta Effah lifted her head, and she came to life.

"I'm an adult, what's the matter, Professor Snape, do Hogwarts school rules stipulate that teachers can't smoke outdoors outside of class time?"

"It's not about being an adult or not."

"This is a personal matter, a matter of one's own choice." Ta Effa put on his robe.After taking off the warm robe, in just a few seconds, the cold air had enveloped her, causing her to shiver.She sniffled, turned and left.

She only learned to smoke for less than half a month, and she hid quietly without being seen.I didn't expect that as soon as I was discovered, I was discovered by him.If it was someone else, she wouldn't care, but he is different.

"Where are you going?" Snape asked from behind, and at the same time quickly caught up, not daring to pull Tal Effah who was running fast, but leaned sideways and whispered in her ear, "I have something to tell you."

"Let's talk." Ta Effa stared straight ahead, showing no sign of stopping. "I'm listening, Professor Snape."

"Why are you staying in school?"

It seems that fate deliberately drew a circle for them, going around and around, and they returned to the starting line of knowing each other.

Snape went back to the cellar alone, went into his room alone, and sat down on the recliner in front of the fireplace.The fire swayed, accompanied by the crackling sound of firewood.He stretched out his palms to cover his forehead as if he had a splitting headache. Just now by the lake, the snow had wet his hair, and it was only when he returned to the warm room that he realized how strong the cold and piercing feeling was.Half-long hair fell messily on his shoulders, and he tried his best to put his head closer to the fireplace, the fiery temperature was almost scorching.

In his mind, he recalled the way Ta Effa finally stopped and stared up at him just now, the expression on her face was like a kind of revenge, and it was like a kind of ridicule.Laughing at a person like him is indeed ridiculous.After breaking her heart, he came to her again brazenly, pretending to care, but in fact it may be another hurtful act.

Although he knew that his uncontrollable attention would inevitably meet such fierce resistance from her, when she really spoke, he still felt that his heart almost sank to the bottom of the valley.

"No comment," she said.

Maybe, she had no reason to tell him that.He had no reason to care, even though he had said he thought of her as his sister.

Snape was stubborn in his mind that his conclusion was quite correct.They did have a long period of solitary friendship, deeper than friends, closer than teachers and students.Before she confessed that night, he didn't know how to think about the relationship between their fingers, until he took two steps back and almost blurted out the conclusion - it was because he regarded her as his younger sister.Isn't that right?Isn't this kind of care and love the feeling that an elder brother would have for his younger sister?Although he didn't have his own sister, when he brought her back to his home in Spider's End Lane, she helped him wake up his love for family, isn't it just a kind of proof?

What's more, he already has one person in his heart, and there is no reason to pretend to be another.

He shouldn't even think about it.

He got up and picked up the framed photo above the fireplace. It was the only one-person photo of him left when he graduated. In the photo, he had a cold face without any smile, one hand clenched in a fist and the other Holding the seventh-year potions textbook in one hand.Instead of perusing the photo, he deftly turned the frame over and removed the back cover.

In the photo interlayer, there is a folded piece of paper.Snape just stretched out his finger, touched the piece of paper lightly as if on a pilgrimage, and immediately reinstalled the photo frame and put it back in place.

He didn't need to look carefully, the words on the piece of paper had already been recited before, and that sentence often appeared in his dreams. Although he couldn't hear other voices in his dreams every time, the extremely low and thin female voice could always be the loudest. The degree of tingling his nerves made him wake up immediately.The voice whispered—

Love you, Lily.