Late autumn

Then it became a well-known story.I angered the organization and was imprisoned in the gas chamber. I wanted to kill myself but was accidentally restored to my childhood by APTX4869 and escaped from the organization.

Down and out, embarrassed.These two words can't be more suitable to describe me now.I stepped on the road full of rain with bare feet. The rain in late autumn was very cold, and a gust of autumn wind mixed with fallen leaves hit me with cold air, and I shivered all over.

While panicking, I was secretly laughing at myself: Perhaps, this is the reward of reincarnation.How many people have been killed by the medicine I made, now, it is my turn to experience the effect of this medicine.

No, that is a more terrifying feeling than death. After shrinking my body, I look like a primary school student but live in fear of being hunted down all day. Fate really played a big joke on me.

Kudo, I thought we were in the same situation and you would understand my pain.But when you were hysterical to me and questioned why I made those medicines, I knew I was wrong, you lived in a white world, and I, the one who escaped from the darkness, was covered with filth, no matter what No matter how hard I try to integrate into white, it will not be that pure color. At most, it will become that gray that drifts between black and white. I can't find my belonging, and I don't know the direction of my way forward.

My hearing is very good. When you whispered to the doctor in the car to beware of me, I actually heard it. I never thought that fate would sharpen me so strong. After losing loved ones and breaking up with lovers, You made me feel suspicious all over again.

My heart really hurts. Every night when the surroundings are dark, tears will always drip unconsciously. The dark night can accommodate all my emotions, and my tears can flow without any consideration.

Kudo, you said I like to escape.Yes, I don't deny that I like to escape.But what would you do if it were you?You were born in a prominent family, your father is a famous writer, and your mother is also a legendary Japanese actress.You have been surrounded by a halo since you were a child, and you have no worries about food and clothing.

And I, born in the dark, I don't even remember seeing my parents, my only relatives in this world, but died at the gunpoint of the person I once loved deeply.I have no background, no aura, and my background in a scientific family is destined to be accompanied by drug research all my life.I have no freedom, no expectations, my only wish is to survive with my sister safely.

but……

This is the kind of experience, this kind of life, the experience that I dare not face, the life that I can't change, if I don't escape, what can I do?Sometimes, I really feel that Haibara Ai is very happy. She has Conan's company, Genta and Mitsuhiko's admiration, Ayumi's care, Xiaolan's care, and a doctor to supervise. She has so many, and Miyano Shiho, she only has those few tapes, and her life has been ruined.

I often wonder, who am I?If I am Sherry, I have already defected to the organization; if I am Miyano Shiho, I look like a child; if I am Haibara Ai, why do I always wake up in the middle of the night?The figure of that person appeared vaguely in the dream, living in a world where I love and hate him, this kind of life has exhausted me physically and mentally.

That night, on that snowy night, I met him on the rooftop. The last time we talked on the rooftop all night was when we were about to part. At that time, I told him to take care of himself.Today, it is still on the rooftop, it is still the night like ink, it is still the two of us under the night sky, the difference is that it is snowing this night.People in the organization once said: where white and black coexist, there will be blood.

There is nothing wrong with this sentence.My bright red blood did drip on the white snow, which was very eye-catching.He fired several shots in a row, but he missed my vitals, just to ask for a way to escape?

Look, how ironic.We hate each other but have to admit that we know each other best.When I collapsed in the snow without any resistance, I saw his dark green eyes under the black muzzle of the gun---pleasure, contempt, ruthless but slightly bitter eyes, probably he It must be the same expression for his prey.

He delayed firing.

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"Execute you? If I kill you like a normal prey, you won't even know how you died. The prey I'm targeting, I won't let them die too happily, after all, the fear before death is the most tormenting Isn't it human?"

"Your trick may not work for me. If I repeat this kind of life forever, I think death might be a relief."

"Let's wait until you actually face the gun, Sherry. You must experience this feeling well then."

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He didn't shoot, but I sneered secretly in my heart. This is what you call experience, isn't it?Isn't it funny for a person who has no love in life to let her experience the fear before death?I live a life of being hunted and killed every day, and death is a kind of relief for me.

I said that I am not afraid of death, I am only afraid of losing.But now, I have nothing, what else do I have to lose?So, for me, this last fear is gone, what's the point of your experience?

Gin, I still can't tell whether my feelings for you are love or hate.You gave me the hope of living in the dark, but you buried this hope with your own hands. You let me experience love and trust, and you broke it all with your own hands. To you, am I really so insignificant?I'm so stupid, so many people fell under your gun, it doesn't matter if I have one more, right?You said that you never remember the people who died under your gun, but even if I am buried here today, can you really forget me?If it is really possible, then my death can end everything between us, including memories.

Kudo finally arrived in time and rescued me from death.Maybe if Gin had just shot directly, maybe I would have died by now. Gin, you are still hesitating.

There is no place to accommodate me. Once my existence is discovered, it will bring death to those around me.But where can I go?The world is so big, but there is no room for me.

I was looking for relief, I even had the idea of ​​committing suicide, yes, in that bus, I wanted to end everything, I don't want to continue this kind of life anymore.However, Kudo, it was your sacrifice to save me that rekindled my hope for life. People born in darkness long for light, and you are my light.

You are my light and the one who brings me hope.I want to protect this hope and not let it be annihilated again.So I chose to face it, facing the gunpoint of Vermouth under the full moon night, and facing the layout of the organization on the train.Use the end of my life in exchange for everyone's peace.Although I don't know the relationship between Vermouth and you, I know that as long as she is here, your safety is guaranteed, and everyone's safety is also guaranteed.All of this is my problem, and you must not be involved.Kudo, you have your family, you have Lan waiting for you, you have your place in this world, and you have a bright future, so you can't have any accidents.On the contrary, I have nothing, I am alone in this world, I have no concerns.So, you have to live well.

It would be great if I was really a primary school student Hui Yuanai, she could have a carefree childhood like a normal child, if there is no organized hunt, if I never knew him, if he didn't kill my sister, if Akai didn't take advantage of our sisters, what is my life like now?It's a pity that if there are so many ifs, they can't change my fate, right?

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"Her story is not over yet, but it is destined to be a tragedy, and she can only follow the script God made for her, there is no other way..."