up north down south

The high-speed rail walks on the track smoothly and at a constant speed. The swaying feeling is very similar to the rocking bed when you were a child. It makes your body swing back and forth, making people feel sleepy inexplicably.

Xu Qingzhou was like this, looking at the scenery outside the window, but his vision became more and more blurred, his eyelids became heavier and heavier, and even his thoughts became more and more difficult to concentrate. Finally, he nodded his head, leaned on the back of the chair, and accompanied the All kinds of messy sounds, and slowly fell asleep.

This sleep was not peaceful, and it could even be regarded as a nightmare.

I don't know if it's because the task is too heavy recently, which leads to excessive use of the brain. He had several dreams.

Some heard people quarreling in the market, and some were scrutinized by various eyes in front of the big screen. Finally, these dreams began to dissipate, leaving only Gu Yao's figure, which became more and more clear.

Xu Shi felt more and more stable between the two of them. Those problems that Xu Qingzhou had been neglecting and did not want to remind himself to think about, came to the fore when they were separated.

No amount of reluctance, no amount of avoidance, no amount of neglect can change these facts.

In Xu Qingzhou's dream, he regarded love as higher than the sky, deeper than the sea, and more important than everything in the world. Relying on his own disregard, he made his relationship with Gu Yao public in a very tragic way.

He felt that the relationship between him and Gu Yao was a development trend that seemed to be zero, but in fact it was a matter of course. He never thought that he liked Gu Yao, or that Gu Yao liked himself, which was a wrong concept.

Like the sky and the earth, you and me, it seems that there is no connection, but it is reasonable.

The Xu Qingzhou in the dream is more stubborn than the real Xu Qingzhou. If you decide something, you must tell the whole world. Even if no one supports you, you can imagine the final result.

The disbelief in Fang Qi's eyes, Mr. Xu's sigh, Ms. Fan's tears, and Grandpa's disappointment.

Every word, every expression, all tell Xu Qingzhou's mistakes.

All these nightmares tightly entangled Xu Qingzhou, his eyes were full of discomfort, the dream ended in tragedy, and the two parted ways marked the end of this story.

He stood on the deserted street, wandering like a walking dead.

Immediately afterwards, in the empty background, came an unfamiliar female voice, long and distant, as if it was in the ear, and it seemed to be in the sky.

"Student Xu, we're here, we're getting off the bus."

The body was shaken violently, as if to shake his skeleton apart, which made Xu Qingzhou feel uncomfortable all over his body, as if he had run for thousands of meters, the pain was unbearable.

"Classmate, classmate." The voice was like a reminder, one after another, vowing not to stop until Xu Qingzhou was woken up.

Annoyed by the noise, Xu Qingzhou's brows and eyes frowned deeper, and his eyes trembled slightly. After a while, he slowly opened his eyes, frowned, and looked around with a sleepy face, and then his eyes were pierced by the bright light outside the window It hurts.

He hurriedly raised his hand to block the light, rubbed the tears from the corners of his eyes, buffered for a while, and then slowly raised his head to look at the source of the sound.

I just saw that the girl had already taken her own things and was standing in front of her. Seeing Xu Qingzhou looking at her, she immediately showed a smile, full of smiles, and her eyes were full of joy that was hard to hide.

Only then did Xu Caizi take the time to look around and realized that he had slept in the dark and was totally clueless.

At some point, the car had pulled into the station, and the passengers on the car took their luggage and started to get off the car one by one in an orderly manner.

When Xu Qingzhou woke up, their carriage had almost gone, and there were only a few people left empty.

Although the girl's hands are quite strong, and her neck still hurts from shaking, she is also kind. Out of politeness, Xu Qingzhou stood up, nodded to her, and said softly: "Thank you."

Hearing Xu Qingzhou's voice, the girl was even more joyful, her face was flushed, she was at a loss, she lowered her head, and replied softly: "Small things, small things."

Xu Caizi didn't like to socialize too much with strangers, so it's better to stop as soon as possible, so he said "thank you" again, and then began to take down his own things from the luggage rack.

He has a slender figure, and the thing with extended arms is also very beautiful, but today is a bit strange, just as Xu Qingzhou turned around, he heard a "click" from behind.

This movement was a bit like the sound of a mobile phone taking pictures. When I turned around subconsciously, I saw the girl holding up a mobile phone to take a selfie. Although I didn't understand what was so interesting about this empty carriage, I was relieved to see that someone was not taking pictures of me. , immediately put aside the doubts in his heart, and continued to take down the suitcase.

After tidying up, he nodded to the girl as a farewell, and then turned around to get out of the car. At this time, the girl who was taking a selfie suddenly said, "By the way, your phone has been ringing just now, isn't it you?" Your family is calling you."

"Thank you for reminding me, goodbye."

As soon as the voice fell, he pushed the suitcase and strode outside. While walking, he took out his mobile phone from his pocket, opened the call history and looked at it. There were indeed several missed calls. After making one call, the remaining ten or so calls were all contributed by Gu Dashen alone.

Looking at the "Y" on the screen, Xu Qingzhou raised her lips subconsciously, without any hesitation, she directly returned a call.

The phone rang three times before it was connected.

Xu Qingzhou said with a smile: "Gu Yao, are you crazy? How could it be possible for you to call me so many times? , I'm busy, why do I miss you..."

His voice was not loud, but there were not many people in the carriage, and every word and every word was transmitted to the girl's ears very clearly. She looked at Xu Qingzhou's back, thoughtful, and felt as if, in an accident, she understood what.

Xu Caizi didn't notice the abnormality yet, and was still on the phone with Gu Yao.

Gu Dashen was worried about the traffic jam and planned to go to the airport early, so on the way to the airport, he called his boyfriend several times, but none of them got through.

As a legendary figure in the law department, he is most familiar with various cases. It was heard that Xu Qingzhou was taking the high-speed rail for the first time, and he panicked. He was afraid that something would happen to him, so he called one after another.

After calling more than ten times in a row, my boyfriend finally got through. He opened his mouth and said a lot. Seeing that Xu Qingzhou was fine, he breathed a sigh of relief, and said in a bad mood, "Are you here?"

Standing at the exit, Xu Qingzhou looked up at the building with the sign of North Railway Station of City C. At this time, the sky began to darken, and some shops had already turned on the lights, and there were hawkers shouting all around, with their familiar local accent .

Even though I haven't been back for several months, the familiarity with my hometown is still there. The night air is very cold. Xu Qingzhou changed the mobile phone to his right hand, put his left hand to his mouth and exhaled, then put it in his pocket, and said softly : "Well, just arrived."

Hearing the sound of breathing from the phone, Gu Yao didn't say anything, but just exited the call interface, opened the weather and climate app, found the weather in City C and took a look, and immediately became upset, "Why is it so cold there!"

The two got along more and more tacitly. Xu Qingzhou knew what Gu Yao had done just by this sentence. He bent his eyebrows and said with a smile: "It's okay, it must be much colder than your house."

Gu Yao nodded, agreeing with this sentence, then thought for a while, and then opened his mouth and said: "It's okay, it's a big deal, I will bring you here for the New Year in the future, and you will be comfortable."

Xu Qingzhou didn't bother to talk to him, just smiled and said, "Go away."

Gu Dashen laughed loudly on the phone, the laughter was mixed with the sound of electricity, just like the voice of a thousand-year-old monster.

"Tsk, it's ugly, don't laugh," Xu Qingzhou looked around at the exit, saw a familiar car on the side of the road, and a man and a woman standing beside the car waving to him, and then interrupted, "No You said, I saw my dad's car, it passed by."

"Well, you go."

"When you arrive at night, remember to blackmail me and send a message!"

"it is good."

The two said a few more words, then Xu Qingzhou hung up the phone, then put the phone in his pocket, and strode over there.

As soon as he walked in, Fan Wenyuan and Xu Shenxing greeted him. The latter took the suitcase in Xu Qingzhou's hand and put it directly in the trunk.

The former touched Xu Qingzhou with tears in his eyes, with a distressed look on his face: "Son, have you lost weight again? I've said it all. Pay attention to your body, pay attention to your body, why don't you listen."

Mothers all over the world are the same, always worrying about their children, not getting enough to eat, not warm enough to wear, and not sleeping well.

Xu Qingzhou naturally knew that Ms. Fan was hurting him, and with a smile on her face, she took off her mother's hand that she stretched out and squeezed away, held it in her hand, and said with a smile: "I'm not thin, I'm really not thin." Thin, if you don’t believe me, go back and weigh yourself.”

"Every time you go home, your mother thinks you've lost weight," Xu Shenxing put away his luggage, walked over, and said the same thing.

"Old Xu, it's fine if you don't love your son, but do you still have an opinion when I love my son?"

"Are you in pain? You are hallucinating. Can't your Chinese team be more practical? My son is obviously not thin."

"Actual, why don't we call it actual, oh, are you dissatisfied because the average score of our class is higher than yours at the end of the semester, heh, manly."

"Teacher Fan, speak with your conscience. I don't accept it. Just kidding. What's wrong with me!"

"You just refuse to accept it."

"I do not have."

"Son, look at your dad. If you lose, you lose. I didn't look down on him. What's there to be embarrassed about?"

"Son, we old men don't care about people like your mother."

Xu Qingzhou was caught in the middle, looking back and forth between the two of them, feeling very headache, worried that they were like this, and had to argue about why, he stroked his forehead very tiredly, "Well, it's a little cold , shall we go home?"

As soon as these words came out, the two people's teachers remembered the main purpose of this trip, and they could only rest at halftime and wait for the next battle.

The three of them got into the car one by one. Xu Qingzhou and his mother sat in the back seat, clasping her hands tightly.

The weather in City C is a bit colder than that in Qianzhou. I don't know how long my two teachers have been here. Their hands are frozen and stiff. Xu Qingzhou helped Teacher Fan cover his hands, and it took a long time to dispel the chill above. It was very distressing, and he said displeasedly: "Why don't you wait in the car, it's so cold outside."

Fan Wenyuan took his hands out of Xu Qingzhou's palms, and pulled up the zipper of his clothes tightly. Then, he wrapped the scarf around Xu Qingzhou's neck. After making sure that there was no gap, he said with a smile: "This No, there are too many people, I'm afraid you won't be able to find us."

"I'll just take a taxi and go back. You two have to come."

"Well, I haven't seen my son for months."

Xu Shenxing heard the conversation between the two of them, tilted his head slightly, and said with a smile: "Your grandfather was also coming, but it's too cold today, so we didn't let us."

"Fortunately, he wasn't allowed to come." Xu Qingzhou relaxed his body and leaned on the back of the chair. "Otherwise, grandpa would catch a cold again."

"By the way," Fan Wenyuan suddenly thought of something, and asked curiously, "Why has no one answered your calls?"

"Fall asleep, a little sleepy, so I didn't hear it."

Fan Wenyuan nodded, and then continued to ask: "Who did you call at the exit just now? Did you have such a happy smile with your girlfriend?"

Xu Qingzhou felt a little embarrassed, touched his nose, and answered ambiguously: "No, it's just my friend."

"Friend?" Teacher Fan knew his son's temperament, and ordinary friends would not make him laugh so happily, so he still didn't give up, and asked, "Male or female?"

"Men, men."

"Oh, man." After hearing this answer, she finally gave up and didn't continue to struggle with this issue.

I haven't seen each other for several months, and there are always endless things to say. Fan Wenyuan kept talking to his son, and arrived at the destination in a short while.

The Xu family's house was bought in a commercial real estate area. The layout of the house is reasonable, the transportation is convenient, the infrastructure is complete, and it is also close to the No. [-] Middle School of the city, which is convenient for Xu Shenxing and the others to go to work.

Get out of the elevator, turn straight to the right, it is Xu Qingzhou's house, Fan Wenyuan took out the key from his pocket, opened the door, and there is the entrance.

His family bought this house early, and the house price at that time was far from as high as it is now. Therefore, after discussing it together, the husband and wife bought a four-bedroom and two-living room. Originally, three bedrooms were enough, but they thought about having a guest at home. Yes, one more bedroom would be more convenient.

Xu Qingzhou hasn't been home for several months, and the furnishings of the house have not changed. Fan Wenyuan is neat and orderly, and every detail can see the intention of the hostess in the house.

When the three of them entered the room, the cold air on their bodies dissipated after meeting the temperature of the room, and their bodies began to gradually warm up.

Hearing the movement, the door of the bedroom on the far right opened. Slowly, a hale and hearty old man came out from inside. When he saw Xu Qingzhou, his serious face relaxed, and his brows and eyes were full of kindness and joy. : "Xiaozhou is back."

Xu Qingzhou was changing his shoes. Hearing this, he stepped forward a few steps and stood in front of the old man.He also smiled and said, "Well, Grandpa, I'm back."

"are you tired."

"Fortunately, not too tired."

Grandpa Xu patted his eldest grandson on the shoulder, smiling unabated.

He is sixty years old this year, but his body has always been strong. Grandma Xu Qingzhou left early, and it was the old man who brought up Xu's father alone.

When Xu Caizi was young, the two teachers in the family were very busy. Most of them followed his grandfather. He was hugged in his arms at first, and slowly, he could walk. They followed Grandpa Xu and ran around the house.

Grandpa Xu was one of the first batch of college students. College students at that time were much more valuable than they are now. Whoever produces a college student is the pride of the whole village. Work, that is, for decades.

When he retired, he was still respected and became a local literary master. Wherever he went, someone would respectfully call him "Old Xu".

Therefore, the Xu family is truly a scholarly family.

But I don't know which link went wrong. He is a master of literature, but he doesn't look like him after giving birth to a son.

Xu Shenxing loved science only since he was a child, he desperately left science as a major, and there was a tendency to never look back.

This matter made Grandpa Xu very angry. The two father and son held the anger for a long time. He didn't calm down until Xu Shenxing married his apprentice Fan Wenyuan. Finally, he waited until Xu Qingzhou was born.

After Xu Qingzhou was born, Mr. Xu has been seeing him growing up, and his grandson did not disappoint him. He did everything well, so this matter is over.

Xu is the reason why the literati atmosphere has been in his bones for decades. Grandpa Xu is very particular about his nature.

Xu Qingzhou was well educated by him, so he naturally followed suit. To put it bluntly, his current high-minded and hypocritical appearance was largely cultivated by his grandfather.

In fact, when the four of Xu's family stood together, it could be clearly seen that Xu Qingzhou looked like Fan Wenyuan in appearance, and Xu Shenxing in body shape, but he looked like Xu Ming in his temperament.

Fan Wenyuan didn't disturb the conversation between their grandparents and grandchildren. He just opened the bedroom at the end of the corridor, and then motioned for Dad Xu to push the luggage in. Then he walked into the living room and said softly, "Dad, Xiaozhou has been in the car all day. , You don’t wait for him to rest, save your great principles for next time.”

After her reminder, Grandpa Xu suddenly came to his senses, waved his hand, and asked Xu Qingzhou to tidy up and rest first. As for those words, it is not impossible to save them for later, and there is no rush.

Xu Qingzhou nodded and smiled at the old man, then followed Fan Wenyuan to his room.

His room is just like him, there are no wallpapers and murals, just the original white, with log-colored furniture, everything is neat and orderly, clean, without a trace of dust.

Seeing this, Xu Qingzhou turned around, hugged Fan Wenyuan, and said softly: "Mom, I miss you."

With a smile on her face, Fan Wenyuan patted her son's back lightly. Her son has been like this since he was a child. Acting like a baby, at this time, he has the appearance that a child should have.

"Be good, you're such an adult, you still act like a baby, don't be ashamed."

Xu Qingzhou didn't speak, but buried his head in Fan Wenyuan's neck. Seeing the familiar environment and familiar family members dispelled his longing for Gu Yao, but it made his thoughts surge deeper.

"Okay, you just put your things away and change your clothes. Mom is going to cook for you. I have prepared a lot of dishes today, all of which you like."

As he spoke, he pushed Xu Qingzhou away.

After saying a few more words, with a smile, he turned around and opened the door to go out.

Xu Qingzhou watched Teacher Fan go out, and carefully closed the door for him. As soon as he was eroded by the heat in the room, the exhaustion that he hadn't noticed surged up, and he immediately relaxed and fell on the bed covered with blue sheets.

Fan Wenyuan disturbed Xu Qingzhou's room every day, thinking that he would change and wash the sheets when he came home this time. At this time, Xu Qingzhou sniffed his nose, and found that there was a familiar lemon fragrance on it, which smelled very good , made his depressed mood a little better.

He raised his right hand, covered most of his face with the back of his hand, and sighed.

The room suddenly became quiet, only the sound of his breathing could be heard, and then a bell rang to break the silence.

Xu Qingzhou froze for a moment, then put down his right hand, took out the phone from his pocket, and saw that it was the message from Gu Yao.

The message is not long, just one sentence.

【Zhouzhou, I'm at the airport, there are so many people. 】

He looked at the phone screen with a blank expression on his face and didn't react at all. He just let it go blankly. As time passed by, he blinked, then threw the phone aside, turned over, Burying his head under the pillow, he curled up into a ball.

In the next second, a faint sigh sounded in the quiet room.

Life always has too much helplessness and helplessness.

And what we can choose is either compromise or change.

The author has something to say:

small theater:

Xu Qingzhou: Mom, I'm in love.

Fan Wenyuan: [Happy] Who, who, how is the girl.

【Pull out Gu Yao】

Gu Yao: Hello, Auntie.

Fan Wenyuan: [furious] I don't allow it, I don't allow it, anyone can, I won't agree with this person, you can force me to death.

After one month:

Xu Qingzhou: Mom, I like a person.

Fan Wenyuan: [Excited face] Who, who, isn't the boy I brought last time.

Xu Qingzhou: [Indifferent face] No, we are separated, it's Uncle Zhao who works in the hospital next door.

Fan Wenyuan: ...What's the matter with suddenly feeling that the boy is pretty good.

ps: Today is April Fool's Day, I didn't want to change it, but who made me love you!

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