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Since I made it clear to Gu Yao that night, the other party really never called again, and Xu Qingzhou's life has returned to before the two didn't know each other.

Going to class, eating, sleeping, and from time to time refusing confessions from girls he has never even met.

Life seems to be the same as before, dull and boring.

Xu Qingzhou believes that this should be the case.

He felt that he was actually very calm. After he came out of the toilet that night, he kept this calmness. He didn't cry bitterly, let alone complain, just like usual.

But Yu Fang said that his expression seemed to be separated from his soul, leaving only the numbness of his body.

Hearing these words, Xu Qingzhou sneered disdainfully, thinking that what Yu Fang said in the mind of a girl who only knew how to play games to make fun of her was useless at all except for hypocrisy and right and wrong.

Xu Caizi firmly believes that he lives a fulfilling and happy life every day, but there is no numbness there, and it is all an illusion.

After a long time, even Fang Qi could see that something was wrong.

When the two were eating in the cafeteria, he thought about it, and asked Xu Qingzhou cautiously: "What's the matter with you and Gu Yao? Why haven't you chatted and called recently, and he didn't ask me about you when he was playing games."

Xu Qingzhou paused with his hand holding the chopsticks, stabilized his mind, and then replied casually: "It's nothing, it's not a day or two since I didn't deal with him. So we plan not to disturb each other, just to break off diplomatic relations peacefully."

Fang Qi pursed his lips, obviously disbelieving, "Then you have been chatting with people for so long before, and if you disagree with your three views before, you can talk about it for two days at most, and then ignore them as soon as you find out."

"I was blind before, so I didn't realize that his three views don't match mine, okay?" Xu Qingzhou has too many things on her mind recently, and she was a little annoyed by Fang Qi's question, and she also got a little angry.

It was just a casual chat, but Xu Qingzhou suddenly became angry, and Fang Qi was also a little puzzled.

He has known Xu Caizi for so long, although this person has a bad temper, he will not get angry easily because of a few words, and most of the time he still maintains that gentle and refined appearance.

Thinking of this, Fang Qi bit his chopsticks, feeling more and more that the two masters must have quarreled, and the reason for the quarrel was not a small problem.

Although he understood, he didn't continue to discuss this issue. He was afraid that Xu Qingzhou would really get angry, so he just changed the subject and said with a chuckle: "Then Han Cheng's family invites you to dinner, will you go?"

The last time I did a favor at the bar, Han Cheng’s family said they would treat Guo Fei and his group to dinner, but it happened to be the National Day holiday, so it was postponed.

When they came back from the holiday, everyone calmed down, and Han Cheng's family made an appointment again, intending to treat them to dinner as a thank you.

Hearing Fang Qi mentioning this matter, Xu Qingzhou didn't speak for the first time, but just bowed his head and pondered for a while, thought about all kinds of problems, and finally shook his head: "I won't go, I have to help in the afternoon I don’t know how long it will take for Professor Liu to get the documents, so I’ll ask Cheng once to let him know later.”

Fang Qi nodded. He and Xu Qingzhou had known each other for a long time, and he could understand what the other party was thinking. Most likely, Xu Caizi was afraid of seeing Gu Yao, which would make both parties unhappy.

The two came out of the cafeteria after eating, Fang Qi answered the phone call from Yu Fang, said goodbye to Xu Qingzhou, and walked away quickly.

Xu Caizi stood at the entrance of the cafeteria for a while, glanced at the sun high in the sky, and put his hand above his head to block the dazzling light.

Then he took out his phone to check the time, calculated the distance in his heart, and didn't bother to go back to the dormitory to put the books.

He walked slowly towards the teacher's office building, and when he entered, the three junior seniors who went to Baini Village together were already there. Several people and Liu Wenming shared the relevant materials of the previous "Sunshine Road" activities After sorting out and summarizing, and then registering the forms in order, it was already dark when I came out.

Xu Qingzhou declined Professor Liu's kindness to take them to dinner, said good night to several people, and walked back to the dormitory with the book in his arms.

When passing by Jingxin Lake, it was still pitch black and it was impossible to see anything clearly. When I got closer, I saw a few couples sitting together, talking in a low voice, and there was even a gay couple inside.

In fact, the lights in Jingxin Lake were very dim, Xu Qingzhou didn't see clearly at the first time, he thought the back was a girl with short hair.

After walking a little farther, I heard the man whispering in a low voice: "I said someone, what are you doing, you hate it~"

Although the voice had a sweet tone, it was indeed a boy's voice.

Xu Caizi walked in front. He was secretly looking at him, but he was startled by the rippling voice. He thought he had been discovered, so he hurriedly quickened his pace and walked to the dormitory.

After returning to the dormitory building, he breathed a sigh of relief.

He took out the key and opened the door. It was pitch black inside. He found the switch deftly and accurately, turned on the light above his head, and then turned around and closed the door inside.

Fang Qi and the three of them had all gone to the restaurant where Han Cheng's family treated guests, and they were probably having a good drink at this time, but he was the only one in the empty dormitory, looking a bit bleak.

Xu Qingzhou stood at the door and glanced at the dormitory, suddenly he didn't know what to do. When he was bored before, Gu Yao could always call the first time and chat with him.

But now, it is different.

That sentence was like a knife that cut off all the connections between the two, and it was also the last straw that overwhelmed Gu Yao.

Perhaps, Gu Yao has given up on himself.

After all, no one is willing to give affection all the time without receiving anything in return.

Xu Qingzhou laughed at himself.

Then he lowered his head and sighed, hiding the emotion in his eyes.

The bedroom without any sound seemed unusually quiet, which made Xu Qingzhou a little uncomfortable. He thought for a while, went to his place and turned on the computer, and picked out a funny variety show at random. The host and guests laughed loudly. Get up, let the dormitory look a little popular.

Xu Qingzhou stood on the ladder, took a thin blanket from the bed, sat on the chair, put his legs together, put them on it, huddled up, covered with a blanket, and stared at the computer screen blankly.

Those funny scenes and exaggerated lines didn't enter his mind at all, he just stared blankly at those pictures, his thoughts flooded with emotion.

The pictures in the brain are like revolving lanterns, from the first meeting with Gu Yao, to the acquaintance with Gu Yao, and finally to the final temptation, appearing in front of Xu Qingzhou bit by bit.

The emotions that had been deliberately suppressed during this period of time, in this lonely night with only myself, seemed to have found an outlet, and suddenly poured out.

The first heartbeat in my life brought this sour and unbearable feeling, without the slightest sweetness, it was full of discomfort.

He didn't know if it was the same with other people's liking, and he didn't know if he liked someone, and his whole body would feel so painful, and he didn't know whether it was wrong or right for him to do so.

No one taught him what it was like to like, and no one told him that liking knows what boys should do.

There is no explanation in the 5000-year-old book allusions in China.

Xu Qingzhou hugged himself tightly and fell into deep self-loathing. He couldn't find a way to solve the problems between himself and Gu Yao. He felt that he was sensitive, hypocritical, hiding when things happened, timid, fearful, and selfish. .

Too many things, too many emotions, pressed towards him like mountains, making him unable to breathe.

He wants to be an obedient and filial child in the eyes of his parents, and he also wants to be a prodigal son who follows his heart, but it's hard to have both.

Xu Qingzhou felt that he had read so many books and learned so much knowledge, but he was powerless. He had no way to solve his own problems.

After staring at the computer for a long time, Xu Qingzhou felt a little groggy, and felt a pain in his throat.

The weather has been erratic recently, with the temperature fluctuating from high to low. He felt that his symptoms should be due to a cold. He knew that there was medicine in the drawer, but he just didn't want to move.

When he was about to fall asleep, the door lock suddenly heard the "click" sound of the key turning the lock cylinder. Xu Qingzhou looked back subconsciously, and saw Fang Qi and the other three walking in talking and laughing.

Lu Qian walked in the front. He looked at Xu Qingzhou, his eyes lit up, and he hurried up and asked, "How long have you been back? How is Professor Liu's side? Have you eaten yet?"

Xu Qingzhou lowered his head and coughed, smiled and said, "It's a good thing there aren't many things going on, not to mention Senior Sister Huang and the others are here, and it will be over soon. I just came back for a while."

He didn't mention whether he ate or not, and skipped it in his answer.

From the moment Xu Qingzhou opened his mouth, Lu Qian could hear that he was a little hoarse, wrinkled, and said anxiously: "Are you feeling unwell? Have you caught a cold?"

"I've had the flu recently, I'm afraid the wit is infected." Yu Fang also worried on the side.

Hearing that, Fang Qi also ran over from the table, touched his forehead and his face, very worried, "It's okay, okay, I don't have a fever, I have cold medicine here, I'll get it for you later."

Xu Qingzhou couldn't laugh or cry when they were surprised by them, and quickly took Fang Qi's hand, ignoring the foreign body sensation in his throat, and said softly: "It's okay, it's just that my throat is uncomfortable, I'll drink some hot water later gone."

The three persuaded him for a long time, seeing that he kept emphasizing that it was okay, there was nothing he could do, they just gave up, and planned to keep Xu Qingzhou from getting cold in the past few days.

When Lu Qian and Yu Fang dispersed and returned to their respective positions, Fang Qi leaned against Xu Qingzhou's table, raised his eyebrows at him, and said gossipingly, "Hey! Do you listen to gossip?"

Xu Qingzhou looked away from the computer screen, looked up at Fang Qi, then turned back, coughed a few times, and said in a flat tone, "I don't listen, I'm not interested."

Fang Qi was in a hurry, reached out and closed Xu Qingzhou's computer, with a serious face: "You really don't listen."

"Well, not interested."

"You're not interested in Gu Yao's gossip, are you?"

"..."

Xu Qingzhou paused for a few seconds, then thought about it and nodded.

Seeing that he was interested, Fang Qi immediately moved the chair over to his seat, walked around in a circle, and took a pack of fragrant melon seeds from Yu Fang's table. Later, thinking that Xu Qingzhou had a cold, he gave it to him again. Throw yourself on the bed.

He flattened the chair and sat on it with his legs spread out, like a storyteller in a restaurant, "Just now, didn't Han Cheng's family invite you to dinner? All of us have arrived, but there is only one Gu Shen missing. It's not like you, he has something to do, and he came late after a while."

Xu Qingzhou didn't have much interest at first, but now seeing Fang Qi's gestures, he looks like a storyteller, with the formula Jintangmu, shaking a white flour fan, and he can directly welcome guests.

I thought it was funny, so I realized something.

"At this moment, guess what happened?" Fang Qi deliberately lowered his voice, leaving a suspense, then slammed the table and said loudly: "There is a girl behind him."

"..."

Not aware of the change in Xu Qingzhou's expression, Fang Qi continued: "That girl, her eyebrows are from distant mountains, her eyes are almond eyes, her mouth is that of the twelfth lunar month plum, her skin is like the clouds on the other side of the day, she moves like a weak willow in the wind, Quiet like summer rain and early lotus, with a different style of speech and behavior, then..."

"Speak human." Xu Qingzhou couldn't bear it anymore and interrupted.

"It's just that the chicken looks good."

Hearing this, Xu Qingzhou couldn't help but frowned.

Fang Qi moved the chair forward, and said with a smile: "The girl's surname is Bai Mingshan, she is from the English Department of Shangbei, and she shares a dormitory with Han Cheng's girlfriend. Cheng once said that she has been looking at Gu Yao for a long time, and she is waiting to find her." Opportunity to start."

Hearing this, Xu Qingzhou pretended to smile, and nodded happily, "Young man and beautiful woman, very good."

The one-minded Fang Qi also nodded in agreement, "Isn't she a talented woman? It seems that the girl used to be in the same high school as Gu Yao, a junior, but the head teacher is the same. I saw that they chatted happily. Eighty percent of the time."

Xu Caizi continued to maintain a smirk on the surface, and there was no abnormality in his expression, "Hehe, it's good."

Listening to Xu Qingzhou's tone of voice, Fang Qi realized something was wrong, tilted his head to look up and down, and said, "I see something wrong with you."

Xu Qingzhou was stunned, thinking that Fang Qi had noticed something from his expression and tone, and suddenly panicked, and quickly put away his fake smile, his eyes drifted, and he said nervously: "Why? There is nothing wrong, what are you talking about. "

Fang Holmes Qi rubbed his chin with a thoughtful expression, and then suddenly realized, he stretched out his hand and yelled directly at Xu Qingzhou: "Wow, the new machine is so late, you and Gu Yao have not dealt with each other recently, is it possible that he is going to get out of the order?" , You single dog is unwilling."

Heaving a sigh of relief, Xu Caizi slapped away Fang Qi's hand that was about to reach the tip of his nose, and said angrily, "Yes, yes, yes, I'm jealous, I envy, I hate, you're satisfied."

Detective Fang, who thought he had guessed right, puffed out his chest proudly, his face full of pride.

Yu Fang watched the play for a long time, and seeing Fang Qi like this, he couldn't hold back and began to attack his self-esteem: "Come on, don't be shy, you must have guessed wrong."

Fang Qi thought that what he said was logical, so he naturally refused to agree, "What's wrong?"

"Gu Yao treated that girl very politely, with a certain amount of advance and retreat, and the smiles on his face were compared with a ruler. He didn't seem like he was treating his girlfriend."

"This time I'm standing on Yu Fang's side. There was a bag on the seat where the girl came in, which proves that she arrived before us. She must have gone to the bathroom. The two met by chance." Lu Qian echoed.

"You don't understand, don't you?" Fang Qi was still trying to argue, "Men can't bear to twist their fingers, and now the two of them are just talking and laughing, and they will have to be together soon."

Yu Fang still wanted to argue, Xu Qingzhou was too lazy to listen to the two of them, turned off the computer, got up and went to wash, and climbed into bed to rest in a daze, originally only intending to take a nap for a while, who knew that he fell asleep directly.

I didn't sleep well this time, I don't know if it was because of a cold, or because I was thinking too much recently.

Xu Qingzhou had a dream.

In the dream, there are patches of white covered by mist, stretching as far as the eye can see, everything around is shrouded in this layer of haze, and nothing can be seen clearly.

Xu Qingzhou has the illusion that he is walking on the two ends of ice and fire. The left side is bitingly cold, while the right side is scorching hot. He feels that he is dominated by these two pains from the inside to the outside, and he is extremely uncomfortable.

There is no end to this road, just keep running.

He didn't know how long he had been walking, and the sweat slid down his cheeks and sank into his collar, leaving a wet trace.

At the end, Xu Qingzhou felt as if he saw a person,

The man turned around slowly, and Xu Qingzhou took a good look.

It was Gu Yao.

Against Gu Yao's face, but with the most indifferent expression, the man just glanced at Xu Caizi who was in a state of distress, then turned around and strode forward.

Xu Qingzhou ran hard, hard, but he couldn't reach it. He was clearly in front of him, but it was thousands of miles away.

"Gu Yao, Gu Yao, wait for me."

One after another heart-piercing roars, with a deep crying voice, brought Gu Yao back in his dream, and he spoke coldly, as if he had a knife in his words, piercing Xu Qingzhou's heart straight, "Xu Qingzhou, you don't dare to say that you like me, so why do you ask me to wait for you? I don't want to wait anymore."

Maybe Gu Yao's expression in the dream was too strange, Xu Qingzhou suddenly woke up from the dream.

Nothing could be seen clearly in the dark dormitory, only the balcony was illuminated by the dim street lights outside, and some things could be vaguely seen clearly.

Xu Qingzhou swallowed a few mouthfuls of saliva, the tingling sensation in his throat was worse than before, his nose couldn't breathe, and his head was still a little dizzy. He felt that he should have a fever.

He didn't know what time it was, so he stretched out his hand from under the quilt, groped around the pillow, and found the mobile phone under the pillow. The sudden bright light stung his eyes. Read the information and jumped out.

The sender shows Gu fool.

Although Gu Yao didn't call again during this time, he would send a message every night, maybe it was good night, it was also a complaint, maybe it was a love poem, it lasted for half a month without interruption, and he never replied .

Xu Qingzhou stared at it for a long time without any movement, then sighed lightly, and then clicked in.

The text message is not long, only one sentence.

[Xu Caizi, it's been a long night and I don't want to sleep, why don't we come and talk about ten yuan. 】

Xu Qingzhou stared at the screen of the mobile phone, raised his lips in the dark, but still did not reply, but put the mobile phone beside the pillow.

A night without dreams.

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