Cold violence

It was a rare weekend, but the weather was not beautiful, and it seemed to be raining vaguely.

Zhou Yu didn't have the usual jobs today, and started tidying up at home early. He opened the curtains and took a look at the gray sky, feeling a little nervous.

He booked the show at [-]:[-] in the afternoon. It was a good arrangement to have dinner together after watching a movie.

Not long after, it really started to rain lightly outside the window, mixed with tiny snowflakes. Zhou Yu pressed his hands against the window, feeling cold in his palms.

He is still a little unaccustomed to the days without work to do. Chen Siyan saw that he was exhausted these days, so he insisted on giving him two days to rest, but the waiting time was too long, and Zhou Yu was bored. The longer I waited, the more flustered I became.

Haven't felt this way in years.

The kind of feeling that you want to do something for someone without telling him, and you don't want him to find out, so you have to do everything alone, but you are worried that the other party will not understand your own mind.

He glanced at his watch, ready to go out.

There was a traffic jam on the road, so he sent a message to He Chu during the parking interval. The temperature outside was too low, and there was already a layer of fog on the car window. When Zhou Yu looked out, he couldn't see clearly, and the weather seemed a little gloomy , and even his mood became a little depressed.

But the more depressed he was, the more obvious the hope in his heart became.

"There's something I want to tell you." Zhou Yu pressed "Send" and his fingers trembled slightly, but after he sent it, he felt that it seemed a little inappropriate to say it like this, as if he had struggled with sending it for a long time. Just because of the trembling on the fingers accidentally caused the same.

"What's wrong?" He Chu's voice came back quickly, his voice was low and unbelievable, "I'm in the company."

Still at work on weekends?Zhou Yu was puzzled for a moment, then thought, that's pretty good, I should be at the cinema soon.

Zhou Yu concentrated his attention, moved his fingers, and said, "I bought a movie ticket from you, but I can't go, why don't you watch it for me." He sent a screenshot, It is a QR code for automatic movie ticket collection.

"Why did you come to my company to buy a ticket?"

——I heard that the movie is pretty good. Our tickets are sold out ahead of time, so I bought it for you.

"So what am I supposed to do now?"

——If you are free, you can watch the movie for me.

"Are you coming?"

—I can't keep up.

"Then I won't go." Hearing these words, Zhou Yu was a little panicked, the car in front seemed to have started to move slowly, and this traffic light was not far from He Chu's company, he hurriedly said: "Why? "

"If you don't go, why should I go?" He Chu's voice was a little puzzled, but also a little mocking.

Seeing that the car in front of him was about to leave, Zhou Yu frowned, he never thought that He Chu would refuse, so he could only write in a hurry: "You can take a look for me, and you can tell me about it when you come back. "Then he put the phone on the co-pilot and followed the car in front through the traffic lights.

Zhou Yu felt a little uneasy.It was the first time he had done this kind of thing in all these years of his life, arranging something that could be called a surprise without telling someone, but He Chu... didn't seem to have the intention of accepting it.Maybe it's because he really doesn't have time, but he still said he wanted to ask him out last night...or did he already make an appointment with someone else and have a new arrangement?

He couldn't help shaking the steering wheel nervously, and a little cold sweat leaked out between his fingers, which was his physiological reaction only under tense conditions.

After he parked his car in the underground garage of the studio and went upstairs, he remembered that he wanted to hear from He Chu.

He Chu's message was sent very early, and he was lying quietly on the lower left corner of the screen at the moment, a short one, and a small red dot on the far right.Zhou Yu's hand involuntarily tightened a little, then he opened the air bubble, and put the receiver on his ear.He Chu's voice came close to his ears:

"Why go?"

Zhou Yu's hand was slowly lowered, then he turned off the screen and put the phone in his coat pocket.

He stepped into the elevator, and the aroma of popcorn cream hit his face, and the strong smell made him feel sick.

Ah... that's right, if you don't come, don't come, you didn't tell them in advance, and you suddenly said that you want to invite others to watch a movie, how abrupt... Who let people come to you yesterday? Also rejected others?He put both hands in the pockets of the windbreaker, trying to keep warm inside, but his clothes were exactly like his hands, cold.

But I can't help it, I'm still a little disappointed.He smiled and stepped out of the elevator.

Unexpectedly, the phone vibrated again after a while, he opened WeChat, and saw He Chu sent a message saying: "Forget it, I'll go when I find time later."

His heart, which had just sunk down, lifted up again, and the little hope in his heart jumped three feet high again.

When He Chu said that, did he mean that he would come?He couldn't help tightening his fists, and pressed down the corners of his raised mouth, and replied: "Okay."

Then I'll wait for you.

It was less than half an hour before three o'clock, but if He Chu rushed over from the current company, there should be enough time.

Zhou Yu thought about the meaning of He Chu's words, and thought of the person he hadn't seen for a long time, as if his heart was scratched by something, ready to move.

He thought about what expression He Chu would have when he came and saw him there, and his palms slowly burned.

This was the first time he was looking forward to the appearance of a person so much, it was not like himself.

He was sitting in front of a table, with his right hand resting on the table, his five fingers raised and lowered one by one, tapping the table with the same frequency.

At the beginning, the frequency of his tapping was very fast, and his fingers were lifted high and then dropped, making a "da da" sound. Later, the speed of his tapping slowed down, as if his heart had also become There was silence.

He sat by the elevator and watched everyone coming up.

——Everyone had different expressions on their faces, but none of them had He Chu.

Without He Chu, He Chu didn't come.

He turned on his phone and glanced at the time. It was 52:3, and he was about to enter the arena in [-] minutes.

Wait a second, he said to himself, what if there is a traffic jam on the road?

The frequency of his knocking on the table became high again, and he was a little confused.

Why didn't He Chu come?Was something delayed, or did he really not want to come?Since you don't want to come, why promise yourself?Is it because I know I won't come, so I feel that it doesn't matter if I agree, because I can't see it anyway?I still feel that a movie ticket is nothing more than money to him, if it is wasted, it will be wasted...

Or...in fact, he was simply lying to himself?

Zhou Yu felt that the blood in his body had cooled down, and it was warm in the movie theater, but his limbs seemed to be in the ice and snow outside.

The last time he turned on the phone, the screen was clean and there was nothing.

——It's 55:[-].

Zhou Yu stood up, and heard the announcement from the cinema to remind the customers who watched the movie at three o'clock to enter.

"Mr. Zhou?" Suddenly someone called him from behind, Zhou Yu stopped in his tracks, looked towards the source of the sound, and saw the female secretary next to He Chu standing together arm in arm.

During those days of business trips, he was often with He Chu, and He Chu's secretary was familiar with Zhou Yu, and the people around the female secretary also politely called out "Mr. Zhou".

Think it's a boyfriend.

"What a coincidence? Are you going to watch the movie too?"

"Well, coincidence. Did Mr. He give you a vacation?" Zhou Yu smiled and nodded at the two of them. He was thinking of He Chu, and the last sentence he asked was completely from his heart. He saw the female secretary froze. After a moment, he smiled and said, "Mr. He has been busy for the past few days, so I will give everyone a holiday today, and I just happened to sneak out to watch a movie."

Oh... that's right... In fact, he's not in the company, he just doesn't want to come out.Why don't you want to see him?Because I rejected his invitation yesterday?Zhou Yu frowned slightly, and heard the female secretary ask again: "What time did you watch the movie?"

Zhou Yu looked at his watch, loosened his brows and smiled at the two of them: "It's almost three o'clock."

"When I went to buy the tickets before the three o'clock show, there were no tickets. Mr. Zhou is so lucky?"

"No, it's been booked in advance." Zhou Yu smiled again, his face looked a little pale under the light, giving people a feeling of crumbling, he nodded to the two of them, and said, "If you don't mind, Then I'll go first."

"It's okay, it's okay, if you have any questions about the cooperation project, you can come to me at any time."

"Thank you." Zhou Yu lifted the corner of his mouth a little stiffly, and said with a smile: "This is your boyfriend, I wish you two a long time."

The female secretary immediately smiled like a flower, beckoned to Zhou Yu who was leaving, and went to find a seat with her boyfriend on her arm.

Zhou Yu glanced at his phone again. He Chu didn't send any more messages. He looked at the entrance of the studio, but there was no sign of He Chu.

The movie started and he just didn't show up.

Inexplicably, he seemed to have returned to the day when he received the report card for the college entrance examination. He waited for He Chu at school all day, but he didn't come. If he didn't say anything, He Chu would never know that there was someone waiting for him.

It's just that He Chu didn't know that Zhou Yu was waiting that day, and it's the same today, Zhou Yu was the only one who pretended to be affectionate.

It's three o'clock.

Zhou Yu took one last look at the door, and slowly walked into the empty theater.The movie hadn't started yet, and the advertisements were scrolling on the screen. He chose the most comfortable position to sit down, and then quietly waited for the movie to start, turning off the ringtone of his phone.

He booked the entire theater and ordered "Farewell My Concubine".

This is the only movie he has watched many times and still wants to watch it with others after so many years abroad.

That person has always been He Chu, but he didn't come today.

The plot that he was about to memorize the lines flashed in front of him one by one, but it was the first time that he found it boring.Those lights and shadows flashed in front of his eyes, the movies he had liked, and even engraved Cheng Dieyi's every frown and smile in his mind, flowed before his eyes again.

This is the first time when he watched this film, he just felt that time flies, as if the show ended in the blink of an eye. He watched Cheng Dieyi committing suicide on the screen, and he felt that his life seemed to be passing in front of his eyes. .

When he recalled this movie again, he only remembered the phrase "I agreed to live a lifetime, and if one year is lost, one day, one hour is not considered a lifetime."

The story of the fake overlord and the real Concubine Yu came to an end again, and the relationship that one person was burning and the other was escaping came to an end again.

Zhou Yu leaned on the back of the chair, thinking of Duan Xiaolou again and said: "You are really not crazy and you can't survive."

--Not crazy, not live.

Duan Xiaolou said that Cheng Dieyi went crazy in singing... Zhou Yu thought, why didn't he go crazy?Why do I like this movie so much... Probably because the relationship between myself and He Chu is very similar to this one.

The temperature in the movie theater was a bit warm, and Zhou Yu felt his body warm up again. He looked at the pitch-black screen for a long time, and the lights in the movie theater had already been turned on. Staff came in, and he glanced out of the corner of his eye before remembering It seems that I have been sitting here for a long time.

"Sorry for the long wait." He stood up and walked to the exit of the theater, apologized to the manager, and then walked out.

The movie is over, so let's go.

"Eh? Mr. Zhou, do you need to apply for a membership card? We have a lot of discounts for members. If you come here often, we can..." The manager called out to him from behind.

Zhou Yu was taken aback, turned around and interrupted him, his voice seemed regretful: "No, I might...wouldn't come again." Then he smiled at the manager, nodded, turned around and never looked back.

Maybe it really is...never again.

He can do this step is already the limit he can break through, no more...he can't do it.But He Chu didn't understand, and he didn't come either.He Chu is no longer the person who understands him as before.

Then... forget it.

"Let's just forget it." He said to himself, "Anyway... we still have to separate after all."

Forget it Zhou Yu, don't worry about the past, the past, the past, the past, the past, the past, you don't have any feelings, people... It's not the same as before, so forget it.

Let's just forget it, anyway, they will have no results no matter what, it would be better if they didn't start at the beginning.

He smiled, walked into the underground garage, walked slowly to his car, and left at an unhurried pace.

He Chu always felt that his life was a little unsteady, because Zhou Yu said the day before yesterday that he was asked to help him watch a movie.

He didn't know why he was so awkward recently.

Zhou Yu took the initiative to send him a WeChat message that day, and he was so surprised that he wanted to jump up. Just because Zhou Yu took the initiative to ask him for help, he really wanted to go to that movie.

He thought that at the airport that day, Zhou Yu seemed to have something to say to himself.But that day when I just answered a phone call, Zhou Yu swallowed back what he wanted to say...

On the day of high school graduation, the way Zhou Yu called out to him after school unexpectedly overlapped inexplicably.

Only then did he realize belatedly that he should have said something to Zhou Yu at that time.

But he really didn't know what he could say to Zhou Yu. He wanted to speak, but he hesitated for a long time until he got to the gate of the airport, but Zhou Yu's car came early, and what he wanted to say was blocked by that phone call. blocked back.

In his own thinking and hesitation, he lost another chance to go further with Zhou Yu.

If Zhou Yu wasn't like Zhou Yu, he wouldn't be so cautious, he would have to think about everything for a long time, and he would definitely be someone who would do whatever comes to his mind.But if it wasn't for Zhou Yu like this...how could he fall in love with him?

In the final analysis... I was too timid.

I started to be timid nine years ago, and now I think that I am strong and mature enough after all these years in the mall, but it turns out that I just haven't met that person face to face.

Zhou Yu is his weakness, as long as he appears, He Chu can immediately expose his whole heart to the air, even if it's swords, lights and swords, he can't avoid it.

He didn't say he agreed to Zhou Yu, but he didn't refuse, but he still didn't go.

He actually didn't go to the bar the night before, but was alone on the sofa at home, imitating Zhou Yu's appearance and sitting there in a daze, all he could think about was Zhou Yu.

Thinking of Zhou Yu's sometimes shy appearance when they were first together, thinking of Zhou Yu's depressed appearance after they separated, thinking of Zhou Yu's high-spirited appearance he saw in the newspaper after Zhou Yu left, and thinking of Zhou Yu's appearance in front of him after they met again... All the appearances shown...

He remembered the voice message he sent in the past, and Zhou Yu never replied.

——Why do you want to go?

Yeah, why go?Zhou Yu wasn't there, so what's the point of him going and sitting among a group of people?Maybe, there are young lovers on the left and right showing their affection to him, so what is he going to do there to suffer?

But it was Zhou Yu's movie ticket, he bought the ticket so far away... he probably wanted to see it, right?Why didn't I help Zhou Yu watch a movie when he was not free, and then tell him the plot of the movie when he came back?Maybe... the distance between the two of them will be a little closer?

Is it because of the habit developed subconsciously in the past few days, unwilling to have too much contact with him, and unwilling to cause him more trouble?

He knew that for online consumption, if a ticket was issued for the movie, there would be a reminder on Zhou Yu's mobile phone, but he didn't take the ticket, Zhou Yu must also know that he didn't go that day.

What is Zhou Yu doing now?Ever angry with yourself?

He was sitting at his desk, tapping his fingers on the table in frustration.His fingertips were a little itchy, and he wanted to smoke a cigarette.

But he didn't realize until he rummaged through the drawers - he quit smoking, he promised Zhou Yu last time.

He frowned and saw the secretary chatting with someone outside the office, maybe gossip, so he went out to make himself a cup of coffee.

Today is Monday, but he is not very busy, and he is not very strict in managing his subordinates, so he just let them go.

But when he passed behind the secretary, he heard the secretary say in a tone as if he had discovered some important news: "Hey, let me tell you, didn't Mr. He give me a vacation the day before yesterday? I'll go and see it with my boyfriend." Movie, guess who I saw?!"

who?He Chu's footsteps paused, seeing that the few girls around didn't notice He Chu's arrival, so they leaned in and listened.

The girls were naturally curious, and immediately asked He Chu's doubts.

"Mr. Zhou! Do you know? It's the Mr. Zhou who worked with us! Let me tell you that Mr. Zhou is really handsome! Oh my god, it's the first time I saw him in casual clothes. He's so young and so good-looking! "

As the secretary spoke, she became nympho, and the girls next to her also became excited.

"He also wished me a long life with my boyfriend! Oh my god, when he smiled at me, I almost..." The secretary probably felt that he had gone too far, and cleared his throat, "And oh..." She After a pause, his tone became a little mysterious: "Let me tell you, Mr. Zhou came here alone...and he also bought the show at [-] o'clock in the afternoon the day before yesterday. I asked him why he was so lucky. I was shocked when he told me that he booked the show, you know? Is this how rich people watch movies?"

"Eh? Then he is waiting for someone, who has nothing to rent a movie theater to watch movies by himself..." A female employee interjected.

"Then I don't know. I saw Mr. Zhou was alone all the time, and I didn't see him waiting for someone... But Mr. Zhou is really handsome. Who would ask him to be a boyfriend... His face makes me feel like a Can I be a nymphomaniac for three years?"

"Who were you talking about just now!?" He Chu listened behind them for a long time, and finally couldn't help but speak out.

The secretary was so frightened by He Chu's sudden words that he jumped up all over. The girl at the side looked at each other seeing the vice president's unkind expression, and the boss caught him chatting during working hours. This would deduct a bonus.

The secretary collected himself, and said cautiously, "He...Mr. He, I..."

"Who did you say you saw?" He Chu didn't pursue the secretary's gossip during working hours, but asked again.

"It's... Mr. Zhou of the Zhou family, who cooperated with us, Zhou Yu." The secretary calmed down, staring closely at He Chu's expression, thinking that Mr. He might violently explode in the next second.

"When did you see him, and where is he?" He Chu shook the cup in his hand, sweat dripping from his hands.

"It's just... I saw him at the movie theater next door around three o'clock in the afternoon the day before yesterday."

He Chu's mind suddenly went blank, and his heart seemed to have been hit by a heavy hammer. His hand shook violently, causing the cup in his hand to almost fall to the ground.

"Mr. He...you are..." The secretary took a step forward and immediately cared about the boss's body.

"He...alone?" He raised his hand to reject the secretary's support, collected himself, saw several little girls looking at him nervously, raised the cup in his hand, and smiled at them.

"Yes."

"Okay, got it." He Chu turned and walked to the office without even picking up the coffee. After he took a step, he seemed to think of something again, turned around and said to the girls: "There is no need to discuss whether he is Single, he doesn't like women."

Then he strode back to his office and closed the door with a bang.

"Hey, sister, tell me more quickly, Mr. Zhou..." The voices of the girls behind him were blocked outside the door, and He Chu couldn't hear them.

The sound of the ceramic cup being placed on the table was exceptionally clear, which woke He Chu up suddenly.

He straightened things out... yet again felt a heavy sadness.

What coffee do you drink?Is there not enough pain in my heart?

It turns out that Zhou Yu came yesterday... so he was waiting for me at the movie theater?It turns out that he wanted to watch a movie with you... It turns out that he lied to you by saying those things.

That's right... Can't you see He Chu?The excuses he made were all so rigid. He bought the tickets in advance, so he really wanted to see it?Why not come?

Now you know, he even booked the venue, he came here for you...

Zhou Yu is the kind of person who, once he has made a plan for something, won't change it... How could he not come?

He watched the movie by himself, and the seat next to him was always empty... He sat in the movie theater alone... How uncomfortable he must be...

Zhou Yu is such a person who is afraid of the dark. In the few seconds before the movie opens, when he is alone in the dark, does he actually want someone beside him to dispel the darkness for him...

What was Zhou Yu thinking at that time?Are you laughing at your actions?

He Chu felt very uncomfortable, because of his avoidance, and Zhou Yu...

He finally failed Zhou Yu's wishes again and again.

After so many years, after Zhou Yu finally took another step forward.

In fact, you have done so much for him, but he doesn't feel it at all. Look at him, doesn't he still want to watch movies with you?But you didn't come, you left him there alone.

Why after so long, you still don't understand his mind?You clearly know that he just doesn't say anything, why are you still angry with him?

How difficult it must have been for him during that time...how disappointed he must have been...

Don't you treat him better?Are you still going to keep avoiding him?

If you keep hiding, maybe Zhou Yu will really step forward, take two more steps and pass you...

He Chu buried his hand deeply in his palm, and the feeling in his heart suddenly became uncontrollable, like a torrential flood, sweeping his entire world.

"Why are you so stupid... He Chu."