Cold violence

When Zhou Yu was sick, it was easy to go offline.

For example, Zhou Yu actually just wanted to say "goodbye" to He Chu, but in the end what came out of his mouth turned into a naked invitation.

When he realized what he said, he wanted to slap himself hard.

But He Chu was still there, so he couldn't smoke.

He Chu was standing at the door with an unbelievable expression on his face. In fact, this kind of expression rarely appeared on He Chu's face. First, there were very few things that could make him react like this. Second, this expression hung on his face. It really doesn't make him look like a 25-year-old young man.

Zhou Yu just looked at him like this, and finally sighed resignedly, and asked, "Is it okay?"

This kind of tone was really showing weakness. It was the first time that Zhou Yu had been so submissive to someone in all his years of adulthood, inviting someone to stay by his side with a gesture similar to "begging".

This kind of thing would never happen to Zhou Yu in normal times, but he didn't know what happened. It seemed that since he realized that "I seem to be very happy to have He Chu in me" while washing his face, he seemed to not want to Alone this holiday.

What He Chu said was the same, when everyone was surrounded by someone, he actually didn't want to be alone.

He has lived enough days alone. It has been nearly 20 years since he was a child. Now that someone is willing to accompany him, why should he refuse?

So subconsciously, he wanted He Chu to stay.

Then he found a reasonable reason for himself: I'm sick, it's not good to bother Siyan, and it's rare for him to take a vacation, why not use free labor in front of him?

After thinking about it again, he felt that this reason was very reasonable and enough to convince himself, so he became a little more at ease.

The one who was uncomfortable before was Zhou Yu, but now the one who is uncomfortable is He Chu again.

He didn't retreat or advance, he just stood at the door so awkwardly, as if he didn't know where to put his hands and feet, and spoke incoherently: "Then I...then I'll just cook for you here, what do you want?" You can eat anything! I... I'll go downstairs to buy groceries in a while. Uh... Is it right for me to live in your house? I didn't bring any change of clothes... Do I have to send someone to bring it to me? Forget it What do you want to eat? Or do you want to go to sleep now? Oh, you need to take medicine first..."

Zhou Yu: "..."

He spoke intermittently, but he didn't express anything after he finished speaking. Zhou Yu didn't know how to answer after listening to him talk for a long time.

He watched He Chu standing at the door talking to himself, wondering if he had made a wrong decision and he should let this guy go home quickly, so as not to stand in front of him again and be upset.

But in my heart I was greedy for that bit of tenderness, even though I knew that tenderness was only temporary, I couldn't bear to let it go.In the past, when I was young, I was greedy for such a little tenderness when I didn't know the wind and snow, but now I still like it to warm me by my side.

Habit is really a scary thing, he is there quietly, usually he is silent and you will never think of him, until one day you make a subconscious move, you will I suddenly realized that this matter had become my habit.

Just like Zhou Yu, he just came here when He Chu was not by his side for so many years, and he rarely even tried to find He Chu again, but as long as He Chu appeared in front of him, he lost the ability to reject this person.

I was once so tenderly loved by this person, how could I refuse now?

He Chu was still standing at the door, hesitating to speak, but Zhou Yu said impatiently, "Why are people who are bosses still so verbose?"

He walked to the door of the bedroom, glanced at He Chu, sighed softly and said, "First of all, I don't like to take medicine, second, you should know what I like to eat, and finally, I'm going to sleep, the key is at the door , the rest is up to you."

Then he closed the door softly, changed into pajamas and lay back on the bed. Hearing the sound of He Chu opening the door, he began to stare at the ceiling in a daze.

Now that his mind was not so dizzy, he began to think about the problem that he just made an excuse to fool himself.I don't know what the habit is, since he was a child, he has to get to the bottom of his affairs before he is willing to give up.

It was as if he wanted to cut open his chest and see through his internal organs. Only in this way could he understand what kind of person he was.

The habit is terrible, and now he still can't get rid of this problem.

Why did you want He Chu to stay just now... In fact, as long as he rests for a while, he will be fine. He knows that every time he has a fever, the fever will not last for three days, and he will be fine if he sleeps a little longer. After so many illnesses, I have survived by myself, why can't I bear it when He Chuyi is here...?

Why do you want this person to be by your side?Is it because his will is really not firm enough, or is He Chu's offensive really so strong?In just a few days, he broke through his defense again?

That's really humbling.

It wasn't his intention to ask He Chu to send him into the house last night, but he was really tired yesterday. After knowing that there are people around him who don't need to worry about himself, he fell asleep in the car like that, and it was the first time he slept soundly. It was so heavy that even when He Chu woke him up later, he couldn't bear to wake himself up.

I really haven't experienced that feeling of incomparable relaxation for many years.

Ever since he broke up with He Chu that year, his sleep quality has become extremely poor. He has to wake up every three to five times at night. repeated between...

Especially after he deliberately disrupted his biological clock and got used to the upside-down work and rest time, his sleeping state became even worse.

He still remembers that when he was in the third year of high school, he wanted to adjust his biological clock back, but he couldn't restrain his sleepiness during the day, and he couldn't wake up. Only in the afternoon and evening self-study, he would wake up a little bit.

He knew that his state was wrong, but he couldn't find a way to adjust it. In order to create a "degenerate" appearance, he not only wasted the daytime, but also destroyed his spirit.

At the beginning of the adjustment in the third year of high school, he was anxious, bored, and self-denying. He had to take a lot of medicine every day to maintain and prolong his waking time, and he had to take sleeping pills at night to fall asleep, but the side effects of taking sleeping pills were too great. The next day he always He would be extremely anxious, and his stomach would always feel uncomfortable like a needle prick, and it kept going like this until he really gave up on He Chu.

After the college entrance examination, without that kind of obsession, his work and rest time really returned to normal, but the impact on him was so great that even if he slept at night, he would easily wake up.

Like yesterday, it can even be said to be a good night's sleep, except that he worked continuously for several days without sleep, and being able to fall asleep quickly after unloading the burden on his body, this experience is simply a luxury for him enjoy.

Was it because that person was by my side yesterday?So the whole space where he exists is filled with his aura, that kind of thing called "peace of mind", even makes Zhou Yu sleep peacefully.

Just like the time when they first got together, that was the time when Zhou Yu felt the most secure, and it was also the time when he slept the most peacefully.

At that time, Zhou Yu believed in every promise He Chu made, that's why he felt so at ease, and only put down all his guard when he was sleeping.

But now... In fact, Zhou Yu really wanted He Chu to stay. He even knew that he still had that different feeling for He Chu, but he couldn't say it.

Because he no longer believed in He Chu.

From the time He Chu said "break up" to him, from the time he broke his first promise, Zhou Yu no longer had any trust in him.

I no longer believe that He Chu's kindness to him is long-lasting, and I also don't believe that the liking He Chu said is pure, and I don't believe that he can return to the past with He Chu.

But who can refuse the care from his sweetheart?

——Just this time, I will indulge this time.

He said to himself, after the vacation, I will stay far away from him and absolutely have nothing to do with him.

He has missed this hard-won tenderness for nearly ten years.

Zhou Yu is not a person who gives away his feelings easily, but when he gives it out easily, it is even more difficult to take it back.

He lived in such an environment since he was a child. The extremely failed marriage of his parents not only made him have extreme basic emotions about the relationship with the opposite sex, but also made him have a different kind of obsession with such illusory things as "emotion". read.

If you can't treat someone well with one heart and one mind without any impurities... then it's better to keep this precious thing away so that others don't waste it.

His sincerity has been severely trampled by others once, so he hides it deeply, and no one will give it to anyone, even the person who lives in his heart cannot pry into it.

As he thought about it, his head began to become heavy again. He shrank deeper into the bed and fell asleep wrapped in a quilt.

Zhou Yu was awakened by the aroma in the room, he even felt himself in a dream, because he really hadn't smelled such a home-cooked dish for many years.

The bedroom door didn't know when it opened.Probably He Chu came over to look at him when he came back, but he felt that closing the door would wake him up, so he simply covered it up for him.

He sat up, looked through the gap of the door frame, and saw He Chu was busy in front of the dining table.

He Chu was still wearing an apron. He had a slender waist and long legs, and the apron made his proportions even more perfect.

This was the first time he saw an adult He Chu dressed like this.

When He Chu was in high school, Wei Wei always complained twice, saying that he was a bit of a motherfucker, and always asked Zhou Yu to help him tie his belt, but now he took the initiative to tie it, and he looked even more beautiful than then.

He watched He Chu standing in front of the dining table with his head bowed, and his profile flashed in front of his eyes. He suddenly felt a warm feeling in his heart, as if he and He Chu had never been separated. Arrived today.For some reason, he always felt that such a scene appeared in front of his eyes, and he always felt as if he had watched it for many years.

The young man who was still a little skinny in his memory turned into a young man with thick shoulders in front of him, and the smooth muscle lines on his body could be imagined through the material of the clothes.

Zhou Yu suddenly remembered that he had argued with He Chu about the abdominal muscles back then, and couldn't help laughing.

At that time...it was really good, really good.

It's the kind that can be recalled for a lifetime, but it's good to never go back.

Seeing that He Chu had returned to the kitchen again, he got up and walked slowly to the dining table to sit down, waiting for He Chu to come over for dinner. He Chu made hot pot today.

His craftsmanship is much more exquisite than before. The base of a hot pot is exquisitely made. Zhou Yu scooped it up with a spoon, and it was mutton hot pot.

Very fragrant.

Zhou Yu smiled, watching the mist rising from the hot pot, the aroma all went into his nose, and the mutton boiled in the bottom of the boiling pot, Zhou Yu felt an urge to cry when he saw it.

He was able to eat He Chu's cooking again. After nine years, this was the second time they sat at the same table, but it was the first time they sat down to eat together calmly.

The last meal broke up unhappily. Although the two of them sat down like this, they both secretly had their own thoughts and neither of them said anything.In the end, I finally opened my mouth, and what I said was still such hurtful words...

This time, he was the one who deliberately stayed with He Chu, and his mood was different.

Just by looking at the appearance, he knew that He Chu must have practiced it, and the taste must be much better than the hot pot base they bought when they were in high school, but no matter how He Chu's craftsmanship changed, his bowl of egg noodles The taste is still unique.What they ate most for breakfast that year was the egg noodles made by He Chu.

"Just sleep for a while? I'm planning to call you later."

He Chu arranged the side dishes on the table one by one, and wanted to reach out to rub Zhou Yu's hair, but withdrew his hand again, feeling a little sad suddenly.

In fact, he knew that he was able to appear here now. In fact, Zhou Yu was a little confused because of illness, so He Chu was allowed to stay. to him.

Although he was a little unwilling, he also understood that this was one of the few times when Zhou Yu showed weakness.

Thinking of this, he lost his mind for a moment—in the past, he always played petty temper in front of Zhou Yu, but it was Zhou Yu who put down his face and coaxed him patiently, sometimes he had to think of something that would make He Chu happy. if.Being with him, Zhou Yu paid far more than him.

It's just that he didn't care about it at all at that time, and now that all the tenderness is gone, he realized later that Zhou Yu was so gentle in front of him.

Being separated from Zhou Yu was the thing he regretted the most since he lived for so long, but now he could only comfort himself and said: It's okay, as long as the two of them are still together, it's enough to be in the same room. Let's be together.

"Take another temperature."

He Chu took out the thermometer and let Zhou Yu hold it under his arm. He reached out and touched his forehead, and found that the roots of his hair were soaked with thin sweat, so he took out a tissue to help him wipe off the sweat carefully. , and asked him again: "Is it cold? Help you reset the temperature of the air conditioner?"

Zhou Yu seemed a bit unresponsive, and it took him a long time before he said, "It's okay."

His throat was hoarse, and He Chu felt distressed. He helped him pour hot water into a cup and put it in front of him, and said: "Then put on your clothes, you just woke up, one hot and one cold It will give you a headache."

"I'm fine, I'm fine." Zhou Yu doesn't like to wear a lot of clothes at home, so the heating in the house is generally sufficient, but despite this, he still needs to turn on the air conditioner to keep warm.

He always felt that when he was alone, the house must be warm.

He Chu sighed, raised the temperature of the air conditioner by two degrees, and adjusted the wind speed to the maximum, before turning around and returning to the kitchen to get busy.

Zhou Yu just stared at the pot in a daze, listening to He Chu's busy voice.

The thermometer wasn't cold, it still carried He Chu's body temperature, and he didn't feel any chill when he took it.

What kind of feeling is this?

It's like you have prepared the worst plan to accept an ice scum that you insist on putting in your mouth, but who knows that what you taste in the end is a sweet and greasy rock candy.

This feeling is actually wonderful.Zhou Yu thought about it, and felt that the smell of hot pot became more and more fragrant.

After He Chu finished his work, he took off the thermometer on Zhou Yu's body, frowned and said, "You can't do this, you've got a bad fever by now, you have to take medicine, or I'll take you to the hospital this afternoon... "

In the past, she went to the hospital too many times, and the thing that Zhou Yu dislikes the most now is going to the hospital.As soon as He Chu mentioned it, Zhou Yu rebelled and said, "No way!"

"What's wrong? I told you that if you have such a high fever for a long time, accidents are easy to happen. In the past, no one took care of you. Now that I am here, you have to take medicine when you are sick."

As he spoke, he unwrapped the medicine on the table one by one for Zhou Yu, then put it in his palm and spread it out to Zhou Yu.

Zhou Yu looked at He Chu's palm and started to feel troubled again.

Taking medicine is also a big problem for Zhou Yu.

I always took medicine during high school, and I haven’t stopped taking medicine so far. If I take too much medicine, I’m prone to physical rejection of medicine. Now I don’t take medicine as much as before, but every time I take medicine like capsules It will make him feel miserable-because he can't swallow it, and swallowing it is a matter of drinking a whole glass of water.

All the medicines that He Chu gave him were in the form of compressed tablets, and a few tablets would probably give him a stomachache just by drinking water.

For a moment, Zhou Yu's face was very ugly, and his expression was even a little distorted. He squinted his eyes and looked at He Chu's palm, and suddenly felt that it was a mistake to keep He Chu at his home.

"I said I'll get better after a little more sleep." He frowned.

"It turns out that you didn't get better after you slept." He Chu pushed the medicine he was going to take once to Zhou Yu, meaning "If you don't want to go to the hospital, just take the medicine obediently."

"What I said is, sleep more, for a while."

He Chu put the medicine in front of Zhou Yu's eyes without a doubt.

"It's my freedom to take medicine or not."

"Now that you are sick, you have no position to say this. If you don't eat, I will tie you to the hospital."

"You..." Zhou Yu was so angry at He Chu that he couldn't speak. He wanted to stand up but felt his head weighed as much as a thousand catties. He could only point at He Chu and curse, "Why are you such a rascal!"

This man!Knowing that I don't like it, why should I be so stubborn on this matter? !

"It's hard for you to remember that I've always been a rascal." He Chu said confidently, and even bowed slightly to Zhou Yu after speaking, as if "received the compliment".

The corner of Zhou Yu's mouth twitched, feeling that if he was so angry with this person again, he might just get over it in one breath, so he decided not to argue with him, and turned his back to He Chu.

He looks like a child who is angry with others, inexplicably cute.

He Chu coughed lightly, lowered his head and rubbed his nose, trying not to laugh out loud.

Zhou Yu, who was sick, really went back to life more and more, it was exactly the same as in high school, just as easy to get angry, thin-skinned but still not able to swear, and when he got angry, he didn't know how to get angry with He Chu.

He Chu took a step forward, squatted halfway behind Zhou Yu, and tugged at his cuff: "Are you angry now? Why don't you take your medicine, huh? Tell me about it."

Zhou Yu ignored He Chu and only turned his back to him.

He Chu couldn't see Zhou Yu's expression clearly, but when he saw his ears were red, his heart was so soft that he didn't even want to tease him. He shook his head, packed up the medicine and took it into the kitchen.

Zhou Yu frowned, and said in his heart that I wouldn't eat it if I took it to the kitchen, no matter what methods you use, it won't work.

Then he heard the sound of pounding objects from the prescription, one sound at a time.Zhou Yu was a little inexplicable and curious, but he forced himself not to let him go.

After a while He Chu came out, seeing that Zhou Yu was still looking so bored, he turned his head and smiled, cleared his throat again, and squatted in front of Zhou Yu to coax him: "If you don't want to take medicine, then don't take it , I ground up the medicine for you, soaking it in water and drinking it won’t make you feel disgusted, right?”

So I went to grind medicine for myself just now... He thought blankly.

Zhou Yu lowered his head and saw that in the box He Chu was holding, those pills had been ground into fine powder by He Chu, and they were rearranged by category. Look away.

He Chu's gaze was so gentle that Zhou Yu felt a little embarrassed to lose his temper again.

He was originally such a person, sometimes he had his own petty temper, but he was extremely soft-spoken. Just now, if He Chu had to ask him to take medicine, he would definitely refuse. Now that He Chu has done this for him, he I can't get angry anymore.

Seeing that Zhou Yu seemed a little shy and awkward, He Chu knew that he was not angry anymore, so he quickly took a cup from the side to help him make medicine.

I couldn't help laughing in my heart, this person was still as easy to coax as before, and he didn't bother me at all.

When he was finished, Zhou Yu sighed again, took the water glass and held his breath, and then drank the medicine in one gulp.

The unmelted powder was a little rustling, and he could not help coughing, feeling his face was hot and embarrassed.

He Chu looked at Zhou Yu's frowning with a full smile, and finally couldn't help but reach out and rub his hair.

The author has something to say: In order to avoid this chapter being too long, I took it apart, and it should be published together today, but it is a very short warning.