Cold violence

This week, He Chu often stared at the corner of the classroom in a daze.

Zhou Yu seemed to like that corner very much, every time he changed seats, he would be very happy because it was quiet there.

When they changed seats this week, no one moved at Zhou Yu's table. He Chu watched those people knock his table back and forth, and didn't intend to help. In the end, He Chu walked over calmly. , said "Help me look at it", and helped Zhou Yu set the table.

Zhou Yu hadn't come for a week, and the seat was sitting alone in the corner, covered with a thin layer of dust.

He doesn't have a deskmate anymore.

He Chu had already applied to change seats with the teacher, and the reason was the unanimous result after the two negotiated.

When changing seats, he thought about staying away from Zhou Yu, and he would think better in his heart. As long as he couldn't see this person, he wouldn't feel uncomfortable. So now he sits in the middle and Zhou Yu sits in the last row. Less than one piece.

But when Zhou Yu didn't come, he always wanted to take a second look, as if he could see that quiet person sitting there with his head down looking after his study just in a blink of his mind.

But he knew that Zhou Yu would not come.

Because when he was going to change seats, Lao Huang casually told He Chu that Zhou Yu had taken a month's leave, and if He Chu was convenient, he would help him pack up his school things and send them over to him.

He Chu thought, convenient, how could it be inconvenient, that used to be his home.

But he still refused.

Because he has no reason to go back.

In the end, Lao Huang didn't look for anyone else, he just asked He Chu to help Zhou Yu put away the things, but He Chu felt a little guilty for no reason.

The relationship between Li Qi and him remained the same, but they still sat in front of Zhou Yu, together with Fang Xian, without being affected by He Chu at all.

Nothing in this class has changed. Occasionally, there will still be people whispering in the audience during class, and everyone will gather together to fight and make trouble when class is over. It seems that the absence of Zhou Yu has no impact on them at all. It even made them happier.

After He Chu changed seats, the people in the class seemed to know He Chu's position, and after only a long time, they took the initiative to "get acquainted" with He Chu, as if they had never been separated from each other.

But He Chu felt uncomfortable.

He didn't like this way of getting along. He used to look forward to blending with them, but when he was really accepted, he only felt sad.

——Because he got this "acceptance" by "breaking up with Zhou Yu".

He got the result he wanted in his heart, but he was not happy at all.

He always thought about Zhou Yu, but Zhou Yu never came again.

He remembered the night when they just broke up, Zhou Yu called him.

Zhou Yu might not know it, but He Chu could tell that Zhou Yu's mood was not good. The sadness he deliberately concealed was magnified countless times in He Chu's ears, knocking on his brain.

Zhou Yu should be crying.

why cry?

When Zhou Yu said goodbye to him, he was so plain, why did he cry?

He heard Zhou Yu ask him "Are you serious?"

He actually wanted to say "no".

But the person who is least qualified to say "no" is He Chu himself.

Because from the very beginning, he was not serious about his concern for Zhou Yu, and he was completely wrong.

He was tempted because of Zhou Yu's face, and because of his superficiality, he couldn't say this, it would hurt Zhou Yu's heart, and make him feel ashamed.

So even though he was with Zhou Yu later, he still felt guilty.

——Because at the beginning of the acquaintance, his purpose of chasing Zhou Yu was just for his own whim.No matter how much I like it now, I can't hide this fact.

So he tried his best to treat Zhou Yuhao, especially after chatting with Yu Jingzhou.

But why did it become like this?Why did he lose Zhou Yu in the end?The two of them obviously matched so well, but why did they break up?

When we were together, we used so much courage, but when we broke up, we broke up in a hurry, without even asking for a reason.

How could he deserve to like Zhou Yu...

He wanted to tell Zhou Yu, he wanted to tell him that the "breakup" he said was not true, that he moved out was just for fun, and that he said "goodbye" was just thinking that the two would meet again.

But this cannot be said.

In this situation, just thinking about it, he felt that he would be ridiculed by himself.

Why do you congratulate Chu?Why do you get Zhou Yu's love?

The road is chosen by you. If you go out, no one can turn back for you.

After that phone call, he never dared to answer Zhou Yu's phone again.

He was afraid of hearing Zhou Yu's voice, afraid of hearing his every question, afraid of hearing his faint tone, afraid of hearing Zhou Yu cry again.

He was afraid that he really couldn't help but turn around and confess to Zhou Yu, but he was even more afraid that he would be isolated by the whole class again.

He's not Zhou Yu, he can't be as strong as Zhou Yu.

So within a week, he quickly changed his tablemate and mobile phone number, and only told a few acquaintances with the new number.

He is on the run, as long as he can escape Zhou Yu.

Zhou Yu has become his demon, whenever he thinks of this person, he will feel deeply guilty.

Even when he looked at Li Qi, he clearly knew that this person was his good brother, and he rarely looked into this person's eyes because he was afraid of seeing the disappointment in this person's eyes.

Yes, he, He Chu, was timid, cowardly, and selfish.

So he is not worthy of being treated well, and he should be.

But he thought he had seen the people in this class clearly, and he finally understood why Zhou Yuhui chose the path of "loneliness" back then.

Because not only did they no longer have the attitude of avoiding He Chu they used to avoid, but they were also overly courteous.

Yeah, as long as you hate the same guy as us, then you're our friend, and as long as you have money, then you're our boss.

Go with the flow, just follow the trend, who wouldn't?

Really...disgusting.

They only see the "evil" they see, so they think that the person they hate is the so-called "evil", and even the people around that person will suffer together.

This "society" is still too dirty.

But now that he understands, what's the use?

Zhou Yu was no longer by his side.

He Chu thought about it, subconsciously put the pen into his mouth, and gently chewed it with his teeth.

Then he suddenly remembered what Zhou Yu said a long time ago: "You always eat pens, and you will easily get pica."

So he silently put down the pen and glanced at his new deskmate.

His new deskmate is a somewhat introverted boy, completely different from Zhou Yu, he will take the initiative to talk to He Chu, but his tone is a bit submissive, and when he sees He Chu occasionally smiles, he will also be shy smile.

For some reason, with his appearance, He Chu always felt that this should be the appearance of Zhou Yu when he was a child who was not familiar with the world.

The new tablemate is very different from Zhou Yu, for example, he never reminds He Chu to pay attention to the little habits in life.

The boy was timid, and his eyes were still shining when he looked at He Chu.

"Squad leader..." The little boy tugged on He Chu's sleeve and called out to him in a low voice.

"what happened?"

He Chu has an indescribable fondness for this boy, not the kind he likes Zhou Yu the same, but simply thinks that such a timid boy is cute, and treat him a little more gently, just like treating him when he was a child. The little boy who never got warm was a little better.

But what's the use?It's long gone, and Zhou Yu can't feel it anymore, but he is just asking for comfort in his heart.

But... He Chu thought silently, even if it was psychological comfort, he would feel better.

Those who are used to make up for... the ones who owed Zhou Yu.

"You...do you know where Zhou Yu went? I think he hasn't come for a week..."

He Chu was startled, and suddenly hearing the word "Zhou Yu" from someone else gave him an urge to cry.

Apart from Li Qi and Fang Xian, this person was the only one who asked him about Zhou Yu's condition.

The feeling of "so there are such clean and uncomplicated people in this world" made his nose sore suddenly.

He knew that this description was not very accurate, but when he heard this sentence, he felt that this person must be kind.

From the beginning of school to the present, he has seen too many cold eyes and listened to too much cynicism, but it turns out that not everyone thinks that Zhou Yu is not good. It turns out that there is still goodwill in this class...

He sniffled and asked, "Are you looking for something?"

He turned his head to look at the boy named Li Chaojun next to him, looked at his clear pupils, as if he could see the kindness in his bones from the pool of clear water, which moved He Chu.

It was so rare and gentle, even He Chu felt that he was warmed.

"No, I just care about him...Although I feel that many people in the class don't like him, but I think he is very powerful, very outstanding..."

When he said this, he could even describe it as being cautious, and his voice was small, as if he was afraid that others would hear it.

This class seems to have formed a special circle for everything about this person named "Zhou Yu". As long as they have a relationship with this person, they will be isolated, just like He Chu in the past.

Li Chaojun didn't understand. He felt that Zhou Yu's excellence could be seen at a glance. There was no fraud, so why did he slander him?

But he is also timid and afraid of the cold violence of those people in the class.He is just a person, and he feels that he is not that strong enough to support himself to go on alone.

So he only dared to speak to He Chu, who had been friends with Zhou Yu, even from the bottom of his heart.

"Well... he... the teacher told me that he was sick and might not come for a long time."

He smiled at Li Chaojun and patted him on the shoulder, "Don't worry."

Won't be here for a long time...

When he said these words, He Chu felt his chest vibrate violently.

A long, long time without seeing this person, without hearing this person's voice...

In fact, he always thought that if they broke up, he would stand in the circle of "isolated Zhou Yu" in class, which meant that he would "not understand Zhou Yu" and hate him along with them.But as long as he is still in the same class, it is good for him to see this person.

But he suddenly stopped coming, was he also running away from something?

"Is it serious? Do you need a classmate to visit?" Li Chaojun asked again.

"I don't know...it shouldn't be necessary," He Chu covered his face with his hand, so that no one could see his expression, and said slowly, "I don't know."

Seeing that he didn't want to talk anymore, Li Chaojun nodded and continued to do his homework.

He Chu turned his head and stared at the dusty seat, lost in thought again.

Thinking of Li Qi's appearance when he came to look for him the night they broke up, he lowered his eyes in a state of dismay.

He touched his left rib, which still seemed to be in pain.

That night Li Qi went downstairs with his schoolbag, the smile on his face was gone, and he looked worried.

He frowned, watching He Chu walk out of the house step by step, and stood in front of him.

"Brother Yu asked me to give it to you." He stuffed the schoolbag into He Chu's arms, with an uneasy expression on his face.

"Well, thank him." He Chu casually took the schoolbag.

"What's the matter with you? What's the matter? Suddenly there's a commotion?"

"We broke up, it's okay."

He Chu put his schoolbag behind his back, and stretched out his hand to Li Qi: "Do you have any cigarettes? Have one."

In fact, he is not a big smoker, and he only smokes when he is extremely irritable.

At this time, he frowned slightly, looked a little impatient, and his tone was not polite, he knew that Li Qi had it.

Since he moved out of Zhou Yu's house in the afternoon, he has smoked a whole pack now. At such times, only the paralysis of nicotine can relax his nerves slightly.

The more people pin their emotions on something, the more they want to rely on it.

But when he was smoking, the shadow of Zhou Yu suddenly appeared in his mind——Zhou Yu was the most annoying about the smell of cigarettes.

Thinking of Zhou Yu, he became inexplicably manic again.

"Smash you to death."

Li Qi angrily took out a cigarette case from his trouser pocket, took a cigarette and stuffed it into He Chu's mouth, but he still carefully lit the cigarette for him. Smoking in the room.

Then he said again: "Ask you, why did you break up?"

"If you don't like it, we will break up."

He Chu took a deep breath of the cigarette, felt the mist rolling in his lungs, and then slowly exhaled the smoke.

The curling smoke in the night blurred everything in front of his eyes. The smoke was choking and the air was cold, but he couldn't feel it at all.

"What?" Li Qi was a little unresponsive.

"If you don't like him, let's break up. What else can we do?"

Now Li Qi was really stunned.

What do you mean you don't like it?

Is it because I no longer like this person from now on, or will I never look at this person again in the future?

How did you tell me then?What about the person who said he would not let go and really liked him?

"Don't fucking talk to me, why did you break up?" Li Qi snatched the cigarette from He Chu's fingertips, and said in a vicious voice, "If you don't tell me the truth, don't smoke."

"Why do you care so much after all the points?" He Chu said angrily, snatched the cigarette back and put it in his mouth, and said vaguely: "Is it your boyfriend who got the share or something? care?"

"No, He Chu, what did you tell me then? How did you tell me when we went to the bar to fight in the first year of high school? Ah? Did you say that you would never let go? What you said at the time was regarded as Did you fart?"

Li Qi didn't know why his heart suddenly became angry, the more indifferent He Chu was, the more he felt wronged for Zhou Yu.

He Chu is not a half-hearted person, nor is Zhou Yu the kind of troublemaker, but why, why did He Chu and him break up suddenly?

"I broke up with Zhou Yu. What did you do for him? You don't need to remind me that He Chu remembers these words. If you want to say that, then treat it like fart and leave me alone."

Why did you come up with this head?Why are you asking me?Why do you want to come and stab a knife in my chest when I'm already suffering enough?

As he said "I don't like it anymore", he was so sure, as if he really didn't like it.

Obviously his heart was already dripping with blood, but he still had to act like he didn't care, as if he had done too much and really didn't care.

"It's your mother who chased people to death, didn't you? You just dumped it now? You lied to people's feelings, He Chu?! You were chasing people like crazy back then, but now you say you want to share, just say something Don't like it anymore? What are you going to do with Zhou Yu? Does he not like you anymore or what, are you just ruining his feelings like this?"

Li Qi doesn't believe that Zhou Yu has no feelings for He Chu. Every time he sees Zhou Yu staring at He Chu, maybe others don't know, but people like them who know the relationship between the two of them can only look into Zhou Yu's eyes , there is a tenderness and strong love that Tibet can't hide, he doesn't believe that He Chu can't feel it.

That's why he is worthless for Zhou Yu.

Both of them are his friends. He watched the two go so far, and never thought that they would break up.

"Why are you angry? I've seen so many men before, but I haven't seen you come out to stop me from normalizing my sexual orientation. Why don't I just have a relationship and break up? I'm tired and don't want to talk anymore. What's the matter? Did I dump you?!"

He Chu was also excited as he spoke, the emotions that had been pent up all day burst out at this moment, his eyes were sore from the excitement.

All He Chu said before was arguing with Li Qi, which only made Li Qi more angry.

But the three words "I'm tired" directly poked into Li Qi's heart.

He suddenly realized that he had no reason to blame He Chu. Even as He Chu's best brother, he could see everything He Chu did. They didn't think it was something He Chu could do.

But He Chu is also tired, he is also tired when he circles between the class and Zhou Yu.

In their class, Zhou Yu endured all kinds of gossip, endured the ambiguous stares from others, and had to do his best to treat He Chuhao, so why wasn't he tired?

In fact, both of them are very tired, but they just don't talk about it.

It just needs one person to speak first, so that both of them can relax.

He had never been in a relationship before, and he didn't understand the relationship between He Chu and Zhou Yu, but he suddenly understood that in fact, neither of them did anything wrong, it was this complicated class that was wrong.

In fact, no matter who proposes to break up, it should not be blamed.

Because separation is the best choice for them.

He Chu put the cigarette back into his mouth again, frowned and inhaled deeply.

The air fell silent for an instant.

Li Qi stared at He Chu, lit a cigarette for himself, and slowly squatted beside He Chu.

Smoke lingered in front of the two people, blurring the scene in front of them.

He Chu suddenly felt that the smell of smoke made people uncomfortable.

"Brother... Let's share when you're tired, that's good."

"do not talk……"

He Chu took his last puff of cigarette, and crushed the end of the cigarette on the ground.

"But why do I want to hit you so much? Huh?"

Li Qi looked at He Chu's appearance, and knew that He Chu was actually not feeling well. They had been playing together for so many years, and this was the first time his brother He showed such a decadent posture.

He squatted on the ground, looked up at the sky, the profile of his side face was extremely sharp, and his expression was hard.

His eyes should be filled with the entire sky, but Li Qi felt that there was only a blank space there.

"Let's fight." He Chu stood up and opened his arms towards Li Qi.

"Whichever you want to hit, hit hard."

Li Qi sniffed, stood up and punched He Chu unceremoniously.

He watched He Chu staggered a step while clutching his ribs, raised his head and smiled at him:

"Thank you. Are you coming?"

Li Qi had a sore nose and suddenly felt uncomfortable.

Why did you break up?He wanted to ask, two people who are obviously so close.

But he didn't know who to ask, and no one would answer him.

Zhou Yu's back was so bleak when he left, but he still wanted to show an indifferent face.

He Chu is obviously feeling so uncomfortable now, but he wants to say "don't like it" to himself to relieve the pain in his heart.

"do not fight."

As he spoke, he threw the cigarette on the ground, and stepped forward to embrace He Chu.

He Chu's thin chin was pressed against his shoulder, so much that he almost had the urge to cry.

It's obviously a relationship that has nothing to do with me, but when I look at it, I just feel - what a pity...

He said in a low voice: "He Chu, you are really not a fucking thing. You don't want Zhou Yu..."

He Chu responded, and something slipped down his eye sockets uncontrollably.

It was hot, with the coolness of the autumn wind, dripping on Li Qi's shoulders.

He suddenly cried.