Cold violence

The heater in the room was turned on, but Zhou Yu still felt a bit of coolness.

It comes from the depths of the bone marrow, and as long as you think about it, you will feel the cold unconsciously.

Zhou Yu got out of bed and made a cup of coffee, not going to sleep tonight.

Because He Chu's phone call half an hour ago hooked up all the seemingly forgotten things.

Thinking about it, it was all ten years ago, but he recalled it again, rare, this time he just wanted to start.

An old friend whom I haven't contacted for seven years, who has no news at all, seems to have never met, why are you suddenly calling now?It's just to make him lose sleep.

The two of them never got together again in the second year of high school, and it was He Chu who abandoned him.Abandoned the place that made him think it was already home.

He took a sip of coffee, the bitterness entered his mouth along with the scalding hot water, it was pure black coffee without sugar and milk, Zhou Yu also increased its concentration, it was two cups of water, one cup of water, now the bitterness in this sip A bitter taste lingered on the tip of his tongue.It seemed that his heart would not be so bitter.

But what is he bitter about?

Bitter, his sincerity was thrown away at will?Bitterness, his humility back then was ignored?Or bitter about all the stupid things I've done?Those are things that shouldn't be bitter.

Because he himself shouldn't pretend to be affectionate and think that everything will be fine, there will always be someone who will treat him sincerely.

From the beginning to the end, it was actually just his own imagination, and I can't blame others for not taking it seriously.

After he inherited his father's company, he dominated the shopping malls. There were so many men and women by his side, and his suitors were like fish in a river. He rejected one after another, and gradually became the "Diamond King" in that area. Many people Say he's frigid or that he doesn't like people, or that he's just an emotionless monster.

Monsters, monsters again.Hasn't he been a monster since he was a child?

Maybe some of the suitors around him really like him, but most of them are for fame and fortune.

He used to think that person was sincere, but that person still lost to that group.

It's not that he has no feelings, it's just that he feels that those feelings in the past have been exhausted on one person, and he doesn't have more energy to treat a person like before, and those people are not him after all.

After all, he was still timid, afraid of being let down again.

"Zhou Yu..." Zhou Yu sighed softly, the voice was distant and hoarse, as if it came from the desert, with traces of wind and sand and time.

He is still very young, but it seems that he has experienced too much. Time has already made him look younger, not only his appearance, but also those human feelings have disappeared from him.

Some human feelings and sophistication eventually disappeared with the passage of time.

He wrapped the quilt into a ball and pressed it on his stomach. He basically didn't eat at the dinner party at night, but drank a few glasses of champagne during the toast. At this time, his stomach was empty, and a few sips of coffee made his stomach tighten. It hurt like a needle prick.

His stomach has not been very good since he gave up on himself at that time, and his irregular eating habits have turned into chronic gastritis. He puts his whole body into work, often has no time to eat, and often eats at night Waking up with a stomachache.

"It's really stupid." He retracted himself under the quilt and muttered to himself.

Really stupid, so stupid that he drank coffee to refresh himself when he knew he was sick, so stupid that he broke his stomach.

As soon as that person appeared, I hadn't been smart a few times.

It turns out that I will never forget those things for the rest of my life.Even though I have made up my mind to let go, even though I haven't thought about He Chu for so many years, that person only needs a phone call and a few words to make them do what they said and did at that time. floating in front of his eyes.

Blame He Chu for his untimely phone call?The culprit should be myself. My memory is so good that I haven't forgotten it after so many years.

Zhou Yu's phone screen suddenly lit up.

His phone was always switched on 24 hours a day, in case the company couldn't reach him in case of an emergency, so the phone call from He Chu on the spur of the moment was answered this evening.

Zhou Yu received a text message from the number he called just now, Zhou Yu still remembered - it was He Chu.

Zhou Yu remembered that when he was in school, He Chu would send him text messages every night before going to bed. The content of the text messages could be long or short, interesting or boring, and at the end of each message, he would add a sentence of "good night, see you tomorrow".

At that time, his mobile phone was still an old model with straight buttons, and the text messages on his mobile phone were very limited, so at that time, his mobile phone only had the things sent to him by He Chu, not even the ones from Yu Jingzhou.

At that time, Naive wanted to keep all the memories between the two of them, and in the end, they all stabbed him with a knife.

"Zhou Yu, let's meet up." He Chu's text message said this, as if he knew that Zhou Yu would not sleep at this time.

This is He Chu's habit. He never sent text messages when Zhou Yu was sleeping, because Zhou Yu's sleep was very shallow in the past, and he would be woken up by any sound, and then it was difficult to fall asleep. Zhou Yu sent a message, and then received Zhou Yu's words with satisfaction.

Now Zhou Yu's mobile phone has been replaced with the latest model on the market, and the system is also the most high-end, text messages can be displayed on one interface.He looked at the lonely text message displayed on the blank screen, and suddenly thought: Why have all the previous messages disappeared?

Then he suddenly realized, oh, that happened many years ago, and that mobile phone can't be turned on now.

He typed slowly, staring at the screen expressionlessly, the glowing screen illuminated his white face, even with a hint of morbidity.

He replied: "No, He Chu." Every word is correct, just like when he was in school, even the address must be the same as the other party's expression.

At that time, He Chu still laughed at his seriousness, even making a joke seemed to be giving an academic report.

He Chu called again soon, and this time Zhou Yu answered without hesitation.He Chu's voice came out through the microphone, the current sound made his voice a little unnatural, it was not the same as before, Zhou Yu didn't know if it was because of the current or time.

He Chu's voice sounded a little tired, his voice was low and his tone was slow:

"Why don't you go to bed?" The tone of these words was as if he had talked to Zhou Yu a few hours ago, and after saying goodnight to each other, he found out that the other party was still active on the Internet, and called to inquire about the other party. The blame, but also a bit of pampering helplessness.

Just like they were many years ago.

At that time, He Chu also liked to call him. Sometimes it was on the way home from school, and sometimes it was some of his boring things. Even at that time, they had already lived together. Sometimes He Chu would call him on a whim. Tired of talking on the phone with Zhou Yu in the same room.

Later, no matter how many times Zhou Yu called He Chu, He Chu never picked up another one, and later...he changed the number, and Zhou Yu couldn't reach the number that Zhou Yu gave up in the end.

"En." Zhou Yu replied lightly on the other side.

He slightly adjusted his sitting posture to make his stomach more comfortable, and prepared to drink something hot, but found that only the coffee was hot on the bedside.He frowned, moved the phone away a little, drank the cup of coffee in one gulp, and then retracted himself deeper into the quilt.

"Let's meet up." He Chu still made the same request, this was the third time.

In the past, He Chu's persistence in one matter would never exceed the level of asking him to say it three times, because Zhou Yu always agreed no matter what he said.This is the second time he has repeated one thing so many times, the last time was...the time they broke up.

"No." Zhou Yu also replied the same way.

"Is it so difficult for me to meet you? Are you busy?" He Chu's tone was aggressive, reminiscent of his incomparable pride and arrogance in high school.

In the past, He Chu was really arrogant. He said what he said in the class, liked him in front of the teacher, and loved him in front of his classmates, yet he got along with everyone. He always spoke in such a frivolous tone. convinced.

At this time, his words gave Zhou Yu a false impression, as if he had returned to the time when He Chu said, "You are welcome to call Brother He as long as you are welcome".

"Hmm. Very busy." Zhou Yu's words have become less and less these years, and he is determined not to use a single word for problems that can be solved with one word.He seldom communicates with other people except for work matters, and several assistants are also used to his way of speaking, and they have already practiced to know what Zhou Yu wants to do with a single look, comparable to He Chu back then.

Even so, he added a "work matter" as a courtesy, explaining that he simply declined because he didn't have time, not because he didn't want to.

"I can come to your company and wait for you, if it's not that you don't want to meet me on purpose." He Chu's voice was a little lower, and his voice seemed to be a little hoarse. Zhou Yu heard He Chu taking a sip of water from the opposite side through the receiver. Then he continued: "I haven't seen you for so many years, so you have nothing to say to me?"

to you?What do you say?How have you been all these years?May I ask if you came to me suddenly now, is it still just a whim like it was back then?Ask if there are other people around you, do you like him very much, just like you said back then that you like me so much?Or ask you, why did you abandon me?

"No." Zhou Yu paused and said, "We have nothing to say."

It's not "I and you", but "between us", there is nothing to say, it was you who told me that in person back then.

"What if I have something to tell you?"

"That's needless to say." Zhou Yu closed his eyes, uncontrollably replaying the events of his sophomore year in his mind, that shameful, embarrassing, and humble past that made him feel ashamed.

"Is that why you don't want to hear it? Or do you don't want to hear me at all?" He Chu became a little aggressive when he heard Zhou Yu's "ruthless" words.

"Yes. I don't want to." Zhou Yu's heart was already in turmoil. He wanted to hang up the phone early, and he would think of more things when he heard He Chu's voice. He was afraid that he would collapse on the spot, but his tone was still calm, It seemed that no matter what He Chu said, it didn't matter to him.

"So ruthless? Is it necessary? Anyway, it's better for the two of us. You are like a shopkeeper who throws his hands away and turns his face away."

Anyway, it's better for the two of us... He Chu's words were bland and rascally, and they pierced Zhou Yu's heart straight. Zhou Yu gritted his teeth and said, "Don't you think the tone of your words is rascal?"

He Chu smiled on the opposite side, Zhou Yu's reaction was not what he expected, he said slowly: "I have always been a rascal... Didn't you know this early on? I just want to see you, can't I?"

see me?In what capacity do you see me?old classmate?Or ex-boyfriend?Or was it based on your self-proclaimed noble status in the class?How do you see me?Is it low-key, or is it arrogant to come to see you?

Zhou Yu heard himself sneer, the string in his heart was so tight that if He Chu fiddled with it again, it would break immediately, so he mocked: "Why do you come to see me? It's because of the two of us How about it? Do you know how many people want to see me every day? What is your identity, I want to spare time for you?"

As if he couldn't hear the sarcasm in his words, He Chu felt that he had found a breakthrough in Zhou Yu's words, and he hurriedly said: "That's not what I meant, I was... I was too weak, I just wanted to tell You... I didn't want to abandon you alone back then."

"Weakness", "abandonment".

These two words of He Chu were really like the last chord in Zhou Yu's heart. Zhou Yu seemed to be able to hear the vibrating echo in his heart, his thoughts began to expand infinitely, and his words became uncontrollable.

"Yes. You have abandoned me. This word is quite accurate. Since I am something you have abandoned, why did you come to me today? Or did you see me at the dinner party and suddenly felt moved Now, you think I look better than before, and you want to come and play with me, and then abandon me when you get tired of playing? Huh?"

Zhou Yu was so indiscriminate in his words, usually reticent, he said these words in one go without even stalking them.Before He Chu could react, he heard himself continue to say:

"Or are you too lonely? Thinking of my ex-boyfriend, I still feel so pitiful. As long as you put a little effort into it, I can follow you wholeheartedly. I can't drive you away like a dog? I can still pester you Let you feel the superiority of being taken care of by others, are you so confident? Or am I really so cheap?"

At this moment, Zhou Yu felt as if his soul was out of his body, and he heard his own words poured into his ears clearly, but this was not his original intention, he couldn't control his thoughts, and what he said made him uncomfortable It was as if someone had stabbed him in the heart, and he wanted to roll on the ground in pain, curling himself up in a cocoon, isolating all words.

Finally he heard himself say, "I know I pity myself and nobody wants or really likes me, but I'm really not that disgusting."

He Chu opened his mouth, but was speechless on the other side.A lot of what Zhou Yu said was what he said back then. He thought that Zhou Yu had forgotten him long ago after so many years, and he was the only one who still remembered, but not only did Zhou Yu not forget, he remembered even more clearly than himself. .He was really speechless, he was afraid that the first time he opened his mouth would be the kind of explanation that would be ridiculous to outsiders.

There was nothing to explain, he hurt Zhou Yu at that time, it turned out that it was true that he couldn't get better until today.

He wanted to say "no", not what Zhou Yu said.

Want to say "I don't have it", but nothing?He remembers the things he did better than anyone else.

I also want to say "It's not what you think", some people treat you sincerely, and some people really like you, but what position does he have to say these words?

What has been said cannot be regarded as unsaid, they know it well, and no one can.

"Sorry." Zhou Yu hammered his head hard, and pinched the center of his brows fiercely. His stomach hurt, and he had to use a lot of strength when he spoke, but the hole in his heart was still there. It cannot be ignored, blood is slowly oozing out, although he is now awake.

"I lost my temper." He didn't explain, nor did he take back what he said just now.

"I understand..." He Chu whispered on the opposite side, he was not qualified to refute.But he knew that Zhou Yu's state must be wrong, and he must have stimulated him again, just like what he saw so many times before.

In the past, when I was young and frivolous, I was always self-centered. Zhou Yu was suspicious and sensitive. He Chu's casual words could make Zhou Yu feel uncomfortable for a long time, but he didn't care at that time. It wasn't until so many years later that he realized that he stupidity.

He Chu thought vaguely: At that time, he still had me by his side... What about now?Does he have to slow down on his own?

"I still say the same thing, don't meet again. You hang up the phone." Zhou Yu buried his head in his knees, threw those things out of his mind, and tried his best to think of some interesting things.

After so many years, he still doesn't have the habit of hanging up the phone. He usually talks to his assistant in a hurry and doesn't care about who hung up the phone, but only when he talks to someone seriously, he will be stubborn and let people hang up first.

A habit developed since childhood, the person who is hung up on the phone will always feel a little empty, and he is still reluctant to make this person sad.

"No, hang up. I'm not used to it."

"Okay." Zhou Yu didn't refuse this time either, he quickly hung up the phone, and then heaved a sigh of relief.He thought of something just now, a very interesting thing.

The relationship between him and He Chu... is actually really beautiful.It was so beautiful that as long as he thought of that period of time, he couldn't help but forget all his troubles, and couldn't help but wish he could go back to that time.