[HP] Astringent

After drinking most of the bottle, Vanessa's eyes no longer had the clarity of the past.She tossed the lemon slice into the glass and watched it sink and bounce against the ice.

She had been to Spinner's End once, which Snape probably didn't even remember.

When Vanessa decided to leave the UK, she hesitated to say goodbye to Snape.She knew that after this farewell, she feared that she would never see her again.She is still somewhat reluctant and unwilling.She couldn't sit still until she saw the report in the Daily Prophet that Snape was released on bail by Dumbledore and hired as Hogwarts' new Potions professor.

It might be dishonorable to say it, but she overheard Potter and Black talking about Lily's address, so she stepped on it quietly during the holidays.She had no idea at that time, she was simply curious about Snape's life in the Muggle world, and wanted to know everything about him.She didn't expect that she could find Spider's End so smoothly with the memory of two years ago, and she didn't expect that she saw Snape at the entrance of the alley.

Snape must have never thought that any wizard knew his address, so he just cast the Muggle Ignore Charm on himself.He held the wine bottle in one hand, and his steps were vain.The outer robe was extraordinarily loose, the shoulders were sunken, and the corners of the robe were covered with mud.

Normally, Vanessa's reckless stalking would have been seen through by him long ago, and at that time, he probably didn't care if anyone saw him, and walked home through the muddy puddle all the way.

Vanessa stopped outside the fence wall, pushed aside the mottled wooden fence and the dead creeper, and saw a figure flash through the broken glass window.He rummaged through boxes and cabinets for a while, and there was a series of sounds of broken porcelain.Snape turned his greasy head suddenly and glanced out the window.

Her heart was about to rush out of her throat, and she squatted down first, afraid to breathe nervously, and there was no movement in the room.She squatted there for a long time, unwilling to leave.

After an unknown amount of time, she was startled by a loud noise coming from the room.A few heads poked out from the dilapidated windows of the surrounding buildings, pointed their fingers a few times, and then shrank back.

Vanessa was worried about what happened to Snape, she couldn't care about anything else, she knocked on the door, but no one answered.Vanessa took out her wand from her bag, and a door-opening spell forced the door open.

The room was dark and cold, just like a cellar that never sees sunlight all the year round, only a few rays of light could barely shine through the leaky glass window on the kitchen side.The room was in a mess, with cobwebs in the corners, broken wooden shoe cabinets and glass shards from the ceiling lamp lying on the ground.She carefully avoided everything and walked into the living room, and immediately smelled the strong smell of alcohol.Snape sat decadently among the shards of glass, the lame coffee table was torn in two, and was thrown to the fireplace, and a large piece of sponge was found from the dark cover of the sofa.

Vanessa knew why Snape drank, and the Potters' obituary had been published half a month ago.She thought that she would resent Snape for only having Lily in his heart, or that she would cry like a mess, but the moment she saw him in such a distraught state, all that was left in her heart was distress.

She got closer and saw that the sleeve of his left arm was rolled up, a long scratch was engraved on the ugly black tattoo of the Dark Mark, the blood flowed down the arm and splashed all over the floor, while his The right hand is holding the murder weapon - a sharp piece of glass.

She speculated for a while before calling Snape's name.But he turned a deaf ear and just sat there.

She took a few steps closer, squatted in front of him, and said softly, "Severus, let's get up first."

Snape's dark eyes suddenly came alive, and he looked deeply, deeply at Vanessa, dropped the glass, and held the face that was close at hand with trembling hands.She gasped for breath and tried to back away, but Snape clenched his hands and pulled her closer.

Donated blood stained her cheeks, and the wet touch made her uncomfortable.She whispered, "Sev..."

Before he could finish speaking, he was brought into his arms.Even in such a hasty situation, she was well protected. She didn't touch the broken glass on the ground, but was hurt by the opponent's bony shoulder.

Vanessa dared not move.

"Don't go." The hoarse voice seemed to be separated by a thick layer of ice.

Vanessa wrapped her arms around his waist, trying to comfort him. "I'm not going, I'm here. Let me help you up, okay?"

Snape nodded ignorantly, letting Vanessa pull him up.Snape was really drunk, unable to stand still, he could only put all his strength on Vanessa.She struggled to help him lie on the bed, and Snape just kept staring at her.

Vanessa was about to get up and go find him a quilt in the closet.As soon as Snape tried, she fell back on the edge of the bed and slammed into his arms again.Only this time Snape was lying on the bed, lying on top of him.She propped her upper body up, her gorgeous hair falling down the side of Snape's face.Those obsidian eyes were full of helplessness and despair.

"I...don't go...I..."

Vanessa could feel the warm, alcohol-smelling breath on her face, her throat constricted, her cheeks flushed.The slightly parted thin lips tempted her, her heart froze, and the kiss fell on her.

It's not that she hasn't kissed before, but none of them have made her so nervous and overwhelmed like this moment.She trembled slightly, that kiss was like a butterfly on a flower branch swaying in the wind.Snape's long, strong fingers attached to the back of her head, pressing her lower, deepening the kiss.

Raising her head again, Vanessa felt a little uncomfortable because of the smell of alcohol, she lay on his chest, fingers crampedly grasping his front, panting as his chest rose and fell.Snape seemed to be a little more awake, his eyes became clearer like lake water that had re-settled.He looked at her, and said slowly and uncertainly, "Lily..."

Vanessa almost jumped up with a shock, and retreated to the door before Snape grabbed her.Snape struggled to sit up.She hadn't reacted so quickly before, a red light shot from the end of his wand, and Snape fell off guard to sleep.

She panicked all of a sudden, she just knew she didn't want Snape to remember all this.But the forgetting spell was too dangerous, and she didn't dare to try it lightly.She hated herself for being useless, never taking these magics seriously, but she couldn't do anything when things came to an end.She racked her brains to think of the Confusion Charm, hoping it would work and make Snape think he was just dreaming.

This cramped situation forced out some of Vanessa's few IQs, and she used a cleaning spell to erase all traces of her past, and exited the dilapidated house.

Turning around the end of the spider's end alley, Vanessa couldn't hold it anymore, squatted on the side of the road and cried, her mouth was full of choking taste, mixed with salty tears, it was a memory she hadn't forgotten for many years .

Vanessa smashed her mouth, savoring the sweetness of agave juice.

Ah, it turned out to be this flavor, it turned out to be agave.

"Vanessa, you've had too much to drink."

Snape's cold voice sounded in Vanessa's ear, she only felt that the voice was far and near, and she blinked and blinked, trying to pretend to be awake.

"I...I didn't." She snorted twice dissatisfied, and argued softly, "I only drank less than one bottle."

"But you were drinking a mix of two," said Snape. "I don't want to keep another drunk."

"It's okay, I won't stay too late, I have to get up early to catch the train tomorrow."

Vanessa is now in a state of sobriety but is extremely excited, her voice has become sticky, and there are long sounds between each word.Snape drank a little more than she did, and his hearing was not as sharp as usual, so he didn't hear anything strange about her.

Vanessa opened the last bottle of tequila first, and said, "This is the last bottle. I'll go back after drinking it." She waved her magic wand, and the wine box was automatically packed and flew to the top of the cabinet.

She sat on the carpet in one posture for a long time, and her legs felt a little numb at this moment. She stood up and moved around, her eyes were dizzy, and it went dark for a moment.Reason told her that if she continued to drink, she would not be so sober again, but she was reluctant to end it.

She leaned on the back of the sofa and walked to the desk.The table was full of potion test papers divided into colleges and ages. Vanessa picked one up and read it aloud: ""Compound Potion's Preparation Steps and Material Analysis", Fred Weasley , A... I thought you would fail them."

"It's a pity that the principal won't allow me to fail his precious students so that they can remember."

Even after drinking too much, Snape was still venomous.

She flipped through the test papers, and after looking at one, she threw it away. After a while, the table became a mess.

"Don't move around, Vanessa." Snape came over dissatisfied and grabbed her wrist, "I just tidied up today."

"Anyway, you have already passed the grades, so what are you afraid of?"

She was trembling confidently, and her other hand was still fiddling dishonestly. Snape was about to teach her a lesson, and she pulled out a newspaper from under a stack of papers at the corner.

It was the "Daily Prophet" two days ago. Vanessa held up the newspaper and took a closer look. The photo in the center fully demonstrated the process before Peter Pedilou was kissed by a dementor.Just seeing the hooded monster floating in mid-air made Vanessa feel uncomfortable and chills down her spine, and she threw the newspaper out.

"Did you go to see the execution?"

"Ah."

Snape picked up the newspaper and shoved it roughly into the drawer.

"Then, are you happy?"

Vanessa turned her head, Snape didn't look up, his eyes stayed in the void.

"it serves him right."

Snape's face twisted strangely, hatred and joy were intertwined.

"Then, you plan to take revenge until you kill the mysterious... Voldemort?"

His face was blank for a moment, he nodded, and then shook slowly again.Normally, he wouldn't reveal half of his thoughts at all, but now he said it easily: "Kill him? No, anyone who does something wrong will have to pay the price."

Vanessa grabbed his wrist uneasily, mysteriously unbuttoned the cuffs, and rolled up the sleeves. An ugly black skull tattoo was branded on the pale skin.Snape tried to withdraw his hand, but Vanessa grabbed it again.She examines the tattoo, her fingers running over the snake that wraps around the skull.

The darkest past was revealed in this way, Snape felt ashamed and unbearable, but also had a kind of masochistic pleasure.

He described it coldly word by word: "This is how the Dark Lord summons Death Eaters. You just need to point your wand at the tattoo and cast a spell. Everything is so easy, and everyone will be summoned and summoned back to him." .”

This is his past and there is nothing to hide.It's not that he didn't realize how special Vanessa's attitude towards him was, it's just that he didn't understand and didn't want it.He's just a Death Eater, surviving to pay off his debts.

Vanessa's finger slid from the skeleton's right eye socket to the jaw, which is where the scar was probably located, leaving no scar.

"Does it hurt?"

"What did you say?"

"Severus, does it hurt?"

Her voice was cool and sure, like a trickling spring hitting a rocky bank.

It took a long time before Snape recovered his voice: "I deserve what I did." He withdrew his hand, fastened his cuffs, and covered the Dark Mark.

He didn't say anything, but Vanessa felt the lingering death.

"No, Severus, I..." The powerlessness was like a ball of cotton, stuffing her chest tight.

You, me, we will defeat Voldemort in the end.Once you've done all this, you'll be able to atone for your sins.When the time comes, please live on, okay... For a while, Vanessa didn't bother with those ambiguous words, grabbed him by the front of his front, and dragged him to her eyes.

"I don't want you to be like this."

She stared at him, not knowing what else to say, and kissed him impulsively.

With just one touch, Snape pushed her away, his eyes blazing with disbelief.

Tell him, tell him!A voice in her head kept urging Vanessa.The courage of being late for many years surged into her heart, and she couldn't wait to say: "I have been to your house! That day, I followed you..."

Her eyes were so firm and beautiful that it burned him.Snape covered her eyes.Her eyelashes fluttered slightly and swept over his palm, as if a weak current caused a numbness.

A dormant memory was awakened, and Snape recalled the kiss of the evening, the kiss he had thought was a dream.He only needed one clue, and he figured everything out.

Vanessa's mouth was still saying, "Do you know that it was me that day?"

"I know." He replied calmly.

His eyelashes trembled slightly, and tears trickled down his fingers.

"then you……"

Snape interrupted without thinking: "Go back, Vanessa."

Vanessa shook off his hand angrily, staring unwillingly at the person in front of her with tearful eyes.

"I……"

Worse than rejection is indifference.She wondered if the relationship she had had for so many years was a fantasy of self-impression and wishful thinking.She could feel Snape's little pampering to her all this time, could it all be fake?

Vanessa tried her best to hook the corners of her mouth, but it seemed like a muscle twitched involuntarily.Snape's eyes were like ice pools, extinguishing the last of her courage.

Without saying a word, Vanessa slammed the door decisively.

Maybe she should have been given the Forgetting Charm.

Snape thought so, leaning dejectedly on the bookshelf.

He had never experienced or imagined that someone would hold a heart in front of him so defenselessly, let alone Vanessa.Their acquaintance just originated from a ridiculous bet. This shallow fate should have ended abruptly when the bet was exposed, but it has continued to the present instead.

When he got drunk that time, he thought everything was just a dream. He didn't understand how the person he dreamed about, the warm person, was her.

Snape loved potions, and he loved grinding materials and formulating prescriptions. It was the first time he came into contact with things that would definitely have results as long as he put his heart into it.He loves this kind of fairness paranoidly, and what he pays is equal to what he gains.At the same time, he also accepts that it is futile, potions are a rigorous discipline, and if you are not careful, you may get nothing.But he couldn't get rid of this feeling that appeared out of thin air and had no reason from the beginning to the end.

Snape also knew that he couldn't penetrate it either.

The Hogwarts Express train was still bustling with activity. Lupine bought new clothes with his prize money, and sat side by side with Black, as if he had returned to the past.

Vanessa once again monopolized the private room.She opened the window, and the howling wind blinded her eyes.But the eyes could not be opened at first, because they were so red and swollen.

Life is like this, destined to be alone.

The author has something to say:

There is a saying in "Les Miserables": "The first sign of true love is timidity in boys, but boldness in girls."

A song "The Truth Is False" was given to Vanessa.

This is the last paragraph about the past~ It’s bloody, so happy~ [You hit me so cute]

I wanted to abuse everyone, but I didn't, am I very good~

This article is over here, Sahua~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~??ヽ(°▽°)ノ?

I won't lie to you, hehe

The window paper is finally pierced~ Hehehe (*/ω＼*)

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I thought of the sweet articles I liked before. I wrote the article on potion because of those articles. Thinking heavily...

It was the same when I wrote this article. There is obviously a way to sweeten them up. Many abuse points (Vanessa’s fiancé, Vanessa thought the professor mistook her for Lily) could have been more abuse, and I can ignore them. But they still can't be sweetened.

Who doesn't want the person he loves to be straightforward and honest, like a child?

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Show me the way, so if you want to see candy, you can temporarily save the article, wait a moment, the two of them are officially together in Chapter 61, and it will be sweet for a long time after that, the kind of sweetness that sprinkles sugar every day!

At that time, if you look at it in one breath, you shouldn't feel too cruel =w=