shadow lover

Kneeling down, I grabbed her hand and hugged her tightly. I said, "I'll sit in the store every afternoon and wait for you to come back. Every night when I go home, I can't help but feel sad, and every morning I feel even more lonely. I can't stay at home, so I went on a business trip hoping to change my environment to ease my emotions, but in this strange city, I feel even more lonely and uncomfortable. I miss you and miss you uncontrollably. Anyang, let's go home, we won't be apart Okay, let’s walk together for the rest of our lives, okay, Anyang, you still care about whether I have me in my heart, you still don’t care if I ignore me, Anyang, my Anyang is the best for me , I know that my Anyang still loves me, right?"

"Anyang, Anyang, come here, come here, hello... this is..."

Before the words fell to the ground, Anyang fell on his back and passed out. He quickly got off the ground and put on his shirt and trousers to get the service personnel to call the ambulance. While waiting, I knelt on the ground and called her over and over again. Her lips were purple and her face was pale. Soon the ambulance personnel arrived and sent us to a nearby hospital for emergency treatment.

"The patient is in acute shock, and the cardiopulmonary resuscitation is fast..." In the emergency room, I saw the legs of the medical staff surrounded by Hula were weak and unsteady. After the first aid, the doctor said that a comprehensive physical examination was needed. Wait outside.

"Family of Anyang"

"I'm"

"According to the preliminary examination results, she should have undergone gastrectomy, and suffered from neurogenic varicose veins and long-term..." Listening to the doctor's explanation of Anyang's physical condition, my brain stopped functioning for a while.

Stomach cancer surgery, nervous varicose, the possibility of cancer recurrence is not ruled out, and I went back to the Anyang hospital bed with the receipt and inspection report in a daze, watching the bloodless face with tears falling, it turns out that you love me so hard , It turns out that the one you love and I love has died half of his life.

"Mom, I want to go home. Mom, I'm afraid. Mom, Anyang, what should I do?" As for her, who to rely on, but I let her down time and time again.

Anyang woke up when I covered my face and cried, she turned her face to look at me, then clenched her fist tightly, she did not speak and tried to take a deep breath and then took a deep breath, I went to the bathroom at night and came back through the glass at the door, I saw Anyang Holding the water bottle I drank in a daze, she unscrewed the cap after a long time and pressed her lips against the mouth of the bottle.She kissed me a few times without drinking water. Is her hand shaking? Are there tears in her eyes? I'm not sure but I know she doesn't love me.

The next day we were discharged from the hospital and returned to the hotel. She turned and walked away after seeing me take the medicine. This time, I didn’t stop or say anything about keeping me and expressing my opinion. I just stood quietly behind her and watched her back silently. with tears.

After finishing work here and getting on the return plane, she closed her eyes to see her deep and depressed eyes, carried her suitcase back home, and hugged the pillow beside her in her arms while sleeping.

"Sister Fu, you didn't come here to invite me for coffee, did you?" I asked Xiao Zhang to come out, and she saw that I had a serious face and a bad tone, so she took a deep breath and said, "Don't ask Anyang for you. Aftermath, you have been following her for so many years, can't you take responsibility for yourself?"

"Sister Fu, you have enough control. I, Sister An, didn't even mention me. Your hand is too long."

"Can't you let her save some time, and you always bring the little girls around you to make fun of it."

"Sister Fu, why do you care about me?"

"I just hope you can save your master. I can understand the feelings she has had for you for so many years, but... your master is not in good health, and she needs to worry about all the big and small things. I am afraid of her. The body can't take it, Xiao Zhang, if my attitude is not good, I apologize to you, if one day Anyang is tired and collapsed, don't you feel distressed?"

"Sister An, what's the matter?"

"Can you help me take care of her? You are the only one who can get closer to her now."

"What's wrong with Sister An, you're talking."

"It's all my fault, it's my fault."

"Hmph, I knew it was all because of you. Master had a home and couldn't go back because of you. She was homeless but because of you. She has been enduring you and letting you. She was so good to you before. If you don't want her, you deserve it. "

"Yes, I deserve it. It's all my fault. You take good care of her by her side."

"You don't need to tell me, I will take good care of Miss An, goodbye."

Xiao Zhang shook his hand angrily and left. I then sat in the store for a while and then drove to Anyang Company. Follow, she stopped and I stepped on the brakes.

"Doctor, does this medicine have any side effects?"

"Long-term use will lead to neurasthenia... Try to keep your mood stable. If the fluctuation is too large, it will cause varicose. If the spasm is severe, you may also go into shock."

"Doctor, from this film, is there any possibility of cancer recurrence?"

"For now, it's pretty good...you need to supplement your diet...don't eat..."

"Doctor, when Anyang comes back next time, you will prescribe imported medicine for her. I will prepay part of the money for you, please."

When love has no purpose, less routines and more sincerity, when feelings have no use, less hypocrisy and more sincerity, when you love me and I love you too, even ordinary love has eternity retained value.On Sunday, I made an appointment with someone from the decoration company to come to the new house. After the communication, I went to pay part of the decoration fee.

Anyang, the decoration company has started construction today, and our home will look brand new in a short time.

Anyang, the doctor said that the effect of this medicine is much better than the one you used before, and the side effects are also small.

Anyang, does Xiao Zhang make you feel at ease recently? Does he still want to hug you like a baby? In fact, I think so too.

Anyang, I heard that your company has cooperated with XX, congratulations, if XX dares to bully you, I will strangle her to death.

Anyang, I made a sugar-free milkshake today. It tastes good. I wonder if you will like it.

Anyang, why did you get off work so late? The weather is repeated at this time, so keep warm, even if you don't feel cold.

Anyang, I went to your adoptive mother's cemetery, and I saw the tablet next to her tombstone. I think you don't want to mention those days.

Anyang, it's snowing again, it's snowing in April, it's hard to hide grievances.

Anyang, I miss you, and I think I can't sleep anymore, so I think I should get up and look at the moon, but tonight the dark clouds cover the light from the moon.

The book says: People who truly love will understand that the place closest to them is actually very far away.Maybe it's because it's not suitable, so I miss it; maybe it's because it's too beautiful, so it's too short; maybe it's because it's too cherished, so it's too fragile.Only by saying goodbye to the wrong can we meet the right, no matter in fairy tales or in love.

Time flies, until now I don't understand that you are my destiny, our meeting will let the seeds be planted deeply, and love will grow and germinate.

Ashin, Ding Dang

I'm sorry, did I hear wrong just now?

I'm still thinking too much and I'm dizzy

The weather is fine, open the window to blow away the blush

Afraid of breaking if you take a step forward or take a step back

I don't want to be friends forever

Give you a clue and give me an excuse to be brave

make up your mind to be silent

Let silence be the case for us

The silent whisper between you and me at this moment is suddenly deafening

One word and one sentence went out in an instant

Bewitched in a blink of an eye every day

Forget when I was, why can you let me

step by step obsession and me

I've been guessing, I've been thinking, I've been trying to figure it out

until you become sweet heartache

if can turn if into result

Make up your mind and let persistence break through for us

me and your novel

There are fireworks

make the plot full of emotion

One word and one sentence went out in an instant

Bewitched in a blink of an eye every day

Forget when I forgot why you let me

Go crazy step by step

One word and one sentence went out in an instant

Bewitched in a blink of an eye every day

If you feel the same way and feel a sudden urge

Presumptuous once insanity and me

The author has something to say: It has been changed three or four times, this writing is indeed a bit laborious, please bear with me.