two or three days of birthday

It was my birthday a few days ago, and he bought a ticket quietly without saying hello in advance, which gave me a big surprise.After his birthday, he left again, and we... still continue to miss each other.Thinking about our actual situation, I always feel that he is like the afterglow of the setting sun at dusk, beautiful, warm, soft, and bright, but it disappears after a while, and I can't hold it if I want to, and I can't hold it if I want to. Can't keep it either.

When he came, I was in high spirits, but when he left, I was devastated.

Suddenly I thought of a poem: Walk again and again, and part with the king.

On the afternoon before my birthday, I was about to leave work in 3 minutes. Suddenly, a WeChat message popped up on the screen of my mobile phone. I opened it and saw that it was sent by him. There was no word or punctuation, only a map containing his location.I heard from him a few days ago that he was going on a business trip.

I didn't click on the location map, and directly replied to the message: "What? You don't believe me? Do you think I'm not trusting you enough?"

"I guessed right, you have ignored the location information, click to open it." This is the message he sent back, he knows me too well.

I pointed my fingers up, and the map spread out. I saw the marked addresses on the screen, and I was stunned for two seconds. On the high-speed rail.

When I was still surprised and didn't recover, he sent another message, "There are still 15 minutes, I have to get off, come to the high-speed rail station quickly."

He calculated all the times accurately, he knew that I would go home directly after get off work, so he bought a ticket after he was optimistic about it, and got off at the right time. If he was not late, I would not work overtime, and it happened to be the time for me to leave work.

I just arrived at the square of the high-speed rail station. I turned around like a dragonfly's head in the sea of ​​people looking for him. I was holding the phone and wanted to ask where he was standing. Suddenly, I saw him in the crowd in front of me. Just like that, he came out quietly and walked to me with a smile on his face.My figure was reflected in the deep black pupils, and in an instant, it felt like the cloud supported by the Tianchi Lake in Changbai Mountain was completely reflected on the lake.

I didn't care about pulling him into my arms and hugging him, smelling his unique breath fiercely, no matter what others would think of us, and whether others would get used to it or not.Of course, I really don't have the heart to think about other things. At this moment, I only have this person in my heart, and he is everything to me.

Take him to the bus back to the city, because the high-speed rail station is the starting point, even if there are too many people, I can still give him a seat in the back. It was all done naturally, but I still noticed the faint blush on his cheeks and neck.I stood on the edge of his seat and grabbed the back of the seat in front of him with one hand and the back of his seat with the other, and looped him in front of me.

"Didn't you say you were on a business trip? Why are you here?" I bent down and looked at him and asked.

"Your birthday is tomorrow..." He still wanted to say, but he was embarrassed by my gaze, so he broke off.I have fully understood his intention, he wanted to give me a surprise.Someone pinched a certain place in my heart, which was both painful and comfortable.Ask in a voice only he can hear: "Miss me?"

Seeing him nodding, I smiled with satisfaction and said, "I miss you too, every day."

Talking love to the person in front of me with great fanfare will definitely make him feel embarrassed and ashamed, so the faint blush just now has turned red, and I said grandly: "There are too many people and it's so hot, look at you. His face is as red as a peach." While talking, he opened the car window to the maximum in a gentlemanly manner.He stared at me, although he pretended to be fierce, but I couldn't help laughing.Such moments are really beautiful.

I asked him how he found me in the "huge crowd", after all, he had agreed to find an iconic place to stand and wait for me to pick him up.He said: "'Remember when you promised me you wouldn't let me lose you'?"

"Remember, but... that's not what I said, what I said is that I won't hide it from you if there is any change in the future." I tried my best to refute, a little unhappy, because I had already sworn to him this sentence After so many times, he didn't remember it!

He raised his hand, curled his fingers and licked my forehead mercilessly twice. The pain caused me to yell and shrink back quickly. Other passengers around me looked at us. I just rubbed my forehead and didn’t feel anything. , he suddenly became nervous.When I came back to my senses, I realized that just now we actually forgot that we were in the "sea of ​​people", and even performed ambiguous actions that we usually did when there were only the two of us.

I was so overwhelmed by the sudden surprise that I couldn't find Bei, and I only thought about how to tease him. This call was called back to before liberation, and we all restrained ourselves.He moved his muscles and bones to sit properly, and I also stood up and stood solemnly, and we stopped talking to each other.Maybe others don't see the difference between us, but we ourselves are "guilty".

Back in the urban area, I found a hotel to live in. After entering the room, he went to the bathroom to take a shower. I had nothing to do, so I searched all over the room.

It's not that I didn't take him home, it's that he didn't want to, and I also felt that it would be embarrassing if I went back.

After washing, he came out wiping his hair and saw me standing on the table leaning against the wall looking around. He was surprised and asked me what I was doing.I told him that the current hotels are all abnormal, and they like to install invisible cameras to spy on other people's privacy.He hung the towel on the hook on the wall, came over and hugged me off the table, and said: "This wall is so smooth, there is a small hole that can be seen at a glance, and it is installed on this wall." Isn’t it a dead end.” When I stood still, he turned around and continued to wipe my hair with a towel, and asked me if I had checked the TV, bedside, mirror frame and so on.I nodded and said that I had checked everything, but I didn't see anything unusual.He turned around and saw the unwillingness and helplessness on my face. I was a little worried, afraid that others would see some of our things.

He said with a smile: "Not every hotel is so perverted. Maybe we are lucky, and this one is quite normal."

As soon as he smiled, I couldn't do anything, one stepped over and hugged him tightly, gently kissed his hair on the cheek, and when it finally reached the edge of the lips, I kissed him directly.Our time together was short, and I didn't need to waste it on meaningless things, hoping that the room we lived in didn't have a third eye.

He has always been easy-going and casual. He is not picky about food and is easy to feed. He can run all over the world without getting hungry.Unlike me, if you leave the local area, you can only starve.

In the evening, I took him out for dinner. I found a nice-looking restaurant in the night scene by the river, and ordered some ordinary dishes. Knowing that he was not used to drinks, I bought him a bottle of mineral water.When the food was served, the waiter asked us if we wanted beer, but he shook his head and refused, because he knew that I don't drink alcohol, and he can't drink too much, so let's give it up for now.

There must be a reason for this old saying, which can be passed down through the ages. This restaurant looks pretty good. From the appearance to the decoration of the lobby to the interior design of the boxes, it is very suitable for our appetite, but the cooking skills Not bad, it’s not that I belittle this cooking skill, let’s not talk about my notorious picky eater nature, even someone who is easy-going and not picky eaters is really hard to swallow, even if I’m already hungry and dizzy I can't eat much, and I can't eat any more after barely eating half a bowl.

He was suffering from eating, and I saw him suffering from eating, and I felt even more painful. I stretched out my hand to stop him from eating. He didn't take it seriously and continued to pick up the bowl and start eating. He said that not eating would be a waste of money and food.I couldn't see it, so I used my trump card to drag him out, and said to him: "I like to spend money on you, so don't feel bad, it's better if we go out to eat spicy chicken rice noodles or bridge rice noodles."

In fact, I am very unfamiliar with everything in the urban area. I don’t know where there are interesting and delicious food. I usually eat at work and at home. I eat in the canteen on weekdays and at home on rest days. I rarely go out for a walk I never have dinner together, so it is rare for someone to come and I can't find a good restaurant to entertain him.

The weather has been very hot recently, and it rained from time to time, so when we came out after staying in that dilapidated restaurant for more than half an hour, it rained again in the dark sky, but we didn't bring an umbrella, he knew that I was not in good health Well, being in the rain is courting death, so I insisted on going back to the hotel, and I knew he didn't have enough to eat, so if he went back like this, he would spend the whole night hungry.I couldn't bear it, I felt sorry for him, so I stubbornly insisted on eating something else to fill my stomach first before going back to the hotel.

I have always been in a state of indifference to what I eat. The picky eater nature has made me have a small appetite and a large amount of food since I was a child, so even if I don’t eat, I can be full with just milk and bread, but he can’t. Although he is not picky eater, but he He would rather be hungry for bread.

He took him into a restaurant, an ordinary place to eat, and ordered him a bridge rice noodle.He asked me why I only wanted one bowl, and I said I couldn't eat it anymore.He didn't say anything else, just dipped his chopsticks into the chili water and ate the rice noodles. Due to the heat and the heat, layers of sweat broke out on his forehead, and the glasses on the bridge of his nose slid down a lot. I took out a tissue In the past, I took off the glasses for him and was about to wipe his sweat. He glanced at me and then at the store, then took a tissue from me and wiped it himself.It is very difficult for me to get such happiness for a long time without talking and watching him eat quietly all the time.

When I got back to the hotel room, he pushed me into the bathroom and strongly urged me to take a hot shower. Although the rain was not heavy, it was not too heavy. My hair was completely wet, and my T-shirt was also wet. nearly half.Because there were no extra clothes, I put on a pair of boxer briefs and walked out almost naked after washing. I picked up the towel he wiped just now and wiped my hair. Then he returned to his normal demeanor. He put his phone on the bed, then stood up, took the towel in my hand and helped me dry my hair. On his chest, I feel his even and undulating breathing, listen to his heartbeat with frequency, and enjoy everything he gives me.

God knows how much I hope we can go on like this forever, years of separation have made us feel insecure with each other, we are always in a tug-of-war with our own hearts, as time goes on, we can't see the future less and less, I don't know Will he fall in love with other people in a few years, many years later? I am afraid that he will give his heart to others. At that time, I will become his past. He will occasionally mention a sentence or two, without expression or much concern When it comes to me, just thinking about it like this makes me unable to let go completely. I am very selfish, so selfish that I want to fall in love with him and occupy him for life after life.But the actual situation is not optimistic. Every time when I am exhausted and can’t go on, I will become numb and forget my feelings for him. I am very afraid that I will forget him too, and I am afraid that the rest of my life will be so empty, without feelings and waiting.So I try to think about him, think about him, miss his love, and then I regain my life, and my affection for him flows in my blood again, so that I can continue to support myself, even if I can’t give him a title, even if I can only hide it and can't make it public, and I only want him. He is my true love in this life, and he is the one I love deeply and can't bear to let go.

I closed my eyes and buried it on his chest, thinking about all this mess in silence.It wasn't until my face was held in his hands that I slowly came back to my senses. He gently scratched my forehead with his thumb and asked me if it hurt. He said he didn't mean it, it was just a moment. Confiscated stop.Speaking of this, my three souls and seven souls immediately returned to their positions and came back alive.I don't care about his knocking on my forehead. I finally remembered what I had been wanting to ask but forgot for a long time. I asked him very seriously why he was half right and half wrong in what I swore.He retorted that he was not mistaken, he always remembered what I said.

"Then what did you say, I promise you that I won't let you find it? What the hell?" I asked him.

He moved two steps to the left and sat on the edge of the bed next to me, "Remember you promised me that I wouldn't let me lose you." He leaned his head on my shoulder, stretched out his right hand and held my left hand tightly, "This It’s a line of lyrics, I don’t know what song it is, but recently I often hear people playing it on the subway after get off work, so I remember it, although this line is plain, I always feel sad, especially when it is used between the two of us When you are on your body."

I thought about the lyrics a few times carefully, and compared with what I said, it is indeed somewhat consistent, and I also feel that it is as plain as he said, but also reveals a little sadness.What I said to him at the beginning, "I will not hide what happens in the future so that you can't find it."In fact, it is a "vaccination" in advance. In case our affairs wear out one day in the future, and something beyond our control happens, I will not avoid him, and I will not make him worry and make him nervous. I will stand shoulder to shoulder with him Let's fight against all rumors and abuse together.I will not hide from him for other reasons, let him not find me, let him forget me slowly in the flow of time, and then meet another person he likes, or leave him alone to start a new life life.