love of life

Ten minutes later, Lin Zexi calmed down slowly. He stood at the entrance and said to the living room, "Master, if you have nothing to do, I'll go back first."

As soon as Gu Ming looked up and saw his pale face and the square gauze wrapped around his forehead, his mind quickly flashed the image of him sitting on the sofa huddled up this morning.Gu Ming's heart suddenly softened.

"It's getting late, let's stay here tonight." After speaking, Gu Ming got up and took out a white T-shirt and a pair of cotton cropped pants from the closet in the room and threw them to him.

Lin Zexi put the pajamas on the sofa, stood up and prepared to leave: "No, I'd better go back."

Gu Ming stepped in front of him, "Where are you going? Didn't you say yesterday that it's not safe for you to go out at night?"

Lin Zexi shook his hand, "It doesn't matter to me, I'm used to it."

The shabby and dilapidated house and the narrow and dirty streets appeared in Gu Ming's mind. He turned around and walked to the door, and pressed a round button next to it, only to hear the door lock clang, and the room fell into silence again.

"You're staying here tonight. If I don't open the door for you, you won't be able to get out. Hurry up and take a shower." Gu Ming said, picked up the pajamas on the sofa and stuffed them into his arms, urging him to take a shower quickly.

Lin Zexi took a shower with a dazed expression, changed his clothes, and Gu Ming put him in the next room to sleep.

Gu Ming was sitting alone in the living room, looking at the pair of cheap leather shoes at the door, he became irritable again.He always wanted to draw a line with this wimpy man, but unknowingly, the two of them met more and more and got closer.The most incomprehensible thing is that tonight he unexpectedly asked him to stay.

With a sullen face, Gu Ming took out half a pack of cigarettes and a lighter from the drawer under the coffee table, lit a cigarette for himself with a snap, leaned back on the sofa and began to puff.He doesn't smoke much at ordinary times, but when he is very irritable, he is obsessed with the feeling of puffing up clouds, as if all the troubles and negative emotions in his body are emptied with the smoke.After tossing and tossing until two o'clock in the middle of the night, Gu Ming lay on the sofa and fell asleep.

In the morning light, Lin Zexi woke up leisurely, and the bright morning sun outside the window came in through the gauze curtains, illuminating the whole room brightly.The room only has a double bed, a wardrobe, and two bedside tables. The type of furniture is exactly the same as that of his small bedroom, but the style and atmosphere of the whole room are completely different.There is no stain on the white walls, and there is a crystal lamp hanging on the top. During the day, the sun shines through the crystal and reflects colorful halos on the ceiling, which is bright but not kitsch.In addition, all the furniture and furnishings in the room are mainly in black and white tones, which appear calm and atmospheric.I still remember when he was in his senior year of college, he and his parents planned to buy a small house in the city after graduation, move out of the shanty town, and live a life with gas and flushing toilets.In clear memory, this was the first time he woke up in such a clean and tidy room.

Lin Zexi sat up from the bed, carefully lifted a corner of the quilt, trying not to disturb the rest of the bed.After he got out of bed, he spread the quilt neatly, even smoothing out every fold on it, just like treating a fragile treasure.

He gently opened the door, and saw Gu Ming lying on the sofa with nothing covering his body, the wind blowing in from the open window raised the gauze curtains, and the living room was filled with vigorous vitality.He is not yet 20 years old, he is still a child at all, with such handsome eyebrows and eyes, he is exactly the same as that person.This is the first time he has observed him carefully, and the more he looks at him, the more he feels like that vague shadow engraved in his most beautiful memory, the bright red mark on his chest.

He stood by the sofa and watched him quietly for a while, then went to the bathroom and walked into the kitchen after washing.He opened the refrigerator, took out two eggs, a small bowl of flour, vegetable oil and sweet bean sauce, and started to get busy.

The morning sun shone on Gu Ming's face, he slowly opened his eyes, and heard the sizzling sound of cooking food in his ears.He sat up all of a sudden, and saw a pair of cheap leather shoes by the door, and the memories of last night gradually became clearer.He walked to the door of the kitchen and saw that thin figure was busy, holding a stainless steel spatula in his right hand, and shaking the handle of the frying pan in his left hand, a wisp of white steam mixed with the strong smell of fried eggs filled the air. the whole room.

Lin Zexi turned his head and saw Gu Ming leaning against the kitchen door looking at him, "Master, are you awake? I only found flour and eggs in the refrigerator, so I made omelets for breakfast, and it will be ready soon. I'll send You go to school."

Gu Ming glanced at him again, turned around to go to wash up, and then suddenly turned around after taking two steps and said, "Don't call me young master in the future, just call me by my name."

Lin Zexi turned off the gas stove, stared at Gu Ming for a while, responded briefly, and said, "Xiao Ming."

Gu Ming finally calmed down, his face turned dark again, he took a deep breath and frowned, and said in a stiff tone: "Call me Gu Ming." Since he started writing narrative essays in elementary school, Xiao Ming has been the protagonist of more than half of the essays. All kinds of wonderful stories are inexplicably assigned to this name.Because of this, he was often laughed at by others since he was a child.

"Oh, Gu...Ming." Zexi finally called out his full name, but his expression was extremely uncomfortable.This made Gu Ming's mood even worse. This man just wanted to make him unhappy.

Coming out of the bathroom, the long-vacant dining table was neatly set up with cutlery, and there was an omelet on a large plate in the middle. It was yellow and looked delicious.Zexi skillfully cut the omelet into four pieces with a table knife.The other two small plates contained two fried eggs, which were round in shape, one side was fried to a yellowish yellow color, and the other side was soft but not runny.The fried eggs that Gu Ming ate in western restaurants in the past were no better than the ones in front of him.The orange juice taken out of the refrigerator is enough for one person per person, but he carefully poured it into the glass and placed it neatly on the dining table. The bottom of the glass was covered with a blue and white plaid coaster that had never been used since he bought it. .There is sweet bean sauce in a small dish next to it, and white sugar in the other.

"The things in the refrigerator can only be used for this. You can taste it." He sat down opposite Gu Ming, looked up at him, and expected him to move his chopsticks quickly.

Gu Ming directly rolled up a piece of cake with his hands, dipped it in the sweet noodle sauce, and took a bite.Although it is a pancake, it is not greasy at all.The surface is crunchy but not hard at all, and the middle is soft and delicious.Gu Ming finished a piece of pie in two bites, Ze Xi kept looking at him without moving his chopsticks.

"Why don't you eat?"

Zexi pulled his lips lightly and smiled and said, "Actually, I don't have the habit of eating breakfast in the morning. If you can finish it, eat it all."

Gu Ming frowned and said displeasedly: "You think I'm a pig? Hurry up and eat half of what I eat, and you eat half of it."

"Then I'll drink this glass of juice." After speaking, he reached out to pick up the glass and was about to drink it, but Gu Ming snatched it and put it in front of him, then got up and took a glass of hot water from the water dispenser and handed it to him before.

"Drinking a cup of hot water first in the morning will make your stomach feel better. Don't you know that you have had stomach problems for more than ten years?" Gu Ming's tone was not very good.

Zexi looked at the hot water in front of him, picked it up and took a sip in embarrassment, "Oh, I seem to know, but I just didn't pay much attention to it."

Gu Ming felt even more uncomfortable, as if angry that he didn't even care about his own body. "By the way, what happened to you last night? You were scared like that."

"The one that doesn't affect my daily work, normal contact is fine. It's just that if someone pulls me unexpectedly, or hugs me, I will suddenly panic." Lin Zexi explained with his head down.

Gu Ming nodded and did not continue to ask.He was very interested in psychology before and had read many books on psychology. He knew that Lin Zexi's appearance just now had a sudden panic attack, and the source of the attack was that he suddenly grabbed his arm.Every normal person will have panic emotions. Normal people will panic when they are suddenly frightened by others, but it only lasts for a while. It can be automatically eliminated in seconds.But patients with panic disorder are not. The degree and time of their panic are often out of proportion to the facts. A small thing can make the long-term high-intensity continuous panic continue.It is a mental illness, usually the sequelae of some kind of psychological trauma.

Zexi looked at the clock on the wall, it was already 07:30.He picked up the chopsticks and started to wolf down the fried egg in front of him. Before Gu Ming could tell him to eat slowly, he had already swallowed the whole fried egg and wiped his mouth with a piece of paper.

Gu Ming picked up a piece of cake and put it on the plate in front of him, "Eat this too."

"Oh." Zexi responded, reached out and tore the egg pancake into seven or eight pieces, picked up one piece and dipped it in sugar, and put it in his mouth.

"Do you like dipping it in sugar?" Gu Ming asked while dipping it in sauce. He never liked to eat sweet things for breakfast, especially the sweet and salty taste of pancakes dipped in sugar, which he couldn't accept.

"Well, I like candy, the sweetness makes me feel very happy." Zexi looked at the candy dish on the table and said.

Gu Ming buried his head in his mouth without saying a word. Normally, he would have rolled his eyes at such a pretentious sentence, but now that it came out of his mouth, he felt a little cute.

"How old are you?" Gu Ming asked casually.

"Eh? I... two... 25."

"25? Is it true or not?" Gu Ming subconsciously exclaimed. After seeing Ze Xi's embarrassed expression, he realized that his reaction was a bit exaggerated.But from the first time he met him, he had tacitly assumed that the other party was an uncle in his 30s, but he never thought that he was only five years older than him.

"I...look older, but it's true that I'm under 26."

"Oh." Gu Ming didn't speak any more, buried his head in finishing the breakfast on the table, and said to Zexi, "Don't clean it up yet, hurry up and send me to school. I only have two classes in the morning, and I don't even have lunch when I come back from school." wash the dishes together."