[Gone with the Wind] Back to the beginning

There were seldom moments of such tenderness between them, and Scarlett shuddered with vague anticipation.Trembling with the painful memories of her previous life, she was delighted that Rhett knew her.This is really a complicated feeling, which made her finally choose to listen without saying a word.As before, he can see through her and give her the best advice, and this time will be no exception.Rhett understood her, past and present.

"I have to admit that I tried to find out about you - but I didn't get an answer from it." Rhett began, "We meet again in Atlanta It's been a year since I last saw you And there is no reason why you have changed so much this year, and the more I spend time with you, the more I wonder about it. Even though at the Wilkes barbecue, I only A few words were exchanged, but I know exactly what I see in you: a girl who is willful, bold and lively."

"A young woman is always beautiful, no matter what she actually looks like, with a unique blend of youth, beauty and tenderness that makes her face glow. Of course, your beautiful green eyes burn Huo Huo, that is your unique charm, but it does not affect the distinct girlish feeling you gave me at that time, you are a little girl, and I like this little girl."

He smiled as he spoke, so Scarlett couldn't help showing a smile too, as if her tense emotions were relieved.In such an atmosphere and situation, a sentence of liking seems to be logical and will not cause any discomfort, but more meaning-deeper feelings are hidden.This kind of expression is not abrupt, but it seems too shallow - because the two of them have been aware of each other's feelings before.

"But when I saw you in Atlanta, things changed." Rhett's words suddenly made Scarlett's heart hang, "You are beautiful, very beautiful, radiant, standing there like a queen. But I noticed that the verve on your face before is gone, it's gone. At first I thought it was an illusion, because although you are surrounded by hard and cold armor, there is always vitality and courage, but more tenacious than ordinary women. I have seen this look many times, and it is always in those who have suffered so much and finally survived. Mask, but still retain part of your original temperament. If there is any change that makes you quickly fade away from the original expression, such a short period of time cannot solidify that layer of cold mask - you will not be accustomed to that kind of yourself .”

In an instant, the fear of being seen through the soul was intertwined with the joy of being understood. Scarlett's blood was cold, her hands were trembling, but a warm current of trembling flowed through her heart.Rhett's dark eyes caught sight of her—the reborn her, who had to say something to interrupt him or scream.She's just too—

"You knew I wasn't a lady when we first met!" Scarlett snapped, as if that would conceal her panic. "Don't taunt me now, I—that's what I am!"

The more she talked about it, the more aggrieved she became.Scarlett O'Hara shouldn't have been like this, she'd have been a frivolous beautiful widow at this point, only thinking about * and Ashley, though there's nothing morally wrong with capriciousness after all, and it shouldn't be--but she wasn't now .So this kind of her made Rhett Butler suspicious?Even if she has already shown love?How dare he do this, peel off her elaborate disguise, to show his brilliance, and at the same time bring her back to painful memories?How dare he!Burning with anger, Scarlett shook Rhett's hand vigorously angrily.

"Ah." He called softly, not surprised or flustered.

There was another silence, preparing for the next conversation, which would be even more embarrassing to Scarlett.What else does he want to know?Why do you have to figure it out?Isn't that good?A guilty conscience crept into her heart, and Scarlett knew that the past she wished to let go was full of wrongs she had done to him, so such prying was as just as a trial.She calmed down, looked down at her hands, and found that her vision was a little blurry.

The sudden downfall of Scarlet made Rhett silent for a moment, but he had to get some answers today, so when Scarlet calmed down a little, Rhett continued:

"You were so excited just now, you probably misunderstood me." He said slowly, "I didn't mean to mock you, and I still like you, Scarlett. Yes, I still like you very much."

These words were like a breeze, calming Scarlett's restless heart.The word called liking seemed to have a strange magic power, which immediately calmed her heart down, and even felt a little dizzy.

"Why avoid that? I do like you. Although you don't look very girlish at times, you're almost—almost a woman, and you've been that way for a long time. Yes, Scarlett, what's puzzling me is Here. You may not know it, but you often unconsciously reveal a kind of restlessness and restlessness, as if you know what is coming, and you have a real fear that you must race against time. And you think that no matter how hard you run, you can't completely win Come down, am I right?"

Scarlett didn't answer him, but such a performance obviously meant a certain degree of approval at this moment.Her slightly trembling eyelashes showed her restless heart, her lips opened and closed slightly, but she didn't say anything.She looked at him, but looked away immediately so as not to show vulnerability and pleading for help in her eyes.She didn't want to answer.

"You give me the feeling that you've suffered too much and are desperately trying to hold on to something," Rhett said. "Money? Family? I don't know, Scarlett, but I feel bad."

His words came slowly, his tone was warm and sincere, full of touching emotions.He knew her, and genuinely pitied her even though he didn't know what had happened.This is a kind of deep pity after understanding, not the gentle demeanor shown by gentlemen out of noble qualities.At that moment, Scarlett truly felt that their hearts were connected.

"I once fell into one long nightmare."

She finally spoke.

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"Nightmare?" Rhett showed a thoughtful look, but motioned her to continue.

"Yes, a nightmare." Scarlett nodded, avoiding his gaze. "A long and real nightmare, in which I lost everything. Mom, Dad, niggers, a life of peace and prosperity, safety and ……"you.

"It was just a dream." Rhett put his hand on hers, as if to comfort her, "Don't be afraid, Scarlett. It's all over."

Scarlett lowered her head. After all, she couldn't tell the whole truth, but she still couldn't help trying at this moment.

"No, no," she said, "I keep having that dream, and the bad memories keep coming back, and I feel like they're bound to—at least if I don't do something about it, hurt me again, Rhett. In my dream, I was running in the mist, I was cold, tired and hungry, and there was nothing in sight. I was helpless and scared, but I still had to protect others. They stretched out their hands and pulled my skirt, wanting to I drag them along. I can't leave them, even though sometimes I think - no, but I know I don't want to, I'm just too tired, too scared. I run and run, always thinking the safe place is ahead , I lost a lot of things. At that time, I felt that the most important thing to live was, and nothing else. But in the end, I found out that everything was wrong, and nothing was left. There was only a terrible me. No mother, No friends. Every time I wake up from the dream, I feel that those things are real and will happen sooner or later. But I still can't find any other hints except not to run in the direction that the dream has proven wrong-maybe Now I sort of figure out what it is I'm finally looking for, but I'm always worried that I won't get it."

"So you keep reminiscing—I mean, having this dream?"

Rhett obviously uses the dream as a proxy, and it is true.But at the moment she was a little flustered, and Scarlett, who was immersed in her own emotions, didn't notice it, or she couldn't care less about it.

"Yeah, I've always had that dream. Rhett, you know disaster's gonna happen! I can't get away with Tara and my house on my back, so I'll have to hold on to it as much as I can, even if I'm terrified But I'm still worried that I can't keep it, I still have to lose, and I still can't get what I want. I tried my best, but I still don't know if I can do it. After all, I once put everything together screwed up."

"But I assure you, you are doing very well." Rhett's thumb pressed against her palm with unquestionable strength, "Scarlett, I assure you. Don't worry, you are doing very well. Medicines will arrive soon, and you can use them to save your mother."

"... yes, Mommy's going to be all right," murmured Scarlett, looking up eagerly, "Really Rhett? Am I really doing well? I always feel—"

"Yes, you've done well," Rhett assured, patting the back of her hand reassuringly. "You're wonderful, Scarlett. You have more foresight and courage than most, and I'm sure you'll get yours done." wish."

He said: "But I think you have lived too hard, Scarlett. You have been berating yourself, but it seems unnecessary to me. You are like a child, full of courage and easily frightened. You are too lacking Security, sometimes I really—fucking|fucking want to get that damn memory—that dream out of your head so you can forget about it. Do you know that you make me sad? Because there's nothing I can do to make you feel safe."

"What do you mean, Rhett?" Scarlett asked tremblingly.

"It means that I like you and want to protect you." His voice suddenly softened, comforting, and gentle, "Really, Scarlett. I am very sad, just because I am so scared to see you. You can obviously not Yes, I really want to give you everything you want, pamper you and love you, and make you carefree, just like before that nightmare."

His tone is peculiar - there's a subtle urgency in it, as if eager to release emotion, but ultimately soft and tender.He put his hands on Scarlett's shoulders, so she faced him.He was looking at her and smiling.Scarlett felt her whole body go limp, and a numbness and warmth flowed from her heart to her whole body, making her almost unable to move.She felt like she was in a warm, wet swamp, and she couldn't help but sink in—ah, this electrifying feeling, she just wanted to—just want to meet him, ask for caresses, kiss him, and more .She was in a mess and couldn't help herself, but he happened to blow gently into her ear, he was so close to her.

"Scarlett," he called softly.

"Rhett." She called his name with tenderness and love, "I also like—"

The memory suddenly opened the curtain vigorously, and the bright light pierced the sky, making it blinding. This scene must have happened somewhere, and there must be something wrong.Where is it?Where?after all--

"Aren't you unmarried?"

Scarlett's face turned pale in an instant, she knocked Rhett's hand off suddenly, and asked sharply.