The residual temperature is over

It's still the same station, the same weather, and the hurried pedestrians who seem to be similar to yesterday.

But today is different from yesterday, today is different from any other day in your life.

Yu Shiye stood in front of the exit of the station in a daze, the long dark passage was the inner cavity of the snake, and the opened exit was its huge gaping mouth.

The weather was still hot, but Yu Shiye felt a bit cold. When the rest of the people were still wearing short sleeves, he bought a windbreaker and wrapped himself in it.The thin clothes didn't seem to have the effect of blocking the wind, it was still cold, the cold air penetrated through the clothes, penetrated into his body, and turned into cold sweat, sticking to the skin, like frost on the ice, stinging Trembling slightly.

He was trembling, alone, waiting for a long, long time, looking at the exit without blinking, and finally saw Wen Bieyu in the first place.

Wen Bieyu is back!

In an instant, a huge surprise hit Yu Shiye, he only took two steps forward and then stopped, he saw Wen Bieyu's parents, and then invisible fear emerged from the ground like weeds, entangled his body Ankle, dragging him to the spot.

During the very brief hesitation, the eyes of the two met.Wen Bieyu who came out of the station saw Yu Shiye.His footsteps seemed to move towards Yu Shiye's direction.

This movement was stopped by Wen Bieyu's parents, who pulled their son violently and pulled him beside him.

They picked up Wen Bieyu, walked back, and passed Yu Shiye indifferently.

No one looked at Yu Shiye anymore, not Wen Bieyu's parents, nor Wen Bieyu.

...That was the beginning of his parting ways with Wen Bieyu.

After that comes the funeral.

On the night after the funeral, Yu Shiye stayed in his home. He didn't turn on the lights, he was a little afraid of the light, the light reminded him of the daytime, the shaking crowd, the thick smoke, the smoke made those people, black and white crowd , faded, distorted, and fused together, the coffin pierced out of these fused smoke, and slammed into him.

But there is still light in the room, a constant beam of light, which is the screen light of his mobile phone.

Throughout the night, the screen of his mobile phone was on, and the screen stayed on Wen Bieyu's communication interface. Every minute and every second, he wanted to send a message, and even more wanted to get a message. Any message was fine, even if It was insults and curses from Wen Bieyu.

Yet nothing.

The world is silent in nothing, the screen is pale, it turns into a piece of paper, it floats and covers his face, covers his eyes, covers his mouth and nose, robs him of his right to breathe freely, and puts him in a long-term In suffocation.

Later, they met on the way back, they accidentally bought tickets for the same train, and saw each other on the platform.

Without Wen Bieyu's parents, relatives who mourned, and grandpa surrounded by flowers peacefully, there were only them and many strangers here.

The barrier of reality is gone, replaced by the barrier of nothingness.

Something invisible lay in front of them, making them stay where they were for a long time, so long that the train arrived slowly with the sound of wind, and so long that everyone on the platform got on the train, only the two of them stood alone It was so long that the conductors poked their heads out of the carriage, shouting and urging them.

Wen Bieyu got into the car.

Yu Shiye also got into the car.

They were sitting in the front and back carriages next to each other, Yu Shiye knew that the other party was in front, but his body seemed to be nailed to the seat, and he couldn't move a step, he just arrived in Shanghai stiffly.

When getting out of the car, Yu Shiye didn't see Wen Bieyu in the crowd, maybe because he avoided Wen Bieyu, and Wen Bieyu also avoided him, so he clearly was in the same position, but couldn't see the person opposite.

But the crowded crowd will be separated, and the space to escape will disappear. When Yu Shiye returned to the rented community, he saw Wen Bieyu at the gate of the community.They faced each other again, couldn't face it, had to face it.

The silence turned into depression, and amidst the depression, Yu Shiye and Wen Bieyu finished dinner together in the house.

Yu Shiye didn't taste any taste of that dinner.

Maybe Wen Bieyu didn't either.

Silence accompanied them all the way, at first they just shrank in the corner, but now they have occupied the whole room grandiosely, squeezing Yu Shiye and Wen Bieyu.

After dinner, Yu Shiye packed the bowls and chopsticks into the sink to wash. He opened the faucet to the maximum, and the sound of rushing water tore a hole in the silence that wrapped the room, and Yu Shiye was panting vigorously in this hole.

The sound of water also masked some other noises.

When Yu Shiye turned around after washing the dishes, he saw Wen Bieyu took out a large pile of clothes and put them on the bed.

Under the shining white light, there was a black suitcase on the aisle. It was right next to Wen Bieyu. As long as Wen Bieyu stretched out his hand, he could grab it into his palm, but he just stood there, staring blankly. Bed clothes.

Yu Shiye shuddered, the picture in the room weighed on his heart, and he suddenly panicked, in the panic, he slipped his hand, and the dishes fell on the sink, the sound was a bit loud, startled Wen Bieyu in the room .

When the other party looked over, Yu Shiye felt that Wen Bieyu was going to speak, and he was afraid of what the other party was about to say, so he spoke first and told a lame lie.

"Recently, there are a lot of homework and club activities in school. I—I may have to live in school for a while, and come back after I finish my work."

The wait is as long as eternity.

While waiting, the panic folded and multiplied repeatedly, pressing down heavily, causing his heart to fall all the way. At the moment it fell into the abyss, Wen Bieyu whispered a word.

That was like an amnesty, turning the death penalty into a reprieve.

"……it is good."

Yu Shiye left.

He left the house and went to the community. Instead of leaving, he came to the side of the building with windows, raised his head, and looked at the lamp under the lonely moon.

There are familiar people in the lamp.

He watched for a long time, until the light was also off in the dark night, and then he realized that he should leave.

I left, where are I going?

After that night, Yu Shiye stayed in the dormitory of the school.

He began to have nightmares, nightmares all night and all night, and then woke up in the deepest night, sweating profusely, watching the sky change from black to gray, from gray to blue.

He developed headaches, lack of energy, constant anxiety and tingling in his extremities.

He still attends classes, the place where he lives can be changed, but the classroom where he attends classes cannot be changed.The two are always in the same classroom, sitting close to each other, and taking the same classes.

This is probably a little liberation in a tormented life, but liberation is always accompanied by deeper torment.

The distance between him and Wen Bieyu was very close, the closer the distance, the less he dared to relax.Yu Shiye didn't know how he resisted touching Wen Bieyu, didn't talk to Wen Bieyu, and didn't even look at Wen Bieyu—only when the other party didn't notice, he secretly looked at people.

This is when he is most relaxed.

He carefully maintained the gap between the two of them. He felt that Wen Bieyu might need a quiet environment, a little space for solitude. Maybe the next second after being quiet and alone, the other party would turn his head and talk to him. .

Say anything.

The next second and the next second, the next countless seconds, Wen Bieyu still didn't speak.

The warmth of the past has turned into wordless fatigue, and all life and vitality are being gradually murdered.He tried to save, but couldn't.

Later, he found a way. When he couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, he climbed over the wall and left the school, came to the community, stood downstairs, and looked at Wen Bieyu's window.

In the silent night, the window was still lit.

He always didn't stand below for long before he could see a shadow appearing by the window.

He looked at Wen Bieyu from below, and Wen Bieyu looked at him from above.

until that day.

That day was Monday.

At noon that day, they sat at the same table in the cafeteria. Although they sat obliquely in the seats of four people, this was the first time since they came back. Yu Shiye's hand holding the chopsticks was a little stiff. I haven't fallen asleep for several days, and every day when I walk on the road, I feel that I will fall asleep the next moment.

But now, all these things have been relieved, Yu Shiye seemed to have been injected with a stimulant, and he could concentrate. He noticed that his heart was beating very fast, and countless jumps and joy splashed out every time.

It's a pity that the high mood didn't last long, because Wen Bieyu who was sitting on the other side was silent and didn't move for a long time.

So, joy turned into hesitation, joy turned into worry, Yu Shiye shook hands for a long time, and finally opened his mouth.

His voice was covered by Wen Bieyu's.

Wen Bieyu raised his eyes and looked forward, his gaze passed Yu Shiye in vain, just like when he passed Yu Shiye with his parents in front of the station.

His lips were pale, and there was a slight tremor between opening and closing.

His voice was very soft, but his enunciation was clear.

He told Yu Shiye clearly.

"It's not good. Let's split up."

For the entire period that followed, Yu Shiye had no memory.

He didn't know how he got out of the cafeteria, he didn't know how he left school, he didn't know how he got home—the home in Shanghai, where his father lived.

It may be that he wanted to find a safe haven in the endless fear, and his instinct drove him here.

He took out the key, opened the door and went in.

It was very quiet inside the door, the lights were dimmed, like all the servants in the house had fallen asleep at night, so only an empty shell was left in the lively room during the day.

He turned around the room blankly, and finally saw a beam of light.

The light on the second floor, bit by bit, swaying, ostentatious, attracting, tempting Yu Shiye, pushing open the door that was not closed, like opening Pandora's box.

The clothes scattered all over the floor, the ambiguous and heavy penis, the familiar father, and the strange woman, everything in front of him blurred his past memory, and made him start to confuse reality and dreams.

Until Yu Rulin walked up to him.

Yu Rulin put on some clothes casually, walked up to him, and looked him up and down: "Why did you come back today? What's the matter with your face? How long have you not slept?"

"Father..." Yu Shiye called out in a daze, "Who is she?"

Yu Rulin turned a deaf ear: "You have to come back and tell me next time. Your room has been tidied up. Seeing your complexion is not good, go to bed early."

"Who is she?" Yu Shiye asked persistently, his mind was heavy and his body was very light, he felt like he was going to fall down, and then he felt like he was going to float up, the balance organ in his ears seemed to have failed, and he felt dizzy like spinning It started to appear, he was almost unable to think, he could only mutter and repeat the same question, "She is not mother, who is she?"

Yu Rulin became impatient, his calm expression appeared condescending, his majestic expression revealed disgust, his voice sounded like a grand order, rumbling down from the sky.

"You're an adult, don't act like a child and yell about every little thing."

Yu Shiye thought hard, and after a few minutes, he finally understood what Yu Rulin meant.He said:

"Father, how could you do this...you betrayed us...it's disgusting..."

The disobedient parents became gloomy, criticizing and whipping them wantonly like the superiors punished those disobedient subordinates.

"Yu Shiye, pay attention to your attitude when you talk to me. You have no right to criticize me. You have spent my money on food, clothing, housing and transportation since you were a child? Without me, would you be where you are today?"

Anger suppressed, even overshadowing the physical pain.

Yu Shiye woke up, and he looked directly at his father: "I can do many things without you."

Yu Rulin's contempt was full of disapproval, he knew what his son wanted to refute.

"Do you mean the electronic toys you once made and sold? You call that 'entrepreneurship', you think you can succeed, you think it can bring you a fortune, at least to take care of Grandpa Wen Bieyu money."

His voice changed from contempt to cold denial.

"Without the store of Yu's enterprise, who would let the things you make enter the store; without the shelves of Yu's enterprise, who would buy the things you made, the success you thought was just like a vine relying on the big tree of your father Steal nutrients—and Wen Bieyu, I told you a long time ago, there is no need to mix with Wen Bieyu."

Yu Shiye was speechless, he wanted to deny it, but he couldn't find the fulcrum to deny it.

He is indeed proud of his "invention", that is because he put the invention into the store of Yu's enterprise and turned his invention into money, but if... as his father said...

"It doesn't matter if you don't listen." Yu Rulin's voice was indifferent, and it was truly indifferent and cold, "I will withhold the money you got from Yu's company, and only leave you monthly pocket money. Relying on yourself, Sure enough, you can't do anything, that old man, Wen Bieyu's grandfather. I raised you but you went to be someone else's filial son and grandson, thinking that your little childlike love can last forever, so you don't hesitate to mess up your own life It's a mess, what's the result?"

Yu Rulin suddenly laughed, as if seeing a very funny joke, he couldn't help shaking his head:

"You ended up breaking up."

"We didn't break up——" Yu Shiye spoke hastily, and he couldn't continue in the middle of the sentence.

He knew in his heart that what he feared the most had happened, Wen Bieyu had already made a decision, what he and Wen Bieyu——Yu Rulin said was right.

Yu Rulin saw through everything, he sneered:

"Love has a shelf life. It's an unsurprising result. You said you take care of that old man every day, so what? Has anything changed? Do you understand what taking care is? Can you learn these things? I originally I already want to talk to the old man and tell him whose family you are from—no need, it’s too much, I glanced at him from a distance, and I didn’t even need to step forward to speak, I knew—”

The loud noise and dazzling light occupied all of Yu Shiye's thoughts and eyesight.

He couldn't see or hear, Yu Rulin completely defeated him, his life for the first 18 years was like a joke, everything about him was attached to another person, all his ego, all his pride, were all vain and powerless hit.

He escaped from his home in embarrassment and fled all the way to the theater where Xu Yinhua was.

He saw his mother in the theater, and at the same time saw another man walking beside her, holding her waist.

A lamp, a beam of light, willfully cut the distance between them.

When he saw his mother, his mother also saw him.

Xu Yinhua broke free from the man's grasp in a panic, and ran towards him quickly. Her speed was fast at first, then gradually slowed down, and finally stayed a few steps away from him.

Yu Shiye opened his mouth.

His throat was very dry, his words were mixed with coughing, and he said: "Mom, you and Dad..."

Xu Yinhua understood, she suddenly stopped panicking.She turned to reach out to Yu Shiye's hand, raised it, and straightened her messy temple hair: "You know about your father. Now that you know, it will be easy. Xiao Ye, you can understand mom now. "

Yu Shiye couldn't understand.

He shook his head, walked forward quickly, and grabbed his mother's hand firmly: "Mom, come back with me, let me tell Dad, I will make him realize that he is wrong—"

But the hand in the palm pulled out little by little with force, until it completely broke free from Yu Shiye's hands.

Xu Yinhua's voice was still soft, as soft as she usually is.

"Xiaoye," she told Yu Shiye, "Mom has always been here and never left."

This sentence fell down bumpily, and fell into Yu Shiye's heart. The sugar coating wrapped around the world finally came off completely. Its real core is so absurd and so ugly.

Finally, at the end of the day.

Yu Shiye returned to the rented community.

There was no one at night, he crossed the road alone, the light of the street lamp spread like frost, spread on the road, spread on his heart.

He walked to his and Wen Bieyu's house.

His hand landed on the door and he knocked.

The sluggish sound was his last lifeline, and one end of the line was held in the hands of the person inside the door.

He knocked once and then stopped. In the silence, he felt that Wen Bieyu walked all the way to the back of the door, and he seemed to hear the sound of breathing behind the door.

They are only separated by a door.

He waited, longed, prayed for the door to open.

The door did not open.

He stood alone, leaned on, and finally lost all strength and crouched silently.

In the dark corridor, the cold wind blew through his body, he buried his head in his knees, saw the light in the crack of the door, and the people in the light.

That is the light and people that he can't reach.

In a low voice, he asked Wen Bieyu:

"Is it... Even you don't want me anymore?"