Amidst the Pear Blossom Dream

After arranging the matter of Lixi, Nan Ke came back in a hurry to see Yimeng.When I arrived in the front yard, I dreamed that it was very strange. The servants who used to guard the door were not here today. After thinking about it, they might have been sent to work.When I got to the door, I realized that today was a very unusual guest.The voices of the guests in the room were deep and mellow, like wine that had been buried for a long time, and when it was opened, it filled the room with fragrance.This sound seems to have been heard somewhere.

"The queen mother has already agreed, wait for me to make another contribution, so that I can be crowned prince again, and then it will be the day of our wedding." The man remembered as soon as he said this, isn't this his second brother? , but why is he in the woman's boudoir, who wants to get married? My head is a little confused.

"Really, did the queen really agree this time?" Yimeng's happy voice sounded, completely breaking Nanke's self-deception.

Nan Ke was shocked, and the noisy voice behind him suddenly faded away, and everything they said afterwards was automatically blocked as if it was distorted.

The two people probably heard the noise, stopped talking, and asked who was outside in doubt.

Reason told me that I could have just turned my head and walked away, and shouldn't be boring myself, but my legs really walked around the screen uncontrollably.Maybe it was because I wanted to see Yimeng's reaction, maybe I was not reconciled, maybe I didn't want them to have a better life, and I couldn't explain why, anyway, when I realized it, I was already standing in front of them.

Yimeng's refreshing and transparent tencel skirt sleeves are embroidered with delicate magnolias. The snow-white orchids are as lustrous and lifelike as the creamy skin. It sets off the cleanliness and holiness of the owner of the clothes, and blends with the elegant temperament from the inside out. As a whole, the clear and palpable elegant atmosphere comes continuously, attracting attention.

The man beside him was dressed in black and had black hair. He was tall and vigorous. When he got close, he could clearly see the sword eyebrows and star eyes.The two sat opposite each other like a pair of jade couples, anyone who saw it would be envious of praise, a man and a woman are a match made in heaven, but to Nan Ke, it was unusually dazzling, angry and wronged, and he was like a neglected man in front of them. The jumping beam clown wanted to question Yimeng, but found that he was not qualified to do so, and he didn't know where to start. In the end, he just stood there stupidly and couldn't do anything.

Yimeng shook hands and seemed a little nervous, feeling like being raped in his heart, but with his future husband beside him, he must be thinking too much.The three of them didn't speak, and the atmosphere was awkward and weird.

The second prince's eyes are sharp, and his face looks like a brother and friend, but in fact he persuades with a thorn in his words, "...Although once you fly to the branches, you can't help but be tempted, and you like to toss about new things that you haven't seen before, but don't worry about it." Playing too crazy and forgetting my identity, don't let the queen call me to lecture again....".

Nan Ke knew that he wanted to dismantle his platform, but he had no time to think about what he said at this time. He just looked at Yimeng and wanted her to explain to him that everything was a misunderstanding, but all he got was a ruthless and calm look back. Under the light of his eyes, Nan Ke's heart gradually froze.

Nan Zhengqing dropped the cup in his hand a little angrily, and his words were ignored again. This person came without saying a word for no reason, and left without saying a word, completely treating himself as air.The sense of shame from many years ago resurfaced again, and he was plotting a plan in his heart: You bastard, wait for me, whoever dares to ignore me, I will let him have no chance to regret it.

Nan Ke left in a daze, walking aimlessly on the street.I haven't had anything to harm me until now, let alone some shit second prince, the only thing that can hurt me is you.Why do you like other people, why do you want to be with him...

There is nothing wrong with the sun and the west, under the shade of the wall, I walk alone on the palace flowers.The confidante broke her grace before she was old, and she leaned on the smoked cage and sat until the dawn.

Nan Ke didn't know how he got out of Xiang's mansion, he didn't know where he was going, he was staggering, he was so drunk that he didn't know what happened.I felt depressed and uncomfortable, what I insisted on, what I worked hard on, and what I believed in became ridiculous. What I wanted to hold on tightly and persevere in was now falling apart.Caring about her is meaningless just because she already has her own.

It is said that three cups lead to the road, and one drunk can relieve a thousand worries.The wine is already in the stomach, and the matter is also in the heart, but there always seems to be a layer in between, no matter how much wine you drink, you can't drown your heart.Drinking a pot of wine, but thinking more and more clearly. "The ancients were liars too, all liars," I cursed disregarding my image, and threw the wine glass out angrily.I don’t need to look in the mirror to know that I am no different from a lunatic at this time. The longing swept through my whole mind, and all the image and etiquette were left behind.

I want a beautiful spring, to sing the wind and the moon with her, to tune silk and bamboo, to make paintings, but the fault is that no matter what I do, it is wrong. The mistake in the relationship between you and me is that I fell in love with a person who pretends to be someone else. Who can tell me what to do so that it will not hurt her, but also fulfill me. Happiness, obviously, as long as you nod your head, it’s so simple, so Disaster.

"Go get some more wine." Nan Ke ignored the valet's pleas and kept drinking.

"Guard Qiu, you are back, hurry up and persuade the master! If you continue to drink like this, your body will not be able to bear it..." a maid cried and said.

Seeing him leaning on the pear tree, holding the wine jar in his hand, and the last few pear blossoms falling down, he looks even more sad and lonely.Because I was unhappy, I wanted to drink to compensate and numb myself.But is it really worth it to torture yourself with your own body?

Qiu Gu told the others to retreat, walked over to the drunk man, and snatched the wine bottle from his hand.Then he helped him into the bed in the house and lay down, and found a towel to scrub him.This man didn't vomit or make trouble when he was drunk, he just fell asleep, looking at his defenseless but fragile face, Qiu Gu felt inexplicably heartbroken and lost.His lips had lost their color due to alcoholism, like pear petals blooming in the courtyard, he couldn't help the throbbing in his heart, when he found it, his hand had already touched his lips, the tip of his nose and lips were delicate and soft, slightly hot, But the ironing is so comfortable that people can't move it away. There is a faint smell of mountains and forests in the breath, like new leaves, like running water, like spring flowers, but more of it is the intoxicating smell of wine.

I was really drunk last night. Looking back, I just feel nauseated and nauseated.The result of letting oneself go is almost relapse, taking medicine or getting needles again, it's a torment.

There is only pain and tribulation in life, and he can't ask for it in death, but he refuses to give up in sinking, so he is required to stay awake all the time, wandering in pain in the entanglement.This other world is like a purgatory, the myths are all other people's myths, and the truth is my own pain.

After waking up, I have to face the problem that I have been ignoring all the time, that is when I figure out the situation of the two of them.When he really knew the ins and outs of the matter, Nan Ke didn't know what to do.Although they have not made a matchmaking agreement, the fact that the two are childhood sweethearts cannot be changed by themselves, and it is even more difficult for them to intervene if they agree with each other.No matter whether it was too late or not, my feelings for her were not tolerated in the eyes of outsiders, and the emergence of this strong opponent made this feeling stillborn.

Nan Ke suddenly found that all forms are not good for him now, and he feels that everything seems to be against him.As long as he forgets her, he can simply and happily live the same life as before. In the eyes of people, he is still unrestrained, only knows how to eat, drink and play, and is favored by heaven.But obsession and forbearable longing and urgency urged him to see her, even though the rainstorm was about to fall.

Row upon row of residents in small buildings with white walls and black tiles have already closed their doors and windows, and the dense pedestrians on the wide and smooth stone road have disappeared in an instant. Walking down the street in a trance, this strange behavior inevitably attracted the attention of passers-by.A rain dormant in May has not yet fallen, and the ending has already arrived. A quarter of an hour of heavy rain may not be enough for a lifetime of memories, but it is enough to make all the years old.

Every time lightning slid by, the darkness faded. Yimeng embraced the quilt and looked at the rain outside the eaves. The whole courtyard was flooded by the pattering rain. The big trees swayed in the wind, and she seemed to be able to smell the smell of damp grass. , the swaying green leaves are like green lights that shuttle back and forth, indicating that the earth is full of vitality and hope after a thunderstorm.The originally irritable heart became even more irritable when I saw Nan Ke coming from the corridor with an umbrella.Nan Ke's skirt was completely soaked, wringing water under the eaves.

Even though Nan Ke didn't want to admit it anymore, he knew clearly in his heart that if he gave up now, then the fate with her would only be this cup of tea.He became more and more flustered, with trembling fear and pain in his heart.If he expresses his intentions, he doesn't know anything else, but he can clearly feel that once some words are spoken, it is impossible to go back to the past. Yes, even friends don't have to be.If he didn't say anything, it would be even more painful in his heart, and he wanted to go crazy with hatred, just because he knew that she would not want him, and her heart was given to another person.

Obviously, the ending of the story has been guessed from the beginning, and I knew that the ending will only be a tragedy for one person, and I am chasing rationally and asking myself why, why I still don't want to let go.But there is a voice in my heart that keeps crying and shouting "I can't bear it, try again!".Forcing myself to give up the person I love the most, I am afraid that only those who have experienced it will feel the same pain.Unwilling to give up, unwilling to give up and want to turn things around, even if the rest of his life will be covered in bruises.Nan Ke has thousands of words, pain and sorrow in his heart, but he can't say a word when it comes to his mouth.

Nan Ke came back in a daze, looking at Qiu Gu a little uncomfortable. "Give up if you can't do it, so that life can be more comfortable, why bother to be persistent?" Qiu Gu's expression flashed frustration and helplessness, as if he was persuading due diligence, and it seemed to be saying to himself.

"You know that we are the same people. Even if you jump into the Yellow River, you will not give up. Your unhappy face has betrayed you. The difference is that when you are undecided, when faced with persistence or giving up, you often choose Avoid, and even if I open my own wounds, I will do it immediately even if I do whatever it takes." Nan Ke revealed it indifferently, more like telling himself.

He wants this world, so you fight for it with him, but do you know that you are my only world.Only if I am better than them, they will only listen to me, and you will turn your eyes to me.So selfish as I am, for the sake of my world, I have to compete with him for the world.