Hu Meizi

82.

Xie Tang didn't drive back to his private house in the end. Sun Du said that it was raining and he was a little bored, so he wanted to go for a walk by the lake.There happened to be a small lake nearby, in the vast flat land that Xie Tang bought.Only Xie Tang, the owner of this land, can find this location.

The pattering rain outside had stopped. When Xie Tang parked the car under the embankment of this small lake, Sun Du opened the car window, and he could feel the slightly cool and fresh night wind, mixed with the cold water of the lake. Cold taste.

"Let's get out of the car and walk for a while," Sun Du said.

Xie Tang nodded.

Then the two of them got out of the somewhat cramped car together, and closed the car door with two bangs.Xie Tang went to the trunk and took out a flashlight and an umbrella, while Sun Du leaned against the car and waited for him.

Now is the golden time of autumn, and the weather is cool. City C is mostly evergreen vegetation, and the city is full of layers of green, still full of vitality.But compared to summer, the best thing is that the annoying mosquitoes are gone, and the summer cicadas are not making any noise. Most of them died alone or were sleeping quietly.

The lake is quiet, lying peacefully on this land, there are no street lights everywhere, it is too dark to see the road.It wasn't until Xie Tang took out the flashlight and turned it on that Sun Du could see the road in front of him clearly.

"I want to smoke a cigarette." Sun Du took out a pack of cigarettes from his trouser pocket. He shook, and a long and delicate lady's cigarette came out. "It's the last one."

His fox eyes flashed, and he looked at Xie Tang pitifully.

Xie Tang walked over holding a flashlight, he glanced at the cigarette in Sun Du's hand and said, "Smoking less from now on."

The implication is naturally that this time it can be smoked.

Sun Du lighted up the lighter with a beaming smile, and lit the cigarette.The smoke was light, and the smoke danced in his cavity, filling his entire mouth softly.

Sun Du and Xie Tang walked towards the embankment side by side. There happened to be a narrow road above the embankment by the lake, which could be used for two or three people to take a walk. They planned to walk around the embankment a few times.

"Xie Tang, what story are you going to exchange for my story?" Sun Du asked with a smile, a little light from the fireworks illuminated half of his face in the dark night, "I always want to know some general outlines, what is it?" Equal exchange, no loss-making business."

Xie Tang was silent for a while, he looked at Sun Du and said honestly, "I don't know, Sun Du."

"I don't remember a lot of things," he said. "I'm not a storyteller or an interesting person."

Sun Du smoked a cigarette, shook his head with a smile, "Xie Tang, we don't remember many things, but its harm never stops, they are slow and continuous. It doesn't matter if you don't remember, one day, when When the damage has accumulated to a certain amount, it will come back again."

"It's fine if you don't remember," Sun Du smiled and let out a mouthful of white smoke, "Those who don't remember will be clean."

"Like you." Sun Du said, reaching out his hand without a cigarette to hold Xie Tang's wrist.

His white and tender palms were a little cold, and it happened that Xie Tang's wrist was warm and a little hot in the dark night, and he could still feel Xie Tang's pulse beating steadily and powerfully when he held it.

"You always know a lot." Xie Tang looked at Sun Du quietly and said.

"Because I'm still alive." Sun Du smiled nonchalantly. "Otherwise, you can take a loan. I'll tell you mine first, and then repay the loan when you remember it—of course, it's best if you don't remember it. Just treat it as a loss-making promotion." Sun Du suggested.

Xie Tang pondered for a while, then asked, "Is there any interest?"

His expression was serious, still as indifferent as usual, obviously not joking, but seriously thinking about this issue.

Sun Du raised his eyebrows and thought for a while, then answered him with a smile, "Maybe?——Depend on my mood, I won't lend usury."

Xie Tang thought for a while, and then said yes.

Sun Du turned his head, lowered his head and took a puff of his cigarette. He was thinking about how to word his past that he had never told anyone.

At this time, Xie Tang suddenly said, "Every time you are depressed and in a bad mood, you will smoke."

"Is that a bad story?" He looked at Sun Du with peaceful and quiet eyes.

Sun Du turned his head and looked at him in surprise. Xie Tang's flashlight illuminated the road ahead. At this time, Xie Tang was not clear in the dark night, and could only glimpse a vague outline.But Sun Du felt that he clearly saw Xie Tang's quiet dark blue eyes.They are as indifferent as ice, their reflections reflect everything in the world, and they are as vast as the starry sky, quietly embracing the earth.

Sun Du laughed again. With a cigarette between his fingers, he smoothed his hair with his ring finger and little finger. "It's not too bad," he said, "I'm alive anyway."

"When Du Shaoyu and Li Yu went to the United States to settle down and get married, he gave me to his good brother Jiang Chengwen." Sun Du looked at Xie Tang with a faint smile on his face.

"Actually, I liked Du Shaoyu—maybe I didn't like it?" He said frankly, "When I first entered this circle, I didn't know my identity in vain, thinking that I could still say that I liked and loved. At that time, I also Young, has never seen the world, he is excellent, capable, mature and stable, he gave me money to help me, and on the surface he is gentle, polite and restrained. I have been with him since I was 21 or 22 years old. After so many years, it is impossible to say that I am not moved.”

Sun Du took Xie Tang's hand and walked slowly, he looked at the calm Xie Tang and deepened his smile, "Xie Tang, in fact, I know all the people in this circle, including you. You all have a measure in your heart, whether you are worthy or not, you have your own judgment in your heart. People like me, since entering this circle, as a dependent, using color for profit, are destined to be unworthy of love and respect."

He shook Xie Tang's hand, "It's just that I moved you, you moved me, and we decided to make a difference between each other."

This was the first time that Sun Du spoke frankly about the state of him and Xie Tang. He looked at Xie Tang with determination and conviction in his eyes.

Xie Tang also looked at him, nothing could be seen in Xie Tang's eyes, but he stared at Sun Du for a while, then nodded slightly.

"Yes." Xie Tang admitted.

Sun Du smiled. The two of them actually did not shy away from this topic. They were both watching each other slowly approaching each other. The sense of fate and belonging made them fly alone in the vast universe like two stars destined to collide. After a long time, finally at the destined moment, we will finally meet.

"When I climbed up the mountain that year, it was when Du Shaoyu gave me to Jiang Chengwen. I climbed up that day because I wanted to jump down." Sun Du took another puff of cigarette, "You know, at that time in early summer, the cicadas also It was too dark and quiet. I was standing on the top of the mountain, and when the wind blows, my mind suddenly cleared up. I thought, if you don’t love me and look down on me, then I want to love myself more, I want to You regret living better. So I staggered down again."

"I'm going to Jiang Chengwen's place." Sun Du exhaled smoke, and smiled sarcastically, not knowing who was mocking his young self, "but I think all this is too simple."

Xie Tang turned his face and listened quietly. He steadily turned on the flashlight to illuminate the road ahead.

Sun Du's hand holding Xie Tang's wrist slid down to his hotter palm, and then quietly held it.

"Maybe Du Shaoyu doesn't know—most people don't know that Jiang Chengwen is an S, and S is actually nothing, it's just a kind of interest to many people," Sun Du said, "But Jiang Chengwen likes to raise people who don't have this tendency. Be your own dog, the more stubborn he is, the more he likes it."

Xie Tang couldn't help frowning.

Sun Du smiled and held his hand, "Listen to me, I was interrupted by you, I don't know if I still have the courage to continue."

Therefore, Xie Tang had no choice but to keep silent and let Sun Du finish his speech.

"Lin Qingqing was Jiang Chengwen's favorite at that time, and she would be completely abnormal after being brainwashed," Sun Du smiled indifferently, "In order to attract the so-called master's attention and praise, she assisted Jiang Chengwen to rape herself He helped Jiang Chengwen take in a dog. This is why Lin Xiaocheng is always foolish now, and Lin Qingqing has to take it with him at all times."

"A person whose self has been destroyed, what else can he say?" Sun Du said.

Sun Du looked at Xie Tang, he paused, and continued, "I'm very stubborn, very stubborn. At that time, I didn't understand the truth that a person who understands current affairs is a hero. Jiang Chengwen locked me in the basement, that is, the secret passage, He pointed to his neck, "He tied a chain around my neck and tied me to the wall. The basement is very dark, there is no light, no sound, there is only a toilet, a bed, and nothing else. , only every time he brings food, he will bring a little bit of light and human breath."

"What is this? Stockholm?" Sun Du snorted, "He probably imprisoned me for about a month and a half. I became demented, watching him laugh and drooling unconsciously. He thought I was obedient. Let me go out and want to give a date to a date-in fact, at that time, most of my reactions were pretending, I was locked up and I was about to collapse, but I knew I couldn't collapse, I wanted to live, so I imitated All the reactions I thought a man in captivity would have. As it turns out, I have a talent for acting—but it could also be that Jiang Chengwen used this method to raise a lot of dogs, and he didn't pay much attention."

Xie Tang held Sun Du's hand silently.

Sun Du felt the warmth from his palm, and looked at Xie Tang's hand dumbly, and couldn't help but have a very gentle smile on his face.This caused the glamorous color on his face to be completely replaced by a thorough gentleness.

"It's nothing, Xie Tang, it's all over." Sun Du said with a smile.

Xie Tang looked at him and hummed.

Sun Du held Xie Tang's hand instead, and continued, "Then Jiang Chengwen took me to many, you know, gatherings of people like them, and I, as his new favorite, was shown off for a while. At one gathering, I got to know Yan Quan—the reason why I knew him was that from the very first moment I saw him, I realized that he was not actually a member of Jiang Chengwen's circle. Sometimes he would look disgusted when watching...that kind of performance ...He can't hide it, because I, like him, rely on disguises in this circle...It's just that he is seeking money and power, and I am dying."

"At that time, I thought, maybe he will be a breakthrough for me to escape - but not necessarily, such a person who is good at disguising, must be ruthless and smart, and may not lend a helping hand to help me with everything... It's just me I have been keeping an eye on him, and I have been secretly planning to escape. I tried to figure out Jiang Chengwen's work and rest, activity patterns, the time for bodyguards at the door to take turns, the surrounding terrain and traffic, etc., but my free time for activities is too little, I can There is too little to grasp, so my escape plan is extremely slow."

"And at this time, Lin Qingqing, who was dissatisfied with me because I fell out of favor for a while, told Jiang Chengwen that I was planning to run away in order to call back her master's love and attention to her—even though it was true. She also found a A piece of paper that I secretly hid, on which I drew an abstract topographical map, as evidence that I was dishonest and did not treat my master with sincerity—even though it was true.”

Sun Du shrugged, not caring at all.

"Then, my nightmare really started." Sun Du said, his smile gradually disappeared.

"Jiang Chengwen and his friends said that rape might not be appropriate? They came up in turn and gave me hyperactive drugs. He asked the loyal Lin Qingqing to record the video. They were laughing, and Lin Qingqing was also laughing. They were very happy. I The consciousness is ups and downs, drifting for a while, walking lightly in the air, being torn apart for a while, and landing in a dirty sewer."

"I don't know how long it lasted, maybe I was foaming at the mouth, I was about to go into shock, I was about to die, they let me go, they came with a smile and left with a smile."

Sun Du said, "When I was awake, Jiang Chengwen showed me the video. He used a big projector, and he could see everything clearly. He wouldn't let me sleep, but he let me watch it. My head, let me keep looking."

Sun Du stopped, and he closed his eyes to stabilize his mind.

He looked at Xie Tang, and Xie Tang also looked at him.Xie Tang's eyes were still calm and tolerant, as if he could see all the suffering.

Silently, quietly, clear tears flowed from Sun Du's eyes.

"I'm going crazy, I'm really going crazy, I think that's it, that's it, I'm going to die," Sun Du said, "I'm in a daze, sometimes, I feel like I've become a monster, maybe A dog, or something else. But sometimes, I feel that I am not yet, I am still alive and I am still a human being. At the back, when Jiang Chengwen played those videos and said to me, 'Look at your dog, you really Cute.’ back when I was still learning how to laugh and bark.”

"I have lived like this for a long time, maybe more than half a year? Or longer? I was ups and downs in the sea, and I would sink in for a while, as if I was going to drown, and then I would come up again, wake up for a moment, and tell myself ,'Sun Du, what the hell are you doing? What will your mother do if you continue like this??'"

Xie Tang stretched out his hand holding the flashlight and umbrella, and gently wiped away the tears on Sun Du's face with the back of his hand.

His strength is very light and gentle.

He looked at Sun Du with quiet eyes.

Sun Du also looked at him quietly, "Am I crying?" he asked.

Xie Tang nodded, he said, "You are crying."

Sun Du laughed suddenly, "I thought I would never shed tears for myself again in my life."

Xie Tang said nothing.

"Slowly, Jiang Chengwen felt that I was obedient and obedient, and he was not so interested in me anymore—after all, he always has new dogs waiting for him. I am also slowly waking up." Wataru said.

"Until one day, I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, so I went out quietly. I heard Jiang Chengwen chatting with people in his circle on the phone. They were discussing a big party in a few months, and there were many fresh and good goods in it. Jiang Chengwen said , he’s going to bring them an opening act. He says he’s going to have his newest, best-behaved dog in heat with a real dog on the party stage.”

"The best-behaved dog he mentioned was me."

Sun Du's expression was a little numb, "At that moment, I was completely awake. My mind has never been clearer. I think Jiang Chengwen wanted to kill me. He not only wanted to kill my ego, but also completely killed me. me."

Sun Du pulled out an ugly smile, "So, I made up my mind to kill him."

He looked at Xie Tang, and didn't hide his distortion, "I blocked Yan Quan in the toilet when I went out with Jiang Chengwen. I joined forces with Yan Quan to kill Jiang Chengwen—he was seeking money, and I was murdered."

"Yan Quan deliberately asked Jiang Chengwen to go out for a drink, drugged him and dealt with him. Of course he didn't kill him, but he was severely comatose. Then Yan Quan said to the bodyguard driver outside, Jiang Shao fell asleep, and he must send me back first. They were not suspicious, and I was sent back as obediently as usual. Then I went to Jiang Chengwen's study and stole all Jiang Chengwen's cards, documents, etc. In the middle of the night, Yan Quan's people picked me up again according to the agreement Walk."

"Then, he transferred his property and transferred the things under Jiang Chengwen's name—equivalent to most of the Jiang family—to his own account. After making sure that everything was safe, he began the final step of destroying the corpse. Of course, the best thing to do is to know everything Everyone disappeared," Sun Du said with a smile, "He tied Jiang Chengwen to the driver's seat and me to the passenger seat. A car was pushed down from the top of a winding mountain road. From slow to quick--"

"Finally, it hit a tree with a 'bang dong', and the car overturned to the ground. I saw Jiang Chengwen struggling desperately. He was so desperate. The veins on his forehead burst out. I kept laughing and laughing, and then I felt from my pocket. A paper knife came out—I hid it from Jiang Chengwen's study. I cut the rope and climbed out of the car. Jiang Chengwen looked at me and kept yelling. I crawled out, my head was covered in blood , I just looked at him and laughed, and kept laughing. Then there was a 'bang', the car exploded, and the flames rushed me aside."

The cigarette in Sun Du's hand was about to burn to the end, so he extinguished the cigarette, and crushed the cigarette butt on the ground with his foot.

He looked at Xie Tang, the tears on his face had dried up, only a sigh-like smile remained on the corner of his mouth, "At that time, Xia Chan finally sang, they sang very loudly, as if they were going to call their lives Come back. I woke up, surrounded by noise, I thought, now that the cicadas are singing, I don’t want to die.”

"I got up from the ground, I knew I had to get out of here quickly, Yan Quan's people would definitely come for an autopsy soon. I walked a long way, I fell down and got up again, I knelt when I couldn't walk On the ground, I couldn't crawl anymore, my hands were full of blood blisters, and I was arched on the ground. Maybe God saw that I should die, so I was rescued by kind people and sent to the hospital. When I woke up, the doctor asked my family number , I said my mother's phone number."

"That was the first time I saw my mother after I finally left Jiang Chengwen after more than a year."

"My mother rushed to the hospital, hugged me and cried bitterly. She has been trying her best to find me for a year. She has lived a very hard life. She used her body to inquire about my information, but she and I are too humble. She There was no way to ask for help, and I thought I was dead countless times, and I wanted to die. But at least I believed that her son would survive no matter what, so I insisted on it. From that moment on, I knew that I wanted to live longer than Everyone is good, I want to live a better life with my mother than anyone else."

Sun Du said, "Even if everyone looks down on me, arranges me, disdains me, despises me, disgusts me, and talks about me behind my back, even if I'm a scumbag and a despicable thing in this life, I still want to live, and I want to live a better life." Everyone is fine."

"Then, there was nothing else to say. Yan Quan wanted to pull me out to take the blame and appease the Jiang family's anger, but I was blackmailed. I seduced Ge Ruilin and transferred the things under Yan Quan's subordinates to my name. 40.00% of the shares and 30.00% of the shares of the Yan family are all in my hands."

"Xie Tang, look, it's good to have power and power. From then on, these dogs never barked at me again, and quietly behaved with their tails between their legs," Sun Du said with a smile, full of malice .

"My story is finished, thank you for listening so attentively." Sun Du looked at Xie Tang and said.

Xie Tang remained silent. Like Sun Du, he didn't have the habit of commenting on other people's past.

Holding the flashlight, he stopped suddenly. He and Sun Du were standing on the embankment beside the lake. The night wind blew their hair, but it didn't disturb the light of the flashlight.

Xie Tang and Sun Du looked at each other, in front of them was a lake with their eyes closed, above their heads were twinkling stars, behind them were bustling trees and grass rustling.

After a long time, Xie Tang opened his hands, and the flashlight flickered because of his movement.

He looked at Sun Du quietly, and made a gesture of hugging.

Sun Du was stunned for a while, then laughed.

Sun Du rushed forward and hugged Xie Tang, and buried himself in Xie Tang's arms with ease.

"Thank you, Xie Tang." Sun Du said.

His embrace was so warm it made me want to cry.