Every time I lose my memory, I forget who my husband is

When Ran Mu rushed into Shen Fenggu's arms without hesitation, the man was knocked back two steps by the force, and immediately stabilized his figure. His first reaction was to raise his hand to support the young man's hip, In case Ran Mu lost his grip and fell.

At this moment, the young man in his arms looks like a clingy little koala, with thin arms and legs wrapped around him, his small head pressed against his neck, and soft curly hair rubbing against his heart.

Shen Fenggu opened his eyes, lowered his eyes calmly, firmly supported Ran Mu with his hands, and said in a hoarse voice: "What are you running around, hold it well, don't fall."

After explaining, the man turned around holding the little koala and walked to the hospital bed, put the things he was carrying in the other hand on the table, and then he freed the other hand to support Ran Mu's back, gently Slowly along the thin back, lowered his head and asked:

"What happened? Did you have a nightmare?"

Ran Mu buried his face on the man's neck and shoulders, shook his head slowly when he heard the sound, and whispered softly:

"Don't...you raised it...I heard you say...a lot of strange things...and grandpa..."

The young man's soft and fragile voice was obviously crying, and at the same time, Shen Fenggu also felt a faint wetness from his neck.

Ran Mu hadn't cried for a long time, since he grew into a 19-year-old youth, even though he would howl a few times every time he was out of breath or sad, he never really shed tears.

The little dolphin has always been quite strong, even when he was a child, he didn't like to cry, but today, he actually cried.

Shen Fenggu's arms embracing the young man suddenly tightened, he was stunned for a while, he regained his composure, lowered his eyes, his Adam's apple slowly moved, and after a while he said in a hoarse voice:

"Nothing, raising and raising is just a nightmare. How can I not want you?"

"You liar!" Ran Mu howled angrily, but his hidden peach eyes became even more moist.

He sobbed uncontrollably, raised his head abruptly, his pretty face was flushed from crying, he just looked at Shen Fenggu so ferociously, trembling softly, complaining word by word:

"You're a bad guy... Secretly gave birth to... Yang Yang's anger, Yang Yang was disobedient when he was a child, insisted on playing with fire... still forget you, break your heart, just remember... remember, now... now, If Yang Yang is disobedient and angry with you, you just...don't want me..."

Every time the young man uttered a word, his whole body seemed to tremble with force, and he opened his eyes clearly pretending to be fierce, as if making trouble out of no reason, but the moment the first sentence fell... tears fell like rain.

He didn't seem to feel that he was crying at all, he just gritted his teeth and tried to speak the questioning words, but the tears that were as heavy as a thousand catties kept falling down, and every drop was condensed with endless panic and sadness.

It was the despair and sadness of being abandoned by the most important person. It was clearly just accusing and questioning, but what he said was that he was disobedient and that he made Shen Fenggu sad.

"Did Yangyang... want to be angry with you, but Yangyang doesn't know why he is disobedient..."

Ran Mu stubbornly tried to explain what he did in Shen Fenggu's memory, but he himself did not understand how much the sea monster's nature had affected him. No matter what the reason, it seemed that he could not erase the hurt Shen Fenggu had done. Strong facts.

In the end, there was really no other way, and the young man could only bury his head against the man's neck, clinging tightly to the man's arms as if he had lost all his strength, whimpering softly:

"Nursing is not...intentional..."

Shen Fenggu didn't speak the whole time, and looked at the young man with deep and quiet eyes, like a silent lake on a snowy night, hidden in the dark night lonely and darkly.

When Ran Mu's tears fell on the man's neck, the originally calm lake surface was finally burned with pain, and ripples were formed layer by layer, from the surface to the inside, from the shallow to the deep, deep into the bone marrow, and sneaked into the heart , Even the pain is silent, spreading through every inch of blood vessel.

He watched the young man weep unknowingly, his expression was full of panic and helplessness, for a moment, his heart suddenly felt so painful that it seemed to stop beating.That is the heartache and regret that will never be forgotten in my life, and I am afraid that I will never let go of it for the rest of my life.

The arms around the young man tightened more and more. Finally, the man lowered his head and pressed it against the young man's ear. A hoarse voice seemed to come from far away, and said slowly:

"It's not Yangyang's fault. From the beginning to the end, I don't feel that Yangyang has angered me, let alone hurt me."

"Nursing, love has always been a matter of wishful thinking, because when two people are together, wishful thinking becomes mutual affection. But we were not together from the beginning.

Yangyang comes from the ocean, and he yearns for freedom, which no one can say.You didn't take the initiative to let me take care of you at the beginning, but I insisted on keeping you by my side. "

"So, Yangyang didn't feel sorry for anyone, let alone me. Because I hope Yangyang will remember me and stay by my side. Once people want to have it, they will be afraid of losing. This is instinct. It is my own fear of being forgotten, and Yangyang has nothing to do with it. Yangyang is sick, and it's none of your business to forget me."

"No..." Ran Mu shook his head incoherently, and murmured: "If I listen to you and don't do dangerous things, you won't be afraid... If I... regard you as more independent, no, If you are a little more important than yourself, I will never forget you..."

Six years after Ran Mu met Shen Fenggu, he finally realized this...

It turns out that their feelings have never been equal.

Shen Fenggu was afraid that he would fall asleep, be afraid that he would die, be afraid that he would leave and go back to the sea, be afraid that he would be harmed by others and himself if he was ignorant...

But what about Ran Mu...

It seemed that from the moment he landed, he didn't really take Shen Fenggu to heart.

In his eyes, humans and sea monsters are just different.Maybe he cares about his strength, but he can't abandon his instincts, pursue freedom persistently, and act willfully.

Shen Fenggu didn't let him do dangerous things, so he simply forgot about the other party in a fit of anger and used the cruelest punishment.Shen Fenggu didn't want him to suffer in the human world, so he insisted on going his own way to "grow".

He is a sea monster, he doesn't know to be afraid, he can't be hurt, he is used to waking up and forgetting everything, children will never know what their actions represent and what the consequences will be.So forgetting the strong character is not too important for the young Ran Mu.

He doesn't understand some behaviors, which may seem nothing to him, but they actually hurt the person who loves him the most.

The emotional balance was tilted from the very beginning.

The black cloth of the shirt on the shoulders was completely wet at some point, Shen Fenggu slightly loosened his tight arms, turned around holding the person, and sat on the hospital bed.

The big hand with distinct phalanges was attached to the young man's back, and he stroked it patiently and calmly.

If Ran Mu looked up at this time, he would find how soft and meaningful the eyes of the man who had always been calm and calm looked at him, filled with endless love.

"I'm very happy. Yangyang is sensible and knows how to think about me." Shen Fenggu said in a low voice, as if he was considering the appropriate words, "But my feelings for Yangyang should not be your burden. It's not others who treat you Well, you have to feel guilty and change yourself, the sea monster is driven by instinct, and it is not easy to change..."

"But..." Ran Mu sobbed, and said sadly: "Yangyang doesn't understand anything, Yangyang knows you are sad, Yangyang is like you, Yangyang is also afraid of forgetting you now, can't live without you... you Trust me, I'm really not self-willed...you can't let me go..."

"Okay, I know." Shen Fenggu kissed the young man's ear soothingly, and coaxed: "I understand, Yangyang is not afraid. Yangyang gave me a surprise today, you did a good job, don't cry OK"

"I can give you many, many surprises." Ran Mu quickly raised his head, his peach eyes and pretty face were flushed from crying, sobbing:

"I know that you are afraid that I will be bullied by others. I will not be brave. I know that you are better than Yangyang, and you are familiar with human beings. You can do many things. I will discuss with you after I was raised. You will not secretly beat people by yourself. If you want to fight The bad guys will also take you, so that you can protect and support me, and I will not do dangerous things."

It is true that it is easy for Shen Fenggu to deal with the troubles encountered by Ran Mu, and he is far safer than Ran Mu in doing things, provided that Ran Mu is willing to let him intervene.

It's not that Ran Mu doesn't know this, it's just that he stubbornly believes that he wants to be free and independent, so he refuses Shen Fenggu's protection.

However, at this moment when he was awakened, he realized that no matter how independent he was, he was still under the wings of Shen Fenggu.It's just that Shen Fenggu hid the huge wings and didn't let him find out.

"I can... protect myself well. If you are afraid that I will be hurt, I will not remove the ability of the sea monster. I don't want to get hurt on purpose. Someone scolded me on the Internet, and I will ask you to help me settle it. I won't learn from the book. If the bad guys are defeated, they will be defeated, and I will not waste time to take risks."

"I won't forget you on purpose just because I'm angry. Yangyang will always remember you and won't make you sad."

Ran Mu promised in a panic, his red eyes blinked again and again, his fingers tightly clutched the clothes on the man's chest, and he made the promise seriously.

He understood everything, he knew why Shen Fenggu was in pain, and he also knew why the other party was worried, so he revealed his heart word by word, just like Shen Fenggu had no reservations about him, and he really started to speak clumsily Learn to love someone and not let the person who loves him worry.

Every time he said a word, the man's eyes became softer.

In the end, Shen Fenggu approached slowly, touched Ran Mu's forehead, looked at each other, breathing intertwinedly, and said in a low voice:

"Even if Yangyang doesn't make these promises, I won't want you. That conversation with the old man was just a desperate last resort. If Yangyang forgets me, I will respect you, but at the same time, I will let you go." To protect you with hands and feet, there has never been a need for you in this place."

Ran Mu is the only existence that depends on Shen Fenggu for life. He raises him, pets him, takes care of him, loves him, and grows up with him. It has long been a habit and evolved into an instinct.

This is a feeling that is deeply rooted in the flesh and blood, and it is difficult to get rid of it. Once an accident happens, it will hurt the muscles and bones.

"So you don't have to be afraid of raising up." Shen Fenggu repeated this sentence over and over again, looking at the young man with firm and gentle eyes, tolerant and deep, like the vast and boundless sea on a moonlit night.

"But Yangyang did something wrong..." Ran Mu's flushed peach eyes were still seeping tears, and for the first time, Shen Fenggu's figure was completely and clearly reflected in those clear eyes.

"Yangyang knows you are sad...but Yangyang doesn't know what to do..."

He will promise, he has learned to promise, but promise is not enough, let alone a sea monster like him who often loses his memory.

The man put his hand on Ran Mu's chest, stroked it lightly, and said, "The promise is enough. As long as the child is raised in peace, everything will be fine."

Hearing this, Ran Mu threw himself into Shen Fenggu's arms, hugging Shen Fenggu's neck tightly with trembling hands.

However, in the next second, he suddenly seemed to think of something, let go of his arm, grabbed Shen Fenggu's hand, lowered his head, opened his mouth, and bit Shen Fenggu's wrist, and quickly tasted the rust.

At the moment when Shen Fenggu was bitten, the muscles on his arms reflexively tensed for a moment, and then relaxed again, just as if Ran Mu was acting like a baby.

Unexpectedly, after the young man bit his wrist, he drank a little of his blood, and his brows furrowed.

Shen Fenggu suddenly froze, and asked in a hoarse voice: "What is Yangyang doing?"

Ran Mu shook his head, raised his head after a long time, looked at the man with wet eyes, and said in a crying voice:

"Yangyang, don't forget you again. Sea monsters can't eat human blood. If you eat it voluntarily, you will have to follow that person for the rest of your life. Yangyang can't forget you. As long as you feed my prototype dolphin blood every day, I won't Leaving you. The Elder said, if the sea monster really wants to stay with a person, do so."

"You believe in nurturing, don't be sad in the future..."

Shen Fenggu didn't make a sound for a long time, but raised his hand to caress Ran Mu's face, Ran Mu's eyes, and Ran Mu's hair soothingly.He supported the young man's head, and slowly moved closer, his thin lips imprinted on Ran Mu's, and his Adam's apple moved slightly, deepening the kiss slowly and firmly.

This was a kiss that was much slower and more cautious than usual, inch by inch, the man invaded, occupied, entangled, and lingered.

Ran Mu tightened his grip on the man's shirt, his waist became weak, and he stuck to the man's arms more tightly, closing his eyes attached.

Tears welled up in the corners of her eyes, and she was kissed tenderly away.

This kiss was repeated over and over again, chasing each other, they were like wounded and lonely beasts, each of them retreated, and the other entangled again, in the long intimacy and comfort, all the aching wounds were calmed down.

At the end of the kiss, Ran Mu barely had any strength left, leaning against the man's arms, he couldn't hide his throbbing body.Being hugged and pressed onto the bed, the clothes were taken off, and the thin white hands were pulled over, and they stroked each other for a long time, before they held the man's clothes tightly and calmed down.

There are still emotional tears in the corners of his eyes, and his eyes are blurred and full of nostalgia.

Shen Fenggu was distressed that he hadn't prepared enough and didn't make it to the end, so he carried him to the bathroom, and carried him out again after washing.

Ran Mu was still entwined face to face with the man, his delicate face was hot, with a long-lasting blush, pressed against the man's shoulder.

Shen Fenggu hugged him and sat back on the sofa, kissed the corner of his mouth comfortingly, and asked in a hoarse voice: "Will it be uncomfortable?"

Ran Mu shook his head, tightened his arms, and even though his face was flushed, he mustered up his courage, and Nuo Nuo said: "Yang Yang likes being with you..."

Shen Fenggu kissed the corner of the young man's eyes lightly, and said hoarsely, "I love you."

Ran Mu's fingers trembled, and he gripped the opponent's clothes tightly, and buried his face.

This is the second time Shen Fenggu said that sentence, the first time was when they got married, unfortunately Ran Mu forgot, so he thought it was the first time he said it.

Shen Fenggu hugged him and comforted him for a long time, until Ran Mu calmed down, he asked:

"How did Yangyang hear what I said to the old man?"

Ran Mu frowned when he heard the sound, raised his head nervously, squeezed his fingers and said, "The sea monster...can hear. The closest person can hear what the closest person is saying, but only when Yangyang is asleep."

"So you heard it early this morning?" Shen Fenggu asked.

"Yeah. Yangyang has been having nightmares and wanted to come out to find you, but you were not there when he woke up." Ran Mu said aggrievedly.

"I'm going to deal with Weibo matters, and I have to buy breakfast for Yangyang." Shen Fenggu said, stretched out his hand to take the breakfast on the table, stuffed a steamed bun into Ran Mu's mouth, and helped him Insert the soy milk into the straw, and feed Ran Mu with it.

Ran Mu ate the buns, tasted the familiar taste, nodded in satisfaction, took another sip of soy milk, and said eagerly, "I want potato pancakes."

Shen Fenggu then fed him potato pancakes.

"Did you not have breakfast?" Ran Mu also imitated the man's movements, feeding Shen Fenggu a steamed stuffed bun, and inserting a straw for the milk, feeding him in a similar manner.

"Yeah. So I bought a lot of breakfast and delayed a little time. I'm afraid I won't be able to eat enough." Shen Fenggu slightly hooked his lips, his eyes were deep and his face was handsome.

Ran Mu blinked with a blushing face, and asked: "Then you ignored Yang Yang yesterday because you were angry? Yang Yang went to take risks because he didn't listen to you, and he didn't let you manage..."

"No, I'm just angry that I can't hide it from Yang Yang to help you. I know everything about Weibo and the crew. It's not that I can't handle it. I just don't want you to think that I'm authoritarian, arranging your life, and depriving you of your growth. Opportunity."

Shen Fenggu told the truth, but his eyebrows and eyes were quite calm, and he even joked in a low voice:

"If you're a little more stupid, I don't have to worry about you getting mad at me for helping you."

"I'm sorry." Ran Mu frowned, bit the steamed stuffed bun and said distressedly: "Actually, Yang Yang doesn't think you are autocratic, it's just that Yang Yang thinks differently from you. I'm not afraid of hot water, nor of Weibo. People scold me, even the elders won't mind these things, I kind of... want to say that if you don't feel sad, I will continue to play..."

Yes, trolls on the Internet and Yan Momo pouring hot water are just toys in the eyes of sea monsters.Others thought that Ran Mu was hurt, but in fact, he didn't take it to heart at all, just like watching a toy dog ​​bite him, he wouldn't be sad at all, at most he would be a little angry, and wanted to slap him in the face and go back.

"I know that Yangyang doesn't care about that, but I will feel sorry for you." Shen Fenggu said slowly, and patiently explained: "If you don't let me help you, I will definitely worry. Yangyang, human beings are not completely harmless, if I said……"

Shen Fenggu was silent for a moment, his eyes darkened, and he was a little bit gloomy, and said:

"If I said, I once thought about not letting you film and confining you at home, would you feel scared? This time you can choose to be scalded by boiling water in order to complete the plot, then next time, if you act What about more dangerous plots? Do you want to do the same?"

"Yangyang, I'm not afraid of death, but I'm afraid of your death.

You want to be independent, so I let you go, I will send you bodyguards, let the robot dog accompany you, and explain to Song Yan and the old man in advance, let them take more care of you.People watch Weibo all the time, worrying about any accidents.

But you know what I used to do? "

Shen Fenggu laughed hoarsely, and spoke slowly, with an unclear expression.

"I will choose to nip all dangers in the bud. None of those who threaten you will appear. I can destroy them without even a little bit of guilt. People with a rhythm on Weibo, I can make He crawled out of the entertainment circle on his knees and apologized to you."

"I even feel regretful. I shouldn't have promised you to play Jin. Lord's lover's little game. I shouldn't have allowed you to be independent. You don't know what fear is. You should be hidden and treated as my own baby."

"But I didn't do it. I want to teach you some positive things. Shen Fenggu will not be a good person, but Yangyang will be a good boy."

Ran Mu looked into the man's eyes in a daze, as if seeing such a strong character for the first time.

Indeed, as the man said, in the past many years, Shen Fenggu has been harmless in front of Ran Mu, and his image is also very positive. He is sensible and gentlemanly, stable and reliable, and he is principled and responsible in doing things, although sometimes he is too strict. But most of them choose to reason with Ran Mu, quite democratic and considerate.

This is actually contrary to the iron-blooded education that men receive.Maybe it's because I haven't had an easy life in my life, and I even walk all the way with thorns and thorns, and my feet are dripping with blood.He didn't want Ran Mu to become like himself.

There was silence in the ward, and Ran Mu looked at Shen Fenggu quietly, frowning, as if digesting the words he heard.

After a long time, he leaned over slowly, knocked the other person's forehead lightly, then smiled with his eyes bent, and said softly:

"When Yang Yang was young, he was angry and said, I think I am a fish in a glass tank. Actually I am not."

The man's narrow and dark eyes have been watching him for many years. Inside, there are thousands of miles of stars and a boundless sea.

"You are the sea you raised, so I am still a dolphin in the sea. Without dolphins, I would be afraid of the vastness and unfathomable depth of the sea."

Shen Fenggu didn't speak, but just leaned over and knocked Ran Mu's forehead in the same way.

The five-year-long scar that had lingered on the man's heart finally healed today and gained redemption.