The hero asked for a divorce for me

Lin Miao is a person full of hope.Even if there are countless flaws in him, big and small, there are still many headaches, but his advantage is probably that no matter what kind of environment he is placed in, he can work hard to live.I have never encountered any accidents, and I can quickly adjust my mentality even when I encounter small setbacks occasionally. I am positive and very optimistic.

Xie Yan is different from Lin Miao.The first half of his life did not follow his wishes, and he grew up amidst countless humiliation and cold reception.Even though outwardly he can be handsome, handsome and cold, but inside he is a person who has low expectations for life and even some self-loathing.

He wanted to trample the Duke's Mansion under his feet, but he knew the danger of this move, but he never flinched or was afraid, and he would not hesitate to burn jade and stone together.Ask for nothing and fear nothing.Who knew that a coward would suddenly appear on the way, making him dizzy now, and suddenly timid again.

Xie Yan used to think that some things were controllable, how could such things as weaknesses exist without his permission?It's just that he didn't expect that the turbulent emotions and the existence of weakness are not things that can be controlled, as long as there is one, he cannot give up.

Xie Yan couldn't control the things that he didn't usually think about on rainy nights, and his emotions were infinitely magnified in his mind, mixed and excited, bursting out together, making Xie Yan's head dull.

Lin Miao didn't know what Xie Yan was thinking, he just nestled in Xie Yan's arms, put his hands up behind his back, and put his palms flat on Xie Yan's shoulder blades, comforting Xie Yan and himself.

"A Miao." Xie Yan said suddenly, "Do you want to hear about my affairs?"

Lin Miao originally had his eyes closed, but now he opened them. He moved his head back and looked into Xie Yan's eyes, "Think."

Of course he wanted to hear about Xie Yan, but he didn't know how to open his mouth, and he was afraid that it would make people sad if he touched the part Xie Yan didn't want to mention, so he kept holding back.Now that Xie Yan wanted to take the initiative to speak, Lin Miao was of course willing to listen.

Xie Yan's head is not as clear as usual, but his speech is still fluent, but his tone is flat, as if he is telling the story of an unrelated person, "My mother gave birth to me out of wedlock, and the family is ashamed of her. My father once promised her Bringing her into the Duke's Mansion, my grandfather's family once persuaded my mother to abandon me, but remembering my father's promise, she took me out.

For as long as I can remember, my mother was a weak person.My father was her only expectation, and she also said that the best man in the world, but she never thought that this man had already broken his promise and married someone else.After learning about this, my mother went crazy from time to time.She said that I look like my father, sometimes hugging me very affectionately, sometimes going crazy and beating me, and then when I was four years old, "

When Xie Yan said this, Lin Miao realized that the previous events only happened when Xie Yan was two or three years old.Xie Yan's strokes were a bit light, but in reality Lin Miao knew that a mother who was caught in extreme emotions used her child as a tool to vent, so how could it be a restrained spanking.

Lin Miao was afraid of hearing what he was afraid of hearing, so he didn't even dare to ask in detail, only listening to Xie Yan continue.

"When I was four years old, my mother finally gave up hope for my father. In addition, she met an ordinary man and decided to marry him. But she was afraid that I would be a drag, and she planned to sell me out. I have already been sent away, so it was that man who chased me to redeem me," said Xie Yan with a smile on his lips, "That man also has a daughter, and he treats others generously."

Lin Miao felt more and more sad. She didn't say anything, but hugged Xie Yan more tightly with both hands.

The thunder that fell outside the city rumbled and came slowly, interweaving the chill of winter rainy night through the outer wall and the sound of rain.

"However, within two years, people from the Duke's Mansion sent out to look for us. At that time, I didn't expect it," Xie Yan's emotions surged up exponentially, and it was difficult to finish it all at once, so he paused before continuing, " I didn't expect my mother to send me back like a hot potato without any hesitation. It's just that the Duke's Mansion wants to give me an identity after all, and it's not easy to get a bad reputation, so I brought her into the mansion Give a name."

"It's strange to say," Xie Yan said, "At that time, I felt that I couldn't help her and let her be implicated by me. I also thought that according to her original situation, it was appropriate to beat me when she got sick, but I didn't think of her. Madness is very good at judging the situation, after entering the Duke's mansion, he has never been seen again."

When Xie Yan said this, he stopped for a long time, then looked down at Lin Miao, frowning, as if confirming who the person in his arms was.When Xie Yan's gaze gathered and he clearly recognized the person in his arms, Xie Yan felt relieved and continued to speak.

"My father took me back because he listened to my grandmother and didn't care about me and my mother. But in the first two years, because I was the only boy in the family, life was not very difficult. My wife didn't like me. I used excuses to punish me. The first time I didn’t understand, I turned around and complained to my mother, but I didn’t expect to get comfort, but my mother warned me not to implicate her.”

"I saw her less in the future, and when my wife gave birth to a son, I became more and more dispensable. My wife had no children a few years ago, so I had to endure it. After giving birth to my eldest son, I felt that I was a humiliation in her heart, and I became more and more disrespectful." Belittle me. Everyone knows that I can be bullied, and even the son in charge is a head older than me. If something goes wrong, he will slap me twice at will, and step on my food in front of me. These things happen almost every day."

However, these stewards, who were very vicious in front of him, were all as timid as a mouse when they were in front of his father or wife, for fear of making mistakes.From then on, Xie Yan knew that if he wanted to end these humiliations, he couldn't just stay where he was and let others slaughter him.

These are probably brief statements, there are too many specifics to humiliate Xie Yan, and I don't want to tell Lin Miao who is about to cry.

Lin Miao felt that she was too unqualified, so she couldn't say anything to comfort Xie Yan at this time, but she was overwhelmed by sad emotions. At this time, her eyes were so hot that two round teardrops rolled down in the blink of an eye.

Lin Miao felt that his previous melancholy was nothing at all. Compared with Xie Yan, he almost lived in a honeypot.Even if his parents paid more attention to his brother, so what, at least his parents never treated him harshly.

Xie Yan's father is an indifferent scum, his stepmother needless to say, and his biological mother is not only weak and deceitful, selfishness is her biggest evil.Xie Yan grew up without any sense of security at all. He was frustrated again and again in fear and humiliation, and then he gradually became cold and hard.But even so, Xie Yan's emotions that accompanied him from childhood to now are just wrapped in a sharp shell by him, and at any time, a thunderclap will split his mask and seduce his deep-seated emotions. pain.

Lin Miao's tears flowed down one after another, Xie Yan stopped to look at him, then couldn't help but bowed his head and kissed Lin Miao's face, kissing away his salty tears one by one.

The tip of Lin Miao's nose became more sour because of this, "Why are they all so bad?"

He clung to Xie Yan's body, hurriedly kissed Xie Yan's forehead and cheeks, crying in his mouth, his heart throbbing with pain, wishing to travel through time at this moment to hug and protect the little Xie Yan at that time.

"I'm also bad," Xie Yan lowered his voice, "I've killed people before, and I'll kill many more, but don't be afraid of me, okay?"

The panic in Xie Yan's heart came out, and before Lin Miao could make a sound, he became ruthless again, hugged Lin Miao tightly and said, "No matter what you think in your heart, whether you are afraid of me or not, you can only by my side."

But Xie Yan was entangled in his heart. What he said bluntly because of his emotions was quickly overturned by his own hesitation, "No, no, maybe you should stay away from me, I should send you away, you Not the same as me... If you want to leave, tell me when I am awake, and I will send you away."

He spoke so incoherently that Lin Miao's whole heart was melted by Xie Yan's pity.

"I will be good," Lin Miao put his arms around Xie Yan's neck and promised him, "I am not afraid of you, I will always be with you, you are not bad, not bad at all."

Lin Miao didn't want to deal with the disputes in the court, and he didn't feel that he had the position to criticize Xie Yan's desire to seize power and revenge.Just listening to Xie Yan's dictation, he wished he could kill all the people in the Duke's mansion a hundred and eighty times, let alone Xie Yan himself?

Lin Miao rubbed Xie Yan's cheeks with her fingertips, then pinched Xie Yan's earlobe lightly, "You only like me, and I will always be with you."

On Xie Yan's face was a clean smile like a child's, and joy suddenly burned like a cluster of small flames.

"I only like you, the first time I like you so much, and I will always like you so much."

Lin Miao broke into a smile. He raised his head and kissed Xie Yan's lips actively. He tasted the salty taste of tears between their lips, but it was quickly swallowed and turned into a trace of sweetness between their lips. .

Xie Yan considers himself an extremely bad person.He has the selfishness of his mother in his bones, and the decisiveness and cruelty of his father. His childhood experience has pulled his soft parts out of his body. What is left is just a combination of bad traits. the wicked.

Even just now, every word Xie Yan uttered has been deduced by him.He pretended to be generous and got the answer he wanted to hear from Lin Miao.

Xie Yan was satisfied.Lin Miao said what he wanted to hear, and the joy in his heart was like flowers blooming.And even if Lin Miao said something he didn't want to hear, Xie Yan still wouldn't really push Lin Miao away as he promised, he would only tie Lin Miao more and more to his side.

However, the chill of the rainy night was dissipated by the heat of the entanglement of limbs, and after all, winter has gradually come to an end.