Delicacy

The first thought in Qin Yuanmu's mind was that Lian Xiao had failed in his studies and could even smoke.But he thought about it again, what does this have to do with him now?

Therefore, Qin Yuanmu hesitated to take the steps he wanted to take.

Lian Xiao coughed for a while, recovered and looked at Qin Yuanmu under the street lamp, he even forgot to smoke the cigarette in his hand, and the bluish white smoke slowly floated up in the cold air.

The two of them just stood still, staring at each other intently.

"Lian Xiao," after a long time, Qin Yuanmu's frozen nose was almost numb, and he opened his mouth slowly. The cold wind took the opportunity to pour into his throat, and there was a burst of bitterness, "Long time no see."

Lian Xiao just came back to his senses, he didn't have the ease of being in the kitchen at all, and he stumbled: "Yes, yes... But I think, there is really no need for us to see each other again, right?"

These words made Qin Yuanmu fall into silence again.Yes, the breakup was brought up by him, and there is really no need to say goodbye.But maybe it's because he lost that he knows how to cherish, maybe Qin Yuanmu's affection for Lian Xiao is deeper than he imagined, and he really wants to see Lian Xiao again.

Although he and Lian Xiao are no longer in the previous relationship.

It was Lian Xiao who broke the silence again. After a few minutes of shutdown, his brain seemed to be back to normal now. When Lian Xiao faced Qin Yuanmu again, his eyes no longer dodged.Isn't it just breaking up? He Lian Xiao is not so stingy, so it's okay to have a chat together when we meet again.

Lian Xiao walked slowly in front of Qin Yuanmu, and raised his arm slightly.Qin Yuanmu thought that Lian Xiao was going to hit him, so he turned his head instinctively, but Lian Xiao just patted the snowflakes falling on his shoulder, and said in a soft voice: "Now, you still like to wear thin clothes in the snow. Standing in the field? Have you been drinking?"

Qin Yuanmu nodded, Lian Xiao's concerned words made his nose return to normal, and his nose felt sore for a while.

"Let's go," Lian Xiao picked up a cigarette and rubbed his frozen fingers, "It's still early, find a teahouse to wake up."

Qin Yuanmu nodded again, not daring to say a word, and slowly followed behind Lian Xiao.

"Look at your clothes, you work in a bank now?"

"Yes, after graduating last year, I went to the bank."

"quite handsome."

"...Really? I think it's average. You've learned a lot this year. During the meal, everyone at the table praised your skills."

"Really? Some skills are learned later, while others are known long ago."

Lian Xiao seemed to be quite familiar with this area, and took Qin Yuanmu through the streets and alleys with ease, and the two chatted without saying a word while walking.

The two of them kept silent about their previous breakup. From the perspective of outsiders, the two of them were just like friends who hadn't seen each other for many years. The deep strangeness made the chat with each other a bit perfunctory.After Qin Yuanmu gradually calmed down, he suddenly felt powerless. Lian Xiao in his impression should not be like this.Even if Lian Xiao threw himself into his arms and cried and cursed, even if Lian Xiao pushed him to the ground and beat him up, he shouldn't be talking about whether his suit looks good or not like he is now.

It's like the kind of blunt compliments from people who have nothing in common.

Originally, at this point, the normal teahouses had long been closed, but it may be because of the fierce competition these years, it really made Lian Xiao find one that was still in business.

The sleepy-looking waiter took them to a private room, Qin Yuanmu casually ordered a pot of Longjing, and then asked the waiter to go out.Under the bright light, Qin Yuanmu finally looked at Lian Xiao carefully.

If you want to talk about changes, it’s really nothing. Lian Xiao is no different from his last memory, even his hairstyle hasn’t changed, it’s still just tied on his head.Perhaps the biggest change is that when looking at him, there is no longer the feeling of smiling.

Perhaps the aura between Qin Yuanmu and Lian Xiao was indeed a bit weird. The waiter in the teahouse served the tea and walked out tactfully, leaving them a separate space.

The tea leaves were completely filtered in the pot, and the tea in the cup was as clear as amber, emitting warm steam.The air conditioner in the room was also fully turned on, Qin Yuanmu took off his coat, and gently touched the teacup, it was a bit scalding.

Seeing Qin Yuanmu's appearance, Lian Xiao suddenly regretted coming to drink tea with him, took out a cigarette from his pocket, and lit another one.His addiction to smoking was not so great, but now he doesn't know what else to do besides smoking.

In the smog, Lian Xiao looked a little unreal, Qin Yuanmu looked at him and said, "How have you been this year?"

"It's okay," Lian Xiao said without expression, "It's just a test, cooking, it seems that Jitai has come recently, found a good restaurant, and should be able to continue working."

Qin Yuanmu nodded, being able to work as a chef in that kind of shop, at least in terms of income, Lian Xiao has already surpassed him by countless streets, it is really good.But this is good, and it can't offset Lian Xiao's pain. Qin Yuanmu didn't dare to think about what Lian Xiao was in the mood when he proposed to break up, so he could only apologize dryly: "Lian Xiao, I'm really, really sorry for you Yes, I broke up so easily at the beginning. Although it is because of the family, it is indeed my fault."

"My family found out, there is really nothing I can do..." Lian Xiao suddenly laughed, but Qin Yuanmu heard a faint sarcasm in his tone.

Qin Yuanmu smiled wryly, there was nothing to explain.In the early years, he did have the courage to come out to his family with Lian Xiao, but after something happened at home, when facing Wu Fenfang, Qin Yuanmu really couldn't say a lot.Besides, Qin Yuanmu understood that there was indeed a problem between him and Lian Xiao at that time, and even without Wu Fenfang, they might not be able to get better for long.

That is a fact, but Qin Yuanmu's reluctance and regret now are also true.

"What about you, how are you doing?" Lian Xiao asked after taking a sip of the hot tea.

Qin Yuanmu has answered this question countless times to different people. He has been very bad recently.But facing Lian Xiao, Qin Yuanmu didn't know what he was thinking, and said, "It's okay, now I'm working as an account manager, and my job...is pretty good."

Lian Xiao continued to drink tea with his head down: "I thought you would become a painter. It seems that I really don't understand you. You were right, we really have nothing in common."

Hearing Lian Xiao's complaining tone, Qin Yuanmu smiled bitterly and sighed: "This is my problem, I didn't insist on choosing my own path. But life is like this, if you don't become a painter, you can live well ?"

"Qin Yuanmu, you have really changed." Lian Xiao suddenly looked at him seriously, "In my impression, you shouldn't be like this. However, it seems that the reality is like this, people will change , You can live well without others, and of course you can live without the things you love.”

Qin Yuanmu was silent for a moment, and then suddenly laughed: "Lian Xiao, I never thought that one day we would sit face to face like this, talking about serious practical issues in a serious manner."

"Yeah, it's like I didn't expect you to give up on me." Lian Xiao stared at Qin Yuanmu intently.

Qin Yuanmu didn't see any emotion similar to resentment in Lian Xiao's eyes, but this made him feel even heavier.Lian Xiao didn't hate him, so naturally he didn't have any feelings for him.Yes, Lian Xiao seemed to be expounding an objective fact, not hoping that Qin Yuanmu could do something else.

After seeing Lian Xiao, Qin Yuanmu was expecting with guilt in his heart, but after chatting calmly for a while, the uneasiness eased a little.But now, after Lian Xiao uttered that sentence frankly, Qin Yuanmu was restless again. It seemed that Lian Xiao really had no expectations for him.

"Lian Xiao," Qin Yuanmu swallowed, a little nervous, "Are you still willing to give me a chance to make it up to you?"

Lian Xiao seemed to have expected that Qin Yuanmu would say this, and there was no surprise on his face, but he said calmly: "You don't need to compensate me, the relationship is a mutual matter between two people, and no one owes the other. Although I don't know Why, but I understand that there was a rift between us before we broke up. There is no need for Qin Yuanmu, it is enough to leave the happy memories of the past."

"But Lian Xiao..." Qin Yuanmu lowered his head, but couldn't say the rest of the sentence.

He was the one who gave up on Lian Xiao first, so why should Lian Xiao come here immediately after his call?Just like what Lian Xiao said just now, no one owes anyone, whether Qin Yuanmu regrets it or not, it has nothing to do with Lian Xiao.

Qin Yuanmu didn't understand this, but he really wanted to start over with Lian Xiao.

Lian Xiao looked at his watch: "It's getting late, hurry up and go home after drinking."

At this moment, Qin Yuanmu saw the original figure from Lian Xiao.Although Lian Xiao now belongs to the high-income group, he has not lost the simple feeling in his body, and he is reluctant to waste a pot of ordinary tea.This inexplicable thought relieved Qin Yuanmu a little, as if it could prove that Lian Xiao was still the same as before.If he is the only one who has changed, and Lian Xiao is still the same as before, can he still get Lian Xiao back?

Seeing that Qin Yuanmu didn't move as if he didn't hear anything, Lian Xiao looked at the time again anxiously: "I have to go to work tomorrow, so do you? Hurry up and don't waste time."

Qin Yuanmu came back to his senses, hurriedly finished a cup of warm tea, and followed Lian Xiao out of the house.

"Shall I take you home?" As soon as he went out, the coldness made Qin Yuanmu tighten his body, but he still insisted on saying this to Lian Xiao.

Lian Xiao might not feel like being harassed by Qin Yuanmu anymore, so he declined his kindness: "No, I'll just go back by myself, you should go home early too, don't let your mother worry."

Qin Yuanmu still had alcohol in his mind and was not very bright. Before he could figure out whether Lian Xiao's words were mocking him, Lian Xiao left in a hurry.

Qin Yuanmu trotted for two steps, and accidentally knocked on the trash can by the roadside, making a heavy muffled sound.But he didn't have time to take care of the knocked knee, and shouted at Lian Xiao: "Lian Xiao! Can I still eat at that restaurant in the future?"

Lian Xiao stopped when he heard the muffled sound, turned his head to look for a while, and finally resigned to his fate and returned to Qin Yuanmu's side, slowly helped him up and said, "Let me call a car for you, Drink less in the future."

Qin Yuanmu smiled: "Lian Xiao, sure enough you still care about me."

"After all, I met you once, shouldn't I care about you?" Lian Xiao asked back with no expression, which immediately extinguished Qin Yuanmu's just ignited ambition again.

Lian Xiao wanted to leave after calling a car on his mobile phone, but Qin Yuanmu held him back cheekily: "Can you stay with me for a while longer? Wait until the car arrives before leaving?"

Lian Xiao didn't reply, but he didn't leave either. Instead, he stood where he was and lit a cigarette again.

Qin Yuanmu also ordered one in the same way. They have been together for so many years and have never smoked together. He never expected to complete this achievement on this windy and snowy night after breaking up for a year.

Qin Yuanmu didn't speak anymore, for fear of annoying Lian Xiao again.Unexpectedly, when the cigarette was almost finished, Lian Xiao said to him: "It's fine to go to eat, but don't think about other things."

Lian Xiao didn't seem to be angry, but what he said was like pouring cold water on his face, Qin Yuanmu nodded silently.

The snowflakes in the sky have never been broken. Snowy nights should be romantic, but in Qin Yuanmu's impression, nothing good seems to have happened in snowy days.

The taxi came quickly, and after Qin Yuanmu got in the car, Lian Xiao turned around and left.Qin Yuanmu kept staring at his increasingly blurred back, but he didn't look back until Lian Xiao's figure disappeared completely.

Seeing Lian Xiao, Qin Yuanmu thought he would have an unreal feeling, but lying on the bed half asleep and half awake, he didn't have such entangled feelings in his heart.Even if he is not very sober, he also knows that Lian Xiao doesn't want to be with him anymore.

There is no such excitement and comfort as a lover's goodbye, only the cold reality.

Perhaps the only impact of this incident was that Qin Yuanmu didn't have a good rest that night, which caused his face to be particularly ugly when he went to work the next day.But he doesn't look good when he goes to work every day, and the people at the outlet don't see any difference.

This week, Qin Yuanmu was always absent-minded when working, and no matter what he was doing, he seemed to think of Lian Xiao inexplicably.I hadn't seen him a year ago, and it seemed that I had agreed to the phrase "out of sight, out of mind". Now that I meet again, it's over, and I can't get rid of that figure in my mind.

But what followed was the sense of powerlessness that Qin Yuanmu was already very familiar with.After seeing Lian Xiao again, there was no quarrel or stalemate between them, only the fact that the dust had settled.

It was another Friday night, and Qin Yuanmu was sitting in his account manager's room, staring at the form full of screens.In the regular meeting next Monday, Li Xiaoxiao asked every account manager to prepare a new product marketing plan. Recently, most of his energy was allocated to Lian Xiao. The PPT has not been finished yet, so he can only work overtime now up.

Footsteps were heard in the corridor, and Tang Lili walked in with a smile: "Xiao Qin, all the cars are gone, why don't you get off work?"

"Sister," Qin Yuanmu glanced at her, "you go first, I have to finish the things on my hands. Just put the door key on the form for me."

Tang Lili hesitated for a moment: "Well, my sister has something to discuss with you. It's my turn to go to the real estate during the break tomorrow, but I have to accompany my mother to the hospital for a follow-up visit. Can you transfer me to a shift? go first?"

Qin Yuanmu glanced at her, and Tang Lili quickly said, "If you have something to do, don't force it, I'll just ask casually."

Qin Yuanmu didn't have any objection to this, since he would go sooner or later anyway, he said, "I'm fine, I'll go for you tomorrow, and you can go on top when it's my turn."

Tang Lili was overjoyed: "Then thank you so much, my sister usually does not help you with the work for nothing! Then I will go first, and you should go home early."

After Tang Lili left, Qin Yuanmu continued to face the computer screen, and life would be worse than death.Going to the real estate the next day is not a hard job, it is just to continue chatting with Wang Ya.

Sure enough, just as Qin Yuanmu thought, after arriving at the real estate the next day, Wang Ya dragged him to the rest room last time and started a whole day of rest.

"Your bank is quite inhumane. You come here every week." Wang Ya stole a plate of fruit prepared for customers outside, and spit out grape seeds while watching a TV series on her mobile phone, feeling very comfortable.

Qin Yuanmu lay lazily on the side: "It's just changing shifts. Is it really okay if you don't sell the house? Didn't you say last time that there is no performance and no basic salary?"

Wang Ya didn't care at all, and she didn't take her eyes off the phone: "No, no, who cares? I don't want to do this kind of shit, so just fire me. But you, if you follow me to be lazy, I won't be afraid of you guys." The people from the mortgage department went back and filed a complaint."

"If you file a lawsuit, you can file a lawsuit." Qin Yuanmu is also a bachelor. "As long as I don't commit a crime, the bank can't fire me. Anyway, I don't get paid for what I do, so I'll let him do it for an idiot."

Wang Ya smiled: "How else can we play together? This idea is exactly the same. But my brother, I think your spirit seems to be worse today, and work is not going well?"

"Work didn't go well, but..." Qin Yuanmu hesitated for a moment, but decided to tell Wang Ya, "But I'm not worried about work. Brother, I saw Lian Xiao a while ago."

Wang Ya then put down her phone and looked up at Qin Yuanmu: "Damn it? Did you see Lian Xiao? What do you say, did Lian Xiao hit you? It must have been done, you scumbag just deserves a beating."

Qin Yuanmu glared at her: "Go away, why am I such a scumbag? Lian Xiao didn't beat me up, but... it's better to beat me up, at least it can let him vent his anger, and maybe we can get back together. It's not like it is now, like a stranger."

Wang Ya was even more surprised: "What did you say? You mean, you two met but didn't get back together? Isn't it funny, bro, are you out of your mind? You really don't like Lian Xiao anymore?"

Qin Yuanmu clicked his tongue: "What's the use of liking me, people don't like me."

Wang Ya had a heartbroken look on her face: "You, you, let me say something! You don't even think about it, how many years have you been with Lian Xiao, can you say that this relationship is gone? Lian Xiao blames you for abandoning him at the beginning. If you lose him, you have to shamelessly pester him, the cheaper the better, you can embrace a beautiful woman only by letting him calm down! I know you too well, but you just can’t keep your face off, so you treat it like meeting a big client. Coax Lian Xiao like a master, I don't believe you can't take him down!"

After Qin Yuanmu heard this, his heart was still a little moved, but he said firmly: "You don't understand, Lian Xiao really has no feelings for me, he is not losing his temper."

Wang Ya kept sighing and shaking her head: "You are not a straight man, can you not be so awkward? What did Lian Xiao do to have no feelings for you? Did he kill you with a knife? Or did he call the police? Brother, this matter It’s just that the authorities are obsessed with it. It’s impossible for people to throw their noses and tears into your arms as soon as they see you, so they have feelings for you, right? Man, those who are lost by themselves will be bravely found by themselves. Come!"

Qin Yuanmu didn't know which heartstring was touched by Wang Ya, so he nodded silently.