Can't tell the truth from the fake

Qing Shi sat on the bench, shed off her usual delicate makeup, the light blue under the eyelids and dry lips all showed her exhaustion.

The incandescent lamps embedded in the ceiling of the hospital corridor gave off a blinding white light.It was late at night, and the front of the emergency ward was extremely quiet. The LED electronic clock hanging in the center clearly showed the time at this moment.

0:43am.

Qing Shi rubbed her cheeks, got up and walked to the front of the ward, through the glass on the door, she saw Gu Wen lying on the bed with his eyes closed, his pale face almost blending with the white sheets.

The light blue breathing tube was placed between Gu Wen's nose, and the deep red blood slowly flowed into his body along the infusion tube.And underneath that, what was exposed was his wrist wrapped in layers of gauze.

This is Gu Wen's second attempt to commit suicide.

The first time, was a month after they left the explosion site.

During that time, at first Gu Wen cried hysterically a few times, and also sat alone in front of Lu Xi's tomb for a whole day.But later, Gu Wen was not different except that he was more silent than before.

Qingshi and Ji Chong discussed this in private, and thought that Gu Wen had completely vented his emotions, buried his longing for Lu Xi in his heart, and it faded with the passage of time.

But then on that day, on the same day that month and the explosion, Gu Wen quietly appeared on the top floor of the LUG company building. lean back--

If Gu Wen's secretary hadn't discovered Gu Wen's actions to stop him in time, maybe at that time, there would be no such person as Gu Wen in the world anymore.

This incident shocked many people, Gu Wen's parents rushed back from abroad quickly.Gu's mother held Gu Wen and cried for a long time after learning the cause and effect. Gu's father took over the company in silence, his eyes full of dull pain.

They contacted a psychiatrist for Gu Wen, and after Gu Wen walked out of the counseling room, the psychiatrist told everyone that he had suffered from severe depression.

Even though Gu Wen didn't tell the doctor the secret of Lu Xi's rebirth, but based on his few words of description, the psychiatrist still found that Gu Wen's state of mind began as early as after Lu Xi's second death, that is, after the bombing. became extremely contradictory.

On the one hand, Gu Wen believes that Lu Xi has already passed away, and he can only find Lu Xi's trace if he also chooses to die, so as to make up for the mistakes he made, so as to continue the relationship.

On the other hand, Gu Wen subconsciously felt that Lu Xi was still alive. Since Lu Xi still had resentment towards what he did and couldn't let it go, he took advantage of the explosion to escape from his side.

The cross-influence of these two concepts made Gu Wen's depression too deep, and his depression became more and more serious. There were only two concepts in his mind: persistence and giving up.

However, his definition of persistence is to insist on being with his sweetheart, even if it spans life and death, he will still look for that person's trace.

As for his so-called giving up, what he gave up was his own unique life.

Finally, after nearly a year of treatment, Gu Wen left the hospital through psychological counseling and medication.

When he walked out of the gate of the hospital, the afternoon sun shone on his face, his long and narrow eyes were slightly bent, and the corners of his mouth curled up towards the relatives and friends who came to welcome him home, showing a warm smile.

——At that time, everyone thought that Gu Wen had recovered.

Everyone thought so.

Then, Gu Wen came to the apartment where Lu Xi lived alone. He wore the suit that Lu Xi gave him before, combed his hair meticulously, took off his glasses and lay down in the bathtub filled with water. Aim at the wrist and cut it open——

Hot blood sprayed on the milky white marble wall, dripped on the smooth floor tiles, and splashed on the cheek of Qing Shi who just opened the bathroom door with a surprised expression.

She looked at Gu Wen who was staring at her in astonishment and horror. He seemed to have lost his sense of pain, tilted his head and smiled at her and said, "Qingshi, I saw Lu Xi."

There was endless tenderness and nostalgia in that voice.

Qingshi broke out in a cold sweat, she hastily pulled the bath towel hanging aside to cover Gu Wenshen's bone-visible wound, and soon, blood oozed out.

Gu Wen moved his wrist, raised his finger to Qingshi's side and said with a smile, "Look, Lu Xi is standing there, urging me to find him quickly."

However, there, through the air, only the toiletries placed in the bathroom can be seen.

Qingshi wiped off the blood on his face, picked up the bath towel, and said in a crying voice, "Gu Wen, don't move anymore, I beg you."

However, Gu Wen shook his head, dodged Qing Shi's outstretched hand, and quickly picked up the knife and stabbed at the other wrist——

"And then?" Ji Chong asked Qing in a low voice while standing beside the hospital bed.

Qing Shi rolled his eyes and said angrily, "Then of course I snatched his knife and called 120 by the way."

"Fortunately, you were worried at the time, cousin followed me and took a look." Ji Chong clenched his fists, a little scared, "Otherwise, he..."

Qing Shi sighed: "Gu Wen's current state of mind seems to be suffering from hallucinations again. He said that Lu Xi is right in front of his eyes, but..."

"When I came here this morning, the doctor told my cousin that he must continue to be hospitalized. He was just discharged from the hospital for a day..." Ji Chong helplessly raised his eyes and looked up at Qingshi, "You have been staying here for half the night. Go home and have a rest, my uncle and aunt will be here later."

Qing Shi nodded, she brushed off the messy black hair on her shoulders, glanced at Gu Wen who was sleeping restlessly under the influence of the medicine, and turned to leave.

***

Time flies, and it is half a year in the blink of an eye.

Half a year later, everything in the hospital was as usual. Only when we walked through the garden near the inpatient place, did we find that the dead trees and branches that were bleak in winter turned into verdant trees in summer.

Gu Wen sat on a stone bench in the garden. He gently unscrewed the mineral water bottle in his hand, waved it to the opposite side of the stone table, as if he was about to hand it to someone, and then smiled in that direction.

Ji Chong, who was by Gu Wen's side, glanced at him with a complicated expression, and then looked away.

The man who was once calm and indifferent has become what he is now, which is both ridiculous and sad.

Although it has been said for so long, he has become accustomed to his cousin's series of inexplicable actions, but sometimes he sees them suddenly, and the visual impact is still very strong.

In fact, Ji Chong will also open his mind, maybe his cousin is very talented and can see things that ordinary people can't see...

hiss……

Ji Chong trembled, his brown eyes rolled around, feeling horrified, and quickly threw out the unrealistic fantasies in his mind.

He was about to take the bottle of mineral water instead of "Lu Xi", but he found that Qingshi stood in front of them at some point, with the corners of his eyes and brows slightly raised, his expression hard to hide his excitement.

Qingshi took out a postcard from her purse and put it on the stone table. She waved her hand in front of Gu Wen, stared closely at Gu Wen and said, "Gu Wen! Look at this postcard."

Gu Wen glanced at her casually, did not speak, but held the bottle cap in his hand and played with it.

"Boom-"

Qing Shi knocked hard on the table, only to find that Gu Wen was still staring at the bottle cap, ignoring her, not even looking at the postcard.Instead, Ji Chong picked it up curiously.

"Is it from Dunhuang? This... This is, what the hell?" Ji Chong turned over the back of the postcard, and there was a photo on it. He looked at it carefully, his eyes gradually became astonished, and then he turned around suddenly Shaking Gu Wen's thin shoulders, he shouted word by word——

"Cousin, Lu Xi is not dead, he really is not dead!!!"

"I know." Gu Wen shook off Ji Chong's hands as a matter of course, he glanced at his side, waved his arms in the void, and said softly, "Xiao Xi has always been by my side."

Ji Chong: "..."

Qingshi took a deep breath to stabilize her emotions, picked up the postcard and put it in front of Gu Wen's eyes, she pointed at the figure and said softly, "Just take a look, just take a look."

In the photo, the mixed-race man is standing in the desert holding a camel with one hand, the yellow sand is under his feet, and the fiery red sunset hangs behind him.The golden sunset shone on his face, and the sharp-edged outline was even more profound. In those light gray eyes, the boundless Gobi with the afterglow of the setting sun was reflected.

On the other side of the postcard was written familiar handwriting——

"Wish to meet you again."

Gu Wen picked up this thin card, his fingertips trembled more and more, hot tears dripped on the photo, like the lake that saved the dry desert.

He slowly pressed the person in the photo to his chest, and murmured in a low voice: "I too... wish to meet you again."

In his eyes, little by little, the clarity of the past was restored.

——He finally woke up from this absurd dream that lasted for half a year.

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