Not Crazy yet [Comprehensive British and American]

Something is wrong.

...but what is wrong?

Lana didn't seem to notice that Karl was extraordinarily confused and indifferent today.She led her sweetheart forward happily.They waded through the orange-red grass, walking forward with their destination.

Carl followed Lana Lang, who was dressed in a dignified white dress.The young man held his forehead with one hand, and felt that the headache was unbearable... Karl didn't understand why he had such a reaction, what's wrong with it?Why is he so uneasy, even a little scared?What is he afraid of?

But in any case, his sorrow was not conveyed to the woman who was leading him.Lana Lang was still smiling.The joy in her heart was so strong.She had some good news that she had to tell Karl no matter what—she felt that she and Karl must be the happiest people on this planet today.

The "ideal creature" created by this beautiful illusion is full of true feelings that belong to Kal-El.She didn't know and couldn't imagine how panicked the man being led by her was at the moment.She only persistently pulled him to the place where Superman was most likely to be tempted.

The two passed through the red pastures completely, and in front of them was a piece of golden farmland.This inexplicably familiar scene stimulated Kar-El's brain, reminding him of the scene when he met Lana Lang.

All this is extremely real.Even real memories are tampered with and beautified together.Carl remembered his first encounter with Lana, who rescued Lana who was attacked by alien species.They fell in love almost at first sight, he always thought she was as beautiful and fragile as a flower...

—but this is not true.

It was as if a hammer had slammed down hard, making Karl dizzy.That's not true, even at first Lana Lang didn't seem particularly feminine.That's not how they met... no.

The sense of incongruity tore Karl.It made him short of breath without realizing it.He is like a person who wants to wake up from a nightmare, trying in vain to find the truth in his unconscious mind.

But after only a few breaths, the sense of disobedience disappeared.His brain goes 'How can this not be true?Isn't this your lover, isn't it your desire?Don't you love Lana? ' The confusion paralyzed him.Carl hesitated, he suspected that he might be sick...

Because isn't all this exactly what he has always wanted?Isn't he an ordinary person, who works hard and lives in his hometown, and has parents and girlfriend who love him?

—Of course all this is true.Isn't this the deepest begging he has been hiding all this time?

Finally, the young man who reluctantly agreed with everything in front of him finally raised his head, and he mustered up the courage to look at the woman in front of him.Lana's long blond hair hangs softly on her shoulders, and she hums an out-of-tune tune softly, seeing Carl looking towards her, she smiles shyly.

"Are you in a bad mood, baby?" Her smile was so happy that Karl couldn't help but look at her directly.For some reason, he felt extremely guilty. "Don't push yourself too hard, you've always been like that, always soft. But nobody's perfect, Carl."

Lana's tone was so gentle, as if she was afraid to scare him...but Karl was still scared.This sentence sounds familiar—but his memory clearly told him that the person who said this sentence was not Lana!

But these few words that once liberated him from the predicament cut off his mind like a sharp sword.Lana Lang still spoke the lines that belonged to others gently and unconsciously, and didn't notice the panic in her lover's expression at all.

"You shouldn't be too demanding on yourself, you are always so strict on yourself..."

"... Lana..."

Karl couldn't bear her to continue talking affectionately.He interrupted her with a trembling voice.Lana blinked her light blue eyes suspiciously, as if she didn't understand why his voice was suddenly so low...painful.

This made the woman frowned, and took a step closer nervously and concerned.But what none of them expected was... Karl took a step back following her forward steps.

This made the atmosphere instantly awkward.

And Kal-El, who was sweating profusely, as if suffering from the pain of tearing his soul, looked at the woman in front of him complicatedly, and Kal-El didn't know what was wrong with him.The deep and thick uneasiness and doubt made him almost unable to help trembling.His instinct told him he shouldn't get to the bottom of it - because wouldn't it be nice?Isn't all this great?If it's so good, why is he still struggling?

Doesn't he like it?He doesn't like to live in an ordinary and safe way, enjoy the life of an ordinary and outstanding person who can prove himself through hard work, and has a family and girlfriend who love him deeply... Doesn't he like it?

——It’s not right, it’s not right!

Carl hesitated for a while, maybe for a long time.Although he didn't know what he was hesitating about, he still decided to hear the answer to the next question before making a decision.

What decision?

Kal-El, in traditional black and red Kryptonian attire, is unclear.But it's definitely an important choice.

"Lana... you asked me to come out, didn't you have something important to say?"

he asks.

Carl's question did not arouse Lana Lang's temper.The woman of today seemed softer and more considerate than the figure Carl remembered.Her boyfriend's gentle question made her blush with happiness.

"I am pregnant."

"Carl, I'm pregnant!"

"Didn't you always want a baby?"

... Carl's face lost its color after she finished the first sentence.But the woman still smiled unconsciously.Her smile is real and happy, like every woman who learns that she is pregnant with the flesh and blood of her lover.Kryptonians are not a race with a high pregnancy rate, and she really didn't expect to have children before marriage-but it didn't matter.

All that matters is Carl.Just good, steady, family-friendly Carl.She knew it all too well, she knew too well that Karl wanted a home of his own and blood relatives of his own.He'd always loved his parents so much, but that wasn't enough—he wanted so much to have a child of his own.He wanted so much to have... his own kind.

--similar?

No, it doesn't matter.All that matters is Superman.

And what about Superman?What about the bloodless, heart-piercing Superman?

Superman looks at his pregnant girlfriend in front of him.His unique blue eyes flashed with countless complex and difficult emotions.

Lana Lang in front of her is innocent and gentle, she is simply a perfect girlfriend and wife.How long has it been since I haven't seen her smiling face?Lana hadn't smiled much since they started making physical contact.

What about Jor-El and Laura Lo Fan?Yes.If Krypton didn't go to ruin as his father said, then... his parents would not be as tall and wise as he thought.But he must still love himself deeply and put him first in everything.

child? ...kid...yeah.Yes... how much he fears that he has children; how he longs for someone who is in the same situation as himself... how stupid, how lonely, and how fragile he is.I have never seriously reflected on all this in the past - as expected, I am still not mature enough.

"... Lana."

Clark called out the name tremblingly.This was the person he had really thought he would spend his whole life with.Superman stretched out his right hand, as if trying to grab the excited and happy woman.But as soon as he lifted it, he put it down immediately.

"?"

Lang still couldn't find anything unusual.After all she's 'designed' to reassure Superman that this is all a rosy reality - she certainly can't be called the one asking the question.

So Lana only returned Clark with an innocent and confused expression, while Superman looked at this familiar yet unfamiliar face, at the phantom of his former lover... He knew it was futile, but he finally told her the truth:

"I...I always feel sorry for you."

It's so hard to say that.It was so difficult that the sourness in Superman's heart even spread to the eye sockets.But now that the words have been spoken, Clark intends to take this opportunity to confess completely.He's changed a lot, he's grown a lot—but still not grown up enough to face the real Lana Lang.

"When you deliberately made me aware of your intentions, I was angry and frightened, and almost lost all reason. I regard myself as the person who has been betrayed the most in the world, and I feel so pathetic and pitiful, I I don't know what I did wrong..."

"I desperately want to find you and question you. I don't understand how you can use me and not love me. I want to blame you for making me dare not trust others wholeheartedly. I want to blame you for all my mistakes. "

His voice kept shaking.

"I thought I was thinking about it, but in fact I still hate you. I use your name to test those who like to target me. I use you to hurt others, but at the same time I keep stabbing myself..."

...... I admit that I am an asshole.

I really am a bastard who longs for love.

"...I used to think this was winning, Lana. I used to think that I was satisfied."

"I thought I saw the truth. The world is like this—it's so sinister and hypocritical. I think love is no longer reliable...but if even love is not reliable, what else can I believe in?"

"I started to collapse, and I became weaker. I didn't want to admit that I couldn't bear the world, so I wanted to use my unique strength to solve the problem."

"I started turning myself into 'you guys.'"

Then someone grabbed him.

...someone saved him.

"But my friends proved to me that the world was as bad as I thought it would be. They helped me, encouraged me, trusted me. They wouldn't give up on me... I changed. Lana. I regret not I'll tell you to my face."

The once-boy looked at the phantom of the once-girl.The other party used that familiar face to put on an inexplicable and bewildered expression... This made Clark even more sad and regretful.

"Until I still didn't have the courage to face you. When I was loved again and understood what 'love' is again... I realized many things that I didn't realize in the past. I was full of resentment and couldn't think of your situation. I I only realized it lately...you are only one year older than me..."

"I'm really afraid that you will rush to me and ask me why I didn't insist on finding you and helping you at that time. I am Superman, and I should be everyone's hero, but I didn't save you alone."

"... Lana, I really regret that I was so weak and selfish back then. I couldn't save you... When I see you again, I will know that I made you like that."

Clark clenched his fists in pain.He recalled the last eye contact he had with the woman.Since Clarke was preoccupied with another person's heartbeat at the time, he really didn't feel any emotion from Lana Lang... But even so, Superman still felt suffocated for a while... From the past he and She is very similar.They can always realize each other's feelings one step faster than ordinary people.

It's the same now...but differently.

"...I can feel it. Even though it may be ridiculous, my self-indulgence again...I can feel that you still love me. You are still the same as before, deep in the quagmire that you should not have fallen into .”

"...But I've fallen in love with someone else."

Clark almost choked up.

"He made me realize that I am worthy of being loved again... I fell in love with him, Lana."

The author has something to say: The stalk of these two chapters comes from the second season of the third season of Superman Justice League "Black Mercy".The Dachao of the original work is a little bit worse than Clark in this article...

So far, at most the next chapter, Lana will be out for a while.Finally, I don't have to write about my ex-girlfriend.

Is this cool?I hope everyone is happy.Because it will be cool for a while!