[Full-time master] Compatibility between game nerds and Two-dimensional man nerds

Lou Guanning has always known these past events, and he has never forgotten the Xiaoxiao who softly called his brother when he was a child, and he vowed to protect her like his own sister.They have a quarter of the same blood, so they should be close brothers and sisters.

He witnessed what happened at his aunt's funeral that year.No one could have imagined that the always elegant and decent grandma would do such a hysterical thing, no one could have imagined that the grandma who loved Xiaoxiao the most would accuse her like this.

whose fault?

No one was at fault for the death of my aunt, and if she wanted to blame it, she could only blame God's will, and no one else could blame her.

In this matter, the most innocent person is Xiaoxiao, and the person who should be comforted most is Xiaoxiao who lost her mother.

Of course he saw that Xiaoxiao's eyes became darker and more empty and full of sadness and regret after grandma's accusation every word. He wanted to go up and hug her and tell her that it was not her fault.But, he didn't.

He backed off.Countless nights, he was very annoyed by his hesitation at that time, but he stopped at that time. Is it because grandma desperately pulled him to prevent him from going, or did he blame her a little bit in his heart?he does not know.

But this knot in the hearts of everyone in the Lou family, the consequences of this unwarranted accusation undoubtedly appeared in front of them.

His younger sister, burdened with accusations that didn't belong to her, was crushed little by little, and couldn't smile a little bit.

She used to smile so brightly, and her dimples, which were exactly like her aunt's, were cute and charming, but now she can't see them anymore.

Perhaps time can heal all scars, not to mention that Lou Guanning, Lou's father, and Lou's grandpa who worried about her all the time but were blocked at the door of the laboratory could never see her, who was the most resentful Lou's grandma back then... illusory hatred After the intention is washed away, there is only regret and distress.

I want to make up, I want to see her again, but she has been staying in the laboratory for almost six years, she doesn't want to come out, she doesn't want to see anyone.After finally making such an achievement, they thought that Xiaoxiao should come out to rest for a while, but the Liu family didn't let her go.

Grandma Liu and Grandpa Liu were dying of heartache, especially afraid that Xiaoxiao's condition would get worse after the Lou family was brought in, not to mention, how could they not have any complaints in their hearts?Even though she knew that Grandma Lou was talking indiscriminately, the damage was actually done.

This All-Star Weekend, he didn't have any thoughts at first, but he couldn't stand the kind persuasion of a few buddies, so he decided to come to S City to relax, and he got a big surprise in the end!

During yesterday's UFO event, Lou Guanning was so close that he recognized Xiaoxiao immediately.Although I haven't seen her in six years, Xiaoxiao has changed a lot, but her appearance that is [-]% similar to her aunt is the best proof!

"Xiaoxiao..." Ye Xiu turned sideways, Lou Guanning saw Xiaoxiao standing not far away looking at him, he moved his mouth and shouted.

The thin little girl looked at him with her mouth pursed, her eyes were full of uneasiness and tension, which was completely different from the complete trust and joy before, which made his heart ache.

"Lou...Brother." Thinking of the past, Liu Cixiao subconsciously chose a less familiar address.

Lou Guanning's heart twitched, and he said quickly: "Brother Guanning, didn't you always call me that way before? Xiaoxiao, don't be unfamiliar with me, brother feels sad."

Liu Cixiao said in a low voice, "But... grandma—" Grandma Lou didn't even want to hear this when her hatred was still there.

Knowing this, Ye Xiu walked up behind her, stood still in a protective posture, and patted her on the shoulder.

Lou Guanning hurriedly said: "Grandma didn't think that way a long time ago. Grandma just loved aunt too much and couldn't accept this bad news for a while. Now grandma has realized her mistake. Aunt's death was not your fault, it was never your fault Wrong. She misses you very much, can you...forgive her?"

"I..." Liu Cixiao, who was overwhelmed by the information, subconsciously turned her head to seek help from the closest person.

"He's right, Xiaoxiao, none of this is your fault. Let go of the guilt and self-blame that doesn't belong to you, just like what your favorite Yinsang said, although sometimes you will be splashed with muddy water and become disfigured." It's dirty, but now, the muddy water has turned into mud in the sun, you only need to shake it lightly, and it will fall." Ye Xiu held her hand and gave him full support , said softly.

Those times that can't go back flashed mottled, and gradually became brighter and clearer with the gentle words in my ears.

"Xiaoxiao wants to be a brave child. No matter what kind of pain you encounter, don't forget the courage hidden in your heart. No matter what obstacles you encounter, even if the road ahead is muddy, you must go on bravely. Only continue Go forward, without looking back, without regret, and only then can you regain the lost precious things.”

Perhaps the mother who was trapped under the stone pile at that time and witnessed the helpless passing of life had foreseen the current situation, so she left this text message at the last time of her life before it could be sent in the future.

It's just that she was too young and too sad back then, so even this passage was sealed in the depths of her memory, and it didn't surface until today.

"I never resented grandma...I just resented myself." Xiaoxiao said softly.

The room was silent.

"—but resentment and self-blame are really sad and painful. I... don't want to hate myself anymore, and I don't want to spend my life with guilt and anxiety. I want to be more..." Xiaoxiao continued: "Live brighter, live with more hope for the future, and walk on with a smile. So, I gave up the resentment, I have to forgive myself, and grandma must also forgive herself."

She saw the mobile phone in Lou Guanning's hand showing a call, and said in a soft but firm voice.

"Xiaoxiao...my Xiaoxiao—" Lou Guanning smiled and handed her the phone, and the familiar choked voice of grandma really came from inside.

"Grandma... Come out with me. We should all forgive ourselves and move on. This is what mother wants." Liu Cixiao smiled for the first time in six years , accompanied by relieved tears, bloom beautifully like a dew-dropped flower under the first ray of sunlight in the morning.

Tears are good things that can wash away bitterness and sadness when they flow out.But when you grow up, you will understand that there are great sorrows in life that cannot be washed away by tears, and unforgettable pains that make you unable to cry even if you want to cry. Therefore, truly strong people laugh when they want to cry The louder, with pain and sorrow in mind, even so, you have to carry them forward with a smile. 【1】

The tears that should be shed are reserved for yesterday, and for tomorrow, it should be a bright smile that will not be broken no matter what.

Do not lose to the wind.

Don't lose to the rain.

Don't lose to the storm.

Always smiling.

You have become such a beautiful and strong person, my princess. 【2】

The author has something to say: 【1】【2】This is not my original creation, it is quoted from Gintama, please explain here.

This is the last time I explained, excuse me, is the best way I think.Some little angels said it was understandable but not forgiven.Let me deduce with you illogically, if it is really as you wish——

Liu Cixiao did not forgive in the end, she chose to be a stranger with Lou's family.The Lou family, especially grandma came to her many times, but Liu Cixiao did not forgive her.Those hurts cannot be resolved with a single forgiveness.

Three years later.

"Xiaoxiao, your grandma... passed away." Grandma Liu called her.

Liu Cixiao's hand holding the phone tightened, and she was stunned, "How could it be?" She took a long time to find her voice.However, Grandma Lou...

Grandma Liu sighed and didn't say anything else, just said: "You know... just don't go. I didn't want to tell you, but when I thought of you when you were young——" Grandma Liu didn't say anything After finishing speaking, I was shocked to realize that I had slipped my words. Old people just like to recall the past.After saying a few more words, I hung up the phone.

Liu Cixiao let go of the hand that was holding the phone. Those shadows that had been entrenched in her heart because of her grandmother's unscrupulous words didn't seem to dissipate because of her death... On the contrary, they accumulated more and more.

She is not happy at all.

Liu Cixiao finally went to the funeral, alone.

At the funeral, Grandpa Lou took a deep look at her, sighed and turned to leave, his back bent even more while leaning on crutches.

"She didn't close her eyes until she died." Uncle Lou said suddenly, his tone was very flat, as if he didn't seem to be talking about his mother who passed away. "For the past three years, she has been immersed in remorse. Her In a word, it has brought about an irreversible ending. She has been tortured physically and mentally. In the past three years, she has lived in no more pain than you did in the past. During this time, her mind has become a little unclear, and she is still struggling Shouting, nannie, calling Xiaoxiao. On the day of her death, she did not close her eyes. You have found your own happiness, but she died in remorse."

Liu Cixiao bowed her head and said nothing, her grandmother's smile on the upper floor of the mourning hall was still gentle.She has always been so knowledgeable and reasonable. The only time she lost control caused such irreversible consequences.Looking at her photo, Liu Cixiao suddenly thought of the long past, and she hadn't experienced those painful pasts in the long past.

There is a big garden behind Lou's house, which is Grandma Lou's favorite. She is here, holding her hand and teaching her how to appreciate flowers.When she was a child, Liu Cixiao was naughty, and made a mess of Grandma Lou's painstakingly trimmed garden. She didn't say anything, but was still worried about whether she would be stabbed by flower thorns; Liu Cixiao's guzheng followed grandma's Those who study, with a pair of small hands, are held by a pair of big hands, one teaches seriously, and the other learns not so seriously, every time, the one who succeeds is the lazy little girl; grandma always speaks softly, Wu Nong soft-spoken , Singing is also very nice.Liu Cixiao especially likes it. During her lunch break, lying on the bed, her grandma fanned her while humming softly. She gradually fell asleep with the soft singing...

Any mistakes, once people have passed away, they will disappear.However, Liu Cixiao felt uncomfortable in his heart.She was not happy, not at all.There was no vengeance, no relief.An unspeakable sourness and sadness lingered in my heart, and I wanted to cry, but I couldn't cry.Not to mention a smile.She didn't know when she left, but she felt that after her grandmother passed away with regret, she seemed to be completely unable to turn over this painful past.

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A word of no forgiveness, while retaliating on others, will always be the one who stabs the deepest.When the person who hurt you passes away, her hurt will fade with the death, but her kindness to you will deepen with time, and such memories, how sweet they were before, look so sad now.Moreover, my girl is only 16 years old. Although she is a little paranoid, a little domineering, and a little protective, no one can say that she is not a soft and kind child.Yes, I use kindness.She is not a saint, she is just kind, she chooses tolerance, forgives others, forgives herself.

Is that a good ending?I don't think it's good at all. This is not what I want Xiaoxiao to experience.This may be just a novel to you, but it is a world to me.I like Xiaoxiao, and I am willing to do my best to give her the best, happiest and least worry-free life.So, sorry, I will not change the text.

To borrow a sentence from Ye Shen, I write like he plays games. I firstly do it for my own pleasure. I sit in front of the computer and spend hours typing, trying my best to conceive the plot, character dialogue, and even edit the website short beforehand. I signed the contract but I didn't agree, because I just want to write my own article, write the article happily, I don't want to change the plot to cater to the public, and I don't want to follow the trend to write cool articles for subscription.

I have been explaining like this, explaining to everyone over and over again, I feel very annoyed, to be honest, I feel very fortunate that I have finished writing this article, and I am writing a side story, otherwise, I think I might really not be able to continue writing.Because I am not happy, I have no motivation, so I want to abandon the pit.Not aimed at any little angel, just a little unhappy, because at the beginning I was really interested in discussing with everyone, but now I always mention it, I will soon end this article, and I still have to go back and explain 28 Chapter, I really don't want to explain anymore.

Finally, if the little angels feel that they can accept such Xiaoxiao and forgiveness, then you are welcome to continue reading.If you think you are a bit of a virgin and should not be forgiven, then please be quiet and stop talking to me.please.