[Comprehensive] Someone always wants to save me

"Why do you think so?"

Pressing lightly on the top of the little girl's head, California Qingguang turned her head away.

"I don't regard myself as a tool, but the feeling of being needed makes me happy—being used by the master, being needed by the master, this is the future I want."

"Y-that's right..." Higurashi Saya was silent for a long time, and the crying gradually stopped.

It must be a very happy feeling to be needed and loved by the owner.

It's a pity that from the moment she was created, she has been rejected by her master.It's just a container, not what the master expects, it becomes an existence that can swallow up the filth, and it will only make the master feel filthy... Rather, it needs to rely on evil thoughts and filth to survive. This state has already made the She was rejected by the gods.

Obviously she doesn't like the filth of Huangquan at all, and she doesn't want to be a carrier of evil thoughts.

But as the responsibility of the container, it is necessary to do so—carrying the evil thoughts accumulated over hundreds of millions of years, the cracks in the underworld are getting bigger and bigger. Even though the container was made by the person himself, it gradually cannot carry it Let go of this burden.

Higurashi Saya knows very well that sooner or later, he will be completely broken because of too many evil thoughts. At that time, the filth from the depths of the underworld will bring a catastrophe to the world.

Before that, choosing to seal her was the right thing to do. Shinto’s choice was not wrong, and it was not incomprehensible for her master to reject her because her expectations failed. The only problem was that Saya Higurashi didn’t want to die at all.

Obviously her master asked her to come to die, to add a little painless burden to Gao Tianyuan's god.

But Saya Higurashi didn't want to die at all.

Onmyoji Seimei let her know the truth of walking in the world, and the monsters she met let her know that being in the world is not all painful. Doubting whether it was the right thing to destroy the world—she even began to subconsciously doubt her master and pity the people struggling in suffering.

And Higurashi Kagome even gave her a name, which made her understand the concept of family and relationship for the first time. Although she didn't have a heartbeat or body temperature, she felt like a human being for the first time.

She doesn't want to die.

Not at all.

"Qingguang, what about me..."

She lowered her head, pulled the corners of her lips and smiled heartlessly, "Born with sin, my existence represents the evil in the world... It's dirty." When it comes to dirty , she smiled again with a gasp.

"Sometimes I also feel that it's better to die, to be free, to be liberated, so that you don't have to suffer day and night, and you don't need to seal yourself. Every minute and every second is like being stabbed hard by a knife Drill."

"But I'm not reconciled... and it's impossible to die so easily."

Higurashi Saya raised her head and smiled, she didn't seem to want to cry at all.

"The one who won't let me die so easily...she wants to inflict the pain she has suffered on others-because I am bad, I have done wrong things, and my existence annoys her."

Therefore, only the person you love can kill yourself.

She wants to watch the other party kill herself, unable to resist, unable to cry, and will not cry.

Only those you love can hurt yourself.

Only those who care can stab a knife in her heart.

Whether the man is willing or not, fate will guide him to do so.

This is her end—the container actually has human feelings, and dares to start doubting and rebelling against her master, this is what her end should be.

Higurashi Saya didn't mean to be sad at all.

She didn't want to die, but if she had to die, she wouldn't regret it at all.

Higurashi Saya feels that she is happy now, and she will not regret it even if she dies, but when she dies, the filth from the depths of the underworld will ruthlessly ravage the world, and she doesn't want to do this.So I took the initiative to seal myself... When I really want to be killed, I will open the cracks in the underworld, and I will die there alone, absolutely not bringing disaster to others.

She was born with original sin.

So never even living yourself is a sin.

"...I forgot that Qingguang can't hear this. I'm sorry." Saya Higurashi raised her head and smiled at the blank-faced California Qingguang, "I brought a gift for Qingguang."

Her tone became cheerful again.The little girl tugged on California Qingguang's sleeve, and went downstairs and ran to the basement.

Higurashi Saya seemed to be in a good mood, she even jumped down from the third last step, California Qingguang could not help but tell her to be careful.

The little girl touched her nose and laughed.

"As for me, I am super powerful, and I am the greatest boss in the world. Human beings are destined to submit to..."

Before she could finish her sentence, she was tapped on the forehead by California Qingguang.

"I was wrong qaq."

The little girl immediately covered her forehead and confessed her mistake. She admitted her mistake super fast, and she could cry out aggrieved as soon as she lowered her head.

"Don't you have anything to tell me?"

California Qingguang said with no expression on his face, the softness of the past gradually faded from his bright red eyes.

"???" Higurashi Saya raised her head in surprise.

"Qingguang, what are you referring to? Oh, yes...I'm telling you—I'm sure I'll find stability now! I mean, seriously, we'll be—"

"Don't you have anything to tell me?"

California Qingguang repeated it again. He no longer knew whether he should use a hurt expression or look at her with a sneer. On his handsome face, the expression faded early: "Are you just so unwilling to trust me? Put everything... ..." His voice gradually became hoarse, "I have to bear it all by myself... very tiring."

Originally questioning the tone, in the end, unconsciously distressed.California Qingguang's tone softened, gradually taking on the meaning of tiredness.The tail sound rises high and then hangs low, dragging the tune-changed cavity.

"I also want to rely on Qingguang."

She just said this, and then lowered her head, staring at her toes.

It's really like perfunctory and evasive.

But there is no way, Qingguang can't hear it.She also thought about sharing her pain with someone, even if it was just to confide, but she couldn't, no one could hear her, her pain and helplessness were all her faults, and she deserved it.

"Don't...don't talk about it again, okay?"

The corners of Higurashi Saya's eyes gradually turned red, but she still tried her best to maintain a smile, "We will see An Ding soon—Qing Guang, are you happy, are you happy?"

"you--"

"I really, really, really like Qingguang."

There was an unconcealable trill in her voice, but she still maintained a smiling expression, "So, as long as Qingguang wants to do, I will help. Qingguang is very important to me-really very important."

How many promises does it take to make Qingguang believe her?

There is no way, she will never have credibility in California Qingguang's heart.

Because she always lied, always told the truth, and always dealt with everything by herself.

Lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie

It sucks, me.

Higurashi Saya was silent for a long time, then she laughed again, "If possible, I also want to rely on others to live, it's really tiring."

After the conditions of [confiding] were fulfilled, California Qingguang heard nothing.

The little girl paused, and she could only repeat, "I...haha...well, I really like Qingguang...really."

——It really seems perfunctory.

Nobody wants to lie if they can.

No one wants to struggle with lies all the time, and finally be swallowed by their own lies.

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"If possible, I also want to rely on others to live. It's really tiring." Saya Higurashi said.

She was still smiling, and she didn't mean to be sad at all.

This is a very strange thing. Obviously, there is not much happiness in her life, and the time accompanied by painful and long suffering is almost the same as the time she created.

The only bit of tenderness is also the master who made her. When the mood comes, he will talk to her and tease her——

But whenever her master remembered that he had created her purpose in the first place, anger inevitably arose.Of course the goddess would not blame herself, if it was bad, it must be Saya Higurashi's fault.

Because she is not what the goddess expected.

This is the sin she brings from her bones—

Arrogant, but she is a goddess after all, and arrogance is a matter of course for gods.

Higurashi Saya couldn't resist, she couldn't even have the slightest sign of this.

If she hadn't had the idea of ​​disobedience, perhaps she would still be in Huangquan now.

But she doesn't want to stay there for the rest of her life, her body will naturally gather evil thoughts and filth, even if her nature is as pure and ignorant as a will-o'-the-wisp's, she is bound to be rejected by the goddess.

"It's really hard to be hated."

Higurashi Saya laughed, but she didn't look sad at all, "Qingguang... don't mention this for now, okay, I'm looking forward to seeing An Ding, and I'm looking forward to it... Qingguang looks happy."

--"I'm very sorry."

California Qingguang couldn't control the irritable anger in his heart.

He was silent for a long time, Higurashi Saya almost thought that he was going to cry, in fact, the corners of the red-eyed boy's eyes were indeed a little red, "I've been angry at you all the time... I'm really bad at this, I'm always complaining You, but you have never thought that you are not reliable at all, the reason why you cannot be trusted by the master..."

"Let's stop admitting our mistakes, okay? Although I don't think it's a problem to admit our mistakes."

Higurashi Saya muttered, anyway, she has learned to admit her mistakes since she was born, and it doesn't matter who apologizes at all.

Being able to bend and stretch is the character a boss should have!

The little girl thought happily, she is indeed the most powerful boss in the world, so Gong Mi will definitely like her.

She's amazing, even the posture of climbing the window is better than others_(:зゝ∠)_

The little girl is as confident as ever today.

The nerve in her brain that controls the wagging tail must be particularly sensitive.

Higurashi Saya rolled up her sleeves, and the faint seal pattern on her white arm looked very strange——

Because the lines of spiritual power were deeply cut into the flesh, it was burning with a sizzling sound, and from time to time there would be a puff of black smoke, and a faint smell of something being burned.

California Qingguang frowned subconsciously, but seeing the little girl's relaxed face, he felt that his doubts were unnecessary.

No one dared to treat Saya Higurashi like this, even if there were, the little girl couldn't keep a calm face now, hugging his waist with a wow and crying is what Saya Higurashi would do.

"... Saya."

The boy looked at Saya Higurashi who was doing something with his back turned to him, and said suddenly.

"If you can't tell me when you encounter difficulties, I will always be by your side. As long as you still need me, I will never leave until the day when the knife is solved."

Higurashi Saya was stunned, and the crystal pen in her hand fell off with a snap.

What are you doing? ? ? ?

The little girl stood on tiptoe to measure his forehead - this action was a little redundant, because California Qingguang was not much taller than her.

He looked at him with a weird expression as if he had a ghost on his body: "Qing... Qingguang. Did you eat something you shouldn't eat today? Or did you bump your head?"

Otherwise, when did this Tsundere start to be so good at hitting straight balls? ? !

"This...no, it's not a confession!!"

California Qingguang blushed immediately, his ears were flushed with embarrassment, combined with his red eyes that were dripping water, he was really cute, "I mean - I will always stay here Beside you...not you...not what you think!"

"What do I mean? I didn't think about anything." Higurashi Saya said in surprise, "Qingguang, what are you thinking about?"

California Qingguang: "..."

"I mean, I'm really not used to you not being entangled with me. Although it is said that Qingguang's female power is stronger than mine, as a girl, I am very embarrassed, but seeing Qingguang acting like a baby like this makes me feel uncomfortable. Not unhappy."

Higurashi Saya looked as if it was a matter of course.

"I think, if I were as good at acting like a baby like Qingguang, I would have chased after Gongya long ago."

California Kiyomitsu... California Kiyomitsu said he didn't want to talk.

He was about to fall directly from Sakura Fubuki mode to red face mode.

If this is in pk, California Qingguang feels that he can kill with a real sword every time without giving up.

It didn't take long for him to squat down on the spot and draw a circle.

The little girl grabbed his collar and dragged him in.

Don't talk about female power, even if she is a girl after being seen by others, it will make people doubt_(:зゝ∠)_

"I don't know how long time can jump back, but anyway, as long as I go back to the time when there is a "future me", then it is probably right."

Higurashi Saya did not forget to turn her head while walking and said, she stepped on the accumulated deep fallen leaves, making the sound of crunching and withered branches and leaves, Higurashi Saya became playful, and simply jumped on the pile of fallen leaves .

California Qingguang felt that he thought she was very reliable for a moment just now, and he was fooled by lard.

"Just walk well, why do you have to jump around every time."

California Qingguang was silent for a while, "Why is it right to go back to the time when there was a "future you"?"

"Because Qingguang is stained with my karma.

"Although it's very light, because I don't have any causal relationship with anyone."

Higurashi Saya didn't jump on the grid anymore, and now she started to kick the stone that hit her in front of her unlucky, jumping every time she kicked, "So I think I can definitely succeed."

"That is to say, in the future, I met "California Qingguang" and "Yamato Shou'an" in the past.

"Then, again in the past time, saved the past 'California Clear Light'."

Higurashi Saya thought for a while, "At the beginning, I was not so kind. I saved Qingguang, of course because I noticed the connection between you and me."

She rubbed her nose and laughed, not at all embarrassed.

"I don't know what I think about the future."

There was another moment of silence: "I'm sorry... I didn't have time to talk about An Ding."

She knew that Qingguang had been feeling sad about the stability, but at that time, she really couldn't help it.

What's more, at that time, her relationship with Qing Guang was not that good.

California Qingguang was also silent for a while, he rubbed the little girl's head, his voice was almost gentle: "It's okay, it's not your fault...even if An Ding knows about it, he won't blame you."

When the subject changed, he hesitated again, "Didn't Yimulian say that you doubt the future you and want to replace the present you?"

"Well, I think so. If this kind of thing happens, it means that my future self must have succeeded in becoming a human."

"But there is no place for her in this world. If you want to regain the status of "Saya Higurashi", you can only kill Saya Higurashi at this time."

Higurashi Saya was silent for a while, "But no matter who I am, it is impossible for me to do such a thing."

Because she was suffering enough on her own.

There was no way she would make herself more miserable.

"So I think this guess is probably wrong." Higurashi Saya looked up and smiled at him again, "I only figured it out recently. However, it is a good thing for me that the timeline is messed up."

Only in this way can she find a chance of survival in the destiny announced by the goddess.

The author has something to say: Grandpa will appear in the next chapter, whether Gao is happy or not!

I don't have a black goddess, there will be a reversal in the end, after all, this is a sweet article (emphasis added).

Thank you little angel of Aeriality for the landmine, for you~

And Cecilia's nutrient solution x10, hold your face and kiss~