special stargazing

After several setbacks and persuasion, Lu Jianxing finally let go and agreed to go to the house rented by his parents after school to receive three hours of after-school homework tutoring.

In terms of learning, Lu's father and Lu's mother are quite willing to spend money, and they will hire famous teachers from key high schools in the city.In addition to the class fee, they also gave the teacher some extra subsidies in consideration of the special nature of the children, but the teacher did not accept it. Instead, they began to talk to the parents about the meaning of education.

It was only after hearing these things that Tang Han felt that the teacher was reliable, so he found Sheng Yexing again to do Lu Jianxing's ideological work.

Lu Jianxing agreed to come down, but said he still had to go back to the dormitory at night.

For him, it is extremely difficult to change the current trajectory of his life.

In order not to make Sheng Yexing worry too much, Lu Jianxing volunteered to go back to the dormitory from the rented room. Sheng Yexing also agreed, and said that it is not impossible, but this is a 10-minute journey, I will only give you 10 minutes of time.

Therefore, every night after nine o'clock, during the short distance from the rented house to the dormitory, Lu Jianxing often walked forward with his schoolbag on his back.

Sheng Yexing kept a distance of tens of meters behind and followed.

He saw the road and saw Xing walking alone. For a while, he threw his schoolbag down and rubbed against the wall, and then stopped at a place with a shaded manhole cover...

Several times, Sheng Yexing almost rushed up and hugged him.

But he didn't.

The relationship between them seems to have returned to the past. Although they are still one in front and one behind, their positions have been switched.

In the streets and alleys under the darkness of night, Sheng Yexing leaned against the corner of the brick wall stealthily, his school uniform vest rubbing ash against the wall.Occasionally, if he didn't grasp the distance well and got a little closer, Sheng Yexing had to slow down his breathing and raise his head nervously for a few seconds.Because he knew that Lu Jianxing's hearing was sharper than that of ordinary people.

The weather was cold, Sheng Yexing was covered in sweat after playing golf, and when the wind blew, he caught a cold within a few days.

"Independence" is the highest proposition Tang Han gave to the children during the education stage.

Sheng Yexing has reservations about this.

He doesn't think that "independence" is a necessary skill for an individual human being, just like his own disease, the doctor always said that it's better not to stay alone, at least there must be someone who can take medicine for him when he has an attack.

Sheng Yexing is a person who doesn't believe in evil, so he just wants to stay by himself. After a long time, he can take medicine on time, and he can find a corner to squat in a corner to reflect after the attack, until he doesn't need to take medicine all the time.

It's not that the medicine is bad, it's just that the medicine reminds him over and over again:

You are sick--

Every time he thought of this, Sheng Yexing couldn't help but thank God for not letting Lu Jianxing take medicine.

Sometimes the hand trembled uncontrollably, and those medicines would be scattered on the ground one by one.

Sheng Yexing had to lie on the ground, his vision blurred, and he searched for them one by one.

When he was twelve or thirteen years old, he searched for it. If a few grains were missing or he couldn’t pick it up because his hands were shaking, he would lie on the ground and lose his temper, wanting to cry but unable to express tears.

No matter how hard it was to endure, just smashing the cold and stiff ground with your fists and suppressing a few dull howls from your throat, it passed.

Sheng Yexing couldn't imagine what it would be like if his and Lu Jianxing's illnesses were switched.

For Lu Jianxing, "independence" is his innate skill, and it even makes him small and lonely because of his excess.

Therefore, in Sheng Yexing's mind, letting Lu Jianxing "learn to rely" is the best topic.

Love is so strange.

Let the typical solitary animal become a sticky spirit that relies on the body temperature of its kind.

After a long time, Lu Jianxing was able to leave by himself, Sheng Yexing was still worried, so he picked up people according to the time, and sometimes brought some small glutinous rice balls, octopus balls and the like.

Lu Jianxing couldn't eat while walking, so he stopped to take a bite, took a breather and continued walking, Sheng Yexing laughed so hard that he couldn't straighten up, and he had to feed the food under Lu Bingpier's "cold" eyes to the lips.

"hot!"

Seeing that Lu Jianxing was scalded, Sheng Yexing threw the glutinous rice balls stuffed with sesame seeds into the trash can, took out a tissue from Lu Jianxing's school uniform pocket, and handed it over, "I told you it was very hot, blow it on before eating , why do you open your mouth and swallow it as soon as I put it to your mouth?"

Lu Jianxing glared at him with puffed cheeks: "..."

It was just so hot that his tongue swelled when he pulled his throat.

After finishing talking about this series, Sheng Yexing realized that Lu Jianxing might not have received the "signal", he felt apologetic, and looked around, "Do you need a sip of mineral water that can cool down?"

"Ha." Lu Jianxing exhaled, jumped on the spot a few times, "hit you."

Sheng Yexing asked in surprise, "Hit me?"

After listening to Sheng Yexing's retelling, Lu Jianxing laughed a few times, his eyes brightened: "You too, learn how to speak from me."

Almost unable to keep up with the brain circuit, Sheng Yexing had no choice but to follow his meaning while walking: "Like you to speak."

"Speak!" Lu Jianxing said loudly.

He has always liked to focus on the key points from what others said. Now that Sheng Yexing has started to learn from him, Lu Jianxing still thinks it is very funny. He looked back before taking two or three steps, and stretched his arms in the streets and alleys. To hook Sheng Yexing's wrist.

The school uniform was loose, and the arms of the two were wobbly. Not many people noticed that they were actually holding each other.

Sheng Yexing let him hold hands with confidence, imitating Tang Han's tone, and said with a helpless smile: "Speak--Lu Jianxing--"

"Speak up, Lu Jianxing!" Lu Jianxing also shouted.

As if it was endless, Sheng Yexing continued to imitate Tang Han's usual way of persuading himself, and said in a low voice: "Calm down—Sheng Yexing—"

This time Lu Jianxing didn't imitate his tongue, instead he stopped abruptly and turned around, bumping straight into the chest behind him, and hugging Sheng Yexing tightly with his arms, "Vent! Don't hold back!"

Do not wrong yourself.

Nothing to be ashamed of either.

Lu Jianxing vaguely remembered that in the care manual he had copied, it was said that people like Sheng Yexing would blame themselves extremely after the seizure ended, and they would be ashamed of the sky and the earth in their hearts, and they would easily develop self-loathing after a long time.

After hearing what Lu Jianxing said, Sheng Yexing couldn't hold back his sigh.Usually, he doesn't like to let Lu Jianxing hear him sigh.

Being hugged warmly, Sheng Yexing pinched the back of Lu Jianxing's neck lightly, his hands trembling slightly, "You said if you..."

Knowing that he shouldn't continue talking, he stopped talking.

If only you weren't sick.

Lu Jianxing seemed to understand, and said "En".

On Christmas Eve, Shi Er did not hold any activities.

Picking Lu Jianxing back to the dormitory after "off work" as usual, Sheng Yexing was in a daze looking at Lu Jianxing's back practicing his calligraphy on the bed.

Because the handwriting was too crooked, Sheng Yexing thought of a way for him to use copybooks to practice, and after more than half a month, it has achieved some results.Lu Jianxing practiced extremely seriously, and fell in love with drawing a little bit.

Think about Christmas Eve last year, Lu Jianxing was still struggling to express to himself: Christmas tree, red and green, apples, gifts...

It's only been a little over a year before you can write "Happy Holidays" on a sticky note.

Christmas Eve is an "apple-eating festival" for Lu Jianxing, but he thinks that apples are not as delicious as pears, so he bought a pear and was taught a lesson by Sheng Yexing, saying that pears should not be given away casually. The moral is not good.

Lu Jianxing was too lazy to figure out what the meaning was, so he frowned, and raised his knife to peel off the pear, so scared that Sheng Yexing quickly cut the big Sydney into a beautiful shape.

The Christmas Eve in the city's second student dormitory was not as noisy as in previous years.

In the past six months, a lot of students from Class [-] and [-] of the senior high school who were in a more serious situation left one after another, each having their own destinations, and those who stayed were facing the college entrance examination again, so the whole building was much quieter.

The elementary school students in the first and second grades did not know where to move a Christmas tree to the stairs. Before the lights were turned off, they asked Sheng Yexing to go downstairs to help them hang the striped ball on the tallest branch of the tree.

After hanging the Christmas tree and returning to the dormitory, Sheng Yexing turned off all the lights in the dormitory, stood on the balcony with Lu Jianxing wrapped in a quilt, and opened the window.

They watched the bustling downstairs while eating pears.

"On Christmas Eve, Santa Claus wants to give you a gift," Sheng Yexing breathed into his ear, the heat was so hot that Lu Jianxing was itching, "Let's not sleep tonight."

"..." Lu Jianxing's ears and neck turned red predictably.

He has an unusually keen sense of smell recently, and he is like an idiot for the smells he likes. He always leans towards Sheng Yexing's neck. The more he touches, the more Sheng Yexing enjoys it. After returning to the dormitory, he jumped up, closed his eyes and smelled enough.

Lu Jianxing's expression was relaxed, his lips were icy cold, and his breath was full of urgency unique to young people, Sheng Yexing was also emotionally moved by being sniffed.

Two people often start to kiss desperately without knowing why, and then hug each other until one of them is pushed to the side of the bed and hurts.

"What do you want? Tell me," Sheng Yexing said in a deep voice, "I'll give you everything."

After being quiet for a while, Lu Jianxing didn't answer, but put his chin on his neck, breathed steadily, and was in a daze, without saying a word.

What he wants most when he grows up is "feeling".

How should he express it, how should he describe it: what I want most, in this year, you have slowly given me a little bit.

Sometimes he even wondered if Sheng Yexing was a gift from God?

Not only Sheng Yexing, but also Li Dingxi, Gu Qunshan, Zhan Fei, Teacher Tang Han, Lin Ting and other classmates and teachers, including Uncle Ming and Mama Zhang in the student dormitory, and those kind uncles and aunts on the school snack street, all Give him the courage to work hard in every detail of life.

The "feeling" was minimal, but he was aware of it.

Lu Jianxing pressed his side face tightly against Sheng Yexing's neck, and rubbed against the other's lips as if entangled, and made a "woo woo" sound in his throat, neither crying nor laughing, and his arms were scrambling behind Sheng Yexing twist up.

Whenever this happens, Sheng Yexing is both painful and happy.

He truly enjoyed Lu Jianxing's "need", but couldn't bear the throbbing pain in his heart.

Stretching out his hand to appease Lu Jianxing's strangeness, Sheng Yexing had no choice but to find something to say: "Teacher Tang Han said that it's not like you don't have the ability to empathize, so guess what I'm feeling right now?"

"Lucky, lucky." Lu Jianxing replied sullenly.

Sheng Yexing comforted him: "Well, happiness is not a 'mood'."

"I'm so happy," Lu Jianxing spoke a little faster, and said to himself, "I'm so happy!"

Sheng Yexing held his breath and asked in a low voice, "Then guess again, how do I feel now?"

"Happiness." Lu Jianxing still repeated the word.

Before Sheng Yexing could express his opinion, Lu Jianxing said again: "Because of me, I am happy."

On New Year's Eve, it snowed in the city.

The New Year's New Year's welcome party planned by the school in advance did not take place as scheduled. The students in the first and second grades returned home early, leaving the students in the third year still "staying in school" and fighting at night.

Gu Qunshan shook his head while biting his pen, saying, what kind of spirit is this in our school that won't even pass New Year's Day?

Lin Ting handed him the newly issued comprehensive essay, and said, you don't know about this, there are only seventy or eighty New Year's Days in a person's life, for your great future, what's wrong with delaying it once?You still want to go to university with your awareness, go to college.

Upon hearing this, Gu Qunshan, who had no confidence and confidence, became dissatisfied. What happened to the junior college?I think college is pretty good.

"It's pretty good," Lin Ting erased the pencil writing with an eraser, "Then you don't want to go to Jin University with us."

"Don't... I still want to take the exam," Gu Qunshan shrank his neck, "but I can't pass the exam..."

"Everyone sees that Xing'er's score has skyrocketed, so please fight for it." Lin heard.

Gu Qunshan covered his face and showed his eyes through his fingers, "Don't they all say that children with autism are geniuses? Can I compare with others?"

Lin Ting looked at Lu Jianxing, who was clearly studying hard all the time, and said in a low voice, "It's a partial generalization."

There is no real genius, it's just secretly working hard.

Those who have worked hard, God is willing to help him.

Tonight is happy to coincide with the handover of the two years, the snowflakes are over the treetops, and the vegetation is moist.

There was no one on the huge playground.

It doesn't usually snow very much in the south, but this year's snow is like a sky full of stars, falling from night to night.

In Tang Han's words, although the snow is optional, it is also a good sign.

The snow was getting heavier, Classes [-] and [-] of Senior High School were closed, a group of children couldn't sit still, they stumbled out of the classroom, rushed to the large platform on the floor and stretched out their hands to catch the snow, what's more, they raised their heads directly I poked my tongue out to taste it, and then squinted my eyes and smiled when it was iced.

Lu Jianxing is one of them.

After he tasted it, he frantically looked around for something, as if he wanted to take a basin to fetch some back.

After searching to no avail, Lu Jianxing made the palms of both hands into cups, took some snow water that was almost melted by his body temperature, returned to the classroom, and dumped the water on Sheng Yexing's desk.

The snow water was cold, and Sheng Yexing, who was sleeping, woke up suddenly, staring at the water stains on the table, and was stunned.

What is this for?

"It's snowing," Lu Jianxing sat down next to him, and gently touched his cheek, "It's snowing."

Sure enough, Lu Jianxing's actions can never be predicted.

"Is this snow? Hold it in for me?"

"what."

Only then did Sheng Yexing understand what the water was just now, and heaved a sigh of relief, "I'll accompany you to see it."

The two sneaked out from the back of the classroom, instead of going to the playground or the large platform in the corridor, they took the fire escape to the roof of the teaching building.

Probably because it is the roof, the ground of the roof has already accumulated a thin layer of white snow.

"Starry sky." Lu Jianxing said.

Sheng Yexing was stunned for a moment, then looked up when he heard the words.

They are all dark blue with a light white "light"——

Looking at the snowy night in another way, it really looks like a starry sky.

Sheng Yexing smiled and shook his head, took his hand and knelt down.

"You've been here for a year, and you haven't made any progress," Sheng Yexing said ironically, pinching Lu Jianxing's face, "You're getting cuter and cuter."

Lu Jianxing didn't realize that he was praising him, and replied dully: "Ah."

"Some time ago, from six to ten o'clock in the evening, I was not by your side. You must have overcome many difficulties by yourself...such as eating by yourself, meditating by yourself, sometimes I can't pick you up for something, and you have to rent it from your uncle and aunt. Every time I go back to the dormitory at home, I am afraid that you will be lost," Sheng Yexing said, slowing down his speech, "When the last month of training is over, I will tell our school team coach that I will stop playing."

"what."

what are you doing then

"Pick you up to and from school on time, definitely stand on the last post," Sheng Yexing stared at Lu Jianxing, "I've been doing this for a whole year."

And it's something I'll probably stick with for years to come.

After all, "study hard" is not limited to the student days, there are many things in this life that need to be continuously learned.

"Oh."

Lu Jianxing replied again, not knowing who he was answering, "Okay."

Seeing the snow on top of Sheng Yexing's head, Lu Jianxing couldn't help stretching out his paws to scoop up the prickly white. After scooping it up, he found that there was still more, smiled, pointed and said, "Like grandpa."

Because of squatting, some large objects such as water tanks and solar panels on the roof can completely block their small figures.

Sheng Yexing didn't follow Lu Jianxing's example to wipe off the white snow on the top of the opponent's head, but he was nervous. He took a deep breath and said, "Hey, do you know what marriage is?"

"Things to do when you grow up!" Lu Jianxing said.

"Then," Sheng Yexing said in a deep tone, "we will choose not to grow up."

"it is good."

"Then do you know what everyone will bless at the wedding ceremony?"

Lu Jianxing shook his head.

"I will say," Sheng Yexing's eyes softened, "We will grow old together."

Lu Jianxing only understood a "white head", suddenly his eyes were bent, the inside was shining brightly, and in a very low voice, he pointed to the tops of his and Sheng Yexing's heads, as if to say something secret: "Is...are we like this? .”

"Yes." Sheng Yexing nodded.

Lu Jianxing said "Oh", and it took a few minutes to react, and the volume of his speech became lower and lower, "But I don't want to grow up."

"Then let's talk in a low voice," Sheng Yexing almost laughed, holding back, "quietly."

After finishing speaking, he only felt the coldness on his lips.

It was when Lu Jianxing squatted and turned his head to kiss Sheng Yexing, a piece of snow fell on his lips.

Different from the inseparable and unstructured ones of the past, the kisses between teenagers were rare and gentle, as if they were really afraid of alarming someone.The kiss made Sheng Yexing want to laugh, his Adam's apple rolled several times, but he still didn't stop, he just raised his arm to support Lu Jianxing's face, and rubbed his hot earlobe with his fingertips.

They kissed each other quietly on a quiet snowy night.

After a while, the new year came.