special stargazing

In July of this year, City No. [-] only gave the third grade a ten-day vacation, and returned to school for the rest of the time.

Although it is returning to school, due to the particularity of Class [-] and [-] of the senior high school, the curriculum is not tight. Those who should play basketball play, those who should read books read, and a small group of people go to the window every day to lie on their stomachs and sunbathe. They were all exposed to the prints of the round collar of the school uniform, like wearing a chic necklace.

Lu Jian Xingguang went to pay attention to these.

The subsequent development of the fight was good. The two children were slightly injured, and they were fine after reconciling face-to-face.

On the day of the reconciliation, Tang Han even thought of a way to ask Gu Qunshan and the others to dismiss Sheng Yexing, fearing that there would be another conflict.

On that day, Lu Jianxing asked the classmate who was fighting with him to say "Sheng Yexing is not a violent maniac" in front of his class teacher and the other class teacher, and said it to Lu Jianxing himself twice "Sheng Ye Xing is sorry."

Although Sheng Yexing wasn't there.

The other party faltered and said reluctantly, and Lu Jianxing didn't feel that his attitude was not correct. He only nodded and shook hands with satisfaction after hearing what he said and thought it was okay.

When Sheng Yexing heard Tang Han talking about these things, he suffocated his laughter and said, "Teacher, I will definitely supervise him."

But what Sheng Yexing didn't know was that on the afternoon of the reconciliation, Lu Jianxing was in an exceptionally good mood, so good that he went to sit on the fence of the school roof and watched the clouds and the birds that occasionally flew by in the sky.

Lu Jianxing was so happy, coupled with his limited physical coordination, his butt almost slipped and rolled downstairs.

His Sheng Yexing almost lost him forever.

Back in the classroom, Sheng Yexing saw that there was still dust on the hem of his clothes, and asked him what happened?

Lu Jianxing didn't answer, and Sheng Yexing didn't ask any further questions, and took some scar-removing medicine from the drawer to wipe his face.

At the end of the last battle, Lu Jianxing had scars on his face, and the side of his face was always a little red near his temples.

"Look at your pretty face." Sheng Yexing applied a layer of cold transparent medicine on him, "It's all marked."

"what."

Lu Jianxing uttered a single syllable without much explanation, suddenly feeling sad lingering in his heart.

In August, a lot of flowers bloomed in the lotus pond behind the school. Li Dingxi led a group of people to see it, took a lot of photos with his mobile phone, racked his brains to post a circle of friends, and even searched the Internet for poems about lotus. In the end, he choked out the sentence "Out of the mud but not stained", and matched it with nine pictures of a very straight man.

Of course, under their instigation, Lu Jianxing also sent a friend with a picture, in a concise and concise way: Looks good!

After posting to the circle of friends, the parents called, and the words were full of joy.

Lu Jianxing was stunned for a while, unable to speak, "Mom and Dad" didn't call, and hung up the phone in a hurry, then squatted beside the lotus pond in a daze.

He watched the dragonfly skim the water, then skimmed the ends of his hair, and finally fell into summer.

Lu Jianxing remembered that before he came to Shier, he asked his mother, would there be people like me in the school?

Mom said there must be.

It was only later that Lu Jianxing realized that even if all the other 30 classmates had the same disease as him, it would be difficult for them to become friends.

The books on the desks in the classroom are getting higher and higher, Lu Jianxing is getting more and more tired from studying, and often falls asleep on the desk after a while.

"Go back to sleep at noon." Sheng Yexing touched him with his elbow, "The electric fan is turned on in the classroom, you are sweating all over, and you will catch a cold when you sleep."

Lu Jianxing pretended not to hear, grabbed the book and covered the back of his head.

"Okay, you sleep." Sitting up straight, Sheng Yexing raised his arms and used half of his body to block this corner, "I'll cover you."

Feeling sleepy, Lu Jianxing moved his eyelids, and fell asleep after a while.

If you want to blame it, you can blame Li Dingxi for commuting all the time, taking advantage of Li Dingxi's absence, Sheng Yexing would look for a way to see the stars and make a fuss, and the two of them would go crazy together before dawn, drink water and chat for a while...

It was almost dawn.

There is simply no sense of time!

However, Lu Jianxing didn't quite understand what "entering the third year of high school" meant.

It wasn't until many years later that he often thought about his high school life that he realized that it wasn't just those three years that passed away, but also the special school uniform era that belonged only to them.

A new hotpot restaurant opened at the school gate, and Sheng Yexing led his team members to run to the restaurant as soon as school was over, specially ordered mandarin ducks, and then slowly turned the bottom of the white soup pot to Lu Jianxing.

Although Lu Jianxing has emphasized many times that their family also eats hot pot, he is not afraid of spicy food, but Sheng Yexing still remembers Tang Han's instructions that "Lu Jianxing has a bad stomach", so he can only compromise to ask the boss to pour boiled water Wash it, wash it and eat it.

After eating hot pot, a group of boys cycled around the road outside the city again.

The night wind blew hot sweat onto their skin, so they obediently went back to roll their names amid Zhang Mama's scolding.

Lu Jianxing has become an adult, and Sheng Yexing has learned badly now.

After taking a shower, he never wears a shirt, and leaves the bathroom with a naked upper body, with hooked eyes, and glances at the place where Lu Jianxing is from time to time.

Lu Jianxing pretended not to read the extracurricular books seriously, his ears were already red.

Just after taking a shower, Sheng Yexing came over in a hurry, and just as he was pushing away Lu Jianxing's clothes, Lu Jianxing put his elbow on him: "Read a book."

"You have already reacted," Sheng Yexing said, "What books are you still reading?"

Who can't have a reaction!

Lu Jianxing chewed a mint-flavored candy, looked up at him, and then stuffed his extracurricular books into Sheng Yexing's arms.

"what happened?"

"Read." Crushing the candy and swallowing the scum, Lu Jianxing rubbed his eyes.

"Is your eyes uncomfortable after looking at it for too long?" Sheng Yexing asked.

Lu Jianxing didn't speak, and broke away from Sheng Yexing to grab his hand.

"Read." He repeated.

"Yes, I'll read. What have you been reading all day?"

Sheng Yexing flipped through a few pages of the book and heaved a sigh of relief secretly. This was much better than those electrical maintenance manuals Lu Jianxing read before, and the explanatory notes stuffed in the medicine box.

"Once you are hospitalized, it means that you have lost your personal freedom. I didn't know the rule of 'patients can't go out' until I came in, which made me feel like I was in prison in an instant. The time for accompanying and visiting patients There are also strict regulations①..."

After reading a few sentences, Sheng Yexing stopped reading, and put the book away after seeing the title on the cover, "About mental hospitals? Read less of these."

Lu Jianxing said, "Accompany you."

Scrambling the broken hair, Sheng Yexing showed Lu Jianxing's eyebrows, "Do you still want to stay with me in a mental hospital in the future?"

It was Lu Jianxing who answered him with a slow nod.

"I'm not that serious..." Even if I want to go, I won't bring you with me.

"Forget it, don't watch it, here are some eye drops. Be good, raise your head up," Sheng Yexing took the eye drops on the table, bent down and held Lu Jianxing's face, "I'll give you some drops, it will help you Much more comfortable."

"It's bitter." Lu Jianxing emphasized.

"Of course the medicine is bitter." Sheng Yexing said.

Every time before eyedrops were dropped, some of them would trickle down his cheeks and flow into his lips. When Lu Jianxing rolled his tongue and licked it, he could feel the unspeakable bitterness.

After carefully instilling eye drops for Lu Jianxing, Sheng Yexing was going to get some tissues for him to wipe, when he turned around, he heard Lu Jianxing shout loudly: "I'm crying! I'm crying!"

Sheng Yexing laughed and said: "This is medicine, not tears. The word crying cannot be said on the lips."

"The medicine is bitter." Lu Jianxing was very serious, the circles of his eyes were also red, "and so are the tears."

Like really cried.

Sheng Yexing turned around in a panic and picked up the book that had been set aside and flipped through it a few times indiscriminately. The pages he picked up just now had obvious creases, and Sheng Yexing flipped them back.

There are obvious traces of being soaked by some liquid at the bottom of the page, and a small piece of paper is slightly bulged.

The last paragraph of the page reads—

"In broad daylight, amidst the laughter and laughter, you are figuring out how to end it all.

It's wonderful, this feeling of being isolated from the world.

No matter who does what to you, all you experience is a sense of powerlessness like scratching the surface. "

Sheng Yexing didn't say a word, put the book beside his pillow, turned sideways to hold the road and see the stars, and said in a deep voice: "I confiscated the book for you, don't read this kind of book in the future, you know."

Lu Jianxing still stared at him, his lips turned pale: "I... borrowed from the library."

"I'll pay it back tomorrow." Sheng Yexing said.

"Okay." Lu Jianxing nodded.

The two of them had just finished talking together when there was another knock on the door of the dormitory.

For the sake of "safety", Sheng Yexing has now developed the habit of locking the door when he returns to the dormitory, and no one with the key can open it.

So Li Dingxi knocked on the door and shouted: "Boss, why did you lock the door again! Hide in the dormitory and fly..."

Gu Qunshan, who helped him carry the cake, interrupted him: "In this corridor, and in public places, you should pay attention to polite language."

"Oh...my birthday is tomorrow and I'm the oldest."

"You are an adult, and there are elementary school students in this corridor, can you be responsible to others?" Gu Qunshan supported the cake, afraid of bumping the fragile food.

Sheng Yexing opened the door, put the towel on his shoulders, and whistled at the door: "You know you're coming back today? Come in."

"Why do I feel a smell..." Gu Qunshan moved his nose.

Li Dingxi added: "The smell of hormones!"

"That's right, that's too accurate." Gu Qunshan praised him.

"Don't be poor," Sheng Yexing pulled a towel onto Gu Qunshan's back, took the cake and put it on the stool in the bedroom, raised his eyebrows and said, "Why don't you stay at home today?"

"To celebrate the [-]th anniversary of my victory over the disease!"

Sheng Yexing glanced at him: "Really?"

"Besides, you haven't won yet," Gu Qunshan added, "At most, you can contend."

"Gu Qunshan, do you really want to irritate people? It's not exactly..." Li Dingxi said, "Well, I want to live with you. Hey, I asked Qunshan to call Zhanfei Dongxia and them, did you call them?"

"It's called, it's called, the two of them went to buy spicy stew." Gu Qunshan rubbed his hands.

Sheng Yexing nodded, then stretched out his hand to flick the back of Lu Jianxing's head, and said with a loud smile, "Lu Jianxing, stop reading, it's his 19th birthday."

"...?" Lu Jianxing was stunned for a few seconds, writing still without stopping, and still said: "So fast!"

"That's right." Sheng Yexing said.

"Boss," Li Dingxi came over and gave Sheng Yexing a nudge, "Don't tease us to see Xing'er, you've made us so stupid, we just laugh when we see you. He used to be so cool."

"Isn't it okay to laugh when you see me?"

"It's not that you see me laughing, of course it's not good."

"He only laughs because he sees you being funny," Sheng Yexing pushed back, "He looks at me because he is happy to see me."

Li Dingxi lost face for a moment, poked himself two or three times in the face, and muttered: "I'm quite funny."

Sheng Yexing curled his lips, "By the way, I remembered, one day last month Zhan Fei and I were drinking in the corridor, and Lu Jianxing came over to observe for a while, guess what he said?"

"Say what?" Gu Qunshan, who was riding a stool next to him and playing mobile games, interrupted suddenly.

Sheng Yexing replied: "It is said that you are green when you mix with Zhanfei."

"Mixed together is green?" Li Dingxi said, "Hey, then am I yellow or Zhanfei is yellow?"

"Is this nonsense you, who else is yellow besides you." Gu Qunshan said.

Li Dingxi glared at Gu Qunshan, dissatisfied: "Go away, don't interfere with my judgment when I see Xing'er..."

Unexpectedly, Lu Jianxing stopped his pen while he was doing his homework, and he collected himself, and said with a very cold expression: "You, yellow!"

①: Zuodeng "I Fight Depression in a Mental Hospital"