special stargazing

In May, summer is really here.

In this season, Sheng Yexing usually plays ball and rides a bicycle while being exposed to the sun.Although he ran at a slow speed, his legs, feet and arms were still scarred from tossing.In the past when he was freshman in high school, Tang Han would urge him to go to the infirmary for disinfection and swelling, but now he can't remind him at all, so he will go.

The school curriculum is tightly arranged. In the third year of senior high school, many students who choose to go to off-campus sprint classes to make up lessons slowly "retreat" out of the campus in different time periods.

All of a sudden, the school uniforms filled with the names of all the students in the class were carried by the senior three students, and they signed them one by one.

In one morning, he wrote four or five school uniforms. In the end, he was afraid that it would affect Lu Jianxing's study, but he couldn't handle it, so he hid in the corridor of the second year of high school and leaned against the railing to blow the air.

Zhanfei's class is not far away, and he saw Sheng Yexing as soon as he left the classroom to throw out the trash.

After a while, Zhan Fei went to the vending machine downstairs to buy two bottles of carbonated drinks, saying that it was a new blueberry flavor, and he wanted to give it to Sheng Yexing to taste.

"Thank you."

Sheng Yexing took the drink, opened the can with one hand, and took a sip with his head raised.

The drink enters the throat, and the bubbles punch.

He exhaled a small breath, shaking the remaining liquid drink in the jar.

Zhanfei said, "Is it sweet now?"

"What?" Sheng Yexing came over in a daze.

"The word 'sweet'," Zhan Fei wrote to him, "is not difficult to understand."

"Sweet now," Sheng Yexing swallowed his soda after nodding his head, "The taste of blueberries is also sweet."

"Have you thought about the future?" Zhan Fei asked directly.

Sheng Yexing didn't answer, but just lowered his eyes, clutching the soda can in his hand so that it was about to deform.

"Don't pretend," Zhan Fei turned his face aside, "You and Lu Jianxing."

"Well, I've thought about it..." Sheng Yexing drew his tone, "I haven't thought about it either."

"..." Zhan Fei felt a little tight in his chest, ready to listen to his statement seriously.

Hearing that his buddies didn't answer, Sheng Yexing said slowly: "It's unrealistic to think about it, which means you haven't thought about it."

Zhan Fei nodded and asked, "Then what is the plan, what is the ideal?"

Sheng Yexing replied without hesitation: "I got admitted to the same university, and then took him to do rehabilitation."

"Can you recover?" Zhan Fei asked.

Sheng Yexing paused in raising his head, and sighed, "Not really."

"What about reality?" Zhan Fei asked again.

"Maybe I won't be able to get into college," Sheng Yexing said, "and I asked him about the future. He described it very roughly, but it probably means that when he becomes an adult, he would like to rely on his own efforts to become 'ordinary' One point, don't want to be so special."

"In this way, Lu Jianxing is not the kind who has no idea at all." Zhan Fei stood still.

"If he doesn't say anything, it doesn't mean he doesn't understand."

"What about him to you?"

Sheng Yexing wanted to nod, but he couldn't confirm it, so he had to rely on his own understanding to answer: "I'm not sure yet... It's really difficult for him to say 'Sheng Yexing, I like you'."

"I think there's something wrong with the way he looks at you."

Zhan Fei took a sip of soda, as if drinking alcohol.

Sheng Yexing lifted the bottle and touched Zhan Fei, and said with a hearty smile, "I can't hide anything from you."

"I observe carefully."

"Brothers."

Zhan Fei and Sheng Yexing clenched their fists tacitly, and the two chatted for a while, and drank the soda to the bottom.

The sunshine in May is strong and hot enough, and the fabric of the school uniform has a feeling of being touched.

Sheng Yexing reached out to catch the broken light from the treetops, his eyes drifted farther and farther until he looked at some high-rise buildings and bridges outside the campus, and then his eyes fell on the cars speeding across the road.

The outside world is big.

How much can the outside world hold them?

Sheng Yexing and Zhan Fei bumped into the empty can, and broke the silence: "That's right."

"Huh?" Zhan Fei looked at him.

"You must apply for the recruitment next year." Sheng Yexing said.

Regarding the upcoming "life fork in the road", Zhanfei did have this plan, but he didn't pay too much attention to it.

Hearing Sheng Yexing bring it up, Zhan Fei became curious instead: "Are you so caring?"

"Well, because I want to too," Sheng Yexing smiled, "but I can't make it through. Mental, physical, all aspects."

Zhan Fei took a breath, didn't ask any more questions, just took the empty can that Sheng Yexing drank, made a throwing motion and threw it into the trash can.After a while, Zhan Fei nodded, as if he had listened: "Okay."

Because of the "particularity" of the City No. [-] campus, teachers pay more attention to the development of students' lives and do not have high academic requirements.

Zhanfei's grades were not particularly good, and it was difficult to pass a single line. After listening to Sheng Yexing's advice, he began to reduce the extracurricular entertainment time. Occasionally, Gu Qunshan wanted to play basketball and couldn't get a date, and would complain in the classroom with a basketball A few words.

Lu Jianxing's ears are sharp, so he will naturally hear something. If there is something wrong, he uses his mobile phone to check it. It took several days to figure out what happened.

In the middle of the math class, Lu Jianxing would suddenly take out the lit phone from the drawer, Sheng Yexing glanced at the page, and knew that Lu Jianxing was curious about what in this world again.

"It's almost the third year of high school. You can read more books, and you can always improve your grades." Sheng Yexing smoothed the folded footer of the textbook for him, "Look, Zhan Fei has studied hard."

Lu Jianxing stared at the textbook: "Difficult."

Sheng Yexing thought he was talking about recruiting Fei, so he nodded and asked Lin Ting for notes, then raised his hand and pinched Lu Jianxing's face, "They are all treasures."

After a while of silence, Lu Jianxing choked out a sentence, "Me too."

Sheng Yexing smiled: "Of course you are."

Lu Jianxing: "..."

Seeing that Lu Bingpier was silent, Sheng Yexing switched his mobile phone to the WeChat page, and said that in the future, if you don't want to read books, you can watch news on your mobile phone more, and develop a good habit of reading.If it doesn't work, you can send me a WeChat message, even if you are in front of me, I will reply you.

Lu Jianxing ignored him, so he opened his WeChat, clicked on the dialog box with Lu Jianxing, and typed:

——You are fine in the future, just send me this emoticon package.

Sheng Yexing was shameless, and directly sent the emoticon package to Lu Jianxing.

Anyway, the words "I like you" have been said many times.

It was a very earthy WeChat emoticon package, like the kind of "middle-aged and elderly people" widely rumored on the Internet.

If you want to describe it specifically, there is a white magnolia placed next to a cup of coffee, and a sentence written in rose red floats on the picture: What are you doing, baby?

Lu Jianxing posted occasionally, but Sheng Yexing wanted to laugh every time he saw it.

Really just say it.

Suddenly one day, Sheng Yexing received another earthy emoticon package from Lu Jianxing on WeChat.

It seems to be the same series as that "What are you doing baby".

It was a bright red letter, and it said in bold blue and green letters: You are my baby.

Sheng Yexing shook his hand and replied:

——From the collection?Can you understand?

Lu Jianxing didn't reply directly, but replied with an emoji of roses folded into a heart, with the words: My heart is full of you.

The phone vibrated again, and Lu Jianxing replied:

--Um.

This "ambiguous" atmosphere continued for another week.

Sheng Yexing couldn't hold back anymore.

One is because of the scorching sun in midsummer, adolescent boys have endless hormones, and their minds are inevitably restless; the other is because he doesn't like ambiguity, he always feels that he has to open up and explain clearly if he wants to truly make his sweetheart his own. , he is down-to-earth.

He has had enough.

Back from school in the evening, Li Dingxi was not in the dormitory.

Sheng Yexing brought back the coat that had been washed in the laundry room to dry, and as soon as he entered the room, he saw Lu Jianxing squatting beside the bed, not knowing what he was doing.

In order to facilitate the entry and exit of the dormitory, and also to facilitate Zhang Ma's cleaning, Li Dingxi went to buy a shoe rack and put it at the door of the dormitory, saying that the shoes of the three of them could be placed here.Lu Jianxing often stands at the door, putting his hands on the shoelaces and grinding them bit by bit.

Sheng Yexing saw him squatting on the ground like a mushroom, walked into the house while laughing, and joked: "Lu Bingpier, have you tied up all the shoelaces in the dormitory again?"

Stopping to take a look, Sheng Yexing saw that he was holding a handful of unloaded shoelaces in his hand.

Sheng Yexing: "..."

Lu Jianxing: "Hair."

Sheng Yexing nodded, and brushed his slightly messy hair on his forehead, "The hair is quite long, I'll take you to get a haircut after school tomorrow afternoon."

As he said, he began to search in the house: "Where is the cloak that Li Dingxi bought for you online? Remember to bring it."

Every time Lu Jianxing gets a haircut, he will be yelled by the cut hair. Occasionally, his face will be covered with sweat, and he will not say "discomfort" until the barber finishes.

Lu Jianxing held a bunch of removed shoelaces, shook them, and repeated: "Hair."

With such movements, Sheng Yexing kept up with his imagination, and encouraged him: "Holding it like this, it does look a bit like hair. Whose hair do you remember? Teacher Tang Han?"

"Qi." Lu Jianxing said.

Yes, there is a girl named He Qi in the class who has waist-length hair and shakes it when she walks.In the past, when the Academic Affairs Office checked for "disheveled hair", the girl took out the rubber band that she always had with her and put it on. When the Academic Affairs Office left, she quickly let her hair loose again, saying that it was uncomfortable to tie her hair.

Sheng Yexing was a little jealous.

His Lu Bingpier actually noticed other girls?

Seeing Sheng Yexing holding a coat, Lu Jianxing's eyes flickered again.

"This dress," Lu Jianxing said, "has hugged me."

"..." Sheng Yexing blushed a little.

Lu Jianxing didn't say anything.

Sheng Yexing calmed down, and continued to stroke him pretending not to change his face: "Do you remember what clothes I was wearing the day I kissed you?"

"..."

"Uniforms."

Seeing that the other party didn't speak, Sheng Yexing said again: "Others wear school uniforms, and you and I wear couple clothes."

"..."

Lu Jianxing nodded, seemed to understand, but also didn't seem to understand.

Sheng Yexing stretched his legs and closed the bedroom door heavily, leaned over and said in a low voice, "Close your eyes."

"?" Lu Jianxing asked a question.

"Female...male, boy," Sheng Yexing made up his mouth, "The boy closes his eyes, just wants to kiss."

Lu Jianxing narrowed his eyes for an instant, his eyelashes still trembling.

Sheng Yexing almost laughed out loud, but he still had to put on a serious face and said: "Close your eyes, not squint."

Lu Jianxing still didn't close his eyes, just squinted.

"Forget it, I'll cover it up." After Sheng Yexing finished speaking, he reached out to cover Lu Jianxing's eyes, and leaned over to kiss the corner of Lu Jianxing's lips.

Lu Jianxing seemed to taste the sweetness, opened his mouth jerkyly, and let out a "huh".

His sound seemed to be cheering for Sheng Yexing, who directly pushed him to the position where Li Dingxi hung up the hammock, and kissed him again from the inside out.

Lu Bingpier's mouth was so sweet.

He seemed, really, a sweetheart.

Sheng Yexing thought about it, and glanced at the lime-flavored mouthwash that Lu Jianxing put on the table.

Lu Jianxing opened his eyes, his eyes were erratic, and he whispered: "Fireworks."

"Huh? Where?" Sheng Yexing looked towards the balcony.

It's not dark yet.

It's only seven o'clock.

"!" Lu Jianxing pointed to his eyes and closed them again.

when you kiss me.

Although I can't see anything with my eyes closed——

But I still seem to see fireworks in front of me.

Sheng Yexing recalled what his aunt said about finding a doctor in the capital, and asked cautiously, "Are you afraid if I have to leave for a few months?"

Lu Jianxing hesitated for a while, then nodded.

"Fear is an emotion, like fear of losing, fear of the night... I know you have it." Sheng Yexing said.

Even because of his physiology, he has a lot of "fear" in Lu Jianxing.

"I've grown up so much, I've never been afraid of anything." Sheng Yexing looked at him and blurted out, "But the first thing I mustered up the courage to do was to hold your hand in the corridor."

His eyes flickered, Lu Jianxing seemed to understand, and he took the initiative to spread his palm.

Sheng Yexing sighed, and chose to hold it back.

Talk to me.

Just say a few words.

For the first time, he felt that there would be many unpredictable emotions in face-to-face communication.

"You don't have to work so hard to speak and force yourself in front of me. Just be yourself." Sheng Yexing held Lu Jianxing's sweaty hand tightly, "I like you, and I will give you all my patience."

We can also figure it out together.

We can also go to the end of the road that must be passed in life together.

What you are afraid of and what I am afraid of can be overcome together.

Lu Jianxing was lowering his head, his eyes fixed on the palms of the two of them: "..."

He moved his leg.

There was a slight muffled sound when the toes touched the bed frame.

Only he himself knew that he was so excited that he almost kicked the bed.

In the past, Tang Han always told Lu Jianxing every time he tutored alone, he must not feel self-bored.

Tang Han said, so many people like you, you have to work hard to like yourself.