special stargazing

Sheng Yexing took Lu Jianxing's neatly copied notes, and couldn't describe his mood for a while.

Lu Jianxing did copy the notes to him, but he never glanced at him from the beginning to the end.

what is this?

This little autistic pupil is out of focus, sitting on the bench with his legs tilted a little anxiously, and he doesn't know what to draw aimlessly on the draft pad, so he doesn't answer no matter how you call him.

After school, Lu Jianxing was called by Tang Han to the training room for intervention treatment.

The hardware of the No. [-] Special Education School in the city is very good in all aspects, and some facilities are a bit old.The separate training room is located on the other side of the playground, hidden among the quiet trees, like a forest cabin strayed into the campus.

In order to make the later treatment more effective, Tang Han also specifically asked Sheng Yexing if he had time to observe it.

After all, they are roommates and have been together for a few days.

Sheng Yexing tied the basketball bag and yawned: "No time."

"Ye Xing," Tang Han's tone softened, "Have you been in a better mood recently?"

"Yeah." Sheng Yexing closed his eyes, his eyes were dry, "It's fine to take the medicine."

Last time, he smashed a few stools in the dormitory because he lost his temper, and couldn't suppress his voice. In a fit of anger, he locked himself in the confinement room for several days, and everyone became bored when he came out.

He also wanted to smash things in the confinement room to vent his anger. When he couldn't find anything, he smashed his fist against the wall, and the wall was covered with dust. Finally, the school doctor rushed over with a box and bandaged him. Before he could put on the bandage, Sheng Yexing said It's okay, just wait for it to bleed.

I'm comfortable bleeding.

Facing the school doctor's slightly embarrassed expression, Sheng Yexing scolded himself in his heart.

Fuck, am I a fucking pervert?

"Do you want to go back to the dormitory to rest first?" Tang Han saw that his face was not very good, and his tone softened, "The matter of Lu Jianxing...you don't have to help if you don't want to, the teacher doesn't force it. You have no obligation to say that you must help him .”

"Teacher, let me tell you the truth." Sheng Yexing had received a lot of care from Tang Han, so he could only tell the truth: "I can't cure him."

And have no energy to manage.

Tang Han tried to redeem: "But you can help him."

"I'm busy." Sheng Yexing refused again.

He understood that if he didn't reject it now, his inaction might affect Lu Jianxing's treatment in the future.

He can't do such a thankless thing that hurts others and himself.

Besides, one day I will get sick uncontrollably.

Tang Han sighed lightly.

Just as he was about to leave, Sheng Yexing suddenly said, "By the way, Mr. Tang. He's not a little sheep."

Tang Han glanced at the silent Lu Jianxing next to him, "Little sheep?"

"When you have time, you can ask Mr. Lin to teach him self-defense, so that he will be less bullied. Don't try to take advantage of it as soon as there is a fight. The gain outweighs the loss."

"Open the scoop?"

"Well, open the ladle."

After finishing speaking, Sheng Yexing turned his head and left.

Annoying... what is your own business, is this called snitching?

However, it's not that Lu Jianxing can't feel the existence of other people.Sheng Yexing lowered his head and took out the crumpled paper from his pocket.

This is the notes that Lu Jianxing copied for himself in class.

Weird.

Little autistic doesn't like to talk.

So... is it possible for him to become able to talk?Or open up to someone?You can't be so lonely all your life.

The thought of "a certain person" popped out of his mind, startling Sheng Yexing.

He folded the paper into his pocket and cursed himself secretly.

Still have pity on yourself.

Within a few minutes of entering the treatment room, the well-trained Tang Han was almost collapsed by Lu Jianxing.

She put a basketball, three plush puppies together, and added a toy cat. After posing to play basketball together, she said, "See Xing, tell me, what do you see now?"

Lu Jianxing glanced at it, spent tens of seconds digesting the teacher's question, bowed his head and wrote on the paper: basketball (orange) 1, cat (beautiful) 1, dog (beautiful) 2.

Tang Han understood that he didn't feel the "group", and he didn't think that there would be a relationship of communication and coexistence between things.

She took out three photos of little boys carrying schoolbags to school.In the three pictures, the same little boy is carrying a schoolbag and passing by the river, the garden, and the road.

Tang Han said again: "What do these three pictures say?"

After waiting for a few minutes, Lu Jianxing's eyes were cool, and his tone of voice was unwavering: "A is by the river, B is the garden, and C is the road."

Tang Han tried hard to decode: "ABC is?"

Lu Jianxing: "Three people."

"The three of them passed by different places?" Tang Han repeated, "Are they three different people?"

Lu Jianxing nodded.

He also cannot connect actions to the same person, he sees everything as an "individual".

...this awful loneliness.

Autistic patients are like this, lonely to the extreme, so they are called "children of the stars".When Tang Han heard Lu Jianxing's name for the first time, Tang Han thought it was a coincidence, but later found out that his parents changed it deliberately, saying that he hoped his son could see himself in the eyes of others.

See yourself who is no longer alone and who can enter the eyes of others.

Seeing that his brows were tightly knitted, Tang Han already put on a posture of resistance, patted him on the shoulder, and said, "Jian Xing, today's performance is already very good. Let's continue to train alone next week, shall we?"

"En." Lu Jianxing lowered his head to drink, and bit off the straw with a "click".

Letting him drink water while talking is already his limit, and the single-threaded behavior mode has taken over his living habits.Lu Jianxing is like a PC computer, which can only play games but not connect to the Internet. It is fine when playing by itself, but it will break down when it encounters a non-human machine.This computer can only concentrate on playing games, and cannot listen to music at the same time.

But he knows that he is slowly installing the "APP" on himself and learning.

The unfamiliar environment always makes Lu Jianxing feel flustered, but all his emotions are like ice sinking to the bottom of the sea, hidden unfathomably deep.

Problems with brain development do not mean mental retardation.

He is making an effort.

It was a long way back to the classroom, and he walked slowly along the corridor.The congenital handicap made him need to concentrate on seeing the road. He was afraid that if he accidentally sprained his foot, he would make jokes from his classmates.

His pride would not allow such a thing to happen.

Lu Jianxing already knew what it meant to be "laughed at", and also knew what it meant to have a strange look.

He's very sensitive about it.

After returning to the classroom to put away his schoolbag, Lu Jianxing went to the guard's reception room to get the package from his mother.

He kept a cold face and didn't speak, the guard thought he was playing cool, until he saw the "autism" on his badge, he couldn't help but say a few words.

Most people think that people with autism need to provoke and disturb less, but in fact, being patient and communicating more is the best help for them.

During school hours, the campus was crowded with people, Lu Jianxing put on his hoodie tightly, almost wanting to only show his mouth and nose to breathe.

He couldn't help thinking that when he walked with "that person" in the morning, "that person" seemed to have automatically crossed out a spacious road——

You just have to follow along.

As soon as he left the school, Li Dingxi saw Lu Jianxing walking alone from afar, left behind a group of buddies, rushed over to grab his shoulders, and shouted loudly: "My little Xingxing!"

Lu Jianxing dodged his hand subconsciously, and Li Dingxi took advantage of it in embarrassment.

He rubbed his hands together and said nervously, "Xing Xing, how can you treat your roommate like this?"

Lu Jianxing glanced at him: "..."

It's actually more like staring.

But Li Dingxi couldn't tell that Lu Jianxing didn't know how to "accept" him.

Li Dingxi patted him on the shoulder regretfully, and hugged him to express his intimacy: "Hey, forget it. You can't talk. By the way, I'm going home tonight, I..."

It was the first time that Lu Jianxing snatched someone else's words: "I, say, got it."

"Ah...you say it! Can you say a few more words?" Li Dingxi encouraged him enthusiastically.

"..."

Lu Jianxing couldn't hold back anymore.

He had already thought about what to say in his mind, but he just couldn't say it, as if he was dumb.

The mouth is completely out of the brain's control.

"It's okay, let's take it easy! Oh, yes, I want to say that Ye Xing will definitely not come back tonight. You are the only one in the dormitory. Don't be afraid. But do you know who Sheng Ye Xing is?" Li Dingxi said .

Of course!

Lu Jianxing hesitated for a while, then nodded.

"Are you afraid of being alone?" Li Dingxi said.

Little Xingxing nodded again.

Li Dingxi was just about to add fuel to the flames with some nonsense words, when his face was suddenly covered with the whole palm of his hand.

"Li Dingxi, I'll beat you up for spreading rumors about me. Never heard of it?"

Sheng Yexing pinched his face and pulled back, "I will live in the dormitory tonight. Let's go."

Li Dingxi was pinched so painfully that he screamed, covered his face and asked questions: "Boss, boss? Didn't you say that you are going to the city tonight?"

Sheng Yexing waved his hand: "No."

Now at night every day at the corner of the wall, the director of the Academic Affairs Office is waiting to pick up people, and if they jump off, they will step on the enemy soldiers.There's no need to take that risk.

"Why?" Li Dingxi scratched his head, thinking that Sheng Yexing couldn't be doing it for Lu Jianxing.

"Ask me? Want to be sliced ​​into a watermelon in the dormitory in the middle of the night?" Sheng Yexing glanced at him.

Cutting the watermelon in the middle of the night in the dormitory was cut off by a sleepwalking roommate who thought his head was a watermelon. Thinking of this, Li Dingxi was shocked and realized that his head was in danger, so he quickly shut up.

Seeing that Sheng Yexing was about to leave again, Li Dingxi couldn't hold back: "Boss, where are you going?"

"Buy food." Sheng Yexing said.

After he finished speaking, he looked at Jian Xing, who was blocked from walking, "Do you want to eat?"

It's over, I seem to have forgotten to tell the little autistic school where I can eat... From yesterday to now, how many hours has it been since I haven't eaten?

Lu Jianxing didn't speak, Sheng Yexing took it as his acquiescence.

He found out that as long as he stroked the little autistic hair, he didn't mean to find someone to open you...

That is tantamount to saying: yes.

"What to eat? My apology. I forgot to tell you where to eat." Sheng Yexing didn't know if Tang Chunhan told Lu Jianxing where to eat. He even felt that Lu Jianxing was hungry and thin.

The chin is pointed.

good looking.

Li Dingxi interrupted from the side: "Boss, you are doing something."

"Shut up," Sheng Yexing glanced at him, and repeated the question to Lu Jianxing: "What do you want to eat?"

For the remaining few minutes, neither Sheng Yexing nor Li Dingxi spoke, they held their breath and waited for Lu Jianxing to speak.

Finally, Lu Jianxing moved his fingers and choked out a small word: "Noodles."

Three liang of vegetarian pepper beef was served on the table, and Lu Jianxing picked out a bowl of clear soup and bean soup noodles and began to stir.He used his left hand for a while, and his right hand for a while, and the noodles couldn't get wrapped around the chopsticks.

Sheng Yexing was about to finish half of his meal. Seeing that he hadn't started yet, he reached out to grab the chopsticks: "I'll do it."

However, Lu Jianxing is particularly stubborn about self-care.

He dodged and held the chopsticks firmly with his left hand, and with a slightly clumsy movement, he picked up the noodles and ate them one by one.

He glanced at Sheng Yexing, as if he wanted to say: I can eat by myself.

After eating a bowl of noodles for half an hour, Sheng Yexing immersed himself in playing with his mobile phone. After finally clearing the customs, he scanned the QR code of the store, picked up Lu Jianxing, and said by his collar, "Come home with me when you're full."

Family?

Seeing Lu Jianxing's eyes puzzled, Sheng Yexing took the opportunity to pinch the back of his neck that he had "thought" for a long time, and said, "It's the dormitory. If you stay for a long time, won't you start a family?"

Lu Jianxing shook his head, not daring to talk nonsense, and followed Sheng Yexing slowly.

Walking back from the food street of the off-campus market, Sheng Yexing also discovered the fact that Lu Jianxing walked slower than others on the way, so he had to slow down.He guessed it was time for the meal, so he broke the bitter medicine and chewed it dry.

At night, there are many people outside the dormitory wall, and I don't know who will come in and bully the "crazy kids" in No. [-] Middle School.

To be honest, he would feel at ease if he put Li Dingxi alone in the dormitory, but he would not be able to change Lu Jianxing.

Could it be because Lu Jianxing is too attractive?

After returning to the dormitory, Lu Jianxing didn't pay much attention to others, he washed up obediently and went to bed, turned on the desk lamp on the bed, and put on socks to sleep.

Sheng Yexing leaned out half of his body from the bed next door, and said in a hoarse voice, "Turn off the lights."

Lu Jianxing shook his head and couldn't close it.

After being tired all day, everyone felt drowsy, Sheng Yexing was impatient, a familiar burning sensation rushed over his head, he was about to pinch his thigh to bleed, "Turn off the light."

"No." Lu Jianxing spoke suddenly.

For the first time in school, he expressed himself accurately in two words.

Instead of letting people around you guess.

Sheng Yexing clicked his tongue, "I can't sleep without turning off the lights."

Lu Jianxing just repeated: "No."

As he spoke, he sat up and covered the light with his palms, and the brightness in the room instantly weakened a lot.

Sheng Yexing was wondering how the little broken lamp could still be dimmed, and when he pulled the curtain of the bed, he saw Lu Jianxing squatting at the end of the bed with his legs crossed, looking at him with twinkling eyes...

"Forget it." Seeing his humiliation, Sheng Yexing couldn't bear it, so he put on his clothes and got out of bed, "I'm going to sleep."

There is a small hotel outside the dormitory wall where he can live, and he still has a membership card.It is not far from the bar street, so there are many couples who have sex with each other, and the sound insulation of the room is not good. It is often so noisy that Sheng Yexing can't sleep in the middle of the night.

But apart from this, Sheng Yexing enjoyed being alone there very much.

I was still quietly going through the most difficult period of onset there.

There was a loud "boom", Sheng Yexing saw Lu Jianxing almost fell off the high bed, stared at him, and grabbed a stool in his hand.

"I couldn't sleep with the light on, so I didn't mean anything against you." Sheng Yexing felt the need to explain, "Put down the stool, don't hit anyone."

He felt that if he were Li Dingxi, he would chatter Lu Jianxing Yitong to explain, and then the stool would come down towards his forehead.

Lu Jianxing put down the stool, his throat was choked and uncomfortable.

"..."

He couldn't say that the stool was actually what he wanted to block the door.He didn't want this person to go.

Seeing Sheng Yexing bent over to put on his shoes, he hurried to bed again, and extinguished his night light with a "snap".

He also didn't say that he couldn't fall asleep without turning on the light.

will be afraid.

"..." Sheng Yexing glanced at the small black ball on the bed, fell silent for a while, took off his worn shoes, and said to the opposite bunk, "Why is it closed?"

The little autistic is ignoring people again.

Sheng Yexing didn't say much, and went back to bed.

He was so exhausted that he fell silent almost as soon as he touched the pillow.

Lu Jianxing squinted his eyes in the dark and suffered from insomnia all night.

I miss home so much.